#this got waaaay too long 🙃

[svvanisms]

       HAEUN LETS GO OF A BREATH SHE HADN'T REALIZED SHE'D BEEN HOLDING . . . shoulders relaxing in her exhale, followed by a soft laugh of relief that bounces off of the elevator walls. she was the one to initiate the conversation, but there had been a split-second of regret gnawing at her the moment the words had left her mouth. it was one thing to entice an online presence with new products through aesthetically-pleasing social media posts, but to pitch something face-to-face wasn't what she would exactly consider treaded territory — and it's only after the fact that she realizes how strange it might be for someone to be gifting out suncatchers in the apartment elevator. by a stroke of good fortune, however, it seems like the other woman is at least interested in taking a look at them, so haeun makes sure to shuffle the box a little closer for the other to inspect what's inside.

       "they're actually all the same style," she says with a gentle chuckle, feeling a little bashful given there wasn't really a variety. she's thankful though, in a way, considering she had suggested a few different styles of suncatchers when the collection had launched, only for her sister to shut down her idea on the spot. she tries to ignore the familiar flush of embarrassment creeping up her neck, deciding to focus on what the other had said — a mystery grab, that actually was a pretty good idea if they ran into the same problem again somewhere down the road.

       "but they're guaranteed to make other people, and sleep paralysis demons alike, very jealous of how aesthetically pleasing your sleep paralysis will now be," haeun grins, trying to follow through with the joke before lifting the box up so it's easier for the other to look at the suncatchers. she's thankful that it'll be one or two less heavy by the time she gets back to her own apartment. "you're welcome to take as many as you want. they're overstock from work, and they were too pretty to just ship them back to the warehouse — or worse, throw them away."

       haeun glances over at the other female through her lashes, only then noting that she looked oddly familiar. of course, it was kind of expected that you'd feel a sense of familiarity when crossing paths with someone who lived in the same building, but she swears she's seen the other a few more than a handful of times. as if on cue, the elevator dings! once more, and it's only then that haeun realizes they're going to the very same floor. "looks like we're going to the same place," she shuffles to the side to let her neighbor go first. "after you, chosen one," she offers the other another smile, this time with a giggle following behind. "i'm happy to do a home delivery for you."

˖ ࣪ . ࿐ ♡ ˚ . 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐕𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑 𝐈𝐒 𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐀 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐁𝐋𝐄, and most days, sooji welcomes it. she likes the unpredictability—the chance of bumping into someone random, the possibility of a brief interaction that might offer some unexpected entertainment . . . but today? today is different.

she’s mere seconds away from reaching her apartment without any unnecessary social interaction—a personal victory, really—when she rounds the corner and sees it: a blinking red light on the panel. a betrayal in LED form. she sighs, adjusting the plastic bag in her grip. inside: an overpriced energy drink, a half-eaten convenience store sandwich (suspiciously soggy), and instant coffee she definitely didn’t need.

she trudges forward, barely registering the cardboard box on the ground or the other person waiting beside it. too focused on the elevator, willing it to arrive faster. impatient as ever. maybe, if she presses the button aggressively enough, it’ll sense her desperation. but her impulses only live on as a thought. thankfully, the doors finally slide open with a ding! and sooji steps in without a second thought—only to realize, belatedly, that someone else has followed, nudging their belongings in with them. it's then that sooji glance over at the other person.

she blinks, peeking at the box, then at her fellow resident. they have the distinct air of someone trying to sell something, which would normally send her fight-or-flight response into overdrive, but before she can even think of escaping—

the girl starts talking, and sooji's gaze follows the gesture toward the items accompanying her. suncatchers. a lot of them.

and just like that, the gamble finally pays off.

"oh , hell yeah." sooji doesn’t hesitate for even a second before inching closer, peering inside with blatant curiosity. the faint glow of the overhead lights catches in her eyes—dark, but alert in a way that suggests she’s running on caffeine and the sheer willpower of someone who hasn’t slept properly in days.

she tilts her head, scanning the suncatchers, and then glances back at the other, (she looks familiar...). an easy, lopsided grin paints itself along her visage. "you just happen to be handing these out, or am i, like, the chosen one?"

with her free hand, she idly spins one of her rings, a small nervous habit that betrays the underlying restlessness in her energy. "actually, no, don’t answer that—i’m taking one either way. i’ve got a window in my gaming setup that catches the sunrise at the exact, most obnoxious angle possible. maybe if i hang one of these up, it'll turn my sleep paralysis into a light show or something."

a pause. then, with the mischievous glint of someone who thrives off pushing their luck:

"wait, do i get to pick, or is this, like, a mystery grab?"

[str1v1ng4z3r0]

We went to my parents’ today because my dad lost his uncle this Tuesday, and he was my dad’s closest relative, so we were gonna get together today and support my dad. My brother’s family had something come up so they didn’t show up and my sister was working late so she got in at like 7.30pm, and was not even showing the slightest bit of empathy when she got there. My siblings are so cold hearted 🙃 But also, I kind of get it, my dad was not exactly the A class parent when we were growing up. And I guess I’m too messed up and have a waaaay to sensitive personality that I care about people no matter what they’ve done to me in the past 🙄🤷🏻‍♀️ Anyway, I think it’s rude to not even care that a person has just lost their closest relative, but idk that’s just me…. But yeah, it was basically my bf and I and obviously my parents, but we had a good time. Kind of nice to not have children running around, we could actually talk for once.

