#this is like. 50% a joke i promise i'm not in any danger to myself rn im more so just appalled at how fucking bad things have gotten for me

[boundbyshimmer]

Oh so the universe like wants me to kill myself, right? That's the message I'm getting loud and clear??

[rikiflrts]

— ꒰‧ 𝐃𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐲'𝐬 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭 𝐋𝐢𝐬𝐭 ༉‧₊˚✧

after what seemed like forever, i finally made my own prompt list! if you wish to request for the prompts that you’d like to use with a certain member, then feel free to choose any of the numbers displayed and tell me about them in the ask box (^^).

also: please be specific with the genre that you'd like to imply with your chosen prompts, thank you~ ♡

1.) "i just wanted to give you a hug"

2.) "dumbass we're lost now thanks to you!" " i already got lost in your eyes from the moment i met you but you don't see me complaining."

3.) "please don't talk to me right now, im not in the mood"

4.) "how are you so beautiful?"

5.) "my hoodie looks great on you"

6.) "how could you..."

7.) "i trusted you"

8.) "i didn't tell you to trust me."

9.) "you're leaving? just like that?"

10.) "no stop you're making me blush"

11.) "and if i am?"

12.) "just shut up and let me play with your hair"

13.) "so this is what falling in love feels like"

14.) "how are you even real..?"

15.) "are you being for real right now?"

16.) "...did you just sniff me?"

17.) "if you're that mad then why don't you just take it out on me?"

18.) "i don't mind"

19.) "you dumbass, i said i like you!"

20.) "i used to have this huge crush on you (laughs)" "used to?" "well, yeah.. i dont really like you anymore"

21.) "can i hold your hand?"

22.) "are you nervous?"

23.) "less talking, more working!"

24.) "im in love with an idiot"

25.) "but you promised me that we'd get married!!" "for the love of god, ____ we were 5 when that promise was made!"

26.) "but i still love/like you.."

27.) "this reminded me of you"

28.) "his/her/their smile is really pretty.."

29.) "just confess already!!"

30.) "you're an idiot." "yeah. your idiot."

31.) "are you even paying attention?"

32.) "does it look like i care?"

33.) "i don't really care"

34.) "it's been a while since i last smiled like this"

35.) "oh crap im starting to feel the butterflies again"

36.) "I'm scared, okay?! i can't do it"

37.) "what are you so scared of?"

38.) "im scared of falling.." "dont be, i'll catch you."

39.) "promise..?" "promise."

40.) "i guess promises really were meant to be broken."

41.) "you made a fool out of me!"

42.) "im sorry, its not you.. its me."

43.) "what about our promises??" "what about them?"

44.) "please dont go"

45.) "is/are they/he/she all you're ever going to look at?im already right in front of your attention is still focused on them/him/her."

46.) "that's it..?"

47.) "cuddle with me"

48.) "no."

49.) "his/her/their eyes were like pools; so deep. I fear that if I fall, I might never come out and reach for air."

50.) "i love spending time with you"

51.) "let's just be friends"

52.) "im sorry, im afraid of commitment"

53.) "im afraid of it too. why don't you just take this risk and overcome your fears with me?"

54.) "if its you, then i dont mind."

55.) "i love your smell"

56.) "what's that supposed to mean?"

57.) "first love really never does die huh"

58.) "hey, you look really familiar" "oh, really?" "yeah. you look like my soulmate."

59.) "if you like me so much then just marry me already"

60.) "wait i can do that?!" "your gullibility really amazes me sometimes."

61.) "are you dumb? be honest"

62.) "im not in the mood"

63.) "are you okay?"

64.) "you look horrible" "oh wow gee thanks for pointing that out sherlock"

65.) "what's in it for me?"

66.) "do you..like me?"

67.) "do you like him/her/them?"

68.) "but i wrote you letters.."

69.) "they mean nothing to me."

70.) "wow! i haven't seen you in ages, how have you been?" "we literally just saw each other 5 hours ago."

71.) "wipe that smirk off your face, its annoying"

72.) "aww, why? are you perhaps threatened that you'll end up falling for me?"

73.) "i think im going to puke"

74.) "are you blushing?"

75.) "aren't you tired of comstantly running in my mind?"

76.) "i can't get him/her/them out of my head"

77.) "your laugh sounds really pretty"

78.) "i love how your eyes sparkle whenever you're invested in something"

79.) "im falling"

80.) "oh no im catching feelings"

81.) "do you ever stop talking?"

82.) "let me get that for you"

83.) "its okay, i can pay for myself" "no. i wont let you" "but i have my own mone-" "shut up and let me spoil you!"

84.) "i refuse to stay in the same room with the likes of him/her/them!"

86.) "it was pretty obvious.."

87.) "come here."

88.) "stop doing that to yourself!"

89.) "you deserve better."

90.) "just leave. i dont want to see your face anymore."

