#they're just like. goin through it currently lol

[raiiny-bay]

everyone say hi to cricket

Interviewer: Can you state your name and age please? Cricket: Cricket... 19. Interviewer: [whispering] Look into the camera. Interviewer: And what's been happening to you, Cricket? Cricket: ...I'm... mutating. Interviewer: Can you show us what you mean? Cricket: ... Cricket: ... Okay. [Cricket holds his hand towards the camera]

[lycankeyy]

Okay here's the whole thing I filled out with boyf in-character enjoy his one total braincell if he's lucky. I'm putting zero effort into formatting this bc tumblr is glitchy on my phone blank template is here

(cw: sexual humor. also a bunch of intentional typos and gratuitous swearing)

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1. Okay, first question: what’s your name, age, and gender?

- they call me boyfriend im 19 and i sap the gender out of the music

2. How would you describe yourself, personality-wise?

- fuckkk man idk. im p chill i think ig im pretty cool. pretty swag pretty gamer

3. What’s a typical day like for you?

- welll I wake up at like. 11 usually at earliest and I hang out w one of my partners sometimes I watch movies w em or work on music. not a lot going on usually

4. How do you wind down at the end of the day? Do you even wind down?

- most of the time i literally just wait until i crash out sometimes gf and peeks gotta drag me to bed lol

5. What is your earliest memory?

- UHHHHH oh god uhhh. I think. When I was like five we went to a festival or smth and we went on one of those twirly things and I made my dad spin the thing so hard I threw up LMAO

6. What is/was your relationship with your parents?

- i mean p good i think but we dont rly tlak anymore thats mostly my fault tho

7. What do you do when you’re bored?

- succumb to the madness mostly

8. Do you regret anything you’ve done?

- i mean not like currently

9. Do you dress to be functional or fashionable?

- bro i wear the same exact fucking outfit every day to be honest with you lol. It's not like I'm fuckin going anywhere

10. Who are your best friends? How did you meet them?

- DUUUDE assuming my partners don't count gotta shout out my man darnell we've been workin on a collab ep recently it goes hard as fuckkkkk. we met back in the stupid therapy program back in middle school he introduced me to pico n nene

11. Have any siblings? If so, what is your relationship?

- yea got a big sister and a lil bro. they're both sweet but kinda clueless tbh. technically got other stuff goin on too but im kinda worried that ill get like the government on my ass if i talk abt it

12. What is your job? Is it tiring or difficult?

- closest thinf ive got to a job is music ig and nah. really wouldn't rather be doing anything else even if it payed more tbh. when I get burnt out I wanna die but thafs not a big deal lmao

13. When you’re going through a rough time, do you seek help or consolation from others?

- on a scale of liek paper cut to nearly died how rough are we talking

14. How easy is it for others to gain your trust?

- ive been told im pretty trusting but i feel like any person whos meant to hurt me was pretty upfront abt it so ┐(´∀｀)┌

15. What is your sexuality, if you don’t mind me asking?

- all the time all the time

16. Do you have a significant other? What are they like?

- "a" singular. lol. lmao even. bros asking if I got one singular partner lmao try two bitch and thyere the best most important people in the world

17. Have you ever lost a loved one?

- not like perminently

18. How often do you act on impulse? Does it ever backfire?

- lsiten if i do it all the time then like statisicly it only backfires like 40% of the time okay

19. Do you believe in ghosts?

- I believe in everyone bro

20. How about aliens?

- aliens are hisyorically very mean to me but ig i can just then believe that they can be better people. or aliens

21. What traits do you value the most in others?

- uhhh probably like being just nice ig? idk i think it can take a lot more effort than people think to be considerate and stuff I appreciate when people are nice even if they have a reason not to be

22. Do you dream often? What are your dreams like?

- i used to not to but somethings happened and now I get them all the time. don't really want to talk about it they're mostly just weird

23. Are you a light or heavy sleeper? Do you sleep in?

- my partners say im such a heavy sleeper that one time i slept through gf falling off the bed in the middle of the night but I was asleep so I can't cofnirm

24. Okay, this is a bit personal, but… Have you ever (uh) “done the do”?

- dude like u wouldn't believe

25. Do you have any pets?

- nah but I think it would be cool to have a guinea pig they seem chill and I appreciate their vibes

26. Ever been drunk before? How often do you drink?

- i try not to toooooooo much but i think i have a hard time telling when too much is too much. dont tell my parents

27. Are you respectful to authority figures?

- they only have as much authority as you give them. manipulate a landlord today

28. What kinds of movies do you like you watch?

- https://youtu.be/HgjyQ0_coJo?si=L5Bzhey5cxaoNpWU

29. Do you have any guilty pleasures?

- ██████ █████ █ ███████ ████ ███ ████ ███████ ███ ████ ████████████ ██ ███ ███ ████ ██ one time nene found it in my dresser and I almost DIED wait was this question not about sex stuff

30. What would you say is the happiest memory of your life?

- ohh thats hard uhh. happiest is hard to qualify i think. I think I'm happiest whenever I think abt waking up next to my partners

31. How about your worst memory?

- thats a good question

32. What did you aspire to be when you were young? Did that dream change as you grew up?

- i didn't think I'd be fuckign anythang

33. How far would you be willing to go to get what you want?

- u gotta quantify what I want here tbh. is it like a chocolate bar or one billion dollars. cuz id kill someone for a billion dollars. honestly i might also kill someone for a chocolate bar but like not as badly

34. What is sure to ruin your day?

- idk nearly dying again probably

35. Do you have any nervous habits?

- uhhh sometimes i mess with my hair and when i get rly upset i pull at it til it hurts. i used to scratch my face a lot when i was upset too but it freaks ppl out so i try not to if i can help it

36. Play video games often?

- i tryyyyy but i get distracted so fast i play a game and im like oh shit this reminds me of another thing i was gonna play n then i go play that and then I never FINISH ANYTHIGN

37. What kind of things do you laugh at?

- https://youtu.be/47EOSLWu-EI?si=kuzPv2Vndl91Oj3C

38. Favorite genre of music?

- BROOOO ok gonna be basic as shit and say breakcore. also a huge fan of speedcore and drill & bass but breakcore is my home. i wishhh it wasn't called this but my favorite like subgenre of breakcore is probs lolicore not for any fuckin weird reason but just bc the way the vocals are usually mixed scratches my brain sooooooo fuking good. listen to various types of ads by loli in early 20s and youll get it. i fucking love experimental breakcore my favorite album rossz csillag alatt született mixes breakcore+dr&b w classical and it's sooooo fucking good it's SO good i need to learn more fuckin instrument plug ins so I can make shit like that. in general i just love music that feels like it's fuckin drilling it's way into youre brain and rewiring it i want the music to fuckin labotomize me fr

39. What do you think your spirit animal would be if you had one?

- idk maybe a rat i like rats. dude imagine if i was a rat like ritz we could have cheese together. we can do that anyway but it would be more awesome

40. Have an accent of any kind?

- yea autism

41. Chess or checkers?

- checkers i have no idea how to play chess but it sounds convoluted as fuk

42. Do you feel sentimentality toward a particular object?

- i love my laptop even if I get a new computer and this thing breaks completely im keeping this laptop ily laptop

43. Are you generally pretty secretive, or are you an open book?

- im like accidentally secretive i dont even try like wtf do you mean im supposed to talk about shit

44. What are you most embarrassed about?

- i feel like this was addressed in the nene thing

45. What are your deepest fears?

- have you ever seen that fuckin brony stuff where people get teleported to pony world as horses gf is obsessed with that kinda thing but that's TERRIFYING if i woke up as a horse id fuckin die of a heart attack

46. How desperate would you have to be to lie to, steal from, injure, or murder another person? Do you do any of those things regularly?

