#this feels like. My normal! and nobody else rlly related irl i felt so alienated | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

minnieposting · 5 months ago

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realizing autism genuinely is smth that mightve been affecting me my whole life like RLLY realizing it feels so. strange. not in a bad way but its so??? it feels the same way i did when i realized how insanely ocd was affecting my life when i previously thought it was rlly just thoughts like 'if i do x, y will happen', didnt rlly understand just how complex it was

#its bc ive been becoming rlly close w my friend irl who is autistic and she made me learn sm abt myself #like damn i never rlly had another autistic person to connect with irl in forever #idek if i ever had???#ive befriended tons and tons of other ND folk online but an irl connection just . Idk it was life changing #bc we always talk abt society norms and social cues and how much we mask and how low energy we get #this feels like. My normal! and nobody else rlly related irl i felt so alienated #until i rlly Rlly connected w her....#and realizing how much ive been masking. trying to peel back my layers and be myself again #just making me realize oh . Oh! I am. autistic huh #and my ocd loves screaming at me and convincing me im insane or riddled w brain damage #anakdmdmdmsmdk #minnie post #personal post idk. if i dont make sense sorry but it makes sense to me

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