#this feels like im defusing a bomb

[lollich0p]

"Soft confirmed lesbian" it was a deleted tweet from one writer that no other writers corroborated, it's not any sort of confirmation at all, and chances are valve probably made him delete the tweet because it was misinfo.

it's also uncomfortable that you refer to it as "straight shipping" when (if I'm telling right from the current influx of Sc*utP*uling posts in the tags rn) the person in question headcanons both P*uling and Sc*ut as bisexual, and while I can somewhat agree with the concern of it attracting the wrong people, there were better and less biphobic ways to express that.

(Words censored so they don't show up as keywords in searches, because I figure you might not want that given how some people act about this stuff, slurs and dudebros and stuff)

My public response ig. Firstly I did not mean this to be biphobic I didn't know who i was talking about headcanoned them as bisexual. if we are even talking about the same person. (one of the downsides of being vague lol)

In defense of me saying "Soft confirmed lesbian" sorry for feeding off the scraps that get thrown to me. I didn't know he deleted the tweet either. Also we don't really have any proof one way or the other valve being the ones who made him delete it, i remember him getting a bit of harassment from it back in the day so it could also simply been because of that. (sorry ik thats a big nitpick but like there are other reasons lol) Also saying that it has no weight because none of the other writers said anything about it doesn't really make the tweet more or less proof. Once again I picked my wording carefully, i referred to it as a soft confirmation exactly because he was the only writer to say it. And her being a lesbian doesn't show up solidly in any cannon content. This is like a dumbledore is gay situation but in my opinion less shitty.

And I referred to it as "straight shipping" as that was what the original discourse was called. As sc*ut/p*uling was a very popular straight ship in the tf2 fandom when i first joined, expiration date making it even bigger than it already was. So jay saying he wrote miss p as a lesbian was kind of a big deal and a lot of lesbian fans took it very seriously (myself included for a while). So of course there was a lot of arguing and drama over it. Which kinda tainted the whole ship for me. And seeing the discourse get revived live on my dash with only input from sc*ut/p*uling shippers who were regurgitating the same arguements I and i'm sure other have heard before without any voices from people who HC miss p as a lesbian was annoying so I complained.

TLDR i don't really care one way or another about sc*ut/p*uling it's just a ship and it isn't hurting anyone. I personally just think its kinda mid and the discourse surrounding it is annoying.

Once again I am sorry I didn't mean for my post to come across that way, I was simply frustrated to see a pretty watered down version of the same discourse that been happening on here for years. So i decided to complain about it on my own personal blog with what i hoped to be as little context as possible to have it be brought back to bother the op or myself.

[cosmicaces]

let's talk about pino!

according to the whm booklet, rody's quirk is always active. she isn't always present, though. from what we can see in the movie, pino primarily nests in rody's hair!

so... is there a trend?

obviously she hops out when a strong emotion flares up, but it seems like she's also more likely to be out and about when he's feeling relatively safe/comfortable? she's present when he says goodbye to his siblings, she's present when they're settling down for that first night on the run, she's present when they're in the hotel, etc. etc.

there are only a few times where pino is present during an action scene. the first instance is, of course, during the first chase scene when she flew out to stop deku. she briefly remained out, notifying rody that they were still being chased before disappearing. she appears again when he's going down the rail, disappears, and then comes out of his hair again to check on him after he was almost crushed by falling debris.

pino was not present during the attempted betrayal. after leading deku to him, we can presume that, offscreen, she returned to his hair or went into his hood. the next time she comes out is when rody finally warms up to deku in the cave scene.

it's also worth noting that she is not present during the following villain encounter, only coming out for introductions when their safety was guaranteed.

honestly, the only time we actually see pino in harm's way is during the battle with flect, and that was because rody relied on her to not only signal deku, but to catch the flash drive.

why am i talking about this? well, and this is a far-fetched assumption that's going to get into more headcanon/character interpretation territory, but hear me out:

pino is very similar to something from another property: the daemons from his dark materials. for anyone unaware: daemons are the physical manifestation of a person's soul and take the form of an animal. they mirror the way their human interacts with others and can provide emotional insight into how their human is feeling, which is... like i said before, VERY similar to how pino functions.

with this in mind, one has to wonder if their similarities end there or if, potentially, pino shares some other functionalities as a daemon. namely... if pino gets hurt, can rody feel it?

i know that her main function as a quirk is to articulate rody's feelings. still, her tendency to stay out of harm's way really makes you think, especially since we don't see her get injured at any point. little roughed up, sure! but not injured.

