#this and the prove it scene are everything to me. like MY personal nerosporus actually.

[gemsofthegalaxy]

seriously i mean this for real, "Just- I haven't seen you smile in like 6 hours" is an underrated line, like. you don't say shit like that to someone you don't at least consider a friend i think?? and i feel like Tom vehemently hated hearing that someone would notice something like that and call him out on it. This, after weeks on end of him repeatedly pleading for Shiv to care he might be going to prison, and never finding out the things she did do to keep him safe, leaving him feel so absurdly unloved.

then Greg notices he hasn't smiled in hours and asks him why.

Tom insists he IS happy but reacts so poorly in the next couple minutes, and yet Greg never stops trying. when Tom brings it up again being like "wow gee Greg you really are happy what the fuck is up with that", Greg is like "Uh. Tom, we can both be happy?" and then Tom insists he can't because Greg ruined it by- what, talking about having a date with a girl? TOM! like. come on.

What does that say other than he's jealous of Greg, and maybe it's just at the idea that Greg might end up in a more functional relationship than his own, if not straight up jealous because he wants Greg romantically. i think, at the very least, he's upset that Greg's attention is being pulled from him.

Yet moments prior Greg just tried to ask how he was he basically tells him to fuck off, like, Tom. my darling? his attention was just on you and you rebuffed him, but you're pissed at him for talking about someone else.

the thing is, I do think Tom does recognize what he has in Greg and his own depth of feelings in return just........ scares the shit of out him. Especially in this scene and "you've ruined [my happiness]" like. Tom's damned if he does, damned if he doesn't when it comes to Greg. Can't see him be with other people, can't have him for himself.