#things that feed on your energy while cosplaying your favorite character to trick you

[lorddarkkitty]

{This post has to do with my dreams that had involved both Eustass and Killer from one piece just letting y’know in advance. It also involves my belief around dreams so… yea. Heads up}

Okay let me start this post before I forget. (Edit: I indeed forgot to continue it lol)

So yesterday (6/7/23) I had a dream that had like Eustass in it. And he always kinda grumpy in my dreams but never harms me. Anyways he telling me to stay put why I don’t know but my ass don’t like to listen to I run ahead of him through these halls. And the walls were PlayStation 1 bloody texture kind of, red , right. And I’m running really fast and I triggered all the traps somehow avoiding get hurt. ( I also passed like this what seemed like Mario with this vacuum on his back like Luigi and the haunted mansion 3. Is this relevant not really) so I get into this room and I hear him running to catch up to me and he mad but I wake up.

But the thing is I don’t wake up scared of anything or like something is wrong or off. Nor do I feel like I been drained.

Now today (6/8/23) I had what felt like a nightmare but this time is had like Killer in it but he wasn’t wearing his mask. And you know he ate the smile fruit. So he was smiling all the time. But I was scared of him and trying to escape him. I think I was in some weird warping (dream logic) house but every time I’d try to get out through the window he was already outside that window waiting for me and I just turn back and run to somewhere. I was so terrified of him cause of his smile. Something didn’t feel right y’know. which I think it’s cause I watched the horror movie Smile cause that’s how it felt but I didn’t watch that movie the night before or even during the week it was months ago literally the first night it came to Amazon prime for free watch.

Anyways at some point I’m in this bed room. I’m on this double bed it pushed to the wall and that wall has a window and I open it to climb through and of course I can’t cause he outside right there waiting and so now I’m standing on this bed crying. And I must of given up cause I’m not running anymore and now killer’s behind me (this is where dream things get weird cause I’m not in first person view anymore.) and he not violent. He doesn’t hurt me. He loves his hand onto my wait and I’m breathing hard cause I’m crying like ima bout die. And he didn’t turn me around but takes his right hands and like cups the left side on my face like to wipe away tears and gently laying down on that bed. I don’t ever look at him and just continue to cry. But i wake up.

And I wake up with my heart racing like I do with any nightmare that I had but I also feel wrong. I’m extremely exhausted like I didn’t sleep at all. Which is weird. And I’ll explain why cause yea I had a nightmare your probably thinking yea you’re gonna feel like that. But like there is a difference something you feel you just know isn’t right. The whole chasing me and his gentleness before I woke up is so suspicious.

It might be strange considering the day before with my dream Eustass was in I was like” it always Eustass and never Killer. A whole -be careful for what you wish for- moment. Ha. Any dream I had with Eustass in it I never felt like I was in danger. But the dream with Killer I did. I inherently believe that something was chasing me around in my dream disguised as Killer. Probably thought it could trick me to get closer to me like that since he is my favorite character but I knew something was off which is why I was running away from him til my bitch ass gave up. The way he smiled was just wrong I can’t explain it. I believe this cause I woke up as if something has taken my energy.

I had nightmares before where I wake up and my heart is racing but never felt like something was wrong or that I was completely exhausted like I haven’t slept a wink.

Reasons why I believe is cause I use to lucid dream and I remember them really fucking well. Cause they were all night mares. And one of them I was literally BEGGING IN THE DREAM, SCREAMING TO WAKE UP, FOR SOMEONE TO WAKE ME UP.

After that I started sleeping with certain stuff that would help stop that but I stopped dreaming all together for a while. Or if I did I just didn’t remember them when I woke up but I always remember dreams when I woke up. Only after like 10 minutes they would fade away to be forgotten unless I replay it in my head over and over again to remember. But sometimes I’m get scared to dream or have dreams for a long while now cause I’m terrified of either getting stuck in a dream where I can’t escape or dealing with unfriendly things that can lurk in the dream plane or things that can use the dream plane to get to me. Which absolutely terrifies me.

I also think of it as something interesting. And I needed to get it out of my system and somewhere to put it lol.