#this is likely why i spend the whole day apone after a sleep over too
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I need to be completely alone for 6 to 8 hours a day. Anymore than that and the shadow ones begin to consume me
#and that time needs to be midnless phone time#including just staring at the screen and zoning out#i hung out with my friend from 12:30 pm to 12am (and i woke up at like 11am that day anyway so id only been wake like an hour) and when they#left i wasnt about to go to sleep until like 7am because i hadnt had my designated alone timw#this is likely why i spend the whole day apone after a sleep over too#ive not really seen this problem before usually its me spending too much time alone and going insane#anyway i dont know what to tag thjs#hoepfully tumblr brings this to the right people#tumblr#shitpost#me#mental health#introverted#extroverted#wait did i lock the door#i dont know if i did#fuck#i think i did#shadow ones#the darkness#darkness#it consumes me
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Alphabet: Baker
[a/n: OOF this is a long one! A quick fyi, Iāve got a couple requests Iām working on right now :) but life has been so hectic lately and Iām so sorry I havenāt been around! If yāall want, my inbox is open for this fluff alphabet! Just send me a couple letters & a person š]
Ensign (Thomas) Baker x reader
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
Thomas is.. shy, for lack of a better term. In the beginning of your relationship, itād be soft touches, hand holding and an arm around your shoulders. Although, he shows affection in many ways, not only by touch. The smiles he sends your way are enough to melt you right there.
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
Oh oh oh! he would be like the definition of a genuine, best friend. You know he has your back and will stand by you regardless of the outcome. Thomas is a ride or die, for sure! And on how the friendship would start.. Iād have to say how it was I met my best friend. Imagine just working your job with him, just working shift after shift with him, and getting to laugh out loud with him for hours. The friendship would for sure begin on terms of similarities and small talk.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
Omg yes! Thomasā characterization just radiates purity and softness. He would absolutely love to cuddle, and often is the big spoon, but is never opposed to being the little spoon. And on some bad days, you know that he just wants to be held. Cuddling ranges from burrowing into the others sides on the couch, to hugging from behind in bed.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
YES. We can see in TURN that Thomas yearns for love, and that if heās found it, heās yours forever. Heād definitely want to settle down, if you were up for it.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
I donāt really ever see Thomas being the one to break things off unless it was a situation where he either felt he had to remove himself, or he thought something was by his doing. But, if he had to, heād do it in person and it wouldnāt be like dropping a big bomb. Youād know, and he would never lead you on in a different direction.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
Commitment is 100%! But slow on the marriage part. Of course he wants to marry you, and spend the rest of your lives together! He just isnāt the one to propose after one or two years. Give him some time. However, yāall talk about marriage a lot. Itās not something heās afraid of, itās something he just wants to cherish and not rush.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
For his like, extremely intimidating height, he is like the gentlest person. Ever. Heās got calloused hands, sure, but heās always hesitant that what heās about to do will upset you in some way. Like he says to Mary, āthere is love here, because I know what itās absence feels likeā (Iām paraphrasing pls forgive me) he is so gentle with his actions because he wants to show the love he has for you and that is it, bottom line.
Emotionally.. heās also the gentlest. He is a shoulder to cry on, a never moving pillar of support. And while you do not have to pry his feelings out of him with a crowbar, you do have to do some coaxing. He never wants to feel like a burden. Pls tell him heās the best and that heās never a burden.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
GUESS WHAT. You lucked out in the hug department! #1 form of affection FR! He does the thing where heāll hug you from behind & drops his chin on the top of your head. He loves to give hugs, but when you give him hugs... he melts. Wrap your arms around his waist and squeeze him. Tell him how pretty he is. Hugs from Thomas feel like a million bucks, with a tray of never ending affection.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
Takes him a bit. If yāall met in April, started dating in September, he might just save it for Valentines Day because heās cheesy. But, sometimes more intimate and emotional moments catch him off guard and he finds himself mumbling it to you. When youāre not around, he says it so casually youād think heās told you already. ā(y/n)? Theyāre the best, I love them.ā
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when theyāre jealous?)
