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laptrance · 4 years ago

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July 28, 2020

it’s been over two years since my last entry. so much has changed. to update March 8 2018 me:

you give up on job searching atm until 4/24/18. that’s when you start reaching out to all the promotion companies from kucr. planetary was the other promotion company you remembered besides terrorbird. cirstina was super nice and chill and said they just wrapped internships for the summer but to inquire again for the fall.

you wait those months while still working at mcdonalds. you get good at it and things are second nature to you. you still have moments where you storm out, but you get better at controlling your temper.

you check back in august and cristina says there are positions open in the fall. it was pretty easy as they accepted you right away. you do this bat shit crazy thing where you try to balance the two. planetary internship Tuesday Thursday Friday and McDonald’s the rest of the days. you even do opening shift during the weekends (4am-12pm).

you’re mostly quiet during your internship. you participate in riyl’s. you mainly talk to cristina while mailing. you don’t open up much until hayoung joins in november i think. mcdonalds is the same as usual, but your sleep schedule’s FUKED UP.

you hear in december that maria (who worked in publicity) is quitting. cristina encourages you to apply. you talk with adam and the interview tbh goes horribly. not like you didn’t have anything to say, but everything you said was wrong LOL. you also talk to george and ben and they lay out what press does but you dont catch any of that.

christmas office party happens and you drink a lot. you open up a lot to EVERYONE, iNCLUDING BEN about your love life (embarrassing) you’re obviously too drunk to drive home, but you stay over the night with nik and alison (goth bless their souls)

you check in with adam on the position occasionally until feb. 2019 when he breaks the bad news. the position’s filled. like how can you be surprised? but you’re still upset. you’re able to turn this as a positive to use your experiences to boost your resume.

you continue to work at mcdonalds and interview at places until you get a random email from adam exactly one year after you first emailed cristina about the internship. adam offers you the job. ofc you accept. you quit mcdonalds and start with planetary on may 1.

learning publicity is one hell of a learning curve. heck, you’re still learning how to do shit even now. but you’re thrown on the deep end with Luna. not your fault. not totally kristen’s fault. but that was a crazy client.

anyways, your sleep schedule’s still fucked up because of your commute. but at least you have free weekends now!

some highlights of 2019: you finally get a macbook! but you have a galaxy s9 as a phone lmfao. placements in The Line of Best Fit and Paste! you get absolutely entranced with warehouse raves. you literally go to at least once a month. falling in love with queen of jeans and linking up with their publicist Jamie Coletta (she’s super cool and the best at the game), going on two (2) dates with a really nice girl named sara. you got in your head and probably fucked that up. but it really wasn’t the time. christmas party 2019. same shenanigans but this time you don’t drink as much. you really look for places to move out to with ryan and he finds a house that angeli and linda live. two people are moving out and the rooms go for $500 and $600. you get the $500 room and are set to move in on Feb 16 2020. news of a disease called coronavirus is first detected in china. this will be important later.

oh 2020. what a shite year. if i told myself the things i’ll write down below i would not believe it. but here it is. everything that has happened so far in 2020:

first cases of coronavirus appear in washington on january. you’re not too concerned about it.

you’re working this country artist aminah hughes and land a placement in american songwriter for January 31 (1st time!). there are some issues and they post it one day later, but you weren’t as attentive as you should’ve been over the weekend.

adam talks to you about it the following monday (2/3) in a really calm matter but you beat yourself up over it. so much so that on your way home, you totally don’t notice a pedestrian crossing galloping hills and eucalyptus and run them over. everything feels like a blur, but you’re able to talk to the police, karen, and kimberly (state farm) about it. you take tuesday-thursday off.

you move in (night before you saw bored lord and octo octa until 3am wtf). you don’t have a car (for obvious reasons), but you’re able to commute to work via bus/subway (which you would’ve done anyway cause you love public transportation lol)

you’re able to return to normal life mostly until middle march. cases of the newly named COVID-19 have spread throughout the united states and you hear of workspaces transitioning over to work from home operations. planetary soon follows suit. our last day in the office is march 13.

literally the week after you start wfh animal crossing new horizons comes out. that keeps you busy for like two, three months tops. it’s also a nice way to keep in touch with friends.

your first therapy session happens on march 31. you’re able to talk about the accident, but it’s quickly directed to self-esteem. it’s an ongoing process, but you’re slowly advancing. it’s not linear, but it’s better than doing nothing.

