#thinking about what i want to write for a zine rn and. all my thoughts r about anna being transfem

[quietwingsinthesky]

trans woman anna. that is all.

[twinkboimler]

20 Questions for Fic Writers!

Tagged by @m-b-w, thank you!

Questions are answered under the cut!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

58 works

2) What's your total AO3 word count?

693,141 words

3) What fandoms do you write for?

Right now, only Star Trek; while my focus tends to be on TOS, AOS, and SNW, I'm open to writing for other trek series and will when the inspiration strikes! Previously, I've written a fair amount for MST3K and Anne with an E.

4) Top 5 fics by kudos?

Imagining Something Worthwhile - AWAE Oddly Unexpected, Oddly Charming - AWAE Hush - AWAE Heaven Help The Fool Who Falls In Love - AWAE An Endless Stream of Tomorrows - TOS

(lmao, can you tell I was writing AWAE fic as the show was airing? I think that was the only fandom I've written for while a fandom was at it's peak popularity)

5) Do you respond to comments?

Not always and I do feel bad about that. I try my best when the comment is especially sweet or lengthy, but I've got about 10 unread comments in my inbox right now that I haven't replied to because too much time has passed and it feels like it's too late

6) What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

with trembling hands, my SNW Spock/Pike fic that has a sad ending. Super happy with how angsty that fic ends tbh I really wanted to write a fic for Spock/Pike that tackled how Pike would end their relationship as the radiation stuff was quickly approaching

7) What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I've posted so many fluffy oneshots that it's kinda hard to choose. An Endless Stream of Tomorrows is definitely high on that list

8) Do you get hate on fics?

Not really. The closest I get in the trek fandom are comments correcting me on some lore in my fics. Which, sure, is sometimes nice and useful, but sometimes I don't really need a "um, actually--" on a 1000 word fluff fic

9) Do you write smut?

Yes, and I'm finally at the point where I really 1) enjoy writing smut and 2) think I'm getting good at it

10) Do you write crossovers?

I have one, and I so RARELY get to talk about it because it was written for me and like two friends. Night Shift is my crossover fic: it's Spike from BTVS X Gambit from X-Men (and apparently it has 21 kudos??? who are you people reading this crack ship???). Anyway, Gambit and Spike hook up and through a series of misunderstandings, they end up on a roadtrip/fleeing a murder scene together. Spike thinks Gambit is a demon, and Gambit has no idea Spike is a vampire. I'm realizing I haven't reread this fic since I posted it, which is WILD because this is such a self-indulgent fic, so I'm going to go read that now

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope, but people are free to do so! Just credit the original work :)

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yep! Between You and Me (AWAE) was such an interesting project to work on! There was a group of about 13 of us, and we all had a week to read the previous chapter and write our own chapters to continue the story. I'd love to do something like that again

14) What's your all-time favorite ship?

Spike/Buffy, but funnily enough, I don't have a strong drive to read fic for them. I'm satisfied with how the show handles their relationship arc and haven't really had to resort to reading fic because of that

15) What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

I don't post wips that I don't intend to finish. I've got a few wips in my docs that may never be finished of course, but on AO3 my only wip rn is Place Your Hand In Mine, my AOS academy-era mckirk fic, and I fully intend to finish that one; other fics (trektober, zines fics, etc) just got in the way

16) What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and smut

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

Still trying to be a more concise writer; I'd love to be able to say more with less words

18) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

I haven't taken a language course in 5+ years. I think if I had to I could write some simple French dialogue, but not without doing a lot of studying to make sure I was saying what I meant

19) First fandom you wrote for?

On AO3, X-Men. IRL? when I was 12 the only person I knew who wrote fic was writing Youtuber fanfic, so I tried that out for a short stint before immediately shifting to Doctor Who

20) Favorite fic you've ever written?

what remains unsaid. I don't think it's my best fic, but it does hit all the beats for what I often look for in fic, so it's doing everything that I want in a story. What really draws me to some of the TOS Movies is how they deal with themes of parenthood and Jim never really fitting into the role of father and being very aware that he doesn't fit that role. I just really love that he's shown as having faults, like yeah, he wasn't a father to David and he knows that. This fic is in a 5+1 Things format exploring Jim's relationship (or lack of) to David. It's not a ship fic; it was just a chance for me to explore those themes and really dive into Jim's head.

TAGGING: @antspaul @ladywaffles @diabeticjedi @gunstreet @borbtrek and anyone else who would like to do it, feel free to say I tagged you!