About 25%. He never saw himself as āgood enoughā (his terrible childhood gave him that horrible impression) so in moments of insecurity he has tiny doubts. But it never lasts for long, because jealousy canāt ever stick in his mind for long. Once youāve both committed to the relationship? All doubts fly out the window. His bouts of jealousy never last long because he trusts you.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
OH. MY. GOODNESS-
His kisses are like,,, spectacular?? Fantastic??? Amazing!??!? Hardly a word to describe āem. Heāll kiss you just about everywhere in private, but in public itās mild. Leans down and presses his nose to your temple, and then plants the softest kiss on your cheek.
Thomas.. loves to be kisses on the nose.
HEAR ME OUT FOR JUST ONE SEC..
Can you imagine just starting to boop his nose, just to be funny. Mainly cause when he looks down at you itās funny to reach up and boop his nose.
And then, when yāall are on the couch, just sitting and chillin, you reach up and kiss the tip of his nose.
He gets weak in the knees every time.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
Heās the absolute best! Thomas gets down on his knees and will chat along with little children. Have a baby niece or nephew? Heās still as a statue holding them, but they always fall asleep in his arms every time. He is the best around children, because heās used to being surrounded by them. Being raised in an orphanage taught him to have the patience of a saint. Children just gravitate towards him, because he radiates kindness.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
Thomas is early to bed and early to rise. He prides himself on a good nights sleep to have a good day. When he sleeps in past his alarms, something is bothering him.
But on the topic of how mornings are spent.. they are full of drowsy kisses and breakfast being made and eaten together. The kitchen is the heart of the household, and thatās why mornings are so meaningful.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
While never opposed to a nice dinner or outdoors date, many nights are spent together binging tv shows and movies. (Especially during quarantine!) Iāve mentioned this before, but I HC Thomas to be a huge horror/slasher movie fan. If that isnāt your thing, donāt worry! Thomas loves all genres. Sappy rom coms, comedy, action, adventure-your pick is perfectly fine with him! He just enjoys your company, and if date night is a movie and take-out, heās over the moon about it!
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
It doesnāt take too long, per se. Many things he is open about, not knowing his mother, being raised in an orphanage.. heāll tell you these things when your relationship starts, not extremely fast. But fairly quick. Other things about his life, thatās a whole other ball park. Getting him to open up is a bit harder, but not impossible. Ā
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
It would take a really low blow to anger Thomas. I really donāt have much to say on this one. Because although he can get angry, he tryās hard to be passive in most arguments. He doesnāt want to ruin anything, so if itās a silly argument, heāll find a compromise. If itās more serious, he usually announces he needs time to think, and heāll slip away to do some.
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
Yes yes!! You will tell him your shoe size ONCE and he will remember it forever! Swear he has photographic memory. Heās so good at birthdays, anniversaries, holidays-all these little facts you share about yourself are all stored in a part of Thomasā brain.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
When you told him you loved him back. Yes, heās said it to you, but you saying it back? Or whomever says it first, maybe itās you. Doesnāt matter, because either way hearing those three words come out of your mouth is enough to send his heart into his throat. The feeling of being loved is so overwhelming. He will always use that memory as a crutch in hard times, because you both felt so vulnerable to the world yet full of absolute hope.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Not overprotective at all. Heās not overbearing, but of course if someone was being degrading or negative towards you, he wouldnāt hesitate to defend you. If you can defend yourself, heās behind you silently cheering you on.
Like mentioned before, Thomas is a rather intimidating man apon first glance. Although he has never picked any fights, heās had to dodge a few. If you defended him, heād feel his heart swell. ā(y/n), itās okay, really,ā
But heād never forget it, ever.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
About 200% and then some. He is a SWEETIE and wants to show how much he loves you!
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
Doubting. Can ruin his own day with the clouds of doubt and rampaging thoughts that take over his mind. Heās gotten much better at it, but he needs some guidance every once in a while. Be his light at the end of the tunnel, guide him home!