91.) "i hate you." "the feeling's mutual."

92.) "didn't i tell you to leave me alone?!"

93.) "was it so wrong to love you..?"

94.) "if you really love me then just stay away from my sight."

95.) "you feel like home"

96.) "i love hugging you, it makes me feel safe"

97.) "i could kiss you right now!" "you're very welcome to do it."

98.) "i can't keep playing pretend"

99.) "let's put an end to this.."

100.) "i think im actually catching feelings"

101.) "this is getting dangerous.."

102.) "give me another chance"

103.) "give me one reason why i shouldnt leave."

104.) "im going to do it! im finally going to confess to him/her/them!"

105.) "you've got to be kidding me.."

106.) "i knew what i signed up for. im not surprised."

107.) "he/she/they has/have stars in his/her/their eyes and im captivated"

108.) "i love you" "nice try, but im not falling for that"

109.) "is it that hard to fall in love with me?!"

110.) "well if you put it that way, then yes."

111.) "you look happy"

112.) "you look happier without me."

113.) "can you guys please change the dare"

114.) "who gave you the right to toy around with my emotions like that?!"

115.) "i got played.."

116.) "stay out of my sight."

117.) "you're an eyesore" "you're an eye candy"

118.) "why are you still here?"

119.) "why..?"

120.) "stop making fun of me!" "make me."

121.) "was i just some kind of sick joke to you?"

122.) " i really like you "

123.) "i don't know how to express my feelings that well but i just want you to know that i'd take a bullet for you"

124.) "i'd do anything just to see you smile like that again"

125.) "what are you staring at?"

126.) "i think i have a crush on you" "you think? you're not even sure?"

127.) "take my hand"

128.) "let's get out of here."

129.) "you should wear my clothes more often"

130.) "i can teach you how"

131.) "I'm here for you"

132.) "you can use me to forget about him/her/them"

133.) "even if the world turns againt us, as long as we have each other, then we'll be alright."

134.) "you're all that i need"

135.) "you're all that i ever wanted"

136.) "you're all that i have"

137.) "please don't leave me"

138.) "I'm sorry."

139.) "look at me."

140.) "look at me and tell me that you don't love me anymore."

141.) "you're an idiot."

142.) "i don't love you anymore."

143.) "did you just drink from my cup?" "and if i did?"

144.) "im going to kill you!" "you don't scare me"

145.) "stay with me a little longer"

146.) "i knew it.."

147.) "i should've known.."

148.) "are you jealous?"

149.) "i made you a playlist"

150.) "when will you ever look my way..?"

151.) "im fine with looking at him/her/them from afar"

152.) "he's/she's/they're out of my league"

151.) "im scared of getting rejected"

152.) "back to square one"

153.) "I'm tired"

154.) "what do you like about me?"

154.) "i'd rather starve than spend time with him/her/them."

155.) "if i'm an idiot, then you're a coward"

156.) "i dreamt about you last night"

157.) "it was a nightmare"

158.) "it's the little things that he/she/they do/does that drive me insane"

159.) "i like you more than i should"

160.) "be mine"

161.) "it was too good to be true.."

162.) "i had a crush on him/her/them"

163.) "i never really thought that i'd end up falling for you"

164.) "you're adorable"

165.) "you mean the world to me"

166.) "you meant the world to me"

167.) "what happened in the past stays in the past"

168.) "careful, you might end up falling for me"

169.) "very funny, mister lover boy"

170.) "lets go out on a date"

171.) "i'm so lucky to have you"

172.) "where are you going?"

173.) "sometimes it really just gotta be like that"

174.) "hello good afternoon, what's your order?" "hell- oh wow.. you please" "im sorry, could you say that again?" "wait no! i meant- uh..oh dear.."

175.) "he's too good for me"

176.) "stop giving me mixed signals"

177.) "i guess it really just wasn't meant to be"

178.) "im not interested in you"

179.) "i cant get him/her/them out of my head"

180.) "where is/are he/she/they?"

181.) "you took my pillow so im going to use you as a pillow"

182.) "why are you avoiding me?"

183.) "did i do something wrong?"

184.) "please talk to me"

185.) "im not even his/her/their ideal type"

186.) "it wouldn't hurt to try"

187.) "you smell like me"

188.) "i like my scent on you"

189.) "that sounds weird if you put it that way"

190.) "can i call you tonight?"

191.) "you should smile more often"

192.) "i hate it when people tell me what to do"

193.) "lets wear matching outfits!"

194.) "im arresting you." "why? i didnt do anything wrong" "yes you did, you stole my heart and i want justice!"

195.) "i guess i got too caught up with my fatasies to notice that he/she/they never really liked me back in the first place.."

196.) "you're the answer to all my prayers"

198.) "you should go home."

199.) "let me come with you"

200.) "run away with me"

last updated: 12/30/20

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[guigz1-coldwar]

'Breakdown': New chapter for "Redemption in a Spirit in a Cold War" is out !