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

tag game :-)

tagged by @sophieswundergarten . sort of. i did it on my ted lasso blog i hope you dont mind :)

what's the origin of your blog title? i'm going to assume "title" is url and not the like, little header text. it's just a pun because i love trent and puns and also i think he's gorgeous

favorite fandoms : well, currently ted lasso, but the mysterious benedict society continues to hold a special place in my heart

OTP(s) + shipname : uhhh my current top ships are tedependent and roytrent, but nicholas/milligan (tmbs) also of course sneak into my brain and my old beloved malec (shadowhunters tv only not the other version) will always hold a special stubborn little place in my heart. also, the doctor/river. love them so much

favorite color : hmm dark greens with warm undertones, but like, that kind of forest/jewel green not olive/army you know

favorite game : ohhh that's so hard. hollow knight, disco elysium, the legend of zelda: breath of the wild, and pokemon mystery dungeon: explorers of sky are probably the top ones, but i also love bug fables: the everlasting sapling, turnip boy commits tax evasion, goat simulator 3, minecraft, the legend of zelda: phantom hourglass, the legend of zelda: link between worlds, new pokemon snap, pokemon platinum, a short hike, haunt the house: terrortown, and so so many more. i'm a big video games fan. i'm also currently obsessively playing hello kitty island adventure which is fun

song stuck in your head : uhhhh nothing right now but i think the last one was like. maybe "Bad Memories" with MEDUZA, or "SATANIC PANIC" by IDKHOW? Oxford Blood (Autoheart)? I can't remember

weirdest habit/trait? ummmm my whole personality probably. idk man i'm a weird little man i can't think of any particular specific habit other than my lack of filter i guess. uhh i dont like hot drinks usually, even tea, despite half my family being british? and i really really love soda. oh, i can't drive despite being in my twenties lol

hobbies : oh mostly artsy shit. writing, drawing, comics, zines, beading (mostly bracelets and lizards), stickers, that kind of thing. also: video games. mostly playing, but i dabble in making/design also

if you work, what's your profession? no job rn :( got into an MFA program i'll hopefully be starting soon though!

if you could have any job you wish what would it be? hmmm. either creating something (like making my own dream game, writing a book, directing or acting in a tv show, maybe even running a youtube channel or podcast) or like, just something simple but fulfilling that didn't leave me exhausted for my free time. that pays well. you know

something you're good at : writing, i like to think

something you're bad at : um, gender. taking compliments/praise. not having really intense feelings over things that dont matter. typing on mobile phone

something you love : stuffed animals and soft pillows. soda, particularly colas with weird fruity flavors (currently drinking blackberry dr pepper lol) although pibb xtra will always be a fave. loaded fries. hand-cut fries (not loaded)

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff : hmmm any of my beloved case of the week shows (there are too many to list), TMBS, trent crimm

something you hate : people being stupid/wrong in a way that is annoying to me specifically but i know isn't a big deal so i just have to simmer with it and the intense feeling of wanting to correct them somehow but like i'm not a dick so i don't do that but like i'm just simmering in it going hhhhh>:(

something you collect : pins, pens, magnets, beads, stickers, keychains. i love me some little trinkets

something you forget : everything, always, all the time

what's your love language? ummm idk. love languages are kind of bullshit but they're fun to talk about anyway and i guess it'd be like. thoughtful actions and gift giving you know. i do love little gifts i cant help it and people being thoughtful and helping you for no reason is just really nice

favorite movie/show : oh man, i have no idea. there are too many good ones that i rewatch all the time, or ones that are bad but im super attached to one character, or whatever. i can't really decide.

favorite food : fries, particularly either hand-cut fries cooked just right (a little crispy but not crunchy) or like fries loaded in some interesting way (not just slapping cheese and bacon on). also see: cajun/spicy burger with mayo

favorite animal : uhhhh so many good choices. cats. frogs. moths. lizards. dogs. birds. etc. i cant choose im sorry. can i cheat and say dragon for now

are you musical? oh yeah! i haven't played the flute in ages so i'd probably be bad at it but i love to sing

what were you like as a child? extremely annoying, alternating between loud hyper little ball of garish colors (attempted class clown, but too annoying to other children to truly succeed) and extremely quiet forgettable little know-it-all bookworm (attempted teachers' pet, but too annoying to adults to truly succeed)

favorite subject at school? uhh, english and art

least favorite subject? biology, probably

what's your best character trait? i like to think i'm kind and helpful and maybe even funny

what's your worst character trait? i can be selfish and spiteful even if it's mostly internal, and also annoying & persistent when i don't catch a hint. and since i can't really read people well i consistently don't catch the hint. and the not reading people means i also often get defensive and read hostility where it might not be

if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be? a delicious meal that isn't leftovers

if you could travel in time who would you like to meet? oh, i have no clue. i think someone random. not anyone famous, just an everyday (but hopefully nice) person from a chosen period

recommend one of your favorite fanfics (spread the love!) :

oooh only one?? here, let's. i will settle for three

to seek solace by @andillwriteyouatragedy

slowly, gently, with love by @fade-in-the-dark

Just like bull riding by @itsonlydana

tagging: uhhhhhhhh anyone. who wants to. bc im lazy

[zenkitsune]

Time Is Moving So Fast + Random Thoughts ₊✩‧₊˚౨ৎ˚₊✩‧₊

Time is moving soooo fast. It always had for me, but there's so many things happening everyday and so many things to come and I'm having a delightful stressful time catching up ‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡🪐༘⋆

I haven't been writing down stuff on here or in my journal for what seems like forever cause my brain is empty and every hour of the day feels like 5 minutes (except at my retail job 💀) BUT NOW on this Sunny Sunday (at the time of writing this) I will use my click-clack keyboard to share random stuff cause why not <3

I made a post on Instagram the other day about the collection of "Work in Progress" works that I have... really put things into perspective 😭 Thankfully, since I feel kinda alive this weekend, I have worked on one and then some of my wips. One being my copic Haikyu illustration.

