#this Was inspired by the fact that if anyone gave him kisses he'd explode but im self conscious all of a sudden so thatll stay in the tags

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Mmm thinking abt the engines /human again. My James is so prideful in his appearance and thus presents himself Perfectly but it leaves him covered from the neck down bc Body Issues and thus casual touch does Not look the same for him ans hes so brave about it (lie). If aomeone pulled a glove off then held his hand he'd melt. If someone touched his face he does not want to know the kind of sound he'd make.

James in general is in my brain so much right now because he presents himself as loud and obnoxious and self assured and perfect and Ever So Splendid and yet the façade fails anyway bc everyone who knows him well knows he is not self assured at all. Which would make a hell of a feedback loop because he knows people must know he's a fraud like that but he can't let his guard down because then he really Will be too self-conscious but it's clear it is an act and-

And then the people who don't know him well will either take the façade at face value and go wow that engine is full of himself, how unpleasant, and one way or other, James isolates himself. Because the only thing that'd fix him is sincerity. But he's allergic to it. Ok im normal again.