- i like the implication that i would admit to murdering ppl on a regular basis

47. Do you have any scars? How did you get them?

- it's so fucked up i got this scar on my face and it's so bad bc I don't even scar that easy like i get into fights my entire life but i only got one scar just bc some weeb tried to kill me. like ok

48. Say someone has mistreated you in some form. Would you immediately lose your temper, hold a grudge, or simply let it go?

- you wouldnt believe my epic power to do all of those simaltaneusly

49. How do you deal with physical and mental pain?

- max volume noise nothing can hurt me if the Loud

50. What is your ideal place to live?

- never thought abt it tbh ig anywhere with my partners

51. What was your childhood like?

- just 18 years of stupid therapy programs and stupid special ed classes and ppl telling me how to think and how to act and like I was 4 years old forever i don't careeee

52. What is your favorite kind of weather?

- i think snow is pretty

53. How important to you is friendship? What about romance?

- i think they're both pretty great but idk i feel like urself should be most important bc idk shit happens and ppl leave so if you dont like yourself youre just gonna be stuck with some miserable loser who doesnt have any friends as ur only company

54. Have any disabilities, weaknesses, or allergies?

- i feel like in a hypothetical situation i would be pretty weak to godzilla

55. What’s your favorite thing to eat?

- SPICY FOOOOOOOD my spice tolerance fucks hard i will drink hot sauce. right now holdbon

56. Do you have kids? If not, do you picture yourself ever having them?

- could you fucking imagine.

57. How well can you sing?

- idk but i like it

58. Are you particularly confident? Does your confidence level change if less people are around?

- if nobody got me i know i got me

59. Do you like shopping?

- delivery apps were invented for a reason

60. How do you interact with strangers?

- tbh i usually just tune out anyone that's not talking to me LMAO

61. Have you ever been betrayed by someone you loved?

- not like perminently

62. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?

- don't like this question

63. If you could meet anyone from the past or future, who would it be?

- fuckkkkk my gf isn't home rn can I pick her

64. If a genie granted you three wishes, what would they be?

- money bigass house and then I wouldn't use the last one so we could just vibe forver

65. Do you like attention?

- ask pico

66. Are you glad I’ve run out of questions to ask?

- ig bc im puttin off chores ily though

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Shorthand AU Masterpost

So my brainrot has gotten so bad that I currently I have 5 AUs for The Idiot Cowboys. At this point they might as well be OCs because this is....... Ridiculous. I have never had this happen with any other series I've been into.

All of them are still WIPs, and anything is subject to change because I have no idea what I'm doing. (pic to break up the cut)

-Vampire/Werewolf (this one you already know); I use BBFF for short when referring to this. BBFF is short for Bark Bark Flap Flap, because I am garbage at naming things, lol (Masterpost here, and I will also post a short and simple summary comic I made for it when I get the chance)

This only happened cuz of the amount of research I've had to do to scientifically justify the supernatural elements in my mind. (there is a lot of science nonsense in here, ESPECIALLY around the vampire mechanics, believe me)

This is also a slowburn from hell, cuz they are both Very Bad at dying, to the point where they through the decades up to Near Future (for those not in the fandom, it's a wacky setting with robots and psychic powers and basically a kaiju fight. Y'know, just how the people in 1994 imagined 2014 would be) and they both are intended to have unique designs for that era too. (only MD is designed for that so far, will post later.)

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-Fae AU; (I call it Lil Guys AU cuz again, awful with names) still set in the wild west, but it's kinda borrowercore with somewhat darker pepperings of Home Safety Hotline in terms of lore.

I'm working on a summary for that that I will post when it's ready, but it also has a lot of magic mechanics to it. However at this point it's mostly ramblings and whatever bullshit I doodled (and there is A LOT OF IT at this point, because this is the main one i have been scared of posting), and a lot of fic that I've not posted anywhere because I am TERRIFIED of sharing my writing, lmao.

Their relationship moves a lot faster in this one, probably because they're both facing The Horrors™ together that are under the surface of the fantasy facade, and they have to trust each other to survive. (Mostly because they are both silly little rat guys) This one is very much high risk, high return in terms of their relationship.

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-Duende AU; This one, I literally stuck them in my own OG setting with my OCs (for all 5 of you who know it, it's Yukure's series, which i do need to post more of the lore for, sorry lol)

Essentially, Sundown is a normal guy/former sheriff due to being a suspect in an Unfortunate Event that befell his town in 2012 (The year which the main catalyst occurs in the series), but he was acquitted and sorta "honorably discharged" since he couldn't ever really face his job again (the investigation and trial dragged on for 5 years up to 2017, where the series takes place)

And here, MD is his "Duende" (sorta like being haunted by a ghost/having a Familiar, but they're also functionally a parasite on a host)

They have a similarly antagonistic relationship here, but it's a bit different here because Mad Dog thinks he's pretty much a normal, charming, handsome, witty, suave bounty hunter, who's not sure why he got stuck with some guy with ptsd and depression, and why he suddenly has weird cool powers, and now he's coping with essentially being a ghost/incorporeal.

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-Vaudeville AU; this is not so much an AU as it is a continuation of canon

Essentially, MD finally catches Sunny after years of goin' at it, collects the bounty money, feels aimless and and horrible because he has no purpose in life. (a core factor here being a sense of loss because he knows he couldn't beat Sunny at his prime, he had to wait til age caught up with him, and he's realizing how much of his own life he spent on it and is Going Through It)

So he breaks Sunny out of jail, talk out their problems, and live the rest of their lives with the bounty money hiding from the law. (fake names, new aliases, everything)

The Vaudeville part comes in cuz MD eventually buys a theater with the reward money, and the setting takes place in the early 1930s as a LAL fan chapter which I keep meaning to write. (These two are really just minor characters in that setting but it's fun anyway lol)

They're in their 70s at this point, but they're still kickin!

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-Roleswap; this is pretty much just what it says on the tin. If Mad Dog was the outlaw and Sundown was the bounty hunter.

I think MD is wanted for (allegedly) burning down a theater that he was performing in (in truth, the owner needed insurance money and blamed it on him)

This one in particular is fascinating, mostly because Sundown isn't dead inside.

He still has light in his eyes and people to protect. They survived the attack, but he still left town to draw attention away from them, and hunts bounties to survive. (he sends the money to them)

This one is probably the least developed, but still open ended for shenanigans. (I REALLY wanna make the designs for it too...)

[hotpinkboots]

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~ ꩇׁׅ݊ᨵׁׅᨵׁׅꪀׁׅժׁׅ݊ꭈׁׅᨵׁׅ℘ Playing w/Reader's Hair (Headcanons/Mini Oneshot)

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I have an unlimited amount of love in my heart for the Daycare Attendants 💜

Note that the animatronics in Security Breach are only corrupted because of the whole Vanny/Burntrap crap goin' on, darling, so Moondrop isn't going to be cruel in this, for he isn't glitched.

~Enjoy~

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~He loves to run his fingers through your hair, possibly humming a quiet lullaby while doing so.

~Moon likes to braid or style it well, both he and Sundrop can do cute hair styles, they're used to doing it for the little girls that like to go home with their hair decorated in cute barrettes and ribbons.

~It's a soothing activity for both you and himself.

~Lights are out and the children are asleep, you and Moon alone together just spending quiet time with each other.

~You two chat quietly, or sit in a comfortable silence.

~He might massage your scalp and neck while he's at it.

~Moondrop loves to help you relax, it's a very important part of life, just to be able to sit down, close your eyes, and rest.

~He feels this is special bonding time, and is very happy when you let him play with your hair.

~And if he's not playing with your hair, he's reaching forward and pulling you to him so you're in his lap, your back to his chest, while he bonks his head gently against yours as though kissing you best he can.

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"Feel good?" Moondrop murmured, his thumbs gently massaging the nape of your neck.

