#they tell him to stfu and fill the fridge up

[dreamieparadise]

Can I know more about the mafia highschool au? Like is it a normal school with just a bunch of mafia kids or is there an actual mafia curriculum? What was Momo's reaction when she found out she was pregnant? Is Mimi still the Rat King? Curious minds would like to know 🥺💜✨

Djkdkd it piqued your interest, huh? x'D

It's an actual mafia hs! 90% of the people there are mafia affiliated, and in order for outsiders to be brought into the school, they have to be sponsored by a current student! The current student has to vouch for the outsider's capabilities and also take responsibility for them. For example, Reborn sponsored Miruku! He is now a mentor figure to him and is guiding him to be what he feels is a splendid mafia member. [The thing is, everyone here are teens, so while the arcobaleno are still powerful, they aren't as experienced or cool headed as their adult counterparts! Reborn, in this au, isn't as gentlemanly towards femme presenting people! It's something he works more towards later. He still treats them better than male presenters but thats because he is a misandrist. Another example: Fon has a temper!!!]

The one who sponsored Momina is actually Luce! Luce is a great help to Momina due to both of them being spiritually inclined. However, with how Colonello [and Lal] are... they, of course, decided to snatch Momina away and also force teachings onto her. Luce is still Momina's actual mentor, though!

The blood, sex and violence are ramped up in this school. It's normal for students to be killed by other students [Squalo just murdering Dino's bullies because they were in the way, for example...] so this kind of pushes people into confessing, having sex, etc. They feel they can die any time so YOLO!!!

I like to think there is actually a mafia curriculum on top of the normal curriculum. "All the ways you can poison someone", "espionage", etc. They get sent on missions...

Momina has major brainrot!!! She was so happy to be a mother while married to Hayato. [Yeah... they got married while underage. Yeah, Hayato forced religious leaders to allow the marriage to happen... Momina thought it was so sweet! She just said don't threaten them in the house of God!! Him complying was endearing! :) ]

It's so funny because Jojo was like "Luce does not approve of them moving so fast while so young" LIKE SHE WASN'T ALSO PREGNANT DJDJDJD difference is Luce claimed her husband Roberto as her husband when they were 5 so it's Totally Different. [Luce's reasoning, probably!]

LET THE RAT KING MIMI GO

Mimi is kind of one?? He was wandering the sewers for Cavallone lost treasure, and Dino went with him...he complained every step of the way until Mimi actually found it. Dino is now convinced Mimi is a lucky charm and brings him places, btw.

I could keep going, but let me stop here!!! 😭✋🏾

[mwrmaidluvz]

Cinnamon Buns ʚɞ ⁺˖ ⸝⸝

Miles Morales x Afro-Latina! Fem! Reader

✎ᝰ: The little video/thumbnail took me an hour..Im over it. Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy my bbgs <33, Imma start calling y’all that. Also, Please give me requests! Im also gonna be doing my thumbnail tingys like this.

Boo tang 🐻: “BAEEE!!”

You: “YEA?”

Boo tang 🐻: “MY MOMMA SAID I COULD COME OVER, I HAVE AN IDEA CAN WE COOK TOGETHER?”

You: “OMG NO WAY OFC WHAT WE FINNA COOK MILESS?”

Boo tang 🐻: “Cinna-buns?”

You: “I know yo ass didn’t just say cinnabuns.. ITS CINNAMON BUNS 🦍”

Boo tang 🐻: “STFU 💀.”

(Small argument over what its called, me personally i agree with miles.)

You: “You betta hurry yo fine self over here before I lock you out.”

Boo tang: “Alr mami be right there 💕”

You sit up from the couch and head to the kitchen. Searching your phone for the ingredients of Cinnamon buns. (Or cinnabuns), You read the ingredients, nodding your head as you read them.

• Milk

• Sugar

• Unsalted butter (Melted)

• Baking soda

• Vanilla Extract

• Ground Cinnamon

• Cream cheese (For the filling)

“Check- Wait what? Cream cheese??” You start scrambling throughout the fridge,

“BRO WHERE-“ A knock interrupted your plea for cream cheese, You move from the kitchen to the Door, you open it to see Miles pretty glowing eyes, and bright smile. He leans in and gives you a quick kiss before stepping in with his hand on your waist.

