#this is an angst fiction goldmine 1 like and I'll be writing fanfiction

[bongazo]

You know this series holds a terrific amount of exploitable sexual tension but I swear I was oblivious to it until I watched that scene of Jopson taking care of Crozier where he opens up about his mother's addiction and the guilt he felt for not saving her despite his dedication. He couldn't stand a woman laughing PEOPLE!! Can you imagine how awkward it must have been for a man in the 1800's to feel weirded out by a woman and the conflict that followed upon realising that a place FULL OF MEN felt SAFER? And he chose to disclose his trauma at his captain's most vulnerable moment, a situation only allowed by military complicity elevated by devotion AND TRUST. The bond making was so visible it put me on my knees. He was being seen by the man he most admired thanks to his kindness and love my goodness the power the drama of this scene I could feel Jopson's heart trembling, distilling anguish. THIS. MAN. How defective he must have felt about himself and his feelings towards other men, all converging in the determination of keeping his captain alive, redeeming his faults through DUTY. This ship really has it all people it broke me it really did