You hummed out a little, "Yes", in response, which earned a content chuckle from Moon. You shut your eyes and allowed him to massage your scalp, which was currently aching from being held up in a ponytail all day.

"Good girl." He muttered quietly. Moondrop leaned forward and pressed what would be his lips against the back of your head, a quiet clicking sound could be heard as he did so, which was his version of a kissing sound. Sometimes he would even say "Mwah" out loud, which he knew would make you chuckle.

After a moment of playing with your soft hair, the Daycare Attendant wrapped his arms around your waist and brought you to his lap.

"Miss me today?" He teased gently, his left hand reaching around you to stroke his index finger down your nose bridge.

"...I missed you..." Moondrop hummed, resting his head against yours.

"Of course. I missed you, too," You leaned into him and allowed him to hold you. You almost felt like a child again, the way the animatronic was holding you so caringly and gently. His hold on you wasn't tight, but wasn't too lose, in fact, it felt like the perfect hug...

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I also feel like the way Moon sounds in Security Breach isn't how he like...actually sounds...I can't imagine anyone going "Oh, yeah, this'll definitely make kids feel sleepy and relaxed!", no, that was probably part of the corruption glitch thingy thing thing, too LOL.

I literally love Moon/Sun beyond words 😭

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~Love, PinkBoots

[deztryx]

Again, I just have a question because this AU is just so 👌✨🤩.( I saw the roles post u posted earlier so I had to ask) what do the "vaults" mean? Are they some sort of base or something. And are the minutemen like, the workers? Idk I'm just wack and this AU is so interesting:D

AAAA TYYY!!!!! :DDD!!

So about the vaults, Fallout (the game) is mostly well known for these vaults that shelter from nuclear bombs or a fallout lol, but there's a twist, each vault has their own little twisted experiment (not in this au all vaults are the same bc I'm not goin through all the fallout vaults again cause that shi was exhausting☠️) but in brawllout au all vaults are similar and they all have these cyrogenic freeze chambers (basically freezes their bodies for decades and still be alive after waking up)

So some brawlers either became ghouls or mutants and somehow survived for the last 200 years or they made it to a vault and froze themselves

Factions are basically like groups that all individuals have the same goal or etc (like a club kinda) and fallout being fallout, they obvi gonna have a shitload and I mean A SHITLOAD of factions 😭

Now about the minutemen/Factions (I changed most of them for this au so)

Minutemen are people that are just tryna survive and help others in the commonwealth

The Brotherhood of Starr is basically a military thingy (okay not rlly they just preserve tech stuff) but they're assholes sometimes

Enclave is the government (changed it up a bit in this au tho)

Raiders are survivors that murder a shit bunch (and are annoying af in the game lol)

The Institute is a society with bunch of bad scientists and etc, they try to advance human civilization basically

New Starr Republic (NSR) is a town that tries to provide for their people and other stuff (the NCR in fallout is still complicated to me so I'm obvi gonna be changing stuff for the au)

Theres more factions in Fallout obvi but I'm only using the well known ones as well as ceasers legion and maybe the unity?(another faction which I'm still trying to work on) hope this helps x3!!

Bonus:

The candyland trio plus nita were in the same vault, Mandy was the 2nd to wake up after 200 years of being frozen, she finds out that the current overseer (leader) of the vault is bad so she decides to kill him before anyone else woke up, when they did she told them that she was the overseer. She obvi made some changes to the vault to kinda match the old candy shop, trying to make everything colorful and similar to her candyland, every once in a while she would send someone outside to the wastelands to get candy, she's never been outside herself (until Amber raids her vault) so she doesn't know what it's like and assumes everything is fine, as well as the candy. The more candy they ate from the outside the more insane she got, she started to see herself more as a candy queen instead of a overseer, she started to slowly lose her sanity and her vault was going into shambles, her people were starting to turn away from her, she even started developing trust issues, but then one day, Amber happened.

:3

[chiimeramanticore]

Part of the Band - Chapter 13 - In Lieu of a Roof

Chapter summary: Dook has a long night. A/N:

I hope this is a good conclusion to Queenie's arc! it went on a lot longer than I expected it to lol but she ended up being an interesting character to me, and I'm happy with how it all shook out. I hope you are too! enjoy the chapter :]

Chapter word count: 2,219 <- Chapter 12 - Chapter 14 -> Read it on AO3!

Dook rushes through the doors of the hospital's waiting room, met with the faces of his friends. The room is a thin rectangle, with seats on either side. On the far end, a water cooler and an empty table sit, and on the back of the right wall, a set of double doors leading out. Fatz, Mitzi, and Queenie sit on the left side, and Billy Bob and Looney Bird sit on the right. They all turn to look at him expectantly.

"I... guess I'm the last one here," Dook says. "Do we know what happened?"

They all hesitate a moment, before Fatz speaks up. "It was a car crash," he says. "From what the police said, seems like he ran a red light and got hit."

Dook huffs. "Is... is he okay?"

"They won't let us see him," Queenie says.

"I heard they're operating," Looney Bird chimes in.

"But they said he was gonna be fine," Mitzi adds.

Dook doesn't know what to say. It's good he's going to be alright, but... Beach Bear is still hurt, because of him.

"Why don't you come sit with us, Dook?" Billy Bob offers, patting the seat next to him. Dook nods, shuffling over to the chair and sitting down. He stares at his feet.

"When are they gonna let us see him?" He asks.

"Whenever they're ready, I guess," Queenie replies. Dook looks up, realizing he's sitting directly across from her. She gives him nothing but a sour feeling now. He looks back down at his feet, not saying anything.

Time passes– what feels like ages, but without looking at a clock, the actual length of time is impossible to tell. The room is mostly silent. It's horrible, oppressive. Finally, Dook sighs sharply.

"I'm goin' to the bathroom," he says, standing. Then, without waiting for anyone's response, he leaves the room.

Dook walks briskly down the hallway, the cool air of the hospital refreshing after sitting stagnant for so long. He strides forward, sure of himself only until he reaches the first crossroads, where he slows and eventually stops.

"Lost?" A voice sounds from behind him.

"Fatz," Dook says. "I, uh... Yeah."

Fatz chuckles. "I'll walk you there," he says.

The two continue down the hallway, turning right. The same uncomfortable silence lapses over them again, until Fatz finally speaks.

"Uncomfortable in there, isn't it?" He asks.

Dook looks at him, then laughs a little. "Yeah," he says. "I just wanted some air."

"I figured," Fatz replies. "Thought I could use some myself, too."

They reach the next opening, turning right.

Dook hesitates for a moment before asking, "Where were you when you heard?"

"At home," Fatz tells him. "I was cookin' dinner, and I got the call from Queenie." He laughs. "Had to leave my food to get cold."

"I was at home too," Dook says. "Well– Beach Bear's home."

"You live with him, don't ya?"

"Well, sure, but... It's not like I contribute much or nothin'."

"You've been there a while," Fatz says. "If he wanted anything more from you, he'd say it."

Dook looks at him as they turn right down the next hallway. Maybe he's right. Maybe... Beach Bear just wants him there. Maybe Beach Bear just likes him. But that idea only makes the current situation feel worse. Dook betrayed his trust, and now he's injured because of it.

"I wish things had gone different," Dook mutters.

"How so?" Fatz asks.

"I..." Dook slows his pace, eventually stopping. "Before Beach Bear got hurt, we... we got into a fight. I was wrong. I did somethin' I really wasn't supposed to, and..." He feels a knot forming in his throat. "He left 'cause he didn't wanna be around me, and... And if he hadn't done that, he'd..."

Fatz hums in acknowledgement, a low rumble from his chest. He places a hand on Dook's shoulder.

"Listen, Dook," he says, "you like this guy, don't you?"

"Huh?" He looks up at him. Is he that obvious?

"Y'know," Fatz says. "You want him to be safe. You care about him."