[aro-aizawa]

me, whenever i figure a plot twist in a 20 year old anime: oh wow i am SO big brained rn i am such a genius

me, two minutes later, conpletely blindsided by a major plot twist:

[phagodyke]

what's even more embarrassing is that they're literally doing this to celebrate a mutual friend finishing exams earlier this week like this is not even remotely about me and here I am making it all about myself yet again!!!!! I feel so guilty

[snowcoveredsunflower]

Food delivery drivers: I love u, ur doing the lord's work and ur doing ur best and I appreciate u so much. Please stop leaving drinks and food on the top step right in front of the storm door that swings outward.

[squeakadeeks]

Your art can be really hard to parse because all of the lines are kind of equally thick. Have you ever messed with making the lines on less important forms (ie the internals of the hair) thinner?

at the risk of being kind of an ass...i thought I was already doing this ? (ಥ﹏ಥ)

I really work hard to do variations in line weights for everything unless im going crazy and maybe this isnt actually reading as well as i thought....

also as a heads up- again being sort of an ass, its really common etiquette to not pick apart someone's work unless they explicitly asked for it. this week has been brutal. im not in a good place. getting a comment that i need to fix my art by doing something i thought I was already doing was not something I really wanted to hear, which is part of why I never ask for critiques. I'm not drawing to be good, im drawing to have fun.

[muffinrag]

trying to figure out how to get my roommate to talk to me normalstyle instead of like she's trying to defuse a bomb but i think i'm just making it worse because i'm going autism blunt on her ass instead of couching everything in uwus and lols

[qwimblenorrisstan]

(im back, christmas break is here!!)

tw: mentions of abuse, violence, sexism (but secondary gender), omegaverse dynamics, crying, heavy angst no aftercare (again)

The uncomfortable tension in the room was palpable as they all sat in their usual debriefing room. Usually, the nest was a place for such a personal and volatile topic such as this, but none of them felt worthy of being there now. Not with how they’d treated you.

Soap was tapping his foot against the floor, the pattern uneven and sporadic, until Gaz snapped at him.

“Could you quit it, mate?” It had come out harsher than he’d meant. Soap huffed through his nose but obliged. They were all tense and on edge, their usually oh-so-controlled scents now sour and bitter with unease and anxiety.

In the field, they had their skills and weapons to fix problems, to take out the enemy. But here, back home? They had absolutely nothing in this fight. No amount of backup or fights could win this for them. In this fight, they were the enemy, and the only way to win this was by fixing the sacred little strand keeping you together that they had so carelessly unwound until it had snapped.

Ghost looked to Price. His hand was in his beard, thoughtfully running through the hair, stressed as Ghost has ever seen him. A sour pang of guilt shot through him. If he hadn’t tried forcing you to his scent gland, then you wouldn’t be in this position, and he wouldn’t have messed everything up, again—

“Y’re thinking too much.”

Price muttered, Simon’s feelings clear through the thick scent that somehow seemed to overpower everyone else’s in the air. He swallowed thickly. They needed a plan of action, some way to fix this, and the only way Price saw things being mended was by a lot of time and effort.

Gaz let the silence simmer for a moment, before speaking up.

“Cane Baker Syndrome, I looked it up yesterday night, it’s just like the med’ said. PTSD. Do you think…?”

An alpha being abused wasn’t as commonplace as it had used to be. Only 50 years ago, if you’d stepped into the common era, you’d see alpha’s being forced to work for a family they’d been forced into providing, their protective instincts abused. Among the more insane practices had been scratching out an alpha’s scent gland, so they couldn’t scent or get attached to their offspring, meaning the omega got the child all to themselves.

Awful things such as that had been outlawed years ago, but still happened in little forgotten corners of the world where loopholes existed.

“We can’t know for sure, but based on their reaction, I’d say we have a safe assumption. When they’re in a better….state of mind, we can ask a few questions.”

Price answered, voice heavy with an edge of guilt that seemed to grow richer by the second. Soap’s incessant tapping started up again, anxiety clearly chewing away at him. He couldn’t defuse you or the situation they’d created so easily like any other bomb he might during a mission.

“Could we get a background check on them?”

He asked, a hint of desperation in his tone. All he wanted was for you to be better again, for things to go back to normal, for a second chance.

But as they all split up, and he went to the nest, usually all so warm and comfortable and smelling of their sweet, rich scents combined, all he found was isolation among his team, sour scents mingling with rotten ones, a few sniffles and the salty scent of tears, he knew one thing.

They’d made their bed. Now they had to lie in it.

(sorry for the short part I’ve been playing cod bo6 multiplayer a lot and I’m kinda addicted + depressive episode, but there’ll be more soon I promise!!)

