#they've only shown up TWICE but i'm AFRAID FOR THEM!!!

[karsisvalker]

why aren't we talking more about what's going on with magiloire. i'm fucking scared

[makiruz]

Know what? Fuck it, I'm posting this here.

So as I mentioned before I found a couple of old Bionicle Fanfics on my computer, they're from the old BZPower forum, which died twice, so there's a good chance my copies are the only ones left in existence, and because I really like this one I'm posting it here.

I don't know what's the etiquette for posting fics no longer online, so if people considers it inappropriate please let me know and I'll delete it; also if you know the author let me know so I can contact them. Anyway here it is:

I'm Still Here by Raia Svit-kona

http://www.bzpower.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=292937 (original link, now dead)

I am a question to the world, Not an answer to be heard. All a moment that's held in your arms. And what do you think you'd ever say? I won't listen anyway… You don't know me, And I'll never be what you want me to be.

Takanuva paused and took a deep breath. He immediately regretted it, as the swamp air was damp and heavy and left the musty scent of mud in his olfactory sensors.

Yuck, he grumbled to himself.

The last few days had been a complete blur. Never before had life been so eager to pass in front of his eyes. It seemed that only yesterday he had transformed from a mere Matoran to the sole Toa of Light. Then, in the blink of an eye, he went from being the seventh Toa to the only guardian of Metru Nui, and then he was sent to bring this vital message to the Toa Nuva in Karda Nui. It was mind-boggling.

And what do you think you'd understand? I'm a boy, no, I'm a man. You can take me and throw me away. And how can you learn what's never shown? Yeah, you stand here on your own. They don't know me 'cause I'm not here.

He looked down at his armor, once red and blue, then white and gold, and now a deep, thundercloud gray instead of gold. So many faces, so many identities, so many masks to bear, Kanohi or otherwise.

On the outside, he was Takanuva, mighty Toa of Light, traveler of dimensions.

But deep down…he was afraid. He was inexperienced.

Tahu and the others were never Matoran, he thought. They've never done anything besides fighting for us. For Mata Nui. Would they ever feel like this? As if they've given up everything they ever were, ever could have been? What about Takua? Is he still in there?

Nothing felt real anymore. It was if some other, heroic, strong being had taken over his body. Every action felt almost fake, as if he was just a puppet on a stage, and if the strings were cut, he would flop to the ground, useless and weak.

One mistake. That's all it would take to doom Mata Nui forever, he knew.

And I want a moment to be real, Wanna touch things I don't feel, Wanna hold on and feel I belong. And how can the world want me to change, They're the ones that stay the same. They don't know me, 'Cause I'm not here.

The old Takua, alive in the recesses of his heart, wouldn't have let anything bother him for long. Takanuva pushed his despairing thoughts away. He had a job to do, after all.

The thick vegetation, looping and twisting between the thick pillar-like trees, reminded him of Le-Wahi, and the time Jaller had 'bear-fought' an ash bear, narrowly escaping the encounter only after Toa Lewa had arrived. It seemed so long ago…

And you see the things they never see All you wanted, I could be Now you know me, and I'm not afraid And I wanna tell you who I am Can you help me be a man? They can't break me As long as I know who I am

If only he had the courageous, loyal Toa of Fire by his side. They could have worked well together. I wonder what he's doing now, he thought. Then he realized that his mind was drifting again, like a boat left untied, and he shook his head.

Ahead, the swamp, or bog, or whatever you chose to call the smelly, mucky pit, dropped down sharply. The gnarled roots of the trees erupted from the squishy earth, bare and dry like rahi bones. Without pausing to think, Takanuva leaped down amongst the tangle and used the roots like a bridge to the next dry spot.

Technically, he could fly, but he hadn't been in the mood for it. Flying made him think of the birds yammering above his head, too far up to see, and birds made him think of Gukko, and of home.

Maybe I should fly up there and see if I can spot the Toa, he decided. Holding out his new power lance for balance, Takanuva braced himself. Remember when you used to do stuff like this for fun?

And I want a moment to be real, Wanna touch things I don't feel, Wanna hold on and feel I belong. And how can the world want me to change, They're the ones that stay the same. They can't see me, But I'm still here.

The next thing he knew, he was swooping through the sky. The dank mud and moss sped along underneath him in streaks. Adrenaline flooded his limbs. In a fit of spirits, Takanuva dived, hurtling through the gaps in the drooping vines. A second away from impact he swooped upward and hovered in place.

Cheered, he took a good look around. Mist hugged the trees here, but in the distance, Takanuva could just make out the blurred shapes of two grappling figures; one blue, and one ghostly white. Unless he was sorely mistaken, the blue figure looked distinctly like a Toa of Water. The other unknown was wiry, with luminous red eyes and rows of spines erupting from its armor.