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
Basically at a 0% concern. Heās always considered himself average looking (and you disagree with him on that all day long!) he dresses like any man of the time, and looks absolutely handsome all the time. Call him pretty all you like, because it makes him blush. Heās not changing how he looks to impress you, because youāve made it abundantly clear you love him just the way he is.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
Oh, yes. If you were ever away from him, no matter the reason, heād feel like a piece of his heart was missing. Youāre his other half, he needs you.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
He loves everything about the wintertime, but his favorite has to be when you steal his jackets and hoodies. He finds it so endearing and downright cute.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldnāt like, either in general or in a partner?)
Lying and dishonesty.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
Heās an early riser, but heās a bit guilty of reading before bed and when he wakes up.
Although, when you both share a bed, heās curling himself around you. He canāt sleep any other way.
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Here is the next smite fanfic i believe a lot of you will enjoy this
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Nox Family Dinner
It was a warm night this Sunday, Nox was pleased that it was and was now prepping the family dinner she has planned for the past month. All was going well, the whole family was suppose to come minus Tatarus due to his responsibility of being the sole place that all evil beings must be kept for all of eternity. Out of all who are suppouse to come are her siblings Erebus and Terra, and all her children espeacially the one she rarely gets to see being polar opposites Hemera as she was the goddess of day and they could never spend anytime together as they always switched places back and forth. But since the battle of the gods broke out their duties were not of great importance anymore and were no longer bound to switch places constantly. She took one last look around the table she had just finished setting up before calling apon three of her children that she see's on a regular basis to come forth "Thanatos! Nemesis! Discordia! Come here right now!" she yelled so loud that it woke Khumbakarna from his slumber in a nearby bush. He arose from it yawning as he said "Why do you have to be so loud... Some of us are trying to sleep" Nox just looked over at him and appologized and explained it was the only way that she could get the attention of three of her children, and that she would have her son Hypnos gladly put him back to sleep when he arrived in about an hour or so. Khumbakarna nodded in agreement and said "That is understandable, i shall wait till he arrives than to rest until than i will find some grub of my own to chow down on" Nox watched as he left and heard the distant flapping of wings coming forth, she turned and saw two of the three children she called upon, Thanatos and Discordia they appeared to be in a race with each other on who could reach her first which she found quite adorable. She than looked down and saw the swiftness of her daughter Nemesis jolting towards her, all three appeared to be in a race and Nemesis like usual was in the lead as she was faster than all of her children due to the fact justice and retribution are swift. All three arrived though at the same time but it did not prevent them from bickering between each other on who won the race to mom first, Nox just had to clear her throat before all three stopped and stood in a straight line. Nox stood firm and tall infront of her children as she spoke "As you all know the rest of your siblings and your aunt and uncle are coming to supper.." before she was interupted by her son Thanatos "Is uncle Tatarus the on coming this time?" he said with glee His mother gave him a death stare and he knew it even if her eyes were covered and he immediately appologized for interupting. Nox began to speak again "No he is not, his job is too important for him to leave for a dinner and its too dangerous for us to go down there to have supper even though one of us works down there" she glared at her son agian "But as i was saying before i was interupted, that with this large amount of our family coming i expect you all to be on your best behavior espeacially you Discordia" Discordia sunk a little practically making herself shorter than her sister who was the smallest of them all, she knew she caused mischief and mayhem at the last family supper but it was her job to do so, but the fear of her mothers anger at her this time at full force made he speak the following words "I swear mother that i will not cause any problems at this family supper, for if i do you may take my prized golden apple away for a whole decade" she said with pain coming in with the last few words Nox nodded and smiled "That is what i like to hear, now all three of you go and get ready the rest of the family shall be here in thirty minutes, and if any of you are late i swear the punishment i will dish out will make a smiting from Zeus look like a simple slap on the hand" she said firm All three of them rushed off to get ready as fast as they could, as she watched