#this is because the NotThem is--based on canon evidence--only a dick to british people!

[transmasc-wizard]

hellloooooo if u are okay with it i woul dlike to hear ur thoughts on the mandela catalogue speficially the paranoia parts

well its quite simple. i'd rather die than read/watch/listen to/etc anything involving a creature that theoretically has the capability to steal my exact identity and also wants to kill me!

jokes aside though ! cw discussions of paranoia and kind of like. unreality. LOTS of scopophobia (being watched) too. also brief mentions of suicide and sh. just in general... cw mandela catalogue subject matter lol

i genuinely do just get a bit mentally illnessy (of the intrusive thoughts variety) abt that identity type of stuff. i once blocked someone bc they had their birthday in their bio and it was close to my birthday + their name was nick or nicole or something. there was literally no logical reason for that action and im sure they were a nice person but i could not handle that <3 (they didnt know me anyway its fine). there are more examples but thats the first to come to mind. so, TMC's whole thing with the alternates.... yeah. not something that would be super smart to engage with.

that aside: i also dont do well with like. distorted Wrong face type things (unless they r hot. stares at michael distortion) like the ones that get shown in the thumbnails of the videos. i would provide an example but! that would mean i'd have to see one again! and i really really really do not want to do that! they also tend to very easily be added to the roster of "things i am convinced are Watching Me", which is not a list that has to get longer. im not sure if thats the intention of the faces, but it's definitely what they did to me.

im also really eugh when it comes to things that are capable of manipulating you into things like sh/sui. i tend to get very,,, not paranoid in *that* regard, but just. existential and anxious. about whether i have free will, as a person. whenever i think about it. and things that can torment you into that sort of thing really deeply scare me and also get me thinking about free will again!!!! which i dont like!!!!!!!!!!

also as a caveat. im also honestly not sure how the mandela catalogue would affect me right /now/. when i tried reading the transcript, i was..... not in a great headspace? i dont remember exactly when it was but i know it was not a fun time for the brain of nicola disaster. i was getting a lot of those "feeling watched" feelings in particular (like. "every time i look away there is a thing getting closer and closer and it wants to hurt me" level feeling watched), + some really gross intrusive thoughts & a swing around of more of Le Depression, so TMC was kind of feeding into a mindset that was more rickety than usual.