I don't use copics a lot, but I want to use them more and ooohhhhhh boi aren't they an experience 💀 I messed up big time on the curtains and to fix them, I cut out the curtains and taped the illustration to a blank piece of another Bristol board and started over. I would've cried if I messed up that 2nd piece XD I'm happy I finally finished this piece though because it took a while (also because I ran out of ink in some markers... copics expensive why did I do this to myself-)

I also redesigned a cover I did for a comic I made a few years ago, I really like it, but the text hurts my soul and I really gotta figure out a fun and comfortable way for my to digitally color.

2025

2023

Today, I was gonna continue to work on my 2nd volume of my zine series "Otome for my Sins" (and I did work on it a little), but I also gathering some artwork I have to see what I would like to sell at art markets. I really want to start to vendor at places, but I always don't think I have nothing that people would want or have anything at all. But I think I have a few decent stuff that I've made recently that I can probably start off with selling, hopefully. Now I just gotta do research (again) with manufacturing prints and stickers.

For prints, I plan to use Mixam, I just gotta fix my files up so the print quality will be nice. As for stickers, that gonna be something I'll have to work on a lot more 😭 I also plan to sell my zines, that's why I really gotta work on my next volume.

As I am typing this, I have hope and motivation, but most days lately I have none of that x.x That's why things have been a struggle. However, one day at work, I was rambling about how I need to find a new hyperfixation (cause I'm just floating with nothing to focus on rn), but my coworker told me that I gotta hyperfixate on my art... AND SHE'S SO RIGHT 😭😭😭 That has stuck with me for the past few days, so I really gotta keep this in mind. NO MORE SCROLLING ON MERCARI, FACEBOOK MARKET PLACE, DEPOP, AND R/MANGASWAP!!!

I think that's all for my rambles for now :3

[bratzboykai]

These tags intrigued me, I have more thoughts (not confrontational or anything just fascinated by difference of experience)

Cause like I definitely don't think fandom was better circa 2012-2018??? when I was involved more deeply in fandom. I think if you're a person of color in fandom the experience then or now is especially always going to be shit and it's going to feel like wading in the fucking trenches. I think fandom culture has always been rotten as long as you got white people being the most vocal majority. And I think the one improvement we've made is that the discussion on adults behavior towards minors and about media about or containing minors, about racism, about other awful shit is now out in the open at a bigger scale. There were always people willing to talk about these things, but the likelyhood of them being drowned out by harrassment and especially racism was like on a different level, like its STILL absolutely happens and I still see it happen but I think a lot of people now have at the very least much bigger spaces to have these convos, especially amongst ourselves as targets of said fandom racism, ableism, etc. But the downside of this is that the people who HAVE gotten called out for shit are ALSO much more openly aggressive and shameless, especially towards minors and poc.

BUT like what I was referring to in my original post as something I "enjoyed" is the balance of fandom related content OUTSIDE and beside fan fiction specifically on tumblr. From my experience, it felt like a pretty balanced ratio of fanfic, fan art, gifsets, giveaways, meta discussion, fan projects like zines, etc cause they were always on my dash plain as day, literally never had to look for it and when I did it was easy to find. I even still have mutuals from those days and they too notice the change!

It wasn't like now, where you practically have to scroll past 20 pages of badly tagged fan fiction. It was always a nice mix of stuff; a fanfic here, a gifset there, a sprinkling of fan art, etc Now it's like can't go into a single interest without at least scrolling past 15 posts in a row of PURE fan fic before you find maybe one piece of fan art sanwhiched between the next ten. I literally have to put additional tags (for example rn let's say you have to be like "miguel o'hara, art, fan art" + show pictures only feature) to find specific things AND EVEN THEN fan fiction will still clog my results because tumblr picks up on the gifs, screencaps, photos, etc. people use to decorate or draw attention to their fan fic for some reason.

So it's like there absolutely is a saturation in fandoms focus on fanfiction and as someone else said in the tags, I think the general epidemic of faster hollower consumption of all things, including media and art, has both contributed to so much of that oversaturation and produced work thats not so fucking great! I mean back in the day you still had people absolutely writing very weak to badly written work, don't get me wrong, but finding and tracking down works with a substantial amount of thought into the original narratives and characterizations of their inspiration, of trying to improve their literary skills, working with editors, OF BEING OPEN TO CRITIQUE, was so much more likely! And the middle of the road stuff wasn't a complete loss either.

