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[miodiodavinci]

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i've tried putting it into words but i think it's just easier to say

i feel like i'm hiding from being online again but like. turbo hard this time in that sometimes i even get anxious before reblogging something Privately to my Private Side Account that has like. Three Whole Followers. it feels really fucking bad because ->

work is running me ragged i think , , , , part of the reason i Am constantly hiding when i am online is that i get home and do so much after-work-prep-work-for-more-work that i end up just. totally spent and just want to turn off my brain and recharge for a while (which sucks when social media feels like an ongoing game of "don't let anyone know you're there!!!!!! or else you'll get sucked into MORE expectations!!!!!!!!!!")

like at the very least, things are not Degree + Internship Bad™ (read: torment is endless, brain feels like overcooked steak, weeping at my desk every other night, feels like if i don't get a break soon, i might actually lose it)

they are still like. "i am getting little pockets of sustenance in my life but good GOD i need a chance to just. do all play. not be working. for fuck's sake."

regarding online feelings, somehow feel an ongoing mixture of "fuck i need to get back into making covers because otherwise i Literally do not put effort into making cool art" + "i do not want to be seen. i literally just want to hang out with my friends and not be online anymore." + "FUCK FUCK FUCK I'M MISSING OUT I'M FALLING BEHIND AAAAAA" + "I Am Squandering Every Ounce Of Good Will And Love I Have Received Over The Past 10 Years Through This Hiatus"

but also like. jesus christ i am still so burnt out. it is a miracle i can open ms paint and doodle every now and then. i think doing the yamaha collab on top of getting my degree and doing an internship hurt me in a tangible way.

i'm still really glad i did it but also like. oh god i don't think i could ever again.

i have. so many WIP voicebanks i Need to finish but i think before i can do any of that i need to let go of whatever i was aiming for with salvador and just. settle back into "you make it + you draw it + you pick your favorite song and release it <3333"

i have covers i've made now OTL but the art and mixing are 100% holding me back

i don't know when i'll be back. i'd like to eventually have UTAU things to share, but it's hard to know when i can get the engine to finally turn over and i can finally get a voicebank finished. i am simply the king of recording and never finishing the oto <3333

that being said like. none of this is a cry for help. i am writing this to get it out there, and that's that 👍 i will be fine regardless, as i have been fine for the past however many years of my life w

TL;DR: maaaaaaan i just want to have a solid month of elementary school summer. y'all remember elementary school summer?? i just want to play games with my friends all day and then work on cool stuff at night and go to sleep soooo comfortable and wake up refreshed and do it all over again <33333 i think that would fix me <3333

[kkami-writes]

HI OP HI KAIA I just finished bingeing literally everything that is out rn in the waiting for us series and. I have to start by saying im so sorry for spamming ur notifs

I HOPE U CAN FORGIVE ME I AM SO SORRY BUT IT'S 1AM RN AND I JUST DISCOVERED THIS SERIES AND I LOVE IT TO DEATH

the premise alone had me so so hooked but I absolutely ADORE the social media format?? like the combination of texts/tweets/writing is actually so genius to me like it is such a creative and engaging way to tell the story and I absolutely fucking love u for it <3

MIO MY HEART ACHES FOR MIO I WANT HER BROTHER (AND PARENTS??) TO DIE A SLOW AND PAINFUL DEATH SO SHE CAN JUST BE HAPPY FOREVER W HER 8 SOULMATES ALREADY :(

the amount of angst in this series I love sm. when seung was texting hyunjin about mio?? broke me. I am so not okay I almost cried real tears at that chapter like how dare u do that to my fragile little heart (/pos !!!) I also noticed u being super considerate with your sh tw for that one chapter, a lot of authors don't rly do that so thank u for that tldr at the end I love u and u deserve a kiss on the forehead

aside from the angst I absolutely adore the crack humor and fluff in this series LMAO <333 I just can't describe it but waiting for us!skz is just. so skz. like it is so them I have no idea how u managed to put their exact entire beings into these texts and tweets but u did and it's incredible and I'm so immersed in the series I love u sm

ANYWAYS I'm so sorry for the entire essay... if u didn't read this and u end up blocking me for spamming ur notifs sm I understand BUT I HOPE U KNOW I LOVE THIS SERIES SOOO MUCH <33 idk how the taglist works bc I think it said 50/50 but? please tag me in future updates if you're still open to adding people!! I can't tell u again how much I adore this series and how invested in it I ammmm thank u for your incredible writing op!!! <333

- heather <3

haha omg. I don’t mind the spam!!! i’m goad you’re loving it. the social media format has definitely been my favorite since I discovered it!! I’ve always enjoyed writing dialogue more than anything so texts are a great way to do that.

I accidentally made seungmin a little too angsty but!! he’s just a lil tsundere who’s kinda afraid of his feelings because he feels them so strongly and so intensely. there’s definitely a little more to his backstory that you guys can look forward to 🤭

of course!! tws are super important to me as someone who is easily triggered by things. I had wrote mio/yn as someone who struggles a lot because as someone who deals with depression and chronic anxiety, writing about it and having someone be comforted by it is really cathartic. I know it’s not for everyone and that’s ok!! I have much more less angst fic ideas too.

AAAAA thank you so much!! as a baby stay I’m really glad people enjoy my characterization of skz! I’ve been binge watching a lot of content and I was worried about writing them in the beginning because I am a baby stay but i’m very happy 🩷

don’t worry!!! I absolutely LOVE your long message and kind words!

right now the taglist is full but i’ll put you on the waitlist! thank you so much for enjoying waiting for us! this fic is my baby tbh.