Bandcamp establishes “Bandcamp Day”, 24 hour periods in which the site’s share of profits go directly to artists/labels. Started in April, will continue through the end of 2020. All the money I would normally spend on concerts goes here now. That and I fall to the hands of food delivery apps (door dash wins)

your campaign with Atta Boy gets going. first track premieres at Atwood Magazine (2nd time! [1st time was with sophia st. helen, another awesome client]). band’s super happy about it (even mr. josh brolin himself gave a shout out [bias ofc]). by the end of may you land their second single on THE MOTHERFUCKING FADER (1ST TIME OBVIOUSLY).

everything else is going surprisingly well for the most part (except for elp, but i don’t wanna talk about those fucking idiots) despite the ever-changing landscape of music journalism. huge blogs are letting people go while smaller sites are remaining mostly the same.

On May 25, George Floyd is murdered by Minneapolis police which sparks the biggest wave of activity in the Black Lives Matter movement since Michael Brown’s death in 2014. organizing/activism is still going on to this day (7/28).

For me personally, I’m making a conscious effort to highlight Black artists on my Bandcamp days and general sharing of music. I also joined a book club (6/18) and read “Are Prisons Obsolete” in its entirety. We’re currently reading a comic series called Bitch Planet. Deep and meaningful conversations.

the family hears news of Lola’s declining health. June 23rd (Manila time) is the day she passes away. We’re all able to say our last goodbyes via facebook video call. this is the first time i see my dad cry.

funeral takes place on june 27th. we’re able to partake in the ceremony via zoom. the first and only funeral i “attended” online (so far).

I start “fixing” myself physically. I went to physical therapy from 6/8-7/7. the exercises do wonders to my knees (ty dr. bailey!). also saw a dermatologist on 7/10. really quick appt. kinda felt rushed imo, but i was given a special sunscreen that works so far? also recommended otc meds like claritin.

ended campaign with atta boy. really sad to see them go. currently coordinating with their new managers on a possible podcast and press setup.

and that’s pretty much it! it’s a lot of shit, i know, but it happened all within 2 years. overall i’d say we were pretty successful in finding a big-girl job and MOVING OUT, WHICH I THOUGHT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN LMFAO. as for the shit you were hung up on with angelica, you’re so much better now, but you think about the good memories from time to time. sometimes it gets you down, but you’re thankful for the memories (come through fallout boy LMFAO AHAHA FALLOUT AMIRIGHT) and you learned from your mistakes. maybe it will be another two years before i leave another update, might be less, might be more.

but i’m extremely proud at how far i’ve come.

im proud of you, me.

#personal #do people still tag personal stuff as personal?#do people still read tags the way they do?#or is it just for clout chasing now. idk

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thrashermaxey · 7 years ago

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Ramblings: Habs Put Up 10, Lightning and Blues Mixing Up Their Lines and more (Dec 3)

Laidlaw filling in for Ian after a loaded Saturday of action. Let’s get to it.

The Montreal Canadiens obliterated the Red Wings 10-1, extending Carey Price’s winning streak to four games. Why does Price get the lead billing? Because the score sheet was dominated by Montreal’s third and fourth lines, which simply won’t help many fantasy owners.

Paul Byron led the way with a hat-trick, while Alex Galchenyuk notched four assists. They have heated up of late. Galchenyuk has eight points in the last five games, while Byron has six in the same stretch. I’m not sure Byron is seeing quite enough ice time to be relevant outside of deep leagues, but perhaps there’s a flyer to be taken here. Galchenyuk is interesting as regression seems to finally be setting in.