"Breakdown"

"I don't want to be alone!"

Chapter Summary: Precautions have to be made from Yirina, Park & Zasha after the assassination attempt on Portnova at the University of London and by trying to find more about something, a little thing caused great troubles for Yirina...

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It was a surprise...yeah, we could say that, but no one was expecting this to happen and obviously, no one was even thinking of it at each second when we stepped out of the apartment to pay a visit to Portnova & attend one of her maths lecture. Who was going to pretend that there was a Perseus agent in the university who would hurt Portnova? No one and by luck, I was the one to find out about it, having left the class for some air but quickly returned inside just after that guy nudged me without apologizing.

Thankfully, we avoided the assassination attempt that 'Bellamy' was going to do on Portnova despite not been able to catch him to know more. With that, we got no choices but to leave the university along with Portnova who had to cancel her class, get myself & Portnova heal at the university nursery as the guy made my nose bleed and once it was done, we took the bus to get to the only place we needed to go right now and even if we weren't going to work today, things changed...our destination was Century House itself.

We arrived at the place 20 minutes after we failed to catch this Bellamy Petrov in the restrooms, going directly right into mine & Park's office with Zasha & Portnova to discuss the events and what we could do.

"Fuck, we got lucky that we decided to see Yiri today," Zasha was the first to talk once we were all four in the office. "No one couldn't know but...shit, you're okay?" They asked, looking at Portnova who was directly going to sit one of the chairs in front of Park's desk.

"Yeah, it's just that headbutt that guy did to me, it still hurt," Portnova replied, her left hand holding her head on the side as Zasha was putting their hands on her shoulder.

"I still feel it too, he wasn't joking at all," I stated, closing the door behind me as I was the last one to enter the office. "But now, that's meaning a lot of things: Perseus agents are here and they know that you're alive," I added, moving to lean against my desk.

"Do you think that Lukas Ritter and that I.B arrived in town?" Park questioned, looking at me as she was behind her desk, ready to sit on her chair.

"I don't know but if Perseus agents are in London, that can prove that they either already here or they will be coming soon," I responded to her, giving my theories about the situation to her. "Right now, we have to think about what we could do," I continued, crossing my arms and looking down at the ground.

"Now that Perseus knows well of my status, I think that things are going to change, I presume?" She presumed and I, Park & Zasha nodded to her in a few seconds after looking at each other.

"At first, I don't think that you will be able to return making your classes, it's too dangerous," Zasha spoke up, sounding to protect Portnova at all costs.

"Yes, it's too risky to let you doing this while Perseus is still around," Park followed Zasha's idea as I was thinking the same about it, it was too dangerous for her. "You'll have to either stay hidden or having to join us temporarily in the MI6 until the situation is safer for you," She proposed to Portnova.

"Uhm...not sure that staying hidden is a good idea," I heard Portnova muffling in a low voice as her right hand was in front of her lips.

"Wait, you want to work with us for the moment but..."

"Zed, we both know the risk about it," Portnova gently cut Zasha in their words, looking at them with a little grin. "And besides, I know how to defend myself, I was KGB, remember?" She continued, seeing resistance on her face as if she wanted to make a little laugh but the situation wasn't funny in fact.

"Zasha, she's right, she has to work with us, she will be safer here," I joined Portnova on it, knowing that she was safe around these walls, "And she could join your cryptographer team for the time being," I told them, making a small smile on my face to them.

"Fuck, yeah, you're all right," Zasha muttered to us, putting their arms on the chair armrests, sounding almost in defeat to acknowledge the truth to let Portnova work in the MI6. "But it's only temporary, I don't want her to get hurt," They insisted on that part.

"Of course, it's just for the moment, the MI6 will find a way to make the situation get better for us," Park affirmed to them, sitting on the chair, going comfy inside of it as if her day exhausting, "As for now, Portnova will be working with us, that's the best thing we can do," She confirmed, followed by nodding from me, Zasha & Portnova.

"And what now?" Zasha demanded, looking at me & Park

"We're not supposed to be here but I think that we will try to get ourselves to work for the few hours in front of us before going back to the apartment," I responded to them, moving away from my desk, taking the occasion to put back a file that I mistakenly fall when I sit on the desk. "To see if we don't have any major news from the others," I clarified.

"Good," Park breathed, passing her hands through her black hair before taking another deep breath, "Portnova, Zasha, you should go see your team for the few hours we got, we'll try to see you from time to time," She suggested to them, causing the two to go up from their seats.

"Fine," Zasha said in a low voice, gesturing at us before they start to walk away with Portnova out of the office, me opening the door for the two and once they were out, I closed the door,

"As I said, we got to get to work even if we're not supposed to work today," I mumbled about it, keeping my hands on the door handle of the office. "And...well, where to start?" I asked Park who only raised her shoulder to me.

