#this is inspired by chapter 12 of my whumptober fic hehe

[hero-of-the-wolf]

When the captain finally returned he wouldn't meet anyone's eye.

He’d done what he’d had to do. He’d had to do it. He couldn’t take it anymore. She was dying—

She was dying. She would have died either way; he’d ended her suffering. It’d had to be done.

But his hands wouldn’t stop shaking.

The day passed in a blur of just trying to stay alive after that. The siege continued on throughout the night, but nobody fought well when exhausted so shifts were instated and when Link was pushed from the front lines, he didn’t resist. He was led away to a sheltered outcropping of rock, still too in his own head to fully realize what was happening.

“Cap’n. Are ye with me?”

He blinked and Tune’s concerned face swam into view. Then he looked down at the dried blood still staining his own hands and his stomach flipped.

“Hey, no. Focus on me.” Tune ever so gently lifted his head back up so their gazes met. Link flinched, his breath catching in his throat at the quiet understanding shining in the sailor’s eyes.

“I killed her,” he muttered.

The words came out in a rush, without thought; then the horror of everything that’d happened caught up with him. She was gone. She was dead, he’d killed her and this was all his fault, he hadn’t been able to protect her or any of the other children, this was all his fault he—

He hadn’t even realized he’d stopped breathing until he choked on a gasp. He sputtered, wheezing and shaking as his wearied mind struggled to come to terms with it all.

Tune pulled him into a hug, squeezing him with a sudden sort of fierceness. Link stiffened at first, but his brother’s arms felt safe and comforting and he found himself melting at his brother's touch.

“You didn’t kill her. Link, you saved her. She ain't sufferin’ no more, that’s what she wanted.”

Link shook his head miserably. He still couldn’t stop shaking, even with the warm weight of the sailor pressed against him.

“In a war, hard decisions have to be made,” Tune continued. His voice sounded distant, as if he were remembering something. “I understand that now, Cap’n. And you will too.”

Tune kept holding him as his gasps turned into full on sobs, then faded into hitching breaths as the exhaustion of the day’s events hit him full force. And when he finally succumbed to sleep, his brother’s arms remained tightly around him.

[thanks-mike-stamford]

Author interview tag

I was tagged by @iris-best-taken-in-small-doses. Thanks for tagging ^.^

Name: HOverSeas

Fandoms: While I do consume other stuff, in terms of interacting with fandom and especially fanfic, I can only do one at a time, to be honest. I've written for Harry Potter and Saint Seiya before, but since 2011 I dedicate entirely to the Sherlock fandom.

Where you post: Only AO3. Last time I posted on ff.net was in 2010.

Most popular multi-chapter fic: Development milestones, my whumptober for 2019. I almost gave up on this one, but my stubbornness made me continue and it was great because the chapters I posted after it being on a hiatus became increasingly popular out of nowhere.

Favourite story you’ve written till date: Oh boy, I don't know. I feel differently about my stories after a while. There's this short one (it's not in English so I'm not going to link it) I wrote around 12 years ago, it's something I would never write today, because my OTP doesn't end up together. I have no idea why I wrote that sdknvksnd but I was so carefree with my thematics back then. Currently, I will say Looks like something the cat digged out even if it's not my best I suppose, simply because I had so much fun writing it, I didn't stress about any part of it.

Fic you were nervous to post: dnsvkdksfd I don't think I ever get nervous to post something because I never expect much in terms of readers reaction. I get more nervous about writing stuff, now that's something that makes me intimidated. I'm always afraid I won't be able to translate the ideas in my mind into proper words. But after I actually finished them, even if it's not that good, I'm just "meh let's post this".

How you choose your titles: I don't have a system for that. I've used sayings, thematics, songs, random poetic stuff, whatever. 

Do you outline: I'm unable to write if I don't have an outline. I posted WIPs twice for this fandom, but even then I only did it because I knew how it was supposed to end. In fact, something that happened multiple times to me was outlining a whole fic that I never got to write.

Complete: For Sherlock I have 3 complete stories posted. For other fandoms I have 6 in total. 

In progress: Check the outline thing again skndfjksndj I have a problem. There's this one fic though, that I've been promising my readers (there must be one or two out there) for FIVE FUCKING YEARS. It's the one I want to write the most, but it intimidates me so much. It's an AU for a sort of dystopic future. Or not so dystopic (as these things usually go) as it happens after global warming finally takes its toll on Earth, making some places disappear entirely and others have to readapt completely. People are becoming less and less human in this future. I will set up writing this fic as my 2021 goal.

Coming soon/not yet started: COMING SOON IT'S MY FAKE RELATIONSHIP FIC!!!!! It's fully drafted (over 50k words), but in beta process right now. I was hoping to start posting this Monday (14/12/20), but I will probably have to do some major changes in the first chapters, per suggestions by my beta, so I think it will be delayed a little bit. 

Do you accept prompts: I did prompt list for whumptober, but nobody ever prompted me specifically. I'm not sure I would accept prompts, as my inspiration to write is very random, and some stuff simply don't make want to write about.

Upcoming story you are most excited to write:  There's one I started to outline/research and got pretty excited to start, it's also an AU that involves cults. You will hear about that! Other things in my list are a Sherstrade (my original intention was just a pwp, then I added omegaverse, then I added some backstory, then I thought to myself why not a full AU based on a quite famous book - won't spoil that before I start drafting it hehe); There's also another AU about magical realism, as I love those. It follows canon story up until TRF where I change the outcomes. I just need to outline better this changing point so I can start writing.

Upcoming story you are most excited about: Is there only one you can be excited about? I am terribly excited about almost everything on my subscribe list. If I have to choose one it will be @therealsaintscully‘s Turned, as I have no idea where it's going at the moment, and it's very exciting up until now. The tags mention future graphic Sherlock/OMC which is something I surprisingly enjoy, so I'm waiting for that!

Tagging: I haven't been on tumblr for a month now, so I have no idea who already did this, and I've never been very good with tumblr anyway, but I'll tag some people: @simplyclockwork @shiplocks-of-love @lakoda0518 @writingloud​ @elldotsee​