#think imma hop over to ellie for a bit-- or maybe icon her at least.

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urf, sorry for the pause fellas. i just got overwhelmed with that really negative feeling of like— kind of just being a means to an end, and only "mattering" to people when there's something to gain out of me, y'know? nobody really did anything, it's just that general social media feel ig, and i feel dumb about it but it is what it is. makes me wish i was one of those inherently likeable 'wow i wanna be around them all the time' kinds of people but i'm really not ( and that's okay, i'm just saying being so would make this particular problem vanish ). anyway. sorry to spew all over the dash. i just feel really overcome with ugly atm like i'm really undesirable and lame, so i'm probably gonna lose myself in some writing or something.