"Honestly, I don't know a goddamn clue, Yirina," She replied to me, adding to her raising shoulders and looking at the paperwork on her desk. "We've been looking through everything and there's nothing new except what happened today,"

"We can try to look up about this Bellamy, maybe finding something on him in the files," I proposed, my eyes on her desk before looking at mine, seeing the paperwork on it. "It's sure that this guy is maybe mentioned on them,"

"That's something that could help us, good thinking, Yiri," Park complimented, taking in her hands, a pile of files about Perseus and putting it right in front of her, "We should get started on this now," She said and I nodded, moving to sit at my desk to do the same thing as her.

And it was my day all over again...looking through every one of the files that were on my desk wasn't going to be an easy task but if we could find anything about this Bellamy, it could help us by a lot to learn about him even if it's something small, it's still something to know. As Park's files on her desk were mostly about Perseus's recent operations across the globe from 1970 to now, including the things that we took down in the early months, I had the eldest ones with me.

The first operations of the Perseus Collective did in their existence going from 1944...to 1970. The attempt to steal the American nuclear secrets in Los Alamos, some little operations during the '50s before the big attempt in 1968 to steal an American nuclear bomb in the Vietnam War...during 'Fracture Jaw'. Seeing that name on a file, looking up at the reports written by the CIA, recognizing Adler's handwriting on it...it was like seeing myself back into that helicopter, Badger 9-1 with Adler & Sims, M16 in hands.

"You & Sims are making a pretty good team,"

"The bodies I'm looking at aren't seeming Vietnamese to me,"

"Shit, we're going down!"

"At least, the nuke didn't blow off!"

Sentences in my head, hearing those through flashbacks in my brain more I was looking at this file in front of me and it was giving a damn headache as if a fight was going on inside of me and in an instant, I literally threw the file away from my desk in anger, impossible for me to look at it one more second because it was fake but feeling so real that it was making me angry to tell myself that...Vietnam wasn't really for me, I never did it...but Adler forced me to think in that way...

"You're okay?" Park asked me, worried in her voice as I put my head inside the palm of my hands.

"No, why should I be okay?" I asked her back in a low voice, slowly turning my head towards her, seeing her getting up from her seat to grab the file on the ground. "No, don't put it back, keep it," I ordered, shaking my head to her.

"Why..." She started before she looked at the file closely, discovering what the file was about, "Fuck, I didn't know that,"

"Don't think that it was a good idea to give me back the old files," I exclaimed, putting my hands back on the desk, palm against it. "Even if I managed to get over it, there's still something to make me do a step back," I stated, looking at Park whose eyes were still on the file. "It will be continuing until I'm done to fight against Perseus and try to forget Adler off my life,"

"I know but I'm here for always," Park reassured me, putting the file on her desk before looking back at me.

"Yes, I know...I know that you're always here for me and the same for me," I whispered, knowing well of our love and our promises...promises that are very important to me. "What a life..." I spoke to myself, my eyes drifting on my desk at the other files that I didn't check, having found nothing about this Bellamy.

"I'm sorry, Yiri, I'm sorry," Park apologized in a low & sad voice, already feeling that she was talking about what she did.

"No, please, don't talk about it, it's breaking me to think about it," I advised her, looking away from her, not in shame but to hide the upcoming tears off my face in case. "Even if you did it because it was the only way or because you were forced, I don't care, I still love you...I love you," I affirmed to her, telling her the truth about it as I never told it to her directly. "I just don't care because I love you, that's it," I added, starting to feel a tear on my left eye.

"I...I...I'm sorry," She insisted despite the loss of words in her, causing me to close my eyes, the tears falling them, making me want to leave the office to be alone.

"I need to wash my face, I need to be alone," I told her in a clear & sad voice, getting up from my chair in an instant to leave the office.

I didn't look behind me to make sure that she wasn't going to follow me behind as I was leaving the office to get to the bathroom, not even looking up to see the others in the eyes as if I was afraid of everyone around me, as if I was again a whole stranger in London. I walked, heads down to reach the bathroom which was, hopefully, empty of anyone inside, no one inside the toilets or near the sinks.

The first thing to do...was to pass some water on my face, that was looking all-white through the mirror, surely because of what this file about Fracture Jaw makes me think about again and thinking that water could help me destress a bit but each time I was checking myself, my face was still looking the same, prompting me to put more water on my face, keeping the sink on, passing my hands through the water coming down, cooling my hands and passing them through my face.

It wasn't helping me at all: I was still feeling dizzy & weak right now in this restroom, my head hurting me as if someone was playing loud music in my ears, like torture to me and causing me to put my hands above them to cut it out but it was useless, the 'music' was inside of my head... music that was torturing me before it stopped like that, with nothing else...until I heard him...the man that did all of this...

"Bell, we have a job to do."

