#this bday post have grammatical errors but oh well i was tearing up while i wrote this

[thedisguisedaltruism]

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They say, “you can tell a person from how they celebrate birthdays”, and I thought it’s selfish how they established this wild perception over a certain day.

See? I think of birthdays as another staple day in our lives. The difference?

1. Preparations, and it’s either grandiose or simple.

2. It’s an eventful day to extend gratitude to people who acknowledged your certain existence date.

And I’ve changed. I admit that through the passing time, my enthusiasm for birthdays have been declining, for I thought how useless it is to be blissful in a limited, fleeting moment.

Another thing they used to lecture people who never appreciate birthdays is how we should be grateful that we were given another year to prove ourselves, relish moments, and meet people who might make us believe that life has always been this worthwhile, like everything’s a first time.

Well, it doesn’t actually hurt to admit that they made a point.

…Especially when you’re one of them.

I have no idea how you had me wrapped around your finger for nearly two years (excluding the months of denial when you made me emotionally disintegrate with your Spider release, don’t make me recall it).

‘Til lately, ideas and realizations have been slowly (yet surely) dawning upon me.

I’ve been constantly living in gray and forceful sunshines. Meanwhile, you’re the paragon of enigma and vibrance.

Overthinking is my mantra. Assurance and gratefulness is your language, despite how I thought it’s your jargon.

…Or maybe, it’s just me and my hard-headed philosophy in holding grudges and the intensed dwelling on the pasts, but you’re naturally bringing in so much comfort, warmth, and positivity wherein no matter how life turns out, you always tell us that it’s okay to feel disoriented but never forget to be thankful all the time.

When you wrote about waiting for the members to greet you on weverse or your group chat as the first thing to check on your birthday, I found it ridiculous yet adorable in the first read.

But knowing how your fascinating mind works, I realized that perhaps, I should enjoy my birthday (starting next year!) for it is a celebration of life.

Another milestone.

And I should be proud of that, despite the crises and trenches.

Continue being a great role model, Soonyoung. You have always been an exceptional artist and performer, but as a person, I’m beyond happy that you stood grounded with your healthy philosophy and mindset, and never looked down on your humble beginnings. You are always worthy to be boasted for.

Happy birthday! You deserve more success, and an abundance of happiness and good health. 🩷🐯