No Jonathan Drouin for the second straight game, but he is not expected to miss much time. He had been skating with Galchenyuk and Byron before getting hurt, so he may be coming back to good comfortable surroundings.

Some frustration to be had for Max Pacioretty owners as the top forward was somehow shutout despite the barrage of goals. Use it as buy-low fuel.

Shea Weber returned skating over 22 minutes, notching an assist. That spells the end of our flirtation with Jeff Petry.

Jimmy Howard didn’t even start, but still got hung up for five goals on nine shots. He has been awful over the past couple of weeks as the Red Wings have lost seven in a row, falling towards what we expected of them. Don’t even ask about Petr Mrazek, he’s dead to me.

Check out Detroit’s scoring since November 1:

MANTHA,ANTHONY

LARKIN,DYLAN

ABDELKADER,JUSTIN

NIELSEN,FRANS

TATAR,TOMAS

GREEN,MIKE

ATHANASIOU,ANDREAS

ZETTERBERG,HENRIK

KRONVALL,NIKLAS

NYQUIST,GUSTAV

FRK,MARTIN

HELM,DARREN

OUELLET,XAVIER

GLENDENING,LUKE

BOOTH,DAVID

JENSEN,NICK

ERICSSON,JONATHAN

WILSON,SCOTT

LASHOFF,BRIAN

DALEY,TREVOR

WITKOWSKI,LUKE

DEKEYSER,DANNY

The Red Wings have only two games over the next eight days. Use this opportunity to divest yourself of all Detroit players not named Mantha, Larkin or Green.

The Edmonton Oilers are trying to take years off my life, nearly blowing a 6-1 lead, allowing it to get to 6-5, before a TJ Brodie own-goal iced it. After Kris Russell’s own-goal on Thursday against the Leafs, this couldn’t have ended more karmically.

Jesse Puljujarvi was elevated to the top line alongside Connor McDavid and scored a pair of goals. He still isn’t close to demanding universal ownership. He skated only 14:35 and is only seeing use on the second power play unit. Give me a couple more games of production on the top line before I jump on board.

The Lightning did some line shuffling before last night’s action:

#1 32.1% JOHNSON,TYLER – NAMESTNIKOV,VLADISLAV – STAMKOS,STEVEN

#2 21.9% KUCHEROV,NIKITA – PALAT,ONDREJ – POINT,BRAYDEN

#3 21.5% BROWN,J.T. – CALLAHAN,RYAN – KUNITZ,CHRIS

#4 14.3% CONACHER,CORY – GOURDE,YANNI – KILLORN,ALEX

The big winner was Tyler Johnson who scored a pair of goals to end a 15-game goalless drought. He’s been mostly irrelevant this season, drowning on the third line, so some time with the Stamkov group is a major boost.

I cannot help, but think that Ondrej Palat and Brayden Point also see small boosts getting time with Nikita Kucherov, although this duo has been fine on their own. Indeed, Palat and Point each notched assists.

No changes were made to the power play groupings, so there are no major changes in player value. If you have to have a loser, it’s Yanni Gourde who dropped onto the third line, but he still managed an assist last night. Bottom line, this team is loaded.

Fringe NHLer Cory Conacher has gotten into two games and has goals in each of them. I’m not ready to throw my lot in with him, but there could be room for him with a couple of injuries.

The Blues, also did some line juggling splitting up one of the league’s best lines:

#1 24.7% SCHENN,BRAYDEN – SCHWARTZ,JADEN – STEEN,ALEXANDER

#2 23.1% SOBOTKA,VLADIMIR – STASTNY,PAUL – TARASENKO,VLADIMIR

#3 18.7% BERGLUND,PATRIK – BLAIS,SAMMY – PAAJARVI,MAGNUS

#4 14.8% BRODZIAK,KYLE – JASKIN,DMITRIJ – UPSHALL,SCOTTIE

They have gone through some offensive struggles over the past week, or as I like to call it, regression.