“Hey ma,”

“Heyy- Oh I forgot to tell you… I don’t got no cream cheese.”

“Ma, I was right by the bodega.”

“Ik Ik bae, I just found out. But it’s okay ima set the ingredients out and we can leave?” You say as you throw your jacket on. Miles nods as you grab your keys. You both head out to the bodega and enter. You head to the aisle where the cream cheese is until you notice Miles at the Coffee machine playing around with it, You grab the cream cheese and walk up to him.

“Miles, Stop touching shi, acting like this at yo grown age.”

You gives him a quick kiss before dragging him to the cashier, He pays and you both head back to your house. Here comes the hard part. Cooking. “Alright Miles.” You say as you roll your sleeves up.

“So what we do Ma?”

“Huh? I thought you had the instructions?”

“No ma, I thought you did.”

“Morales go get your phone!”

He listens and searches up the instructions.

“Okay so, Make the dough: In a large bowl, whisk together the warm milk, sugar, and melted butter. The mixture should be just warm.”

“Bby!! Can you get the Milk?”

“Alr,” He grabs the milk and places it on the counter stupidly.

“Miles. I asked you to get the milk..to pour it.”

“OH!” He grabs the milk and completely misses the bowl im your hands. “Mierda!” (Fuck)

”Miles, NO PUEDO YA NO PUEDO.” (Miles, I can’t I just can’t anymore 💀) You start dying and then, you place the bowl down and Miles starts cleaning your hands and the marble countertop. “Alright take two. This time I’M DOING IT MILES!”

“Alr Ma, Watch you gonna see how hard it i-“

He stops watching you pour the milk out effortlessly. “HOW-?” You give him the most shit eating smirk ever. After that the cinnamon buns are in the oven and you guys sit down and start playfighting, Until Miles sniffs the burnt air.

Sniff - Sniff • “Yo, Mami Hueles eso?“ (Yo, Mami do you smell that?)

“Oh shit.”

You and Miles run into the kitchen panting, And open the oven. You clap your hands as Miles takes the cinnamon buns out.

“YESS! THEY AINT BURNT THANK THE LORD!!” You yell

“FINALLY WE DONT BURN THE HOUSE DOWN!” Miles said. You both sit down and taste it. In 3…2…1! As you both pop the delicious treat in your mouths. You both smirk at eachother giving “Hmms.” And small moans and sighs in approval. “We should work for gordon.” Miles says with a mouth full.

“Miles! No habla con comida en la boca.” (Miles, don’t talk with food in yo mouth.)

“These Cinna-Buns is hittin dif.”

“Miles, for the last time. Its Cinnamon Buns/Rolls.”

୨୧⸝⸝﹕I hope yall enjoyed! You guys don’t understand how much i luv you guys. My bbgs, anyway, Please give more requests! I will be writing more. ﹐⊂✦⊃ ‹𝟹

[the-acid-pear-ocs]

I'm reading Copper's story again so i'll give a silly rundown of it:

Copper is in the forest, he's looking for a victim of a previous ai dungeon character of mine. We dont speak of that previous guy. Much silliness ensued here but none of it is canon.

Copper follows the screams but runs into a girl who is not screaming instead just playing w a toy truck. He's very fixated on that truck. She tells him her brother died because she didnt pray enough. Copper asks meaningless questions and then leaves.

Copper walks into a man with a bandage on his head who's holding a shotgun and crying. Without second thought he simply sits next to the man, ignoring how fucking dangerous this is.

The man tells him his family, wife and son, were killed by John Wayne Gacy, whom he also calls the White Devil. Copper has no fucking clue who that is but ends up telling this man to stfu bc he's getting sick.

(A/n: By now i need to remind yall copper is a detective.)

Copper asks the man about the bandages, the man explains what a bandage is. Copper calls him an idiot and asks why he has them on, the man ignores that and instead talks about what The White Devil does (takes the form of a clown and throws bodies in bags into a mass grave). Copper asks where he can find this killer, the man tells him to go to hell. Copper gets up and leaves, he looks at the sky and starts thinking of the weather.

