#theyre blockt now but

[serenapkm-deleted]

one of my muts rbed jakes selfies and im :/

[enbykano-archive]

someone who deadass put “yuri fetishist” in their desc just followed one of my sideblogs and im so fucking uncomfortable

[slxrpindust]

last night was a little absurb man..

i spent 8 hours in my first public minecraft server-- a horse server and it was some of the wildest things I’ve experienced in a WHILE

there was all sorts of drama, unexpected considering this server is so family friendly they dont even allow fakeouts of swear words like fuc or bich  that was its own whirlwind and THEN- 

I broke my third lunge line in a row, much to my frustration. Lunge lines are like. Quintessential to the game, can’t really play without them but because of that theyre MAD expensive and difficult to get. I’m feelin pretty frustrated at this point bc id already blown all of my personal funds as well as @iolation​‘s JUST on lunge lines. 

so i decide FUCK it and throw out this super simpy line in the world chat like “heyyy,,, would anyone whos feeling overwhelmingly generous for no reason happen to have a spare lunge line that theyre just willing to give away to this poor unfortunate soul....” HONESTLY IT WAS KIND OF A JOKE BECAUSE CMON-- MOST LUNGE LEADS SELL FOR 1500-3000$ IN THE SERVER AND WHOS JUST THROWING THAT CASH TO A STRANGER

well if you know anything about story telling you know. somebody immediately was like. i do! :) 

and now im floored because uhhh i do this thing where i ask for things and then get really embarrassed wwhen i receive them-

so i Teleport to them. and they just toss me a line. but of course the story doesnt end here- they start fucking mAKING IT RAIN diamonds on me. FOR NO REASON!!! WE HADNT EVEN SAID ANYTHING TO EACH OTHER- at this point im really flustered and kind of losing it. idk ho w to end the conversation or say thank u gracefully. PLus it felt awkward like hey gimme ur stuff and just leaving just like that-

and then.

right as im about to try to sneak off. 

“Hey is your skin Angel dust from hazbin hotel?”

WHEN I TELL YALL I STARTED SWEAT ING !!!!!!! the fear was beyond real i thought i was gonna DIE! like i dont know i though t they were gonna be like auhgh u fucking hazbinnie????? BLOCKT-

but no it was actually really nice  🥺👉👈  they and a few other people in the server were into hazbin so we all started talking about it for the next hour

[800-dick-pics]

honestly at this point i have a 0 tolerance stance with white people esp white women now and im 100% thankful for doing that for my mental health

you wanna treat all your white friends and partners better than you treating me and blame it on poor time management??? lol ok bye den!!

you wanna blow up at the most senior employee/expert fitter after i call u out on being toxic?? lol trust broken and empathy yeeted!!

you wanna reblog anti black bloggers?? unfollow! unfollow! unfollow!!!!

youre doubting my expertise at my job, lol you can take the newbie then!!! ps theyre also a nigger like me! :) have fun!!!

you wanna snap at me whenever youre slightly inconvienced by me?? oh ok i will not be coming back here again!!!

youre gonna try to manipulate others feelings agaisnt me with your white woman tears, bc i corrected you, lol k bye i have uber my nigga!!

you feel butthurt i said smthn you didnt wanna hear on my own damn post??? lol blockt!!

you gawk at me in public, ill stare right fucking back!!!

you got energy to pick out and nick pick my insecurities but when i tell u to stop you suddenly were "trying to help"

you have the nerve to tell me im not trying to get out of my abuse situation when i deadass have a job and pay my own bills and youre doing neither of those things and probably will never have to bc you got the "uwu im white and more mentally ill than u" mentality

youre all about stopping slut shaming unless its someone fucking black!!! then you come out the cuts with misogynoirstic bullshit that literally has gotten us raped abused murdered and for centuries

yall white women will try to be the "mom friend" but cant actually empathize with you or your actual black fucking mother whilst having a white savior mindset of "helping the poor lost savage niggers black people"

all you white n non black lgbt folks be stealing our work theory and speech and call it "gay culture", white and non black lgbtees with invite us to pride as their "diversity" but will never show out to our actual protests

yall will say shit like "oh if we werent so close id date you" as if were as close as you think we are, as if your anywhere near my type, as if my value is only dependent on how fuckable i am, lol lemme start trusting and being close with myself more and you less

white disabled folks will get mad at you for being disabled and black, then actively ask u to get up from the seat youre legally allowed to have and when i respond "im also disabled sir, maybe you want to ask someone able bodied :) " you look at me like you didnt see my crutches or various braces

im no longer gonna be a passive lil bitch to white folks!!!!! nahhh, you don like my feelins?? my truth?? my actions?? my words?? then byee!! you dont treat me with respect? empathy? kindness?? then wonder why i dont hang no more, thats on you!!!! you gonna snap at me, get defensive n cry when i call u out or minorly inconvience you?? oki doki nigga ive got an uber coming up the hill rn! you wanna treat me like your little token?? ohh imma have to cut that off from the root!!!! you tryna finness sex healing and or some wokeish points outta talkin to me??? oh cashapp venmo sleepyhen $85 dollars first jus so i can care a lil bit!!! you only talk to me when youre lonely and hurting? and dont do that shit for me?? lol get a therapist bc i have enough on my plate sis!! youre upset i took care of myself rather than to help you?! lol atleast i know when im worthy of goodness!!

i dont have time for white bullshit whatsoever!!! you dont like how i speak dress or act thats on you!!!

you dont like my tone "attitude" or manerisms thats on you!!!

you wanna black friend/girlfriend but you repeatedly fail/willingly ignore to see very clear power dynamics thats on you!!

you wanna yell at someone whos been doing this job for 3 years and is an actual expert ,after i said u were being toxic thats on you!!!

its on you to unlearn your racism and antiblackness and i dont have to stick around for that to happen!!!!

[sillyfleur]

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