Like to me there is just such an apparant change in the ratio of content and quality produced in fandom and now that I think about it like the sense of idk an actual creative community?? The only time I see people really rally is when anybody has actual critique on fandom culture or on someone in fandoms behaviour. Like I mentioned before people used to get together all the time and do like collaborative fics, online zine projects, giveaways of merch they'd made or copies of things they didn't need anymore/wanted to share, other art projects like tarot decks, etc as a fun way to engage with each other. Some of these fun things absolutely still exist but they're usually done in much smaller scales and in smaller fandoms I'm in and they dont happen quite as much. Of course theres other reasons the reduction in these projects has happened (aka disastrous scams lol) but it's interesting that its fallen out of style among fan spaces, I see it more in specificically LGBT spaces that say, people get together to make a zine. Fandom now seems very very disconnected in some particular way now on here that I cant quite put into words that really doesnt feel as capable of enjoyment??? Enjoyment now comes from SUPER curating who and what you're interacting with instead of like more of a casual pick and choose, steady flow of variable content.

[inkats]

Thnak u 4 da tag :3

Name: make one up surprise me.

Pronouns: whoever I’m into at the time’s. Alternatively ever interaction w me roll a dice even she odd him.

Star Sign: Aries also.

# of siblings and fun facts about them (if you have any): a little sister. she’s taller than me. And more like my mom 💭💭

# of pets and their names: never ever have I ever had one and recently I’ve gotten like really anxious about the thought of having one. I’ll kill it or I’ll kms. I think.

Fandom(s): idk man. My ocs. Everyone I follow’s ocs. I used to be into genshin I still interact w that. Anime tm. I like. Tgcf. I like. Comics so many comics. Ask me about a comic.

Favourite color: man I keep. Accidentally skipping questions. It’s green. Obviously

Favourite song: rn it’s I never told you what I do for a living.

Favourite author (of anything readable-- books, fanfics, zines, webtoon, whatever): I used to be super into Frances hardinge when I was reading middle grade she’s still so epic. I’m really enjoying tamysn muirs writing but also I’m not reading a lot of novels nowadays 💭💭 I like all the stuff moscareto’s written for in regards to. Ahem. Bl comics .. and niyama theyre both v good… I don’t go into authors whole backlogs a lot anymore / reading a lot of debut works recently so I don’t have. Definite favourites. I need to start reading more.

Hobbies: drawing and uhm. Reading comics. And attempting to write comics. Reading in general. Listening to music worse and less skilled than you (general). Thinking about drawing. I don’t have a lot going on T.T

Favourite fic type: I like fluff and I like whump. I like when they take the guys and make the characters their own. I like cool epic full aus with world and character building and also. pwp. I contain multitudes.

Favourite holiday: hm. well. hm. I like getting presents I guess ones where I get presents.

Do you have any partners? (Romantic, qpr, anything!): hey does rinnie count he’s like basica—

Fun fact about you/ anything fun you wanna share: I’m #boring. I have a collectors heart. That’s my fun fact.

tagging uhm. @bmpmp3 @starredforlife and @vampyr-bats ? if any of u want.

I was tagged by the lovely @bogbutteronmycroissant thank you so much! I'm making it in a separate post bc that one was too long!

• Name: Vinnian or Moony

• Pronouns: They/Him

• Star Sign: Aries

• # of siblings and fun facts about them (if you have any): none, I do have too many step sibling and the fun fact is that we all hate our whore of a father

• # of pets and their names: 1 and he is called Custard

• Fandom(s): Fnaf, undertale, deltarune, black survival: immortal soul, sims4, trolls, the hunger games, ddadds, my little pony, the amazing world of gumball, total drama island, black butler, death note, my friends' ocs, too many others...

• Favourite color: the icon, the queen, the goddess herself: Purple

• Favourite song: (just one??)(ok fine) Hard drive

• Favourite author (of anything readable-- books, fanfics, zines, webtoon, whatever): my friend @just-a-wholesome-writer I love his style of writing so much it's insane, he writes these sweet short stories that are easy for me to get into

• Hobbies: drawing, painting, sculpting, writing, cooking, sewing and anything artistic really

• Favourite fic type: Darkfics and angst and comfort

• Favourite holiday: Eid, I like seeing kids out wearing their new clothes and being all smiles and energy, it's sweet.

• Do you have any partners? (Romantic, qpr, anything!): None sadly

• Fun fact about you/ anything fun you wanna share: nothing currently on mind, I just love y'all

(No pressure to anyone I tag!)

@unreadpoppy @inkats @anawkwardlady @vero-vetka13 @venusski @thislittlekumquat @mymissalicorne

[tsukkismoonlight]

yup! here so you don't forget it til your grave!! bloomic xyx and the song Courtside by Tim Atlas !!!!