The worst thing though, is I always tend to over eat when I’m at my parent’s. There’s always some kind of pre dinner snacks (today it was chocolate… and I’m on my period which makes it hard to resist). And my mom always makes a whole buffet of foods for dinner, there is never just one dish. And she works soooo hard to make everyone happy and always make sure there is something on the table for everyone. She can spend a whole day in the kitchen just to please everyone. And she is the best person in the world so I don’t wanna make her sad. Today she had made both home made crisp bread and crackers with different kinds of toppings (hummus, tapenade, blue cheese dip etc), sour dough bread with Brie cheese, vegetarian moussaka, Persian rice and several kinds of salad. And obviously there were both marinated chicken AND a meat stew for those in the family who aren’t vegetarian. And after this ginormous meal of course my mom had prepared dessert as well - several kinds of ice cream (even had bought one lactose free one and I’m the only one who is lactose intolerant so it would look weird if I didn’t have at least a little) with fresh berries. I’m so full that my mouth keep filling up with p*ke and as I’ve said before, I’m trying not to p*rge because I don’t wanna get into that sh*t again because it’s so difficult to stop when you start and I don’t wanna mess up my teeth anymore. But this feeling of being full is so disgusting and I feel so n4sty and gr0ss. I just wanna press rewind and have it all undone.

Sorry for the long rant 🙈

[woohooasbats]

sims tag

Thank you @occultpuppy for the tag! In classic Bats fashion, I am filling this out 4 billion years late.

1. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? I used to be hardcore Maxis Match but I am getting into Maxis Mix these days because of the characterization you can achieve with skin details and eyes. 

2. What’s your favourite sims death? Few deaths are as good as the Mummy’s Curse in Sims 3. Honorable mentions go to pufferfish nigiri and deathl-scented flower arrangements for hot babes that do murder.

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? I’ve had a vain sim buy the insta-lean reward before, but I hated the result so I haven’t used it since. Other than that, no.

4. Do you use move objects? Who doesn’t???

5. Favorite mod? I’ve been playing this game waaaay too long to have just one favorite, lol. If I have to choose just one to feature right now… TOOL, maybe? But the Nraas suite from the Sims 3 days is also a contender. 

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? Of all time, Livin’ Large, of course. I usually get the first expansion for each installment of the series. I got all of the Sims 4 expansions at once, though. 

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or Living? Live as in alive. Sorry, folks.

8. Have you made a simself? I tried once but it looked nothing like me. I’m not really a simself kind of player. 

9. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? Come onnnn don’t ask me thisssss. If we’re talking completely from scratch, I have to say Biagio. I think Luisa is a really good-looking sim, but she’s technically based on her Sims 3 counterpart who was born in-game. 

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? If I have to pick just 3 traits from Sims 4, it’s probably Art Lover, Perfectionist, and Jealous.

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? Probably platinum blonde? Or possibly the brown and gray for added townie flavor.

12. Favorite EA hair? I really couldn’t tell you. It’s probably a male hair. A lot of CC male hair is a little too K-pop for my taste.

13. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? I like a healthy mix of both, but I’m bad at building so it gives me anxiety. That’s when I set the game down and walk away for several months. 🙃

14. Favorite life stage? None! I play on really long lifespans and it’s a joy to watch a sim go through them all. 

15. Are you a CC creator? I’ve recolored things for myself and make my own poses, but I don’t follow any quality control so I don’t share them. 

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? Not really. :( Most of my mutuals from the Sims 3 era seem to have retired. Shout out to the people that do consistently interact with my stuff. <3 I’m trying to be more active so I can connect with people again. 

17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4)  They’re all special in their own way! If I have to pick, it’s a toss-up between 2 and 3. Sims 2 had some of the last really EXCELLENT writing of the series, and Sims 3 is still undefeated in terms of sandbox gameplay. 

18. Do you have any sims merch? No, lol. I think I had that USB at one point. No idea what happened to that. 

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? No, but I want one!!

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? I used to play strictly one family legacy-style on normal lifespans, trying to get as many generations as possible. Now I like to take more time with my characters to develop them. Now I play extreeeemely long lifespans and rotate between many families. 

21. What’s your Origin ID? 🏴‍☠️

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? Don’t make me pick, lol. Just scroll my finds blog @batsfinds or my Pinterest.

23. How long have you had a simblr? Since November, 2011 🥲 Fuck, I’m old. 

24. How do you edit your pictures? Gshade + Photoshop/Lightroom

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS BANDS

26. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? I really like Vampires and Cottage Living. 

Thanks for reading! Tagging my love, @veryflirtytransportalate and you, dear reader!

[iknowwhatihavetodo]

For the spilling secrets! 🍎and 🙃

🍎- For something they secretly wish did exist

[[ Social workers and mental health professionals either on the police force or instead of the police force for many things. Norman doesn't talk about it often considering what a small town White Pine Bay is, and considering just how much the cops are involved with his life at this point, but yeah. He's experienced waaaay too many incidents where men with guns and badges showed up instead of what would've truly helped; someone with experience talking to traumatized and mentally ill people, and/or volatile family situations. Norman may not outright say it, but his brain very often just goes 'acab acab acab acab'. It may or may not also have to do with the fact that Mother dated a crooked cop and then married a different one. That may or may not be a very strong factor in this. ]]

🙃- For a lighter, slightly embarrassing secret

[[ Norman still sleeps with one or two stuffed animals when he's alone and feeling particularly upset or insecure. Throughout his life once he hit 13 or so, Norma would have bouts of thinking it was cute and sweet that he still had a stuffed animal, then infrequently-but-volatilely switch to telling Norman it was immature and a possible reason he's never had a steady girlfriend. He tried to give it up, but never fully got rid of the habit. After awhile of the constant back and forth, Norman resigned to keep his stuffed animals in his closet, and only every held onto them in times of EXTREME distress, and ONLY when he knew he was completely alone.

And yes, he apologizes to them for keeping them hidden away so long every time he takes them out. He's not an absolute monster.]]

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