Brayden Schenn has been hit hardest with no points in the last five games. Getting split off from Vladimir Tarasenko at even strength will hurt a little, but much like with Tampa Bay there is enough offensive talent that a little juggling doesn’t hurt much. This is especially true because the power play formations were not messed with much. This is certainly not panic time. The Blues continue run over opponents on the shot counter, especially with their top forwards. Schenn just wasn’t going to produce at a 100-point pace all year.

The only big change for St. Louis was using Tarasenko on both power play units, giving him the full two minutes. It worked for Tarasenko as he notched an assist with the second unit for St. Louis’ only goal of the game.

It’s been a yo-yo season for Devan Dubnyk, but he now has now won seven of his last nine games. I’m not confident in him yet. He has had some ludicrous bounces go against him this year, and another one could send his confidence spiralling, but things are trending positively.

Matt Dumba continues to be your go-to direct replacement for Jared Spurgeon. Back-to-back games with 26+ minutes for the defenseman, and points in three of the last four games.

The Flyers were shutout by Tuukka Rask and the Bruins in the matinee. That’s 10 consecutive losses. You can smell the inevitable coaching change in the air. As I always say, things must hit unsustainable lows for a coach to get fired. I’d say we are in range:

{source} <blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-lang="en"><p lang="en" dir="ltr">Jake Voracek as <a href="https://twitter.com/hashtag/Flyers?src=hash&ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">#Flyers</a> inch closer to matching franchise record 12-game winless skid: "Everything we touch right now turns to shit."</p>— Frank Seravalli (@frank_seravalli) <a href="https://twitter.com/frank_seravalli/status/937079929203806209?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">December 2, 2017</a></blockquote>

Take the firing of Jack Capuano last season. The Islanders got off to a horrible start, but had played better for him for a month before they made the switch to Doug Weight. Weight may have helped, but the tide was already turning through sheer regression.

Philadelphia is a tricky situation because they are riding a PDO high of 1014 almost entirely driven by the success of their top line. The goaltending has been near average with a 0.904 save percentage (league average is 0.907), so you wouldn’t expect much change.

Where regression could set in for the Flyers is success in one-goal games where their record is 2-4-7, particularly in overtime and shootouts where their record is 1-7. They should finish closer to .500 in one-goal outings, which would help their goaltenders’ win totals the most.

Whether Dave Hakstol is fired or not, I am waiting for the Flyers to experiment with breaking up the top line to try and spread out the scoring. They are getting next to nothing from their other nine forwards despite boasting gifted players like Wayne Simmonds, Travis Konecny and Nolan Patrick. Most would like to see more minutes for Konecny who is averaging just over 14 minutes per game for the second consecutive season, but I am not certain that Konecny has yet reached the level of play-driving that warrants expanded usage on a nightly basis.

Simmonds is the easy guy to target as a buy-low option. He is on pace for 44 points, but could do more if he got anything going at 5-on-5. He remains one of the league’s best net-front men and offers a ton of multi-category value.

Brad Marchand was briefly forced from yesterday’s game after a hit to the head from Ivan Provorov, but returned to score a goal and an assist. A few folks noted that Marchand has been taking big hits this season, something to watch for from a player who has already missed time.

David Krejci returned to the lineup skating 15:45 alongside Ryan Spooner and Anders Bjork, who was himself returning to the lineup. There’s potential for some genuine depth scoring on this second line, especially with Spooner also operation on the Bruins’ top PP unit. We’re talking like 50-point upside for Spooner though so don’t get crazy with it.

On American Thanksgiving I discussed Sidney Crosby’s no-brainer bounce-back potential:

I’m not so bold as to put a ceiling on Crosby’s production. There will no doubt be a two-week period where he eviscerates the league, reminding everyone just how dominant he can be. I am simply tempering my expectations for the degree to which his scoring will recover.