Tysm!!!! Luckily i did not forget,,,, but i did have work hella this week so this is a little late 😭 but I've got the song on rn and 👀👀 here's what im thinking

So, xyx, not big on love, as we've learned, and if we go based off his route, boy does he fall HARD

Man is literally fighting his inner demons trying to deny feelings,, and you/reader is just like, oblivious cause there's a LOT goin on. You've got work, the server zine, random events here and there, but you /always/ make time to indulge xyx in video calls

He tries to learn about you in subtle ways, which he's very good at, lawyer and all, and you're not used to telling someone so much about yourself, and you're certainly not used to them being so interested in what you've got to say

And for this we will say that bloombot accidentally let some personal information slip past her filters, and it turns out, you/reader and xyx live in the same area

But rather than outright tell you how to meet up with him, xyx makes a bet

Who can find the other first? You've seen each other's faces, you've heard each other's voices, you know what his job is, and he knows some about yours as well

And you/reader take the bet, the cost of losing is one fancy dinner, and a chance to meet Cat

So, in your free time, you get out of the house,,you try looking up nearby law firms, and try to look at their staff pages, you look at those billboards that advertise help for accidents and other unfortunate events

Meanwhile, xyx does what he does best, he hits the books. He's researching the information on your vague company, easily finding the one that you mentioned a while ago over a vc

He goes through all the departments, taking time to make sure that there isnt any nonsense with the higher ups. He wants to know if this company that makes you work the longest hours is actually a good company and not some shithouse place yk

So then, when he finds you, he has to stop and question if he really wants to see this through, but he has been so over his head about you, like he has had dreams about you, he will get random thoughts while he is working about you, wondering how your day is going, wondering if you're working just as hard to find you as he is

So he works up the courage to go into your work, dressed in casual clothes, coffee in hand

And he greets you with the usual cheeky greeting of "hello little troll" and you're like ?! Who is speaking from behind my tall as stack of papers that i need to do, wait i know that voice,, xyx what the fuck why are you at my work, is thst coffee ???

And he would do that little smile that he gets and be all like, "guess who owes me dinner"

And ofc at the dinner it's pretty nice, and you guys are having a grand time, its hard to be awkard when xyx is just so smooth and charming

And a little ways through the dinner you guys get some drinks to go along with it, and like no one gets drunk or anything, just like i dunno a little tispy/buzzed and you/reader is just babbling about work and your interests and xyx is sitting there like ohmygodimactuallyinlove

And all he can think about is wanting to wake up with you each morning, by his side

And yeah,,, thats what i would write with xyx+courtside jdjeke i didnt wanna go on and on cause i def could omg

[departmentofroleplays]

49 and 47, my lovely

hello, hon 💗💗 hope you’re good! 

( again, i don’t know which list you’re asking from so i’ll answer from both 😂😂 )

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

ALL. THE. TIME. There has literally never been a day that has passed where this hasn’t happened. I called out the wrong answer during class? Great, that’s gonna haunt me until senior year. I thought of a good comeback AFTER the argument? Guess who’s going to be mulling over that for the rest of the month? I 👏 just 👏 called 👏 my 👏 teacher 👏 mom  👏 whilst 👏 asking 👏 a 👏 question👏?? Bold of you to assume that I still won’t be thinking of this in the afterlife.

But no, honestly, I do replay a lot of things in my head,, and it’s by far one of the worst things I do to myself, bc I overthink things as well?? So if I think hard enough on it, I will mentally be stuck on that day until I get over it and forgive myself.

49. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

..you think you’re funny, don’t you? i have a feeling that you just KNEW i was supposed to be doing something,, something pretty important rn,, and purposely picked this ask to call me out on my procrastination. 

okay, i’m supposed to be: finishing art for a zine i’m in, eating ( let’s not forget her ), um,, replying to message, and i’m also supposed to be finishing a fic for a fest i’m in.

...

i feel so called out by this ask  ;-; like i’m not even SURE if i want anymore asks now because of this 😂

47) Last thing you searched for on google?

The very last I searched for was info about chest binders; as I’ve been feeling more um,, masc in the recent days, and I’ve been looking into getting a binder for quite a while now..for a while now. I haven’t really been feeling comfortable in my ‘assigned gender’, this has been on an off for the past few years, but I can’t exactly do anything about it now, so I took an interest in chest binders; seeing how I’d looked with them, and even messing around with various makeup techniques to not look,, how I currently look,, ya know?49) If someone wrote a book about you would you be considerez a hero or a villain? Why?

From an outsider’s perspective, I think I’d be a hero, as irl, I do a lot of things have been deemed ‘hero worthy’. Though, a lot of my friends jokes that if I were in the movie, I’d be the villain ( one joked me being Thanos ), and that’s really all due to my temper and me going over people who I felt I’ve personally been wronged by; and also since I’m pretty quiet and no one knows what I’m thinking unless I say it, so they say I could probably get away with a lot of things. 

I think it’d have to depend on who the person writing the book would be, and which side of me they’ve seen more. 

If they chose to write me as a hero: it’d be that when it comes to family and friends; I’d fight for them, fight for their honor and their name. Like if anyone disrespects someone I love, I’m usually the first person to pop off. And while I don’t like to think about this a lot, I feel if it came to life and death situations, I’d honestly sacrifice myself to help not only family and friends live but to also help others live as well?? I think I’m a caring person; and that when the situation calls for it, I’m very courageous. In these moments, I don’t stop to think of what could happen if I do this or if I miss this, I just do it for the better good. I’ll take risks, even if it means me getting hurt. And lastly, I think I’m rather humble. 

