#think canon aven is still not in a position where he can unpack literally any of his shit tho. he’s still actively in survival mode | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

venti-death-watch · 12 days ago

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tbh i find it hard to define (and would prefer not to) a lot of aventurine’s issues. like he clearly has like, cptsd, but beyond that, his whole personality is a trauma response so it’s hard to pin down a modern day diagnosis and tbh as long as you know his personality well, it’s not really needed. same with his sexuality: i see him as aroacespec but with such a complicated relationship with his own body and low self esteem and desire that he ends up having an extremely difficult time figuring out whether or not he’s legitimately into someone or not. like casual stuff is one thing, but that’s all transactional to him. his body and looks are just another commodity to be exchanged to stay on top

#tend to deal with transmasc aven too but cis is fine as well #there’s this very specific interesting sexualization/dehumanization u get when trans tho which would be fun to explore w him #thinking abt that one t4t ratiorine fic w ratio saying he found it amazing how enjoyable sex was once he was comfy in his own body #like aventurine has never experienced that in his life whether u write him as cis or not #thoughts #aventurine #hsr #and tbh? in a modern au he’d be one of those ppl who’d be concerned abt how much of his sexuality is a trauma response vs how he is #that doesn’t change the aroace-ness either way but yknow. some ppl feel having trauma invalidates it for some reason #think canon aven is still not in a position where he can unpack literally any of his shit tho. he’s still actively in survival mode

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