A week and a half later and Crosby has strung together five straight multi-point games, good for 12 points in five games. My only regret is tempering expectations.

While I am back-patting, how about that Tristan Jarry? If anything, his performance this weekend was a disappointment for allowing the moribund Sabres to break their shutout streak. It will never get easier than that slate for Jarry, who is now staring down games against the Rangers, Islanders and Leafs (all top six offensive teams,) but this weekend was a huge confidence builder for a talented netminder playing behind one of the league’s scariest teams.

Speaking of those Sabres, their power play is inching towards Blue Jacket levels of ineptitude at 11.4%. How Phil Housley took a power play from the top of the league to the bottom if beyond me, but it is sinking some typically stalwart fantasy options.

Jack Eichel has entered buy-low territory with 20 points in 27 games, a “mere” 61-point pace. In this season of jacked power plays and boosted scoring paces, he should be busting out for 80+ points. Instead, he has one PPP. His pace is still fantasy relevant in all formats, so NO ONE should be complaining and if anyone is, they are begging to have him poached off their team.

Also in buy-low territory: Rasmus Ristolainen, although his case is weaker. I know everyone is scared off. He has missed games, is minus-nine and doesn’t have a goal. Well, his plus/minus is always going to be bad, but I encourage punting that category in favour of dominance elsewhere. Despite missing nine games Ristolainen is still on pace for 200 SOG. He won’t continue to go without a goal. The power play should improve some.

What am I talking about for buy low on Ristolainen? I’m talking about offering up a way-too-fast starter. Assuming you aren’t in a league where points carry over, what has happened is no longer of relevance. Looking forward, Ristolainen should score roughly 0.5-points-per-game with lots of shot volume. Offer up someone you are projecting forward to be of less value. I’ve been floating Will Butcher for Ristolainen offers for the past month. No bites yet, but that’s the range you should be pushing for.

Speaking of Butcher, Sami Vatanen hasn’t yet usurped the youngster, nor do I expect him to. The Devils are splitting PP time pretty evenly between their two units, but Butcher is skating on the unit with Taylor Hall that sees slight preference.

No points for Vatanen through two games with the Devils, a continuation of his offensive woes with Anaheim. He deserves a longer shake before passing judgement, though I am not expecting fantasy relevance in standard leagues.

The other half of this week’s big trade, Adam Henrique, is making the expected immediate impact with two points in two games skating alongside Corey Perry.

I won’t post the line combos for Anaheim because it is truly horrific. Jakob Silfverberg is now out with an upper-body injury. No timeline for him.

Cam Fowler has points in three straight games. He and Brandon Montour are solidly the top fantasy options on the Ducks’ blue line and should both be in the mix for 40-point paces the rest of the way.

Dylan Strome scores his first career NHL goal:

{source}<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-lang="en"><p lang="en" dir="ltr">Another first for the Strome family. All smiles for <a href="https://twitter.com/stromer19?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">@stromer19</a>. <a href="https://twitter.com/hashtag/NHLFirsts?src=hash&ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">#NHLFirsts</a> <a href="https://t.co/8mkUlcgvIC">pic.twitter.com/8mkUlcgvIC</a></p>— NHL (@NHL) <a href="https://twitter.com/NHL/status/937166959896121344?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">December 3, 2017</a></blockquote>

We may see Jakob Chychrun return for the Coyotes today. Stay tuned.

I wrote off Derek Stepan after a couple of weeks this season deeming him too slow to be a consistent producer at this stage. He continues to see huge minutes for Arizona (over 20 per game) and is starting to come around. He has 10 points in his last 11 games. I took a flyer on him in one league, banking on a dense schedule. Not sure he’ll stick on the roster past today, but I am happy with the short-term boost.