They can't tell me who to be, 'Cause I'm not what they see. And the world is still sleepin', While I keep on dreamin' for me. And their words are just whispers And lies that I'll never believe.

Without hesitation, Takanuva summoned a bright flare. The creature whirled, eyes narrowed. It made no sound, only giving the Toa of Twilight a penetrating glance before sinking into the quagmire.

And I want a moment to be real, Wanna touch things I don't feel, Wanna hold on and feel I belong. And how can they say I never change They're the ones that stay the same. I'm the one now, 'Cause I'm still here.

He didn't have much thought to spare for the strange, spindly being. The Toa of Water, recovered, had stepped through the curtain of mist. Altered and silver-armored, her mask adorned with two wing-like projections, she was Gali Nuva, and one of the Toa he sought.

"Takanuva? Is that really you?" Her voice was shadowed by the countless questions she wanted to ask. Her bright yellow eyes, as open and easy to read as he had always remembered them, showed her shock.

"Yes. Are you okay?" "Of course. But…what happened to you?"

Takanuva sighed. "It's a tale worthy of the Wall of History, but there's no time for that now."

"You've changed," Gali murmured. "So have you," he replied. But under all this armor, I'm still here.

I'm the one, 'Cause I'm still here. I'm still here. I'm still here. I'm still here.

[sopebubbles]

A/n: a reminder that I'm using names of nct members bc I'm lazy about coming up with names and that a nice database of approximately 132 names. I love them and don't think poorly of them at all!!

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Jin is one of the last in the boys' locker room, and he's lost in his own little world, thinking of anything other than the only two other boys with him and whatever they are whispering about. At least until he hears one of them call his name.

"Seokjin," the boy named Taeil calls, causing Jin to turn, completely unaware of what he could want since Jin rarely talks with people in his own class.

"Yeah?"

"Is it true you're dating Kim Yn?" The other boy, Doyoung, asks.

"Yes," Jin replies with no inflection.

"And she's also dating Jung Hoseok?" Taeil wonders with a smile.

"That's correct," Jin says, remaining neutral.

"That's gotta hurt."

"What?" Jin asks, turning back to his locker to collect his things because he's already tired of this conversation. 

"That she couldn't just have you," Doyoung concludes.

"Not at all. We're all happy." Though Jin looks anything but happy in his present circumstance.

"But it must make you feel like less of a man," Taeil adds.

"On the contrary," Hoseok replies, stepping out from behind a row of lockers where no one had seen him. 

"Hobi, it's-"

"Seokjin is twice the man either of you will ever aspire to be, and the fact that he's not afraid to love someone like that just proves it," Hoseok continues sternly, taking slow steps closer to the boys. "Now get the fuck out of here."

The two boys grab their bags and walk out quickly, avoiding Hoseok's eyes.

"Are you okay?" He asks Jin once they've left.

"I'm fine." Jin shakes his head and sighs. He can't help wondering hls things would have been if Hoseok hadn't shown up, or how Yn feels in these situations. "Let's not tell Yn, okay?"

"Sure. She'll just feel bad," Hobi agrees. "You don't need to feel bad either."

"Did you mean what you said?"

Hobi stands in front of the older boy, his eyes scanning him up and down before returning to his face. "Of course. You're perfect, Jin. If Yn didn't love us both, I'd be more than happy to let you have her all to yourself. And if she didn't love either of us, I just might try to take you for myself."

A moment passes in which the two boys stare at each other, Jin wondering if he truly means his words and Hoseok wondering how he'll react. He certainly isn't expecting to be pushed against the lockers and kissed, but that's what happens. Jin can't say he thought much about it either, but he likes the way the other boy's lips fit against his. Hobi’s still at first, stunned under Jin’s hands on his neck, until he responds, kissing back fervently as his hands sneak up Jin's side and around his back. He pulls Jin closer until their bodies are pressed together. The metal at his back is cold, but he hardly notices with the heat from the kiss. 

Suddenly, Jin pulls away for breath and the fresh air clears Hobi's head. He'd be lying if he said he didn't want this, hadn't thought about it, and yet his feet are carrying him away, leaving Jin to wonder if he'd been wrong.

❣forty-four: Neanderthal brain

Bulletproof Heart

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[bangtan-gwenchana]

안녕하세요! ~

I wanted to share my first actual spending for BTS. First of all, I'm a new aRMy about 3 months old but I've always see BTS on my feeds before but I just recently put my effort into liking and actually have fallen in love with them. And I think I cannot turn my back now.

For the reason that adulting hits me so hard, I really can't spend on merchandise and physical albums 'cos Im broke and living to pay bills. So this is my first actual spent for our boys.

Well anyways, this movie actually gave me an opportunity to have a closer look to our lovely boys on stage and off stage. And also this is the closest that I can be with them. I wanted to attend to their concert and I hope I can. Pleaseeeeee! ~

I watched Burn The Stage The Movie on it's first day November 15 2018 together with my friend who is also a fan. We planned to watch it together because she's visiting the Philippines for a short time and we'd watched it together because we love them so much.