If they chose to write me as a villain, it’d probably be so because I’m very vindictive, whether or not people doubt that about me. I’m unrelenting and an immensely bitter person when I’m angry. I also lack any empathy when I’m angry as well. And although I seem a bit aloof, when I am determined at something, there isn’t a thing that can stop me. I’ve gone into full-planning mode, I’ve thought out every possible scenario, and I don’t give up so easily; I don’t fall for little attempts to trip me up or get me off course. 

So yeah, like I said: “I think it’d have to depend on who the person writing the book would be, and which side of me they’ve seen more. “

Thank you for the asks, Mel! 💗💗

[reifromrfa]

Hello <3

Hey guys! Finally, an update! ^^; Haha sorry I’ve been MIA guys ;;; Things have been hectic, with the zine and real life stuff </3 

Here’s what I’ve been busy with:

• @mysmetravelzine - been packaging and shipping the zines to everyone who bought a physical copy! yay!!! I’ve sent the second and final batch today and we will be updating soon! :D Please follow us for more announcements soon! ^^

• @mysmehalloweenzine - it’s been so much fun writing about spooky stuff! I love Halloween (even though I’m a scaredy cat HAHA) and hhhhnnnggg it’s been so much fun writing for this zine TwT Preorders will open soon! Please look forward to it! :D I will be posting my preview soon!!! <3 :D I hope you guys like it! :D We appreciate all your support <3 <3 <3 

• @juminfanzine - i’m honored to be participating in this zine!!! :D I absolutely love Jumin, next to Vanderwood ;) <3 So I’m just crying because fjalkd;alkjfa A ZINE FOR JUMIN ;A; I’m still working on my fic but I’ll post a preview soon too! :D <3 Please support this zine as well :D <3 TwT Thank you so much!!! :D 

More under the cut!

Aaaaand here’s the stuff I have planned rn:

• A VACATION :)) I’ve been so beat haha that I just want to take a step back ^^; Have some me time to recharge haha read some books (I AM READING ALL YOUR PERFECTS HUHU no spoilers please but if anybody here is a Colleen Hoover fan, HELLO ;A;), watch movies, maybe play some video games hahaha (i got back into Moblie Legends huhu send help) but I’m still on Discord ^^ If you need to reach me, message me here and I’ll send you my tag :D

• Replies - I am going to scroll back through all the notifs and reply to all the tags I missed D: I’m so sorry! I will try my best to reply to everyone! Sorry in advance if I spam my blog with replies and old posts ^^; 

• Original writing - I’ve missed creating worlds and characters and I hope you guys don’t mind if I share some original stuff here :) <3 I mostly share them to Patrons but I’ll post a few of them here too! :D 

• MM fics - yessss I will still be writing fanfics for MM ;) I still owe you guys Avenged, Moonlight, On the Line...welp, and a lot more haha! I’m just really pooped rn haha but I’m excited to get back to writing too, especially with Halloween and Christmas coming up!!!! <3 My fave holidays TwT 

• Collabs and Commissions - I’m going to be working on commissions soon! I’m so sorry to have kept people waiting T-T I wanted to deliver the best work, and I felt that if I rushed it, it wouldn’t be the best T-T About collabs! I’m still collabing with these amazing ladies, @rainydayswriter, @rossyele and @aehruh so watch out for the stuff we’ll be rolling out in the near future ;) 

I’m sorry for the long post!!!! I think that’s all...HAHA! I just thought you guys should know...

I’M BACK!

See you guys around <3 

<3 Reifromrfa

[yaminerua]

Tagged by @yuuripean

Never got this particular tag meme before so this’ll be fun!

Gonna shove it under a cut tho cos it’s a little long

5 things you’ll find in my bag

1. A rubber egg with Jouta Kujo drawn on it that a friend gave me

2. A sketchpad for whenever I get a chance to sit and draw

3. Old train tickets from god knows how long ago that have no business being in there but are still there anyway

4. Period pads. Because you just never know when it’s gonna strike

5. ipad... in desperate hopes I’ll find a wifi that’ll let me connect

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom

1. Cosplay stuff. Mostly the Kakyoin wig that sits on its stand overseeing the entire room

2. A massive foam yaoi hand that was given to me by a stranger on a London train completely randomly lmfao... It’s just sort of.. there.. It amuses me greatly

3. A lightbox that was given to me by a friend. I need to clear that area so I can use it again tho ;;;

4. A bunch of anime figures still in their boxes cos I have no available space to actually set them up nicely

5. Plushies. Pokemon plushies, Naruto plushies, matsu plushies, random dog plushies and Mokona.

5 things I’ve always wanted to do in life

1. Really get into the animation industry and like.. properly become what I’ve always wanted to be ;;

2. Have a stall at an anime con selling art and stuff

3. Learn Japanese and go to Japan and visit lots of places there

4. Make my own cosplays fully by myself

5. Create something that people would love and enjoy (or at least be a part of something like that)

5 things that make me happy

1. The fun and adventure of travelling to cons with friends and just. everything that those weekends bring

2. People’s positive reactions to things I create, even when I myself don’t particularly think it turned out all that well. I really appreciate that

