#thingsiexpress

[healinggg]

Muse to become who?

Infatuated with fine men that are simple but also love the finer things.

I close my eyes and I imagine him. Music beating through my earphones, pen in my hand.. poetry ready to ooze from my being.

His eyes are bright, filled with a light that overpowers that glimpse of night that twinkles in spite. His skin, clear as the morning skies; with a goatee that hide what stands behind

I’ve watched as his smile gave Chills the signal to run up and down my spine. My lips ache to be combined in a fleshly nature but this isn’t my flesh’s yearning, this feels more like a warning, because I know what my soul beholds; and his, it drips with just as much gold

So before I move forward must I dress myself in the whole amor? Guarding my loins because here in this very place I know that by my enemy I am wanted and not by him will I let myself be taunted. I can not let him enter, interrupting my inner peace, one of the very things I fight to hold onto that keeps My God pleased, so ✌🏽

What is this I see because I’m far from the chick that falls so easily. But in my heart it seems you’ve placed him to take care of my garden. Breaking down and pulling up weeds that took years to plant within me.

Asking for years Lord when shall you send such man you promised to me. I wasn’t ready when you pointed your finger so I looked up to you and laughed like “who me?” Hysterically at what I sought out to be a joke..... “stop playing, there’s no way this can become a we”. “Am I worthy of such human so similar to me? The pains with very little gains, misunderstood looking for just one to understand. Abandonedment issues covering us whole but still from the concrete grew some roses.”

Who am I kidding, my adversary tells me. The two I shall never let you be. I will place doubt in between and instill in him that he doesn’t deserve such Queen. And his eyes shall never see you, true, and all the beauty your God has placed in and on you.

Lol. This nigga. Misery loves company, however it’s just you. So I know you want his soul and that gold I mentioned he also beholds but that mission’s ah dummy. You know my God as well as I do, which is why you fight harder then Kung fu. Shaking my head I know this shit has got too suck for you......