all three of them run off she felt the earth move underneath her and knew that a guest was earlier as usual. She turned and greated her sister the earth itself Terra. "Ahh Terra earlier as usual, glad you could make it" she said as she embraced her sister in a hug and gawked at her beautiful dress she had on "Oh my that has to be the finest creation you have ever made Terra" Terra blushed as she answered "It isn't a creation of mine, it is a creation of uhhh friend of mine" Nox turned her head "My dear you know you can't hold secrets from your lovely sister, i tell you everything and i feel you should too" she gave her sister one big hug "Now who is the god and what is his domain?" she asked Terra smiled and said "His name is Geb he is another earth god like myself, and we met on the battlefield and just hit it off being we have so much in common" she danced around the table placing flowers "And he doesn't mind that i have children or grandchildren ethier which is perfect considering the last one ran away as soon as i mentioned my grandson's name" Nox smiled she was happy her sister was happy and finally met someone she loved, she herself hasn't held an attraction like that in a long while. But that is not because she has no love left, all her love goes towards her children as they all need it. As the full moon raised above the sky the rest of her family began to show up, after Terra came their brother Erebus, than came her sons Moros, Hypnos, Dolos, Ā Aether, Momus, The Oneiroi, and Geras. All of Nox's sons became interarcting and catching up on things as it has been a while since all of them have been together at the same time. Hypnos gave the nightmare causing Oneiroi grief because they kept waking up a bunch of the mortals he had just recently put to sleep, he also helped put Khumbakarna back to sleep and made sure to keep his brothers away from him so he could sleep softly. After all her sons arrived her few but powerful daughters showed up, first came The Moirai would kept fighting over who gets to keep the eye the longest at dinner. After them came Apate, The Hesperides, The Keres, Oizys, Philotes, Eleos, and most importantly her daughter Hemera. Once she saw Hemera she rushed over to her and grasped her in a great big hug and said "It has been too long since i have seen my child" Hemera smiled as she hugged her mother back and said softly "It has only been a hundred years mother, that is just a fraction compared to the last time" Nox let her go and smile "Yes but a hundred years away from one of my favorite daughers is too long, even a year seems like forever my child. But i am happy you made it here safely now come sit beside me at the head of the table it is almost time to eat" Nox walked with her daughter back to the table and sat her on her left side, than on her right was her son Thanatos who was just as estactic to see his sister Hemera and got up and gave her a hug. His wings causing her to laugh and giggle. Nox cleared her throat and the table that was as loud as a herd of rampaging bulls, went silent as the night that was leading this supper. She looked around and smiled as she saw almost all her family here minus one due to the importance of his job, she raised her glass and began to speak "Welcome everyone, to the first of what i hope to be of many family gatherings to come. Now i prepared a feast like no other for all of you and to celebrate the greatness of all of our jobs" she waved her hand Ā and all the lids of the trays on the table lifted off, underneath all of them was a vast majority of food that had all of them salvating at the mouth "Now a toast to all of us, and to longevity of us all" All of the table raised their glasses and clinked them together as they said in unision "To family!" Just as fast as the glasses went up they came down and everyone began to pig out on the amount of food before them, Nox couldn't help but smile at her large and unique family. Many may cosinder most of their jobs evil, but they have to do them or else the world would be imbalance. Just like herself if she was not around there would never be night nor many other gods to begin with. She grabbed some food for herself and began to eat with a smile on her face, for the first time in a long time she was at calm and truely happy. The battle had taken its toll on her but she always percevired and if it wasn't for her good friend Kali and giving her this idea she may have gone mad with anger and frustration. She grabbed Hemera's hand and smiled at her daughter one she rarely ever gets to see, Hemera smiled back at her mother and kissed her mothers hand. Nox let go and began to eat what she had on her table, and began to think of what she will plan next for her family to do, maybe a small competition of sorts since all of her children love competiting against each other to see who was the best at this or the best at that. It was always an adorable sight, seeing her children compete like children considering all of them were much much older than that. She glared up at the full moon and raised her glass to it and thanked Artemis for giving a clear and beautiful full moon for tonight. She than took a sip and placed it down than began to converse with all of her family for the first time in a long time.
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