"Sure," Dook replies. "Much as anyone else does, at least."

"Beach Bear's not the type to hold petty grudges," Fatz says. "I'm sure once you get the chance to talk to him again, y'all will be able to smooth things over." Dook himself isn't so sure, but he nods anyway.

"I wouldn't beat myself up about it," Fatz tells him, and they continue walking. "Can't go back and change the past, anyways."

They round the next corner, and find themselves back where they started.

"This is–" Dook starts.

"I figured you didn't actually want to use the bathroom," Fatz says. "Just wanted some air, right?"

"Y... yeah," Dook says.

Fatz holds the door open for him, and they both file back into the room and into the same seats they occupied.

Time passes, measured only by the songs Dook can hear quietly piped into the room through some unseen speaker. It's calming music, stuff from the 50s and 60s... And played so quietly, Dook finds himself nodding off.

But, no, he can't sleep. Not now. How would that make him look? This is a dire situation– he'd look unconcerned. He can't fall asleep. He won't fall asleep...

Dook is awoken by the feeling of the seat next to him shifting. Not Billy Bob– no, this is the seat to his left, and much lighter. He opens his eyes groggily. Mitzi has climbed onto the seat next to him. Everyone else is nowhere to be found.

"Where's your sister?" He asks Mitzi.

"Bathroom," she says.

"Where's everyone else?" He asks.

"Went home," she says.

The music has stopped being piped into the room. "What time is it?" Dook asks.

Mitzi shrugs. "Late," she replies. "You were sleeping a while."

Dook sighs through his nose. He blew it. "Do we know anythin' else?"

"No," she grumbles. "Mini might let me stay home from school tomorrow," she adds.

"I bet it's past your bedtime, huh?" Dook says. "How come you're not tired?"

"I have a lot of practice stayin' up later than I'm supposed to," Mitzi says, a bit proudly.

Dook chuckles. "You're a good kid, Mitzi," he tells her.

Just then, Queenie walks back into the room, sitting down across from the two. She eyes them both, arms folded. Dook immediately quiets down, returning his gaze to his feet. Mitzi returns to her sister's side. The room lapses into silence.

After a few minutes, Queenie stands, possibly sensing his discomfort– possibly feeling uncomfortable herself. She moves toward the back of the room, the water cooler. Dook eyes her from his seat, watching as she fills the little paper cup. Despite it being full, she pauses for a while before taking it, and then pauses again before actually taking a sip. Her back remains turned to him and Mitzi the whole time. It's like she's intentionally drawing it out. No use in watching her, he figures.

Dook looks back forward, and catches a glance at Mitzi– she's somehow fallen asleep. Guess she isn't as versed in staying up as she claimed. Dook sighs softer, feeling somewhat alone now.

Then, a weight shifts next to him, sitting down.

"So, what did you say to him?" Queenie asks.

Dook sighs, sharper now. "I didn't say nothin' to him." Nothing intentionally hurtful, at least. "I told him the truth. He got mad at me. He left."

"He left," Queenie repeats. "You must've said something to make him want to leave."

"No," he insists. "He–" He pauses, measuring if he should mention the stuff he revealed about his parents. "He told me money was tight. Told me he coulda done much better with it than I did." He huffs. "I dunno why you're so surprised. You were the one who told him about the money."

"You were the one who blew it," she says.

"It's none of your damn business what I do," he shoots back.

"It's my business what you do with Beach Bear," she replies.

"Since when?" He snaps. "What kinda authority do you have on him, huh? Last I checked, he hated you!"

"He–" She furrows her brow. "No he doesn't," she says assuredly, leaning back in her chair.

" 'Course he does," Dook grumbles. "He told me about you guys, back then. About the Wolf Pack."

Mini is quiet for a moment. "What'd he tell you?" She asks.

"How y'all fought all the time," Dook says. "And about the fire. And how y'all went your own separate ways after, but you followed him."

They sit in uncomfortable silence for a moment. Finally, she speaks. "He ever bring you up on the roof?" She asks.

"...Yeah," Dook says.

"That was our thing," she tells him. "Yeah, we fought. All of us fought. We were all asshole teenagers. None of us had good lives. None of us knew how to love people properly. And we were all always on edge. Always thought we were all a second away from hurting each other. Maybe we were hurting each other. I dunno.

"I don't know the whole psychology behind it, I just know we all stuck with each other. Even if we fought, we were all... We were all the only people who felt like we understood each other. And when we climbed up on that roof together, we didn't have to apologize or anything. That gesture itself cleared the air. It meant we still loved each other.

"It's fucked up, I guess. It's not 'normal,' or whatever. But it's what we did. We all cared about each other, we all knew that. Beach Bear's... like my brother, I guess. It's my business to know his business. Even if he fuckin'... sucks, sometimes, I worry about him." She chuckles. "He'd laugh at me if I ever said that to his face. But I know he feels the same way about me."

Dook recalls the night on the roof together. He was acting strange that night, he remembers. Lying about having done this all before, but still wanting to do it...

"Maybe he doesn't... wanna be that person anymore," he muses. "Whoever he was back then."

"He's not," she insists.

Dook replays the scene from earlier in his mind. The way Beach Bear pushed him. He wasn't hurt, but... He'd never been scared of him before. Not like that. He hadn't been hurt, but in that moment he believed Beach Bear might actually hurt him. He still can't shake the image of Queenie's face with those claw marks in it...

"He pushed me," he says, so soft it's barely audible. Then, a bit more confidently, "A- and he hurt you."

"He did," Mini says. She doesn't look at Dook. "He... did."

It's quiet between them for a moment. It's not as uncomfortable this time.

"Even though he did," Dook says finally, "does that... make you love him less?"

"Does it make you love him less?" She asks back.

No. He knows that. He doesn't say it, though– he knows she feels the same.

It's a strange thing, to be able to know what someone's thinking like this. To speak without really speaking. Is this what her and Beach Bear have? Is this what he and Beach Bear have? Is that what being on the roof together is?

"...Maybe I thought the wrong way 'bout you," he says.

Mini chuckles. "What'd you think about me before?" She asks.

"...Thought you were a jerk," he admits shyly.

She laughs. "I am a jerk," she says. "I... I am a jerk." She leans forward, resting her forearms on her knees. "I've been a jerk."

Dook isn't sure what to say. They sit quietly for a while longer.

"I shouldn't be in your business," Mini says after some time. "I gotta let Beach go... if you promise you'll take care of him."

" 'Course I will," he says. "He doesn't need me to take care of him, anyway."

"Take care of each other, then," she says. "Promise that."

"...I will," he says.

"And, in lieu of a roof..." Mini leans back, reaching into her pocket and producing an envelope. Beach Bear's name is written on it. "...Give this to him, would you?"

Dook blinks, looking at it. He isn't fully sure what it is. Regardless, he takes it. "Okay," he says, pocketing it.

Mini sighs, relieved, slumping back in her chair a bit. Her gaze fixes on Mitzi, sleeping calmly in the row of chairs across from the two of them.

"She's a good kid," Dook says.

"She is," Mini says. "Promise you'll take care of her too."

"Take care of...?"

"In the band," she says. "What are y'all calling yourselves, the Rock-afire or something?"

"The Rock-afire Explosion," Dook says. Mini smiles.

"That's a dumb name," she says. She stands, and approaches Mitzi, scooping her up. "I'm gonna get this one to bed."

"Yeah," Dook says. "Be safe."

Mini nods. "Don't stress yourself out too much about all this, alright?" She says. "Take it easy. Try to get some rest, yourself."

"Y- yeah," he says. He'd gone this long without remembering the dire circumstances they were all here under. "Thanks, Qu– Mini."

She grins. "Don't mention it."

She pushes through the double doors of the waiting area, and Dook is finally left alone.

[boneskullravenriver]

Red Rising characters as the tarot.

