#this also ties into why kirnet refuses to identify as a jedi anymore. she cant tell if shes too good for it or not good enough for the title

[kirnet]

ive been thinking a lot about kirnet’s relationships with the jedi masters, especially the way that they change from pre-war to kotor 2. She idolized Kavar, even when she was hurt that he never officially took her on as a padawan. She generally admired zez-kai ell and wished more of the council had his introspection. And Vrook was, well, Vrook. Yes, she had some level of respect for him, but she fundamentally disagreed with him on everything and hated his lack of action during the wars.

But in k2 these just completely flip. She gets along with Kavar just fine, their reunion is more bitter than sweet, but now SHE is the famed Jedi general. SHE is the war hero, not Kavar. She’s just surpassed him in so many ways. I’m pretty sure he has a line about wishing that he trained them as a guardian (or, if they are a guardian, that he was glad they chose that path). But where once Kirnet would have reveled in the praise, she’s just saddened by it. Saddened by seeing the state he’s in. She’s outgrown him, in a way.

And she’s furious at Zez-Kai. He’s the one who was the most sympathetic to the Revanchist, the one most willing to promote action, and yet he watches Nar Shaddaa suffer and does nothing. The apathy sickens her. And Kirnet understands where he’s coming from, of course she does. She just dragged herself out of a shitty decade long exile where she didn’t help anyone. But she still can’t stop the vitriol and disappointment she feels towards Zez-Kai. Lichterally the MOMENT Kirnet connected to the Force again she was begrudgingly pulling Jedi level stunts and was trying to save the miners on Peragus. She just can’t understand the fact that Zez-Kai had the Force the whole time and yet he refuses to use it.

And Vrook somehow becomes her favorite? Sure, she still doesn’t like him, and annoying it is still her fave pass time. But Vrook is actually trying to help Khoonda. Even giving himself up to the mercs is a form of passive action, in a way. And Kirnet respects that! It’s the most action (from her biased POV) that she’s ever seen Vrook take to help people. So even though he annoys her she comes out with a newfound respect and tolerance for him.