#theyre weird and maladjusted no matter WHAT

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Okay so. you mentioned something in your post about wondering how teens in the fandom are doing and. Im almost 19, right, I read (and have read) a lot of nsfw stuff, ive done fairly nsfw things (mostly online because i came of age during quarantine) and this fandom is *hell*. i feel weird and gross sometimes reading fics that have characters like me because i *want* to be doing the shit theyre doing, but theres this weird hang up about grown men touching dicks. being trans doesnt help :P

continuing the ask i just sent, being trans doesnt help because the only times i see people like me having sex is either weirdly fetishized porn, OF that i cant pay for because i still live with my parents and dont have a job, or fanfiction, basically. its genuinely hard to find content that isnt fan made that i can find and get off to, and even then, for the fan made shit, so many people are weird about grown men writing about other grown men fucking. i hate it here. 

yeah the thing about being called a predator or a freak for so long by so many people is that, regardless of how true it is, its gonna stick. and it sucks. and i am going to tell you the same thing i have been obsessively reminding myself of for the past few months: sex is completely normal to read about, write about, to depict and think about and have. all the more so when the subject matter we are talking about is as tame as “fictional grown men having consensual sex together”. like, sure, okay, you might imprint on fuckin half life machinima characters instead of something more socially acceptable, but people have latched on to weirder. who gives a shit

im sure i dont really have to harp on the subject in 2021 but ive been given a soapbox so: there is literally nothing wrong with making horny shit about these guys. theyre the same as any other fictional characters. gordon is not wayne. gordon is a scientist in his late 20s with a masters degree and a predilection for being a huge jerk. wayne is a streamer with plenty of friends who seems like a pretty nice guy when he is not actively acting as gordon. it is mostly peoples overdeveloped parasocial relationships with the guy that make them get so blisteringly angry over the subject. it does not matter to them that wayne has told them to just let it go and let people make whatever weird shit theyre gonna make in peace.

and i promise you. i guarantee you. they think its more fucking weird and embarrassing that theyve amassed a fandom of children who cannot stop finding shit to cause drama about or turning their improv funnymen characters into slice-of-life anime homestucks or repeating the same lines back to them, over and over and over. there are a lot of reasons why the wrtv crew has distanced themselves so much from hlvrai but i can assure u that a stranger online writing about having phone sex with benrey had very little, if anything, to do with it. at worst we are something for them to laugh at when they get bored and decided to go digging for it.

my final message: its also wildly homophobic to insist that gay relationships in fiction are only okay if they dont have sex. and to call queers a bunch of maladjusted freaks for wanting to see men having gay sex. what the fuck do you think these guys are doing after all the kissing and ikea shopping and marriages yall keep drawing??? people in gay relationships fuck, honey!