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micwrs · 1 year ago

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rotating akechi in my brain so hard

im afraid to try my hand at actually writing him but oh he is in my head. he's crazy. im crazy. and i would let him take my hand and lead me into the depths of our shared craziness

i diagnose him with bpd and he's in love with yet despises the phantoms

#how can they be so GENUINE #after ALL they have SUFFERED #how can they manage to find happiness with each other after all theyve been through. how can they CARE so deeply for others #others who ultimately dont even MATTER to them. others who are USELESS.#positive emotions make him sick yet he desires to feel them- deep down he truly does #at least i think he does. i think some part of him wants to be able to find that kind of happiness #he just doesnt believe he's able #and also he's so full of hatred and self-sabotage #hes like a self-fulfilling prophecy of misery i think #and i dont think thats something hed be capable of fully getting under control #i think hes doomed himself to misery bcs he refuses to try #i dont think hed have the conviction to make himself better-- which is funny bcs he has insane dedication to literally anything else #think thats part of what makes him have extra complicated feelings abt joker specifically #he keeps trying to push him away and joker refuses and it really ruins the self-destruction when those around you wont let themselves #just be pushed away or do whatever thing u want in order to fulfill that negative prophecy yk #im all over the place my head is just all over goro akechi rn bro #「that’s right everybody. it’s your favorite boy.」 ― out of character

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