Thought this would be interesting to do since tarot is another interest I have! 🤭🙏Let me know what you think!

(I'm only using cards from the major arcana for simplicity's sake!) Also, it's been a long while since I read the entire series (I'm currently rereading morning star rn!) So forgive me if this might be inaccurate but I'm going off of what I remember lol.

Darrow: The Chariot

Honestly, I debated on choosing the Death card for him, because Death has to do with change, the closing of one chapter to begin another and a lot of Darrow's journey throughout the book is in line with the qualities of the Death card. But I decided on the Chariot because the aspects of that card does also reflect Darrow: the Charioteer that guides and manages opposing forces, this card is all about overcoming obstacles through maintaining control and keeping on track with your goals. The willpower to rein in the push and pull of all the challenges you face. And he's been through a lot of shit, he's had to swallow down all he felt in order to look to the future, even if he wanted to give up. Darrow, to me, is definitely the Chariot.

Mustang: Strength

I honestly debated on whether or not to catagorize her as Justice, but I settled on Strength. Funnily enough, the Rider-waite depiction of strength has a woman with a lion. (See below)

But I swear that wasn't intentional. But in my eyes, Mustang does embody the qualities of this card. She knows herself and what she values. This card's main aspects is someone who is disciplined and level headed, even in situations where other people might not be like that. In the card, the woman tames the feral lion, not because she's using force or violence, but because she's calm and disciplined. Mustang is smart, and she knows how to play the game of social interaction. And she knows it too. Using that skill to protect the people she loves.

Victra: Wheel of Fortune

Look, I had a bit of trouble with this one. But I settled on the wheel of fortune. Victra is a bit of a wild card to me, and the wheel of fortune is kind of like that.

Adrius/The Jackal: The World (reversed)

Thought I was gonna put him as the Devil, didn't you? XD

Look, I was tempted (pun not intended) but no. To me, Adrius is the World, but in its worst qualities. Instead of the feeling of wholeness and accomplishment that comes from the World, Adrius kinda has the opposite. Especially at the end of Golden son and the beginning of Morning Star. He technically has everything, a high position (I mean, he's archgovenor during MS), people defer to him in some ways. Those are accomplishments. But there's a hole. Incompleteness. He did not get the one thing he wanted: his father's approval and his love. When he didn't get it, he shot his father point blank. He has his sister's ability to play the people game, but without her inherent desire to protect those closest to her. They're definitely mirrors of each other.

Roque: The Hierophant

Roque embodies the Hierophant tbh. It's a card about sticking to tradition and the established status quo. He doesn't want change in Society, because he wholeheartedly believes in the supremacy of Golds. And he has that sort of upright academic vibe (I mean, they literally call him the poet). I can definitely see him drawn as the figure in this card. Just look at it:

Tactus: The Devil

Tactus really is kinda in the grips of the messy soup of that card. Excess, entrapment. Addiction. And in the end, it led him astray even when at the end he wanted to change. He never got a chance to.

Sevro: The Tower

This one was kind of hard, honestly. But I settled on the Tower. Dude's life has been marked by one major change after another. Finding out his friend is Red, finding out his mother is a Red, his father dying and having to take up the mantle of Ares. You know. But this card is about letting that tower fall, it was gonna happen anyway, so you might as well dust yourself off and keep going. Sevro is kind of like that, imo.

Lysander: The Moon

I honestly don't really know how to explain it. And no, NO. it was not because his last name is Lune. I swear to God, that was not intentional. He just gives off the vibes of that card. I'm going to share a screenshot from the website, Labyrinthos. They sum it up better than I can. I think it's pretty clear:

[mlobsters]

supernatural s1e10 asylum (w. richard hatem)

(this is a rewatch, so spoilers abound)

search up, as my kids would say, what to do when your fixation takes a left turn. spn is definitely still my main thing, but i also just completely lost interest in trying to watch it again. i thought having the project of doing my little writeups for the eps i hadn't done would carry me along, like it did through the episodes/season i struggled with, but alas. not so much

lot of the little xfiles sound effect being used in this teaser bit with the cops searching the building. ps i've learned a lot about the history of abuse against disabled folks including the history of them being placed in institutions like this from imani barbarin (crutches and spice) and current disability advocacy etc; give her a follow.

dude that's a sweet little car, wonder if that's someone on the cast/crew's. in a different life i would have been down to mod my car too (i have a little 2006 black acura rsx that i love dearly)

the coloring and darkness i can't tell if that drip out of the ghostly possessed cop is blood or the black goo lol

such a pretty shot i love it and it's got that @dappermouth gothic americana vibe in spades and i kinda wanna paint it somehow. juxtaposed with the most bland boring font in the title screen lol

DEAN Caleb hasn't heard from him? SAM Nope. And neither has Jefferson or Pastor Jim. What about the journal? Anything leads in there?

thanks for the links to the characters from the transcript, wiki! trying to pay attention to what all the boys know about other hunters etc. also kind of creepy note in the caleb wiki entry: According to Jo's Journal, Jo was forced by her mother to refer to Caleb as "Uncle Caleb."

SAM After all that happened back in Kansas, I mean...he should've been there, Dean. You said so yourself. You tried to call him and...nothing. DEAN I know! (He rummages through his duffel) Where the hell is my cellphone? SAM You know, he could be dead for all we know. DEAN Don't say that! He's not dead! He's – he's... SAM He's what? He's hiding? He's busy?

the sass on the "he's busy?" made me laugh out loud

SAM (snorts) This is a job... Dad wants us to work a job. DEAN Well, maybe we'll meet up with him? Maybe he's there? SAM Maybe he's not? I mean, he could be sending us there, by ourselves, to hunt this thing. DEAN Who cares! If he wants us there, it's good enough for me! SAM This doesn't strike you as weird? The texting? The coordinates? DEAN Sam! Dad's tellin' us to go somewhere, we're goin'.

(little crispy R on weird)

SAM makes a bitchface and sighs.

okay transcriber 😂 dean's so relieved to get some orders

psst dean i think you're supposed to act at least a little mad or somethin after getting thrown around by fake-mad sam

i was trying to find a gif of dean spider monkey'ing over the chainlink fence but instead ended up in the tags of a gifset of that scene with sam shoving dean and apparently some people read this as dean was hurt (emotionally) by sam being too rough with him because he's mad about other stuff? which is 100% not what i got from his reaction. if that's what he was going for, i did not pick it up

DEAN Shoved me kinda hard in there, buddy boy.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i'd expect a "look" to be like, wtf bro? not kind of... dazed and almost smiling

well. i can't find a gif of what i was looking for and i am reminded of why i don't search for spn stuff across the site vs just a blog that i know rb's lots of gifsets. i think that's enough for tonight

i just made the gifs instead 🧍‍♂️🤸‍♂️🧍‍♂️

also realizing why watching these first season episodes is especially exhausting, there's so much backstory and and character establishing going on that i have Thoughts about damned near every scene when they're talking, so it's just a lot of me prattling on and on. it's like a book report for every episode. because if i'm gonna talk about the episode, i'm gonna Talk About the Episode.

DEAN Let me know if you see any dead people, Haley Joel. SAM Dude, enough. DEAN I'm serious. You gotta be careful, all right? Ghosts are attracted to that whole ESP thing you got going on. SAM I told you, it's not ESP! I just have strange vibes sometimes. Weird dreams. DEAN Yeah, whatever. Don't ask, don't tell.

a) you see dead people too, dean b) ->

Pride Program offers personal perspective on ‘don’t ask, don’t tell’ era

By Stefanie Hauck DLA Land and Maritime Public Affairs

When Jason Guthrie was in the Navy, he thrived for the first time in his life, garnering many accolades, challenging assignments and promotions. But one moment brought his upward trajectory to a screeching halt, resulting in his discharge in 1996 after four years of service. Guthrie, who served during the “don’t ask, don’t tell” era, spoke about his experiences as a gay man trying to find his way in an unaccepting world, during the 2024 Defense Logistics Agency Land and Maritime Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, and Queer Pride Month program June 5 at the DLA Land and Maritime Operations Center Auditorium on Defense Supply Center Columbus. “Don’t ask, don’t tell” stipulated that gay service members were not required to disclose their sexual orientation, but could still be dishonorably discharged if they were discovered to be gay.�� Thousands of service members – including Guthrie - were drummed out of the service under the law until its repeal in late 2010.