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5

[sirquacklesdefoof]

why does fixing a dropped stitch make me feel like im defusing a fucking bomb

[northsealight]

how do you think Jason (or ak!jason) sees relationships in general? like would he be the type to have one night stands and dip LMFAOAOAO or does he need to be friends with someone first before pursing a romantic relation?? thoughts that bounce in my head :)

YOUR MIND. OHHHH YOUR MIND.

this is a thing I think about. SO MUCH . and im so excited to answer from an analytical AND wishful thinking lens

so. as much as the one night stand Jason imagines are fun to read (and write I bet!) I think any iteration of Jason avoids one night stands because of the THICK thick emotional barriers surrounding him- your honor in every universe he is a ticking time bomb that literally can only be defused over an immense amount of time (im just going to ignore RHATO!Jason because he is not real and quite literally the worst version of him) obviously he gets turned on but like. he doesn't do anything about it.

even making friends is hard because friends require. so so so much energy- I think he's gonna need to know a lot about you before he falls head over heels. being friends and CLOSE friends is like a guarantee before he thinks of you in that way!

but imagine the romance of it all... you getting used to his silence and slowly picking up on his body language- drumming his fingers on a surface means he's anxious, leaning all his weight on one side of his body means he's impatient, so on and SO FORTH! things that you never would have picked up over time if you weren't his friend first!!!

it's so charming how he slowly opens up to you too- one day he's telling you about how he actually sat down to watch that one movie you were raving about three months ago, and while he's talking you're stunned and thinking, 'did I tell him that? when did I tell him that?'

he's making an effort to trust you more as well-(which, in my humble opinion, is the biggest thing to him) he's actively forming plans to see you out in broad daylight, even if it's a ten minute walk with you to the grocery store or something. and maybe it's standing in the produce aisle with you crying with laughter over your dumb Jennifer Coolidge impression or maybe its the stupid fluorescent lights making his head feel foggy; but there is a quiet moment when Jason realizes that he's laid all his cards on the table, bare for you to see.

or something.

[kurishiri]

This could be a weird take but do you ever get the feeling that Darius doesn’t exactly fit the mold of an otome game man? Like idk how to explain it but his actions sometimes lean less towards romantic and more towards his own agenda and nefarious acts? This makes less sense the more I type but it’s just the feeling I get from him which is gonna make his route all the more exciting. Thanks for all your hard work and translations for this shady guy!!

hii anon! thank you for reading my silly translations as well; it really does mean a whole lot to me ❤︎

and tbh, i dont think your take is a hot one at all. i do agree with you, im more than sure we two are not the only one in this boat. (though im unsure too — don’t quote me, as i also kinda dont know v well how the en side thinks of darius sometimes. do they like him? not like him? i’m curious to know!)

my thoughts on darius’ “love” ↓

i have mentioned this before, but despite what darius says, i think he is capable of love. he shows some signs of this in the story itself, but the fact he is introduced as a love interest proves this objectively, as those incapable of love would inherently be unable to play the role of a love interest of an otome game. but i cant deny his way of “love” is just…inherently warped, and it feels so rooted in him that its questionable whether “true love” could remedy it. whether that’s due to his trauma or curse (or maybe both), im not sure, but he does give me the vibe of someone where the relationship just grows more gnarly and twisted as time goes on. it feels like hes a walking ticking bomb. one that, if kate doesnt defuse it first, she will end up broken by his hands.

but also if and when they do get into a relationship, i can’t imagine darius showing love in a very conventional way either. i think smth interesting to think abt is that, in his jealousy bond story, he says smth like bad children get a punishment and good children a reward. somehow, i think that sort of almost black and white philosophy will play into their love. though i cant really say how. (and maybe i will be completely wrong too,,!)

im sure things will be made at least a little more clear in his route anyhow!

also hmm…idk if youre familiar with this game, but in an otome game called piofiore no banshō, theres a character named yang, who also very clearly doesnt fit into the typical otome love interest. but if you have played that game and his route, yang is also capable of love, and yk he loves lili by the (best) end, but his love toward her doesnt change the fact that he is brutal, is ok with killing, etc. it definitely does not make him any more romantic lmao, and you never hear him once say the words “i love you” in a genuine sense. i would say darius may, in some ways, be comparable…?

[beescrafting]

New idea??

Ok so its not a drawing like I've done for the past few writing idea's I've had (art block's gotten me in a choke hold today to the point I cannot draw)

But here me out.

Soap isn't fully human.

In the tunnel when Makarov shoots soap (damn it the evil twinks out again) and the 141 have to leave to go defuse some bombs, that whole thing happens.

but when they go back for soap's body, *It's gone*.

Ghost is beyond distressed at that. His Johnny's body, his johnny, is fully gone now... and for what? where did they take him?

Price radio's to laswell saying what happened.

Gaz is kicking makarov's body which remained in place, he's venting his anger out shh.