So basically, we watched the movie with no subtitles. We asked the staffs if the first screening also didn't have subtitles; they said yes and there was no info that it was released with subs. I was very disappointed. You can imagine how hard it is for non-korean people to watched the movie. I know we can enjoy bangtan bombs with no subs but after they'd post it, our kind-hearted translators translate it for us I-armys out of love. But no, this is not the case for the movie. No one knows if this will be released on dvd or Netflix and if ever yes it will surely take time.

As we watched the movie, I just looked at the screen with my eyes full of love and admiration for them. Everything was raw. I just felt every words of narration. I laughed as I see them laugh, sad when I see them tired and you can say that I really felt every emotions that they've shown through the length of this movie.

As the movie came to an end and how it shows their serious faces and with the tone of their voices I know that if I understand what they are saying I might be sobbing at the theatre.

To my dismay, as we leave the movie house I read some tweets and saw that there was subtitles for every language, most specifically in my country. And there was a released from the distributor that they provided subtitle and no dubbing for this movie. So I immediately talked to one of the staff and raised my concern. And she just said that there was really no subtitle for the said movie.

You can imagine how stressed I am because this is my first spending for bangtan and I will not allow to end it like this. So I talked to my cousin who works for the same company and told her my story.

The head office of the cinema was alarmed with my concern and immediately took action. And yes, I got to watch the movie again. This time for real. It is much sweeter the second time around. The amount of joy and laughter I felt from my first screening was twice when I understood every bit of what they are saying.

BTS are the most pure and genuine celebrity as far as I'm concern. They are the kind of talented artist that are so humble and humane. They are not afraid to show every bit of emotion they have on and off cam/stage. They cry when they are sad, they laugh their asses off when they are feeling euphoric. And lastly, they always say they will work harder and be better, where for us, ARMYs they are already the best.

⚠️ Spoiler alert ⚠️

One of my favorite part was their pool party. It clearly shows that they are still normal people who lives. They are just people who apparently are famous but still are young adults who wanted to enjoy their life at the moment. As narrated and through the screen we saw how they are having the time of their life: "Though we are always together, being together brings us greater joy." From that moment from hearing loud laughters came in silence. I bet my 2 cents everybody inside the theatre watching felt that pinch in their heart.

They can't be separated, not at this time. It was clearly seen at BV3 how they are used to have 7 people around and BV2 when Seokjin said that he feels anxious when they are not around and compared BTS members as cellphone that you always have.

Bangtan Sonyeondan are brothers binded by bond. They are meant to meet one another. I know they have their respective red strings tangled with each other.

Another favorite of mine was when Taehyung dedicates 4'o'clock to Hansung. As he talks and relay his message to Hansung, with him inside the moving van and with 4'o'clock as the bgm it touched my heart. Hansung will forever be special, his first character, someone very close to his heart.

/pcto/

And yes, the song somehow fits them. He also said that Hansung was his inspiration. I personally love that song that it makes me feel at ease. It helps me sleep at night. Tae's voice is my tranquilizer.

And my most favorite part was when they had a talked with Bang PDnim. It was as if they were having a conversation with their father. A father who is scared that his sons might lose their happiness in exchange for their dreams. He wanted them to loosen up, he also wanted them to be happy. I actually cried on that part. 😭

I also saw the screen for Wings Tour Manila. I'm in awe as I saw Fly high Philippine ARMY on the screen. I'm proud and it motivates me to watch their concert in my country. Patiently waiting for LY Tour PH 2019.

/pcto/

And Yeontan with Uncle Hobi really swept all my tears away. What a show stealer!

Who will not love these boys when they are these grateful to their fans, ARMYs. No one has been these grateful.

I am so scared how they relay their message in this documentary. It's as if they are ready to whatever will happen. They know they are flying high today but they know that eventually they will fall. But what's good about falling is that they know that ARMYs are always there to catch them. They surely know how to treasure every moment because they know that everything is temporary. That's how humble my stan group is. Years may pass as they see this movie my boys will keep ballin' ballin' still bangtan!

I love bangtan so much. I can't explain where this love is coming from but I am always praying for them.

I know that they are already living their dreams. My only wish and blessing for Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, and Jeon Jungkook that may they always find happiness in what they are doing. To always seek and look out for each other. To always find the light and not to lose their smile. I love them so much that I always pray that their hearts will feel peace.

I will fight for you, for your music, for your talent, for your passion, and for these 7 young wonderful boys that I still have to meet. I can't wait for that to happen. Wait for me. 알았지?!

Always keep things bright my bangtan! ~

Anyeong! ~

Mahal na mahal ko kayo! ~💜

I love you so much! ~💙

방탄소년단 사랑합니다! ♥