"No...no...no." I covered up my ears again, my ears starting to ring as if there were bells inside my ears and my voice wasn't angry at all, I was like pleading with him to stop but I was still hearing him again, saying that phrase. "Stop...please, stop!" I ordered, looking down at my feet as my tears were going to drop for good from my eyes and I was only seeing myself as weak...more broken than before...

"Bell, we have a job to do."

"Stop, stop." I started to cry in the bathroom, impossible for me to control the tears coming out and everything else, there was nothing to stop me now, my only thing to do was to enter one of the toilets, lock down the door and then, sit down on the ground, releasing every fiber of tears out of my body, lamenting myself for what I am...and what I've been through...I can't control things myself now...just crying...alone...

I closed my eyes, suddenly finding myself...back on that cliffside but everything was looking so different from the last times I was here in my head: it was just me...wearing the uniform I was wearing that day in Solovetsky and...Adler in front of me, looking away on the horizon, realizing that I was 'Bell' and no longer a simple spectator of the scene...I was reliving that scene again as one of its actors...

"Heroes has to make sacrifices and I'm asking you for one more," Adler started, throwing his cigarette in the sea before making a step in front of him. "I hope you understand..." He stopped himself to half-turn to me, seeing his right hand surely grabbing his gun and I was going to do the same...before discovering that...I didn't have any gun with me at all, not even a pistol or a knife.

"No..." I whispered, checking myself before Adler turned his head around me.

"It was never personal!" He exclaimed as he started to draw his gun at me, but I wouldn't let him do what he wanted to do, causing me to try to grab his gun off his hand, starting a close fight with him. "You're trying but you can't resist, Bell!" He bragged himself, a smile on his face as he was slowly getting the advantage on me, his gun, aiming slowly towards my face.

"I'm not a loose end," I affirmed to him, managing to knee kick him right in the guts with my right knee, making him step behind, almost close to falling down the cliff but he somehow succeeded to hold off as I was going back to charge at him.

"That's what you're thinking, not me," He said to me before doing an uppercut right below my chin with his left fist, sending me to fly on my back behind me.

"I'm not an asset, I'm..." I wanted to clarify myself with him while getting up but then, I heard & saw 3 gunshots, the time stopping before I looked down at my chest...3 bullet holes...at the same place that Arash Kadivar shot me. "No..." I whispered again before falling on my knees, my body wanting to give, seeing Adler staying up & looking at me with disapproval.

"Bell...always obstinate to think about yourself...what a shame..." He told me, shaking his head and biting his lips before he looks at his pistol in his hands. "When I tell you to make a sacrifice, you comply, end of the story," He added before he pushed me with his hands on my back, impossible to move anymore, only seeing the blue skies.

"You...you could have...give me...a chance..." I tried to speak up but that pain in my chest, the wounds...it was giving me too much strength to speak and trying to hold on. "I gave you...all I had..." I confessed in a low voice but his face was staying as before...untouched by my words

"You do...and now, you're useless, like a loose end," He admitted, sitting down near me before he put his hands inside one of my pockets, knowing what he wanted to take...

"No..please..." I pleaded with him, trying to move my hands but he put his right hand above mine, his other hand in my pocket.

"Ssshh, let me talk," He ordered in a clear voice, getting out of my pocket, Park's picture...the one she gave me. "Very stupid, she thought she could save you but I couldn't let it happen," He revealed as I was hopeless, not able to move to avoid him getting away like that, "I could have made one stone, two birds but I'm not a fan of happy endings," He continued, taking the picture towards the blood that was getting out of my chest.

"Park..." I whispered, seeing him passing the picture on my blood, soaking the picture.

"Loyal to the Crown...and Bell, pathetic from her," He sniffed about, having in his hands the bloodied picture of Park before he throws it away in the sea. "You need to die alone, everyone will forget you, everyone, you were just a pawn, a loose end," He claimed before he got up from his spot back on his feet. "You don't even deserve a goodbye from me," He added before he starts to walk away from me.

"Adler...come back..." I ordered him but my voice was so low that he couldn't hear me, seeing him disappearing in the path to get here, leaving me all alone in that cliffside, the only thing I was seeing was the blue sky and its cloud, hearing the birds around and crying to be alone...wounded...dying...alone...

"I don't want to be alone."

"I don't want to be alone," I repeated to myself as I opened back my eyes, finding myself still crying in the toilet on the ground, hands around my head, crying alone, still releasing my tears out of my body until I heard loud knocks at the door of the toilet.

"Yirina, open up, it's me!" It was Park's muffled voice behind the door as she was still knocking on it.

"Park...Park!" I moved quickly to unlock the door for her before I opened it and I saw her, standing up in front of me but her presence couldn't help me to calm down, still crying. "Park!" I cried, looking at her with the saddest look I could do.

"I'm here, I'm here," She kneeled at me, wrapping her arms around my shoulders and putting my head against her chest, her voice sounding sad...bad...mostly sad to see me like that. "Yiri, I'm here for you, I'm sorry," She said, trying to reassure me but it was useless, my tears still falling out of my eyes.

