#this dude evil-monologued all his dastardly plans to a guy he thought he hypnotized. thats so funny. what is wrong with him

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Jamil for the character bingo?

i got bingo guys haha (guy who is so fucking abnormal about jamil viper)

okay so this is really funny considering i didn't give a shit about jamil the first time i played. well i did but i definitely cared more the second time around. now im like actually insane about him and it's like. nobody gets it. its so fucked up. imagine growing up internalizing that it doesn't matter how skilled you are or how talented you are because to everyone else, your life is secondary to the people you serve. he was told indirectly all his life that because of his status, his wants and needs weren't important, at least not in comparison to kalim's, and to some extent, the safety of his family. he puts so many other people before himself and the thing is. he's not naturally a selfless person like that. he has ambitions and he wants, so strongly, and it's like Killing himself to suppress that urge to take more than he's allowed in order to put kalim first. and he does it over and over again until it almost becomes instinctual to give what he feels Should be his to kalim

i have. a lot of thoughts on jamil and his relationship w death as someone who's supposed to be willing to risk his life for kalims safety (see: jamil acting as kalims poison tester even after falling into a coma after eating poisoned curry) but idk i feel like im getting too rambly already. really filling out that Ten Hour Speech box on the bingo LOL

anyways. mommy/daddy issues are ? because jamil. definitely has some family related issues! its complicated. he wouldn't punch me if i tried to hug him but he definitely wouldn't appreciate it too much. i wouldn't take a bullet for him Or kill anyone who hurts him he can do that shit himself perfectly fine ♥️