... His early interactions with other closeted gay military members around him, eventually led to his acceptance that he was gay at a time when “don’t ask, don’t tell” was the new law of the land. Guthrie said at the time it all seemed so straight forward. “You don’t ask me, I don’t tell you,” he said about the law. “It seemed to make perfect sense to me but many of my fellow closeted service members did not agree with that compromise. So, we all did the best we could to live our lives and pursue our military careers.” He focused on his work and was determined to be the best sailor that he could be. And by keeping social distractions to a minimum, he thrived in his early Navy career being promoted often and receiving many awards while working in strategy and policy for the chief of Naval Operations at the the Pentagon. ... After a tour in Bahrain, where he worked as an awards writer for the commander of U.S. Naval Forces Central Command, he arrived at his last duty station in 1996 at a low point after ending his first serious relationship prior to rotating back to the United States. “I was in the U.S. military and in the closet,” he said, “I knew I would need to transfer again, and he would not be able to join me.” What would be his last assignment was challenging for him in many ways. He had a roommate again after living independently for a while, and the people he worked with resented his rapid rise in rank and his previous ‘cushy’ assignments. “I was in a low mental state and had a hard time connecting with people,” he said.  This is where he said he made the biggest mistake of his military life by inviting someone into his room while his roommate was away at work. He thought it would be OK to do so because his roommate who was a flight mechanic was on a different shift. However, his roommate did show up while he had that individual in his room. “That’s when I heard a sound I’ll never forget. A key entering the door lock,” Guthrie said. His roommate did not say a word, went about his business and left while Guthrie and the individual were hiding under the bed covers. “I went to work the next day thanking God I dodged that bullet,” he said, “But my relief was soon replaced with fear when I was called into the command master chief’s office a few days later.” That conversation revolved around working out the issue with his roommate, but the impasse was so great it was reported to the unit’s legal office, resulting in several rounds of questioning until Guthrie admitted that there was another man in his room and that he was gay.   The next four months were torturous for Guthrie, while he went through the process of getting discharged from the Navy.

i was gonna include some history of DADT but i think this story is more important. the policy only ended in 2011. i know don't ask don't tell was a common punchline for many years, i'm the same age as them, i get it. i also think it's gross. it's that casual homophobia of the time period where people are sort of more openly chill about queer people theoretically, but they're still a joke. and the joke here i guess is sam's psychic stuff is freaking dean out and he doesn't want to hear it? but he's the one that brought it up. whatever, man.

(wikipedia) After the policy was introduced in 1993, the military discharged over 13,000 troops from the military under DADT.[111][231][232] ... In September 2021, on the 10th anniversary of the Don't Ask, Don't Tell repeal, President Joe Biden announced that the Veterans Administration would start providing benefits for service members who received other-than-honorable discharges (before DADT was enacted and while it was in effect) because of their sexual orientation.[215]

anyway. sigh.

DEAN Hey Sam, who do you think is the hotter psychic: Patricia Arquette, Jennifer Love Hewitt, or you? SAM pushes DEAN, who laughs.

so we gotta round it out with a little bit of calling sam a girl, of course. people call this flirting, i call it teasing with sort of a rotten core of a joke. i have a tag for it, as i go through the rewatch - the more overt (to me) things about masculinity/gender policing in the show. i think i miss some of that stuff. hey fellas, is it girly to have psychic powers

DEAN Man. Electro-shock. Lobotomies. They did some twisted stuff to these people. Kinda like my man Jack in Cuckoo's Nest. (makes crazy eyes and grins at SAM)

at least his impression bombed :p (my mental check: jack nicholson is the actor, jack nicklaus is the golfer; showing my age, natch)

i don't mean to pick on dean. just unfortunately the writers saddled him with most of the ~problematic~ lines. this is another case where i tend to zoom out and blame the writing and mentally keep it a little separated from the character. which isn't fair but it allows me to continue liking him :p and i'll even give that okay, so he was more homophobic as a character at this age in this time period and he grew past it. which he did, mostly. but then they'll have something like the 8x23 thing and then i squarely blame the writers (and honestly probably jackles too) and keep it separate from dean entirely because it's inconsistent to him at that point and nonsensical.

woof. shut up, bro.

SAM Dean. When are we going to talk about it? DEAN Talk about what? SAM About the fact Dad's not here. DEAN Oh. I see. How ’bout...never. SAM I'm being serious, man. He sent us here... DEAN So am I, Sam. Look, he sent us here, he obviously wants us here. We'll pick up the search later. SAM It doesn't matter what he wants. DEAN See. That attitude? Right there? That is why I always get the extra cookie. SAM Dad could be in trouble, we should be looking for him. We deserve some answers, Dean. I mean, this is our family we're talking about. DEAN I understand that, Sam, but he's given us an order. SAM So what, we gotta always follow Dad's orders? DEAN Of course we do.

i know you'll come around, dean, but let that simmer for a second. that's fucked up.

laughing at the idea that you could get a same day/next day appointment with a psychiatrist even in 2005

not in his usual little sneakers. kinda look like hush puppies or the like. but then his boots were slip ons too, once he moved to those. and jared still wears some of his old spn boots lol, mentioned at a con recently

huh! another actual brand. men's health magazine and that looks like.. damon from tvd? on the cover? oh, funny, it's seann william scott (the only way i dredged that one up after finding a picture was thinking he might have been with kutcher in dude, where's my car? [he was])

our generation (myself included) loves a long sleeve under short sleeve shirt

ELLICOTT You. Now I'll make you a deal. I'll tell you all about the Roosevelt riot, if you tell me something honest about yourself. Like, uh, this brother you're road tripping with. How do you feel about him? DEAN Dude! You were in there forever. What the hell were you talking about?

to be a fly on that wall. that said, i have faith in sam's abilities to bullshit well enough that doctor man buys his story. or maybe he took the opportunity to rant consequence-free, who knows!

hey sammy's got the camcorder out at the hospital, like they used in bloody mary? i thought that was a one and done (they may have used it since and i didn't notice/think about it too)

SAM This place is orbing like crazy.

IT'S ORBIN' TIME! haha also apparently only mentioned in this episode. but it did get a wiki entry because it was in the official website definition thing

KAT And Dean? He's your boss? SAM No.

partners, baby

brooke nevin / sydney sweeney

she reminds me of sydney sweeney a bit. pretty, blonde hair, with big eyes and similarly shaped mouth. apparently brooke nevin was one of the kids in the animorphs tv show? i didn't read those books, they were after my time. i got one or two for my kids but my oldest was very meh so i haven't gotten any others

nicholas d'agosto / tom welling in smallville

and the boy (nicholas d'agosto) who i, for whatever reason, think he looks like smallville version clark kent in this episode (having literally never watched smallville and only seen commercials) was harvey dent in the gotham tv show. which i also didn't watch! i don't watch many things. LOL which i conflated with the show misha was on. gotham... knights? haha. oh, and misha was harvey dent. that's even funnier

KAT My dad took me skeet shooting a couple times.

girl, me too! and my brother worked at the trap and skeet range in high school in az. iirc he was working in the little house that launches the clay targets