"I don't want to be alone, please," I pleaded with her, my voice filled with sadness, my hands going around her to hug her, wanting to keep her with me. "Park, don't let me down...don't let me...down..." I told her, breaking down for good.

"I'm here, I will never let you down, never!" She affirmed in a clear voice, feeling one of her hands passing through my hair on the top of it. "I'm so sorry, Yiri," She apologized, feeling her voice breaking down before I could feel a tear, on the top of my head, she was crying too now...

"Yiri, I swore it, I will never leave you alone...never alone,"

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Fraze

Ali: [as mentioned, starting when they lowkey think Joe might be killing himself so yeah] Ali: where are you? Ali: you need to come back Fraze: Pub Fraze: What's wrong? Ali: it's Joe Ali: something's wrong Fraze: How wrong, like you can't get hold of him or he's bleeding out on the kitchen floor? Ali: for fuck sake Ali: [is gone 'cos on phone to him now] Fraze: Ali? What the fuck Ali: it's fine Ali: well no it isn't but Ali: we're not in immediate danger now, I got hold of him Ali: I don't know where to start, like Fraze: Start with what happened first Fraze: Fucking hell Ali: don't fucking hell me where the fuck are you Fraze: I'm on my way Fraze: Do you wanna fucking drive Ali: Obviously Ali: beside the point Ali: fuck Ali: right Ali: he's gone home Ali: back Ali: whatever Fraze: 'Course he has Fraze: And? Ali: and before he went he asked me where he could get drugs Fraze: Real funny, kid Fraze: You had me going there, alright Ali: oh yeah Ali: it's the craic this Ali: I'm being serious Fraze: So what did he want? Ali: well if you thought that was a joke Ali: seriously, I've got no reason to lie Ali: so the dealer I sent him to got back to me and said he wanted heroin Ali: he doesn't have that shit so he didn't get any but Ali: that's what he said Ali: took 50 benzos instead Fraze: Bullshit Fraze: What's this dealers reason to lie? Ali: believe me I've being trying to think of one Ali: but I can't Ali: I dunno what to do Ali: he looked really sick before he went Ali: then when he came back he was half asleep basically Ali: lucky he didn't crash Fraze: What's his name, I'll ask him myself Ali: he's a kid, you can't do nothing Fraze: Don't tell me what I can do Fraze: You're a kid Ali: okay so go beat up a child Ali: Joes already scared him shitless so you're a bit late Fraze: Not trying to scare him, I'm trying to get the truth like Ali: why's he gonna tell you not me Ali: what are we gonna do Fraze: 'Cause I'll hurt him if he don't Fraze: Will you? Ali: obviously Ali: it isn't something to fucking lie about Ali: literally why, who would Fraze: How would I know, I don't fucking know him Ali: he's just a kid from school Fraze: So what do you care if I have a word with him? Ali: 'cos you're not gonna are you Ali: if you promise not to be a dick I'll tell you but I'm not fucking sending more trouble his way Fraze: I'm not gonna be a dick Fraze: Fuck that Ali: at any rate he admitted having all those benzos 'cos I just rang him Ali: I thought he might be you know Ali: trying to off himself or something Fraze: Nah Fraze: Joe wouldn't Ali: well I didn't think he'd do hard drugs either but apparently so Ali: what was I meant to do Fraze: Don't Ali: just ignore it then yeah Fraze: At least I can keep my mouth shut Fraze: Shit sticks Fraze: You want everyone hearing that bullshit, yeah? Fraze: Which is what it fucking is Ali: if he turned up dead, I don't think I'd give a fuck Ali: seriously Ali: I'm only telling you because I can't tell mum or dad Fraze: I said don't Fraze: If you're so sure he's that fucked, tell 'em Fraze: You won't 'cause he ain't Ali: I'm not sure of anything Ali: if you reckon you know him so well still then be helpful and sort it Fraze: I'd know if he was a fucking junkie Fraze: Jesus Ali: how Ali: you barely even look at each other never mind talk Ali: he hasn't been back for ages before this Fraze: 'Cause he's my brother, alright Fraze: Fuck Fraze: And it ain't something you can hide, even if this family Fraze: in* Ali: he isn't just yours Ali: look, I hope I'm wrong Ali: and it's some fucked misunderstanding but we have to check Ali: I can't just pretend I didn't see what I saw Ali: or get told what I did Fraze: I'll sort it Ali: alright Fraze: It will be Ali: yeah Fraze: You've got my word Fraze: Is there anything else? Ali: I don't think so Ali: just do what you can Ali: and tell me when you do Fraze: Yeah Ali: I mean it Ali: you never tell me anything Fraze: I'll swear it if you don't fucking trust me, like Fraze: Christ Ali: alright Ali: I believe you Fraze: Good Fraze: I'll handle this Fraze: Don't worry about it, yeah? Ali: bit of an ask but Ali: least we know he's on a plane not on a ledge Ali: I guess Fraze: Too soon, kid Fraze: we're all on a fucking ledge here Ali: since when has dark humour been off the table Ali: boy Fraze: Since I fucking said don't Fraze: And I'm bigger & uglier than you are Fraze: Go take your mind off this Fraze: But leave your little dealer boyfriend alone Ali: neither is anything to brag about Ali: at best your height proves ma had an affair with like a swedish model or something idk Ali: be awkward if we all show up Ali: think it's a really badly run sting operation Fraze: I've earned plenty of bragging rights if you wanna go there Fraze: And bullshit could Ma pull a Swedish model Ali: 🙄 let's not Ali: and rude Ali: dad's alright, like Fraze: Just 'cause you look like her don't get in a mard about it, like Fraze: She's well more frigid Ali: shut up Ali: I do not Fraze: Whatever you say, Alison Ali: you really wanna go there, Frazier Ali: should have a trust fund to go with that name Ali: I'd complain Fraze: I don't need to be handed their cash Fraze: I'll make my own Fraze: But cheers for the thought Ali: sensible Ali: they've not got none so Ali: long time with your cup out Fraze: Don't I fucking know it Fraze: Every cunt tried to snatch that cup back in the day Ali: look at us now eh Fraze: 🍀 Ali: I'm off out then Ali: won't do any hard with a capital H drugs Ali: pinky promise Fraze: I mean it, give that lad a wide berth Ali: he didn't dose Joe, you know Fraze: We ain't talking about Joe Fraze: Do as you're told once Ali: did you envision that working at all or Fraze: If we have to have this conversation again Fraze: I ain't gonna be as nice about it Fraze: To him or you Ali: I've got next to no interest in heroin Ali: tah for the concern though Ali: I'm good Fraze: Off you fuck then Fraze: Get out of my face, like Fraze: Shit to do Ali: 👍 Ali: keep me posted Fraze: Don't start nagging me Fraze: I said I would Ali: lol that's rich Ali: but okay then Fraze: Have a good one Ali: cheers