3. Hugs. And just? Cozy stuff like friends all bundled together watching a thing with a cup of noodles and snacks and shit like that

4. Getting to eat my favourite foods. Or making something and trying it and having it turn out yummy!

5. When people show me a thing they made for me, or tag me in something they think is relevant to my interests or just ;;;; little things like that

5 things I’m currently into

1. Mob Psycho 100. It has 100% taken over my life currently and I’m just accepting this as my fate rn.

2. CLAMP. Just. Everything CLAMP (though you all know I love the CLAMP School, TB and X stuff the most)

3. Osomatsu-san. I’m still dearly fond of those six shitty boys and that lonely little oden man

4. Voltron. I’m gonna die waiting for season 3

5. JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure. I’m so sad part 4 anime is over, but I’ll look forward to the possibility of a part 5 anime!

5 things on my To-Do list

1. Drawing stuff, like commission work and also something for a zine I forgot I signed up to.. RIP the zine’s deadline is really soon

2. Get the SU Reanimate shot done

3. Make an attempt at starting my Mob cosplay. or at least do like.. a mini-practice run-through to figure things out???

4. Tidy my room since I got a friend coming to stay really soon oh god I need to tidy this place up

5. Some ficlet things I owe people who sent asks (not to mention other fics that need updates.....). My writing has died and I need to revive it.

5 things people may not know about me

1. When I was about 5 I had alopecia so my hair fell out a lot, especially at the back. But once that got sorted it all grew in really thick again.

2. I used to go to an acting school but left because of an extreme confidence crash.

3. I am terrible at judging the volume of my own voice and often do not realise I’m speaking louder than I maybe should be.. I always need to be told to hush

4. I flooded someone’s bathroom once completely by accident and never ever owned up to it. I still feel super guilty about it

5. I once sent my grandparents on my mum’s side a fake fanclub letter for the football team they despise because I thought it would be funny. They didn’t see the funny side xD

idk who to tag in this. I’m a weenie who never tags ;;;;

[morningpages-louise]

August 09, 2019

My head is throbbing. I think its from getting too much sleep. First time I’ve slept in in a while. These affordances to sleep in are few, but I appreciate every single chance I get. I think there are going to be a lot more now since I’m on summer break :D I shall enjoy all this leisure time, and use it wisely. It’s been raining this whole week and it feels very cozy. Im super cozy rn. Im just sitting in my couch, coffee and phone on one side, listening to the sound of rain falling down the surface of the building. Gloomy cities really make good combos. I can’t quite explain it but the gloom resembles my mood, and it paints the city in such a dramatic light. Lonely cities. It fits it well, because cities while vibrant and full of life can also be so lonely. Filled with lonely souls. And so the rain is a fitting component. I love living in the city. My affinity for cities, and the culture that exists, and the life that exists and just how individuality is encouraged and praised, that’s what I love about cities. Where people are free to express themselves, everyone’s open minded. I thrive in these environments. I love living in Manila. I’ve written about this city quite a few times. And you know considering I’ve got a year, or maybe even less, I want to create something that will capture how I feel about this beautiful city filled with such a mash of different souls. Perhaps a zine? Or a photo series? A personal project. It’s definitely something I’m going to think about. Ive been meaning to get back in photography just because its such a lovely medium, and I love looking back at memories. The sentimentalist in me can’t resist. I’d really love to get better at it. And I think its time I fulfill one of the goals I listed at the start of the year which was to engage in photography assignments. Just for myself. I think I will do just that. I always think to myself, I’ll start when I get a new camera, a less bulkier contraption, but honestly I think the best time to start is now. Because by the time I get a new camera, ill probably think the same thing. Oh, ill just wait till i get this certain lens or something like that. You’ll never be ready. You just have to throw yourself out there. That’s something I’ve been learning a lot through the daily stoic. In fact, I really resonate with the readings. The universe has a weird way of letting everything fall into place. Just how fitting it is in my life. Man, I love this. My thoughts feel so substantial. Usually when I engage in Morning Pages, there are times when you can tell I’m just really trying to fill the 750 word part. Like I’m not even thinking. And that’s just when my brain is riddled with anxiety. When I have a long day to go and I can’t be bothered by writing down 750 words. But this right here, is nice. Ofcourse I have things on my plate, quite a lot actually since I’ve pretty much been neglecting all my tasks since I started on that MSMEDIA essay. Today is the first day I can see clarity again. August, I’ve been rushing you because its been hectic, and I’m sorry for that. But now its time to hit the restart button and start a new again. I think these things are necessary. In fact, I accept that every once in a while we’ll need imaginary restarts. They can do wonders on our productivity and focus, and how we work. So here’s to restarting. Refocusing. Recalibrating. Time to drop everything and just focus on yourself is so necessary, and I do believe it makes you grind a lot harder. Yeah. Here’s to finishing 2019 hard. Here’s to getting out of my comfort zone.