Months go by... Mission after mission life goes 'back to normal'. As normal as it could be when you miss the bomb of the party.

Ghost is back to being the old ghost, cold, quiet, fuckin scary.

Price is more tough on the soldiers he leads, more determined to train them so they wouldn't be killed in action.

Gaz has grown a cold shoulder just like Ghost, because that was his brother man. A brother from another mother.

One mission though unnerves ghost. He swears someone or something is following and watching him.

This happens over and over again, ghost growing even more paranoid over time before Price pulls him back telling him to take some time off.

Ghost has no other choice than to agree, or risk being let go.

Ghost takes time off.. At first he stays at his house, its not his house... its a safe house.. a house that mocks him reminding him of his childhood.

It hurts him.

Until some idea hits ghost in the back of the head like that bullet hit soap.

He should go to Scotland. Visit those lands Soap grew up in. Maybe that'd bring him some peace. (it won't nothing ever will be enough for him.)

On his trip to scotland, somehow price and gaz join him (most likely due to ghost saying that in a check in cause you know damn well price is like 'im not losing another damn soldier this fuckin year') they are staying in this small town, soaps home town, it barely has a population of 300.

It helps the heartache.. visiting places that Johnny use to walk.

But Ghost swears he keeps seeing Johnny in those crowds.. in the shadows, watching him.

Hell even Gaz and Price are starting to feel watched.

One night, on a hunters night with the moon full with glory at the height of the night, Ghost finds himself in a forest...

And his Johnny is right infront of him.

chuckling saying, "Did ye miss me Simon?"

[ceilidho]

do you have any tips for amateur writers who are just stepping onto the scene? like for example i struggle with how to make sentences flow right, etc. i have so many ideas but i struggle to put them down. any advice? 💖

all jokes aside, i think there's no "right way" to get into writing. for me, i started when i was in grade 5 and i wrote the most batshit, unhinged, god awful stories in my notebooks that i would inflict like a punishment on my 5th grade teacher so she could correct it and give me feedback.

i think some new writers would do very well with taking a more step-by-step approach to writing, and start with rigid outlines and not putting too much unnecessary detail or poetic elements into their fics (like just get the skeleton of the story down on paper and slowly add more and more to zhuzh it up).

while other new writers might do better with a more chaotic approach - like write the exact scene in your head and stick to prompts/short drabbles before you slowly begin to try your hand at longer fics. it totally depends on the person, but i think you owe it to yourself to try both and see what works best for you.

(got a bit long, so added more below)

i, for instance, am in the latter camp (chaotically just writing short scenes and slowly adding more) because i used to try outlining long stories and then i'd wind up completely abandoning them because the amount of work i could see ahead of me would freak me out. i think writing short prompts actually helped my writing flourish the most!! (prompt accounts on twitter are the BEST for this imo).

flow is a tough quality to give tips on because it's an intuitive thing but it's also based on your style. one big tip i can give, and i don't know if this will be of help to you but it was a huge realization for me, is that most people tend to miss how big of an impact format can have.

what i mean by that is, if you're writing a road trip or a long winding journey, you can evoke that feeling by having your sentences be long and serpentine, like you're mirroring the characters on the trip. versus, in a tense scene (idk, maybe the character is defusing a bomb or doing something that requires precision and concentration), short, clipped sentence might elicit that feeling better. it's not just what you're writing but how you write, if that makes sense.

but when you're just starting, the top things to focus on are:

what are the characters physically doing

what are they thinking (if you want to write a more internal perspective; you can also stick to third-person objective narration, aka no internal dialogue)

expressions on their faces

what's in the room/space around them (useful for descriptions, setting the scene, and also doing a little "chekhov's gun" if you want - showing something that might become more important later)

i hope this helps!!! that "idk how to get this out and put it on paper" feeling never really goes away lmao if im being honest, but that's part of it. you're constantly learning and improving!!

[sunflowercider]

its truly amazing how a conversation i added to my fic because i thought it would be cute and silly has rapidly become one of the most important exchanges in my entire damn fic, the crux on which the whole thing resolves

you should see me picking at the exact way this convo goes. i feel like im defusing a bomb

[dogcoding]

for one of my classes this semester i have to make a presentation about an old story from my country right. so i chose george and the dragon. and i literally feel like im defusing a bomb right now trying to pick an image for one of my slides that isn't vore art

[transxfiles]

Bailor as a fellow dyke that for some reason people see & go "oh boy I can put all my eggs in THAT one basket!" - run

TRUST. TRUCK. SHAKES YOU BY THE SHOULDERS. I AM ACTIVELY FINDING A WAY OUT OF THIS SITUATION BUT I FEEL LIKE IM DEFUSING A BOMB.