DEAN Yeah. They were rioting against Dr. Ellicott. Dr. Feelgood was working on some sort of, like, extreme rage therapy. He thought that if he could get his patients to vent their anger then they would be cured of it. Instead it only made them worse and worse and angrier and angrier. So I'm thinking, what if his spirit is doing the same thing? To the cop? To the kids in the seventies, making them so angry they become homicidal.... Come on, we gotta find his bones and torch ’em.

okay, i had forgotten this was the explanation to why sam says what he says in a minute. 📝

so i guess it was just drippy nose blood from the cop at the start, since it's not possession it's.... whatever brain zappy mind meld the evil doctor ghost man did. gotta have some indicator that sammy's under the influence too

DEAN We gotta burn Ellicott's bones and all this will be over, and you'll be back to normal. SAM I am normal. I'm just telling the truth for the first time. I mean, why are we even here? ’Cause you're following Dad's orders like a good little solider? Because you always do what he says without question? Are you that desperate for his approval? DEAN This isn't you talking, Sam. SAM That's the difference between you and me. I have a mind of my own. I'm not pathetic, like you. DEAN So what are you gonna do, huh? Are you gonna kill me? SAM You know what, I am sick of doing what you tell me to do. We're no closer to finding Dad today than we were six months ago. DEAN Well, then here. Let me make it easier for you. Come on. Take it. Real bullets are gonna work a hell of a lot better than rock salt. Take it!! DEAN You hate me that much? You think you could kill your own brother? Then go ahead. Pull the trigger. Do it! DEAN Man, I'm not going to give you a loaded pistol!

just thinking about how the premise is basically taking existing anger and ramping it up to the nth degree, and what the implications are of that in this. we know sam is independent and doesn't like being told what to do (relatable), and is very frustrated with dean's willingness to follow dad's orders instead of defying them in a more concentrated effort to track him down. playing dad's game of him sending them on hunts through the most ridiculous methods possible. i'd be pretty damned frustrated too. and i also understand, but have a harder time relating to, where dean's coming from. he was raised in a way that he understood from a way too young age that following orders was a matter of life or death, and that he had to keep sam safe, he had the burden and responsibility laid on his little kid shoulders. i can only imagine how hard it would be to break away from that lifetime of conditioning.

so that said, just thinking about how dean would reconcile this. trying to think about it without considering what we know about how dean feels and what he's worried about later, and just what we know at this point. but it's hard to think about it without considering the conversation in 1x16 where he lets his guard down and pretty much begs sam to stay with him and dad instead of going back to school when it's all over. in the pilot, he says he can't do it alone - which sam says yes he can - but dean says he doesn't want to. so we know he missed sam and wants them to be a family and partners. but at this point sam still is scrabbling for normalcy and independence and for this to be a short term situation.

so i guess my question to myself is, do i think this planted more seeds of doubt for dean that sam doesn't care about him the same way dean does. but we've got 1x12 faith coming up soon, which should tell dean something about sam's commitment to him. not enough to soothe his concerns, obviously, and even if sam's ready to trade someone else's life for dean's without a moment of concern, he still doesn't want to stay hunting long term with dean at that point. tough situation. when staying with your person means also having to do this horrible life-risking job with virtually no option for settling down, having a family, stability, safety and comfort.

(at which point i think about how they do eventually get most of that, but then dean dies and sam has to go on without him for so long and i get incredibly sad again. when the happy ending makes you cry every time you think about it for more than 5 seconds... i've gotten a lot out of fixating on this show but occasionally i wish i hadn't)

gives him a pat and apologizes for knocking him out

dean boot update: still not the logger boots

and for inexplicable reasons, evil doctor ghost man turns into a statue and breaks apart on the floor when his bones are burned lol as opposed to the standard ghost burning up sitch

crawled over to take refuge/(literally) protect sam's ass from crumbling ghost statue haha

SAM I'm sorry, man. I said some awful things back there. DEAN You remember all that? SAM Yeah. It's like I couldn't control it. But I didn't mean it, any of it. DEAN You didn't, huh? SAM No, of course not. Do we need to talk about this? DEAN No. I'm not really in the sharing and caring kinda mood. I just wanna get some sleep.

i mean, yes, you need to talk about it. and it kind of breaks my heart. dean is a mess. he only has had two points of stability in life, and sam left for 4 years and then john ghosted him. so he's twisting in the wind, trying to hold on to sam who is looking to leave as soon as possible, and the uncertainty of what's going to happen with john... it's just all so miserable.

so for the second time we get sam on the brink of freaking out over the nonsense of the no contact/cryptic contact from john and then john comes through with something. a message before, a phone call now. iirc jdm too was frustrated over what an ass he was being dodging the kids constantly

Throughout the season, Morgan became frustrated at times due to his character's avoidance of his sons, stating, "It pissed off everybody, it pissed off us as actors, it pissed off the audience watching, because none of us really knew where we were gonna go." However, he reasoned that John's motivation for his actions was due to having knowledge that nobody else had.[25]

you'd think i was getting paid by the letter to write these damned things. good grief.

[featureenvyproductions]

NEW PROJECT SPAMS

hi 👋

do you guys wanna see the stuff I'm working on for my new animation I decided to do? well I can't hear you through the screen so I'll assume yes and also time for info dump (below, after the drawing, in case you don't care). TLDR version is I'm making a thing where some people go to mars. I think I finally worked out a descent module and the shit attached to it, which I'll info dump about in a sec for now look at my sub par 95% free handed scribbles (I'm too lazy to find a ruler but I used the edge of a book for the solar panels). I do plan to revise this I think but this is draft 1.

K so what the fuck is this. So I have some people goin to mars in my animation - a collab between future nasa and future roscosmos. I know I could literally make this look like anything and absolutely ZERO people would care but like I HAD TO PUT A LITTLE THOUGHT INTO IT OR I WAS GONNA DIE OK. I basically absorbed videos and facts on soyuz capsules until I started dreaming exclusively about plunging into a desert in a tiny metal box and then I figured it was enough and ok wait back up ej we gotta toss some background info out there.

Ok tldr I thought about this mission my people are going on bc even though I'm not gonna include all this exposition in the story, it helps me guide the design of shit bc I'm not that creative lol. The reason it looks so much like the soyuz is basically because in my story this spacecraft is made by Russia and the one thing I notice is that their designs don't really seem to change drastically over time. They're just like "yeah this works" and then they do that really fucking well forever and honestly I get it and this story only takes place 15-20 years in the future so I borrowed a bit

So just a high level overview. The characters are leaving from Earth in this much smaller spacecraft that will dock with a bigger space-station-like vehicle already in orbit around earth that actually does the bulk of the journey. Part of the reason for this is the trade off is a journey 6 months of horrible radiation, near-zero-g, and conventional fuel OR a better but scarier rocket and a much shorter transfer. I went with the better rocket - a nuclear rocket. They'll get there in 45 days but the trade off is if something goes wrong it REALLY REALLY goes wrong. Thus the reason they're not using nuclear rockets earlier to leave the atmosphere.

Anyway tldr they're docking with a bigger ship.

This is the thing they take up to the bigger ship from earth (minus the first couple rocket stages but I won't really be showing that part of the journey so I didn't draw them). There are a couple different parts. The round one is the orbital module bc i figure they'll be headed quite a ways away to dock with the main ship and theyre gonna need a place to hang out and live and whatever.

The next one and the important one is the descent module.

Now I did kinda like I said base this on the soyuz BUT there are some notable differences which you can see in action in the side of the image at the top of this post if you squint. Mars has a tricky atmosphere. It's really thin. I gotta admit like I really have no fucking idea how to design airfoils for this, much less a descent capsule. But I did read a couple papers/watched some gifs of boundary layer separation over airfoils or whatever and I looked at some of the reasoning behind why say the Mars science laboratory aeroshell and the ingenuity rotor blades are weird looking compared to stuff that's designed for our atmosphere. It boils down to it's just harder to generate lift (big shocker).