(A/n: now you could fairly argue the victim is in shock, and maybe even brain damaged, so the strange responses are to be expected. This is not justified as for Copper, though.)

Copper has a bit of a Harry DuBois moment, directly talking to the voices in his head. Of course, said voices were me. A very fucking tired man having to deal with this very uncooperative detective.

Copper says he doesn't want to deal with this serial killer and instead goes home. Here he casually mentions there's a zombie outbreak. Zombies are living in the sewers of Denton. However despite refusing to face a serial killer he's confident about his abilities against zombies.

Copper goes home but realizes he has none of the things needed for outside survival like a tent, a knife, food and water, money for gas or spare clothes.

These things are, however, entirely useless, since it is confirmed Copper very much has a house when he realizes he hasn't eaten in days and picks some chips from his fridge. Except he throws up. Then swallows them down?

Copper is about to remember he's a grown man with a job when suddenly he hears someone shouting upstairs and firing a gun, so he goes investigate.

(A/n: I really believe Copper might be homeless. It is very likely he isn't even a real cop. I really think he just broke into some apartment and ate some spoiled chips)

Copper walks into a new place and starts looking for a girl named Alice. He forgets about the gunshots for a second, before thinking of the possibility of Alice having been shot.

Copper finds Alice hiding under a tree on a beer bottle filled backyard. She's been shot but she's alive, according to Copper. However, there seems something bad happened to both of them the previous day, and he wants to move on, so he just goes home, worried about being arrested.

(A/n: Copper realized he broke into a house and that's illegal?)

On the news, a story about a man named Jameson who killed his wife is playing on the news. The details are contradicting, and its an overal sickening situation. Copper turns the TV off.

Needing to clear up his mind, Copper goes out to buy some ice cream. He realizes new shops are opening around the neighborhood and feels happy about having a normal life :)

There's a loud sound and Copper runs directly into it, finding two men in black suits armed. One of them only misses shooting Copper on the head by centimeters.

Copper ducks and tries to run away, stumbling, until he finds a trash can where he hides inside.

Some people find him. At first, they are nice to him. Believing him and saying he should go home or get help, but after Copper says he can't because the man is still out there they start laughing and insulting him, culminating in them calling the shotgun man.

The man grabs Copper and shoots up and at him, but none of the shots hit. He also seems upset, asking Copper "what did i ever do to you?", which Copper asks the same.

Once again, Copper manages to escape and finds a dumpster to hide in, where he stays inside until midnight.

Eventually, Copper decides to leave and heads in to a police station, figuring out that if the man attacking him isnt there by now he must be gone. His panic is however evident and multiple people try to ask him if he's alright.

Copper sits down to calm himself down. A woman approaches and asks him who he is, and once he says his name she says he doesn't believe him. She then questions what he's doing here, to which Copper mentions that a man tried to kill him. The woman just gets confused and continues to stare at him blankly.

Copper gets really weirded out by this, especially because it was coming from someone who wasn't human. Because until now, Copper forgot to mention everyone in the room was in fact not human, but animalistic in some way.

It's then when he realizes: this is a furry convention. And, i quote him, "it really does seem like something out of a horror movie"

Copper tries to leave but he just walks in a room with even more furries and just, awkwardly hangs around, his anxiety raising by the moment.

As he was about to have a panic attack thinking of what the furries would do to him, a hand grabbed him and dragged him away from the furry part of the convention, instead leading him for a while to a different place. The man speaks but Copper can't understand what he's saying so he blindly trusts him.

After a while, the man points Copper to another group of people and tells him to follow them. Copper instead follows a single man, who leads him to an alleyway. The man looks fucking exhausted.

Copper wanted to tell the man to rest, but instead said HE wanted to rest, so the man took him to his house.

The man asks Copper why he's there, Copper is confused, and simply says that a furry told him to follow him. The man doesn't believe him but Copper insists it's true. After 5 minutes of writing, the man gives up.

Copper asks what the man wrote, to which he answers is the future. He says he doesn't know what the future holds, but it's going to be different from what they are used to.