Here’s an update on Corey Crawford:

{source} <blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-conversation="none" data-lang="en"><p lang="en" dir="ltr">Crawford will be reevaluated after the three games. Something that had been bothering him a while. You could see it last game, slow to get up a few times, unable to get across in the Janmark wraparound.</p>— Mark Lazerus (@MarkLazerus) <a href="https://twitter.com/MarkLazerus/status/937018630818226181?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">December 2, 2017</a></blockquote>

Anton Forsberg started yesterday, but I am not certain he is all that appealing an option. Plus, this looks like more of a short-term situation.

Radek Faksa has goals in three straight games, with six points and 14 SOG in this run. He has been up over 15 minutes in each of these three games and has even seen some marginal use on the second PP unit. I’m a fan of the talent, but he needs more usage, specifically PP time to have ubiquitous relevance.

Jamie Benn ended his five-game scoreless drought, so we are back on the horse!

The Sharks put Tim Heed and Joonas Donskoi on IR yesterday. Heed’s production has fallen off over the past month with just two points in nine November games. Between missing time with injury and some healthy scratches, he hasn’t been nearly as valuable to fantasy owners.

Still, Heed is on pace for 10+ goals, 30+ points and 150 SOG. That doesn’t meet my benchmarks for 82-game usage in standard leagues, but keep him in mind. He definitely has the talent to be worthy of usage when on hot streaks.

Martin Jones returned from a brief injury and got lit up by the Lightning, though we cannot necessarily hold this against him.

The latest guy to take a spin on the top line with Aleksander Barkov and Jonathan Huberdeau is Nick Bjugstad. He scored a goal last night. Were the upcoming schedule for Florida more intriguing I’d definitely advocate a pick up. Bjugstad is also seeing top unit PP time. He is a serious shot-volume producer on pace for 231 SOG.

Radim Vrbata has been back in the lineup for two straight games skating an average of 13:45. I’m not sure I can support his ownership beyond super deep leagues. No exposure to Barkov, no value.

Columbus’ top line continues to thump opponents on the shot-counter:

{source}<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-lang="en"><p lang="en" dir="ltr">Yes the game wasn’t the overall outcome CBJ wants. But, French Bread. Doing OK. <a href="https://t.co/lY9hw1RJZ9">pic.twitter.com/lY9hw1RJZ9</a></p>— Alison (@AlisonL) <a href="https://twitter.com/AlisonL/status/937151585867698176?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">December 3, 2017</a></blockquote>

Pierre-Luc Dubois is gaining confidence and relevance. He now has points in four straight games. It’s still tough to buy Blue Jacket players with the power play performing so awfully, but the chemistry between Dubois, Artemi Panarin and Josh Anderson is real. Points will flow accordingly.

Ryan Johansen was forced from last night’s game and he did not return. No update on his status. If he misses any time Kyle Turris jumps into that #1C role, while Nick Bonino might gain some relevance as the secondary guy. Stay tuned.

Alexander Edler scored his first goal of the season continuing his hot run with five points in the last seven games. He’s the top defenseman on the Canucks for the time being, and with how they are currently rolling there is value to be mined.

The Sedins are also banking points with Daniel Sedin boasting eight in the last seven games and Henrik Sedin up to nine in the same stretch. Ever since they loaded up their top power play unit, with Brock Boeser and Bo Horvat joining the trio of Swedes it’s been a throwback. I’ve been making bank riding these undervalued options in daily fantasy.

Tyler Bozak was out sick for the Leafs last night. After four points in the first three games of the season Bozak has scored just seven in the following 24. He hasn’t been remotely relevant in this stretch and is skating his fewest minutes in over five years at just 14:55 per game. He’s still a top unit PP guy and will no doubt see his shooting percentage climb up, but it likely won’t be enough to elevate him back onto fantasy teams for more than a flyer.

Thanks for reading! You can follow me on Twitter @SteveLaidlaw.

from All About Sports http://www.dobberhockey.com/hockey-rambling/ramblings-habs-put-up-10-lightning-and-blues-mixing-up-their-lines-and-more-dec-3/

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