#this is how im spending the new year. crying about naksu

[aqukana]

do you ever realize that Cho Yeong has been manipulated and brainwashed as both Naksu and Buyeon to be exploited for someone else's agenda and grew up under the impression that she's worthless if she's not of use, a child who watched her family die while she hid and raised herself in isolation, the fear of being weak which will result in death so deep-rooted in her soul that it translates as Buyeon putting up with the abuse because "her mom" says she's "needed" and insisting to be of use to Jang Uk to survive, so hellbent in proving that she's worth something and the only time she felt needed with nothing to offer was as Mudeok and she doesn't even remember that she was loved by Jang Uk just for being herself