The man leaves and the space time continuum collapses.

(A/n: This i later learnt was because of a glitch that was affecting all the users, but when it happened i thought it was just because Copper lost it, probably because him being nice broke the world.)

Copper waits for the man. He goes outside. Everything is normal. There's nothing inside. Copper goes back inside. He locks the door. Copper grabs the man. The man grabs him. He pulls the trigger. The man is dead. Copper waits for the man to come back. Copper sees the room to his room open, and walks outside. A man stands with a gun. Copper runs towards him, the gun is pointed towards him. They start to wrestle.

Copper grabs his phone and calls 911. The police take him to the hospital, where he finds out he's been shot.

(A/n: Copper originally and for a while died here, i was going to end his story, but eventually i changed it. This is why the loop broke.)

Copper goes home, but the next day he wakes up in the hospital. He's been shot, again? He tells the nurse he wants to go home.

Copper goes home, but the next day he wakes up in the hospital again.

Copper breaks down. He cries and screams for an hour until he feels everything is ok. The sings, cries from joy, sits down. He tries to focus on his thoughts but he's interrupted. A cop knocks on his door and is pointing his gun at him.

To be continued...

[therainroguefanfiction]

❉ 139 Dreams (Sehun Oh) Insensitive

📑 Table of Contents

Genre: Fluff, Angst ☁

Word Count: 1,929 ☁

Pairing: Reader x Sehun ☁

World: Kpop, EXO ☁

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The day had started off well for you. You were tired, having pulled an all-nighter working on your video game character. You wanted to get her up in level as soon as possible to partake in the end-game content, and you had been doing well while having fun, but humans are attracted to people like moths to a flame when they are happy, and they find much enjoyment in breaking apart that happiness.

It started off pretty simple at first, just someone asking a question in chat. Multiple people responded, including you, but the answers were different. Someone wrote to stop trolling the kid, but you weren’t. You defended yourself calming, letting them know that it had happened to you, but no one believed you. You could feel cold settle on your chest as you panic rose. You weren’t lying, so why wouldn’t they believe you?

• ‘You’re not even level 20, you should keep your mouth shut’, one person wrote.

You could feel your heart picking up speed as you typed your reply, ‘I pay for this game just like you do, I can say whatever I like.’

• ‘You can’t even do dailies until you’re level 20, stfu lol’, another typed.

‘Have you not heard of alt characters? Stop messaging me, I’m not interested.’

• ‘Lol’

• ‘No one believes you, just stop.’

• ‘Thank God for the ignore option.’

• ‘I know right lol’

You felt your heart sinking as tears pricked your eyes, hands shaking. “But… I’m not lying… It did happen to me…” You watched the chat continue to scroll as people asked questions and listed items they were selling. Several names disappeared, and you knew they had ignored you so they wouldn’t see your messages anymore.

People had never been your strong suit. As a child, you were pretty isolated so you never developed the socialization skills other kids your age had. As you grew older, the lack of skill led you to fall farther into isolation, and soon you had developed a panic disorder associated with people.

These were just random people online that you would probably never even see again, but to you, it was as if you were dealing with them face to face. It didn’t help that you had been born a sensitive soul, easily hurt by the most minuscule things. The fact that these people could disregard you so easily, calling you a liar when you had no reason to do so… it hurt.

You furiously scrubbed at your eyes, feeling frustrated at yourself and the world. Why did you have to be this way? You hated it, but you couldn’t control how you felt.

You grabbed your phone and rang up your boyfriend. You weren’t a morning person, so getting a call from you so early startled him, even more so when he heard you sniffle. “Sehunnie,”

“What? What’s wrong?”

Taking a shaky breath, you explained what had happened in a little detail as possible, knowing that he was most likely busy with a shoot. When you finished your explanation, he sighed deeply.

“Really? I thought something was wrong.”

You frowned. “Something is wrong,”

“You’re just being sensitive again. If you can’t handle it, don’t play the damn game.” His tone, filled with annoyance, cut deep into you, your eyes widening in shock. You knew that he didn’t understand your over-sensitivity or your anxiety, but he had always been patient with you. Not once in your two-year-long relationship had he ever snapped at you like that. Had something changed?

