#this happens whenever i start making fanart for any fandom tho. aka fanart for one character

[todayisafridaynight]

dude I was just looking through the 'daigo dojima' tag and literally everything is you. every last photo is you. I mean thank u for providing but holy FUCK man. you need to be studied by scientists

i just got prescribed bupropion if you wanna start there

[mcrmadness]

X,Y,Z

I guess this one is for the fandom ask thingy! Thank you, a lot!!!

X - 3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms

This one is a lot similar that I have answered to in different tag games, but let’s do this again anyway :) I actually have just one actual OTP, but whenever I start shipping, then I won’t ship those people with anyone else but each other. So whenever there’s a ship, you could say it’s an OTP but I’m not even nearly as obsessed with other ships than I am with the first one in this list:

Bela B./Farin Urlaub aka FUB from Die Ärzte

Paul Landers/Richard Z. Kruspe aka Paulchard from Rammstein

Ed Nygma/Oswald Copplepot aka Nygmobblepot aka Penguin/Riddler from Gotham. I’ve mentioned this before too and right now I don’t have other ships to mention here so have to settle with this. And it’s not too long since I watched the 5th season of Gotham. I’ve actually never thought of this ship before this series and I don’t really see them as a ship in other DC medias, but I like it with Gotham. On the third place there could also be mentioned so many other fictional ships too, like Cherik aka Charler/Erik from The X-Men, but I mainly mean the newer movies with this; and so on. 

Y - A fandom you’re in but have no ships from

More like ships you have but fandoms you’re not a part of lol. No but really, do I even have a fandom without ships? I usually have this ship radar go red pretty easily and sometimes I’m really annoyed by it because I feel like sometimes it starts to ruin everything for me when I’m just hyperfixating over the ship and I cannot concentrate on anything else because I’m just looking forward to seeing parts of the ship in the same place to see if there’s gonna be any shipping moments. Usually my ships also tend to me non-canon or something that other people probably don’t even see as a ship... I’m trying so hard to think about this but I feel like every fandom comes with at least one ship :D

Okay, I don’t know if I’m really in the fandom, but I’ve been into The Killers since 2004 or so, but I have never really watched interviews or anything. At some point I did have a ship in this band too, but idk what happened to it, all that stuff disappeared at some point and I no longer have a ship and don’t feel like shipping any anymore.

There’s also TV shows that I don’t have ships from. I think I could mention Top Gear UK here, because I’ve seen people ship these guys with each other but that is just something I don’t get :D But good for them, I’m not gonna judge anyone’s taste what comes to shipping or so. I also have many NOTP:s from fandoms etc. but I’ve chosen to stay quiet about those because, well, I’m not into arguing, on purpose nor accidentally. Just live and let people live, it’s as easy as that.

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go Hmm. Are you sure you want to give me this opportunity? Well actually I had to leave this be overnight because I didn’t know what could I say because this as a “question” is a bit too wide :D But now I came up with something about fandoms overall. So, I’ve never ever really felt like being a part of any fandom. I can be a fan, yes, but I’ve always been an outsider or an outcast. Even when basically being in a fandom, I either feel like I’m just looking at inside from a window (bit like the Oingo Boingo song, “I’m just an outsider looking in”, I relate to that song a lot), or that I’m stuck somewhere between the inner and outter walls inside of really being inside the building itself. Whenever something like a band talks to their fans, or make songs about their fans, I’m like “cool, but it ain’t about me :)” Like, I don’t feel like they’d include me to be a part of their fans. I feel like I’d be a part of a fandom only if I was personally told that you’re welcome. Even if other fans would accept me, I still feel more like I’m just visiting rather than, metaphorically, living in that place. But most of the time I’m just lurking in from the windows. And doesn’t need too much for me to kick myself out either, in case I’ve somehow made it inside the building.

I’ve probably felt most welcome within the MCR fandom, tho. I was 15 at the time and I made lots of friends and it’s been pretty much the first time I’ve actually felt like being a part of something, also because the band itself wanted (and wants) to make sure that everyone feels welcomed because most of us did not feel welcomed in our everyday lives at all (e.g. I was bullied and an outcast in the school).

A small fun fact to the end: I gave up on reading fanfiction a long time ago, but I started writing MCR fanfiction (in Finnish) when I was 16. I wrote quite a lot and I’m still kinda impressed with some of that stuff, and then after finding Die Ärzte when I was almost 18, I discovered Bela/Farin and started writing fanfiction about them too but this time I changed to English. I also stopped writing fanfics somewhere around 2012 and I thought I had already grown out of those but then 2018 happened, I was done with work and studies and had time only for myself and I started writing (and drawing comics) again, and now I still write fanfics but mainly just for myself and it’s more like a therapy form for myself now than anything else. I haven’t posted anything I’ve written after 2018 because it’s not the point with those writings anymore. I still don’t read fanfiction. Also, what comes to ships, I do not like reading fanfiction, viewing photoshopped images nor viewing fanart of ships other than Bela/Farin. Visual arts are still okay with other ships, but I’m not looking for those. Often my ships are something I like to observe but I don’t want to know too much. For example, I’ve had ships that I have tried to read fanfiction about but it all felt just so wrong that I couldn’t do it. I never wanted to imagine nor even see them kiss or anything in the first place. I just wanted to see their dynamics and that’s all. And sometimes if even my ships go too far, I feel really awkward and uncomfortable. There’s only a few ships that don’t do this to me, but I’d say if there was something too revealing to see somewhere, I might still say “no thanks”.