Also on a side note, I really have been seriously thinking about learning poetry. I’m intrigued by the form, how people can put together words like that. It’s basically painting images with your words, and I want to be able to do that. I’m definitely opening to taking up a poetry workshop sometime in the future or engaging in any online courses. Cause like poetry has never really been something I’ve appreciated. Like I always tended to avoid it because I never particularly liked the form. I never knew how to appreciate it. And so I want to try delving into it. I just want to see if its for me. And maybe, just maybe it’ll help me articulate my feelings in a better way. Who knows? I don’t know. I think I’ve pretty much mastered the art of nonfiction writing. I want to try poetry now. And maybe after, creative writing. I just love words. Im mesmerized by them. How they can paint beautiful photos and articulate feelings so spot on. I have such an affinity for words and prose that you can connect to.

Ugh im feeling all churny inside. I’m so happy I have outlets to express myself. Through my words and photos. Life is so beautiful, and I just want to try and capture it you know. So yeah those are my thoughts lang. Alsoooo I’m trying to give up vaping. Like I literally gave my vape to Kristine yesterday and I told her to hide it lol. It’s just so bad, and its become a bad habit. Like I feel horrible whenever I smoke it, and yet I keep doing it and I think its mainly because of the fact that it’s there, so I just gravitate nd pull towards it But yesterday, Erica sent a photo and I was just like nope. It’s funny because I didn’t even think. Like I just threw it away lol. Fuck that, life is more precious than that nicotine rush. Life is too precious. Here’s to living. It’s amazing how life is so amazing on good days. I wish I could come back to this feeling whenever I have bad days, and don’t feel motivated or feel the need to continue going you know. I wish I could always come back to this feeling.

[ontheperiphery]

get to know me tag game

rules: answer 30 questions then tag 20 blogs you would like to know better. tagges by @taesthetes!! tyty

1. nickname: i dont have many nicknames!! lori is kind of a nickname in itself. ive also answered to crow and a shortened version of my chinese name

2. gender: female

3. star sign: pisces

4. height: 155cm or 5'1"

5. time: 7:05pm (not my usual timezone tho!)

6. birthday: feb 21 🕊

7. favourite band(s): bts, svt, day6, akmu! hs me rly liked mayday and s.h.e. a lot. im not very good at looking for music tho, pls send recs my way

8. favourite solo artist(s): i used to esp like carrie underwood back when i listened to country music. i dont think i have an absolute fav rn

9. song stuck in my head: spring day. the scenery here reminds me of some of my feelings over it

10. last movie watched: the terror live (2013)

11. last show watched: ?? tbh its been a while i have no idea

12. when did i create my blog: mmm just a few weeks ago? beginning of july i think??

13. what do i post: bts writings, more of my own thoughts and ramblings when i get more comfortable pfft

14. last thing i googled: the terror live. i had to confirm the title bc i watched it last night with very bad dubbing bc my mom left it on the channel playing and i accidentally got invested

15. do you have other blogs: three others, all for v different things

16. do you get asks: yes!! which surprised me bc im so new and with little exposure

17. why did you choose your url: because the biggest reason i hesitate to engage fully in any fandom for anything ive ever been interested is the intensity, conflicts, theft, disrespect, and drama i inevitably see crop up! so i follow and lurk and hesitate to make or post anything of my own and i see a lot from the sidelines and its more comfortable that way. engaging and participating is difficult whether online or in person so. on the periphery is my comfort zone and i finally mustered the guts to make a blog and everything so here i am

18. following: mmm 6 atm. i follow a lot more on my main blog and currently deciding how i want to seperate content i see on each

19. followers: 11 (thank u 💕)

20. favourite colours: cerulean blue, teal

21. average hours of sleep: 9-10 hours ideally, to actually feel well rested. realistically, 5-8 hours esp during school

22. lucky number: 4, 8

23. instruments: flute, only for 2 yrs back in middle school

24. what am i wearing: comfy shorts w pockets and a faded pink shirt i got from a volunteering activity i did back in hs

25. how many blankets i sleep with: 2-3. at least one with weight or else i have difficulty falling asleep

26. dream job: being able to make a confortable living with creative content like zines and artbooks. or a wildlife biologist or ecologist if only funding and continuous projects was less of a struggle

27. dream trip: enough time to visit a very long list of countries, learning about history, natural history, with enough time to comfortable explore cities and towns and natural places as well

28. favorite food: noodles, spring rolls, hot pot, ice cream, mangos (the sweet yellow skin esp), snow and korean and yali pears

29. nationality: chinese, american, cambodian

30. favourite song now: ???? save me? the mv was released when i was sad and it was my first listening of the song. its had a special place in my heart since

tagging whoever wants to do it, really! pretend i mentioned u. I dont know enough ppl here quite yet ;v;;