#theyre lesbians to the point where theyll see (homophobic) stuff about lesbians adn be like oh ew gross!

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this is so embarrassing but before i knew i was a lesbian and i was like 11 and i liked like innocent MG fantasy romances and id get really confused like boys are so not like that irl but girls kind of are so how do i get like a boyfriend but whos kind of like a girl + simultaneously would be super obsessed with having a 'best friend' like we will live together and buy each other jewellery and do everything together and be soulmates and she shouldnt like anyone else more than me ever..................................................................closeted lesbianism is honestly so embarrassing-_- and i feel like everyone is more aware of the existence of gay men but so possible to just be a blatantly lesbian child and be like what the hell is wrong with me oh well i guess when i get married to a man ill suddenly become a completely different person and everything will be fine^_^ i didnt even think of any of those things as romantic and at first i had difficulty even connecting those things to the idea of sexuality which had only ever been presented to me in a context which was super unappealing to me (again bc i think people have some lvl of awareness of sex between men but the idea of two women having sex would literally not even cross my mind until i was a teenager and even then i felt super in the dark abt working things out) just that intense loneliness and confusion of feeling so strange but not even understanding WHY + genuinely thinking that theres no one else in the world like you. anyway hilarious in hindsight and i wish all 12 year old confused closeted lesbians knew they can grow up and get girl boyfriend like its real