[aphroditeurl]

If I'm doing all the asks then so are you.

>.> fineeee

1. If you didn’t have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time?

Play video games, I’m not gonna lie about that. 

2. What’s your favourite piece of clothing you own/owned?

I have a black dress I bought for myself a couple years ago that makes me look like a badass Bond villain. And I look sexy as all hell in it. 

3. What hobby would you get into if time and money weren’t an issue?

I want to make custom dolls idk

4. What would your perfect room look like?

PINK i’m a fucking girly girl

5. How often do you play sports?

Never...I am not into sports. Watching others though is fun

6. What fictional place would you most like to go?

Diagon Alley

7. What job would you be terrible at?

Anything involving math. So I would make an awful accountant.

8. If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport, what would you have a good chance at winning medal for?

Being sick apparently...nah I’m pretty good at graphic design I think

9. When was the last time you climbed a tree?

I am afraid of heights so never

10. What is the most annoying habit other people have?

loud chewing, I will want to murder you I Promise

11. What job do you think you’d be good at?

Anything with animals, I have a passion for them

12. What skill would you like to master?

A different language. Being bi-lingual would be cool. I hate English. 

13. What would be the most amazing adventure to go on?

Oh fuck I want to travel. Even to places considered “dangerous”. I want to go everywhere, I have A NEED. I’m a sucker for those exploration videos on youtube. 

14. If you had unlimited funds to build a house that you would live in for the rest of your life, what would the finished house look like?

Firstly it would be a beach house because I love water and beaches. Secondly, it’d have at least four bedrooms, maybe six. And a full sized basement. I want it to look Magical As Fuck. For reasons. There will be an aquarium in it.

15. What’s your favourite drink?

Coke. The drink.

16. What state or country do you never want to go back to?

I miss Michigan a lot. I loved it there. 

17. What songs have you completely memorized?

A lot?? too vague

18. What game or movie universe would you most like to live in?

STARDEW VALLEY. Sustainable farming is sexy. 

19. What do you consider to be your best friend?

@sedris-the-meme-king

20. Are you usually early or late?

Early. Like twenty minutes early. Anxiety fuels me.

21. What pets did you have while you were growing up?

A lot of cats, a few dogs, hamsters, and a couple bunnies. I love animals.

22. When people come to you for help, what do they usually want help with?

Relationship advice

23. What takes up too much of your time?

Depression 

24. What do you wish you knew more about?

Space law. Which is weird. The concept of space really scares me but it’s also a little fascinating. 

25. What would be your first question after waking up from being cryogenically frozen for 100 years?

“is my cat ok?”

26. What are some small things that make your day better? 

Getting random texts from ppl. 