My guys would run into the same problem coming down in a capsule, but I made it so that it's a little wider/flatter and sharper than the current generation soyuz capsules. I also added more control thrusters to it because these people will have to get themselves out of the capsule and won't have help, so it needs to be oriented correctly. If they're tipping to one side and approaching some weird rocks or whatever, they can blast those things and right themselves a bit hopefully. Yeah having a thruster array on either side kinda fucks up the airflow but like I need these for the plot. More on that later. I mean maybe I don't. I'm still thinking about it. If I decide this is a stupid idea I won't put them there but like I said draft 1 no one roast me too hard

Other than that it's pretty boring. I've got a Massive parachute (though who knows how much help thatll be. ) and some retrorockets that start firing as soon as they get close to the surface to try and cushion the landing.

Oh yeah and the other part here is just the instruments/solar panels/main propulsion tanks/thrusters. This is necessary so the module can power up at the end of the journey after the big ship enters a low mars orbit. It'll separate from the big ship and then perform a braking maneuver to ultimately enter the atmosphere and land.

Anyway I'm sorry I know like .5 people care about these info dumps however I'm not sorry enough to not do it and it will happen again

[fox-toothed]

tagged by @buffyjackets for another tag game! :3 ty for tagging me

last song: "look what you made me do" by taylor swift. i was listening to the willow rosenberg playlist i made lol. i have several public playlists up on my spotify that are based on different characters. most of them are works in progress but i think they're pretty solid. i have a few more playlists that will be public after i feel like they're ready

favorite color: pink!

last movie/tv show: my sibling and i just finished a buffy rewatch....i feel a buffy-shaped hole in my heart. god do i love that ending

currently watching: nothing atp! my sibling and i are debating what show we want to watch together next but we cant agree on anything because we just want to be watching buffy again lol. but whatever it is it won't be tonight, ive got a costume party to go to :3

spicy/sweet/savory: definitely savory!! i like sweet too. i have a high spice tolerance but i prefer food mild

relationship status: uhhhh i have a weird situationship going on with a girl i met on gay craigslist (Lex). we were going to be fake fiancees for a scam but i was fully ready to fall in love with her for real bc she was super cute. i think she ghosted me tho, she hasn't texted me back in a couple weeks

current obsession: it's buffy. im really goin through it about buffy rn.

last thing i googled: "is it legal to look in through someone's windows" okay LOOK i know this SEEMS bad but it's a step up from the b&e i was considering. i have a friend whom i have not heard from in more than a week and when i went to check on her, her sketchy landlord refused to let me in, lied to my face multiple times ("her car isn't here so i don't think she's home" ig he didnt think i knew what her car looked like since she only just got it, but it was parked right in the driveway) ("i don't really talk to her" she tells me all the time that you won't leave her the fuck alone bro, i know you talk to her), and then he shut the door on me. i want to make sure she's alive in there lol. btw it is not legal to look in through someone's windows in my state. thanks google

anyone who wants to do this, consider urself tagged! i usually post these on my other blog but im just gonna leave it on this one because i never really post art anymore so tbh i might as well let the other one die

[microsuedemouse]

tagged by @suzirya - thank you Sar!! I love to be tagged in things :>

rules: tag some folks u wanna know better (copy and paste, don’t reblog).

last song: right now I am listening to my playlist for songs that get stuck in my head (in a good way), and it just switched from flor's ley lines to The Maine's Don't Come Down. one of these days I will get around to listening to more of The Maine...

last show: last thing I finished on my own was Rizzoli & Isles, which was solid desk-watching (ie, something to watch while also half-distracted; I always use crime procedurals for this) but they should've let those women be lesbians. last non-desk-show was season one of The Sandman, which I was honestly prepared to have more complaints about lol? but I really thoroughly enjoyed it.

currently watching: current desk-show is Hawaii Five-0 (the 2010 version). I'm only a few eps in but it seems palatable for my purposes lol. I'm in the midst of a few cartoons and anime with Mo (younger sibling) rn as well - we still haven't finished Darker Than Black, Ben 10 is an ongoing project when we're in the mood, I've finally gotten them watching Dead End Paranormal Park, and they're getting me into Scooby-Doo: Mystery Inc (which is their favourite Scooby-Doo series, despite how goofy it is!)

currently reading: I've been rereading the Abhorsen trilogy since Louie recently gave me their paperback copies, after finding some really nice hardcovers secondhand. Was very pleased to discover that Sabriel 100% stands up to my middle school memories of it, and looking forward to getting further into Lirael. I'm also still on the Dracula Daily train!

current obsession: okay well. I'm a little bit in between hyperfixations at the moment, tbqh. but... y'all may have noticed me reblogging gifsets of The Void (2016) earlier. bc Mo and I watched it the night before last and it is On My Mind. but it also got me thinking again about the relationship between horror stories and love stories, which is something I find really? interesting?? (to be clear: all kinds of love stories; not just romance.) so many horror stories are so closely linked to love stories - whether they're about people surviving thanks to love, or sacrificing themselves bc of love, or coming to love each other bc of what they've been through together. or even just - like in stories like The Void - sometimes horror stories end on just the implication of love, bc you have just a couple people who get out alive at the end, and you gotta imagine that that would create one hell of a bond. (hell yeah, shared trauma.)

I naturally seem to think a lot about what happens After a story ends, and with horror that can be really interesting to think about, especially for someone who's as much a character writer as I am. and horror is such a RICH genre for that. what happens for these people when the sun comes up? how do they go on? when there's more than one, it feels so natural that they'd rely on each other, because no one else knows what they've seen... and I just. find myself so preoccupied with the potential story there. probably a very different kind of story than the first one, but one that compels me all the same.

so. I think I'm. kind of obsessed atm with the love stories contained within, or created by, horror stories. (tragedies, more broadly, but I've come to love horror so much.) and with the character stories that can be found surrounding the larger stories of which they're only a part.

anyway I need to stop talking about that before I snowball any further. :')

SO. I will tag some friends. hello. hm. @izupie, @werewolfin, @karis-the-fangirl, how's it goin'???

[sagemoderocklee]

Hi hi you're luna-lee on ao3 right? I just wanna say I absolutely love you're writing and especially your gaalee stories. I just caught up on the art of love today and I'm absolutely loving it so much!! I also was reading absolution and that one HURT but in a way that was very very well written (and I really hope you're planning to continue it bc I need closure lol 😭) I've read some of your others too and they're just all so so SO good!!!! ❤

oh my gosh thank you so much!!! 😭😭😭this is soooo sweet! i’m sorry i didn’t answer sooner but i had stuff goin on and wasn’t on tumblr at all!

i promise all my fics will eventually be complete! if you’ve read anything that’s a WIP on my Ao3 account it’s probably something i’ve had planned, plotted, and everything else except the actual writing for… a long time. Unfortunately, I go through periods of… not writer’s block necessarily but like I’ll just not be in my writing headspace. I make costumes, so sometimes my creative energy is spent on that as that is what I’m tryna do with my life professionally!

Also, I was actually abroad in September in Ireland on a research trip of sorts related to that which is also why I haven’t been active or writing—between planning over summer, the actual trip and all it’s hiccups, and then coming back and resettling after a month abroad… i’ve just been all over the place.

i am currently working on updating It Eats Your Heart, and hoping to get back to Absolution after that! The Art of Love’s next chapter is also started and a lil less than half done with the initial writing. My goal is definitely to update these three stories before the end of the year, but I do have a commission for two shirts that I have to get finished before I throw myself fully back into the fanfiction of it all! But in the meantime I am always happy to answer asks about fics because that always helps motivate me to write! I also made a spotify playlist for Absolution which I’ll reblog in case you haven’t seen it—i’m on my way to work rn so i can’t just easily grab the link to that post.

anyways thank you so so so much for this incredible message! it’s a rlly wonderful way to start my day!!! ♥️♥️♥️