27. Who’s your go to band or artist when you cannot decide on something to listen to?

Rihanna or Halsey 

28. What’s the best way to start the day?

By sleeping in a little longer

29. What shows are you into?

Anything that’s paranormal, pretty much anything on TLC, Gordon Ramsey is Good

30. Who has impressed you most with what they’ve accomplished?

@floating-in-the-dark for being a good bean 

31. What age do you wish you could permanently be?

18. That was a fun age dude. 

32. What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch?

13 Reasons Why, Game of Thrones, I’m petty 

33. What would be your ideal way to spent the weekend?

Video games, ice cream, kissing, things of that nature, maybe going to the movies, exploring a haunted abandoned hospital, casual things you know

34. What is something that is considered a luxury, but you don’t think you could live without?

My phone

35. What’s your claim to fame?

Idk what this means???

36. What’s something you like to do the old-fashioned way?

Dating. I’m sort of a cliche geek ok. 

37. What’s your favourite genre of book or movie?

Horror for movie and fantasy for books

38. What have you only recently formed an opinion about?

God phoning. Non-pagans won’t get this. 

39. What’s the best single day on the calendar?

The first of every month because it feels sorta refreshing

40. What are you interested in that most people haven’t heard of?

Sexual education 

that’s a joke but I am also serious

41. How do you relax after a hard day of work?

I watch youtube videos and play some games, or RP

42. What was the best book or series that you’ve ever read?

The Maze Runner. Sorta corny but it was enjoyable. 

43. What’s the farthest you’ve ever been from home?

California. 10/10 would go back. 

44. What is the most heartwarming thing you’ve ever seen?

“I would blink” out of context this makes no sense but it meant a lot to me in context 

45. What is the most annoying question people ask you?

“Are you SURE you’re __ age?” I am small, I sound 12, but yes I promise I AM TWENTY

46. What could you give a 30-minute presentation on with absolutely no preparation?

Harry Potter at any given moment. Esp Draco Malfoy. 

47. What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives?

Tbh??? Move away to a completely new place that you have no connections in. That sounds crazy stupid but really, it was the best choice I ever made. 

48. Would you rather go hang gliding or whitewater rafting?

Whitewater rafting

49. What’s your dream car?

1967 Thunderbird bitches 

50. What’s worth spending more on to get the best?

Make-up, and bath stuff 

51. What is something that a ton of people are obsessed with but you just don’t get the point of?

Game of Thrones lmao

52. What are you most looking forward to in the next 10 years?

School. I can’t wait to start college in the fall. 

53. Where is the most interesting place you’ve been?

UP Michigan 

54. What’s something you’ve been meaning to try but just haven’t gotten around to it?

There are lot of ways to answer this. 

I want to try a ghost pepper lmao

55. What’s the best thing that happened to you last week?

I started talking to someone really sweet

56. What piece of entertainment do you wish you could erase from your mind so that you could experience for the first time again?

Undertale tbh

57. If all jobs had the same pay and hours, what job would you like to have?

I’d work at a graveyard no joke

58. What amazing thing did you do that no one was around to see?

Absolutely nothing my dudes

59. How different was your life one year ago?

Extremely different and I sorta miss it

60. What quirks do you have?

I wiggle my mouth from side to side when I am in thought, I tend to rub my nose randomly, I walk on the balls of my feet

61. What would you rate 10/10?

@funkypanda

62. What fad or trend do you hope comes back?

I!! Want!! 90s!! Fashion!! Back!!

63. What’s the most interesting piece of art you’ve seen?

anything @floating-in-the-dark has done

64. What kind of art do you enjoy most?

See above answer

65. What do you hope never changes?

Most of my friendships

66. What city would you most like to live in?

Londonnnnn 

67. What movie title best describes your life?

The Boss Baby 

68. What did you decide to do the work you are doing now?

Huh????

69. What’s the best way a person can spend their time?

Being kind to others

70. If you suddenly became a master at woodworking, what would you make?

Some really weird shit dude 

71. Where is the most relaxing place you’ve ever been?

UP Michigan lol

72. What is the luckiest thing that has happened to you?

Meeting my best friend 

73. Where would you rather be from?

Canada 

74. What are some things you’ve had to unlearn?

My temper, some bad habits that were formed from anxiety

75. What are you looking forward to in the coming months?

School, getting a puppy, summer

76. What website do you usually go on when you have time off?

Tumblrr

77. Where would you spend all your time if you could?

Japannnnn or South Korea

78. What is special about the place you grew up?

Everyone was a community. We all supported each other. 

79. What age do you want to live to?

100+ cause I fear death a lot

80. What are you most likely to become famous for?

The Biggest Baby Award

81. What are you absolutely determined to do?

Finish school and become a zoologist cause that’s the dream

82. What is the most impressive thing you know how to do?

I can code and shit????? idk

83. What do you wish you knew more about?

Space law

84. What question would you most like to know the answer to?

“will I ever be successful at anything”