“I… I don’t…” Your brain had blanked.

“It’s just a game, Y/N. When the hell are you going to grow up and stop taking it so seriously?”

You were frozen in shock, mind running a million miles a minute.

“I can’t believe you bothered me over this. I’m hanging up.” His words were followed by a click as the line went dead. You could only sit there in surprise, listening to the dial tone.

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A month passed by, slow and agonizing as you did everything you could to avoid Sehun. You dropped answering calls and reading texts, eventually just turning your phone off. You never answered when he came knocking on your door, and you made sure that you wouldn’t be recognized when you had to leave the apartment. You even stopped playing your game because Baekhyun, your gaming buddy, had allowed Sehun to use his account to try and talk to you.

Avoiding him hurt and you missed him something fierce, but you felt like you were just burdening him. You couldn’t help how sensitive you were, and he was clearly tired of dealing with it. Part of you was scared to face him because you knew you overreacted, but another part was scared he was going to break up with you.

You sighed as you stared at the plastic cup in your hands. The ice had long since melted, leaving a thin layer of water on top of your latte.

“How long do you plan on keeping this up?” Jia questioned, stirring her coffee as she looked at you.

“Forever,” you muttered under your breath, resting your cheek in your hand as your eyes turned to the window beside you. It was foggy, interrupted by drops of water sliding down the surface as rain gently fell to Earth. Most people hated the dark and dreary days like this one, but you loved it. It had a magical effect that just made you feel peace, something you craved after dealing with such a messy mind all of the time.

She sighed, “Look, Y/N. You can’t keep running away, it’s not healthy. You need to woman up and make a choice.”

“A choice?” You echoed.

“Stop avoiding Sehun and work this out, or tell him you’re done and want to break up.” She finished off her coffee and stood up. “I have to get to work. I’d call you, but since your phone is off… yeah.”

You watched her walk away, her words sinking into your brain. Tears stung at your eyes but you hastily rubbed them away. “She’s right… I have to stop being such a coward, but I…” You were scared.

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Sehun knew you were hurt by his actions and he hated himself for it. The day you called had been a bad one; he was late for the photoshoot because some kid was driving recklessly, his coordi had accidentally burnt his scalp with a hair straightener, and Chen had spilled hot coffee on the expensive sweater you had gotten him last Christmas. By the time you called, he was in a horrible mood, wanting to just crawl into a hole and avoid everyone. That was no excuse, he knew, but he was only human and he made mistakes.

His biggest fear was losing you, and with every day that passed, he felt like you were getting farther out of his reach. He had to do something, but he didn’t know what.

His phone vibrated, but he didn’t know the number. Could it be you calling from a different phone? “Hello?”

“Is this Oh Sehun?” It was a female voice, but not yours as he had hoped. His heart dropped.

“This is him,”

“Good, I was worried I got the number wrong!” She sighed in relief. “My name is Lim Jia, I’m a friend of Y/Ns.”

Hearing your name made him perk up. “Is she okay? Has something happened?”

Jia laughed, “So you do love her. That makes this easier.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Listen, Y/N is different from the rest of us. Her mentality is younger than her actual age. She’s overly sensitive and that can be frustrating at times, but blowing up at her only makes her back away like a frightened child. No matter what happens, you have to deal with her gently. Her mental state is fragile, understand?”

He had known all of this all along, but it felt as if he understood it for the first time. He swallowed hard and nodded. “I understand,”

“Good. I just left her because I had to get to work. I’ll text you the address. Don’t waste this opportunity.”

He hung up the phone, rushing out of the building despite the various people calling his name. By the time he got in his car, the text had arrived and the destination was only twenty minutes away. He peeled out of the parking lot, praying that you would still be there.

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The rain was beginning to pick up and, though you had an umbrella, it was a child’s size, barely able to shield your body. Sehun had tried to buy you a bigger one, but this one was special. He had bought it for you on your first date, a trip to the zoo. It was green, with your favorite animal printed on it. There were ears sticking out of the top, matching the animal. It had been the most adorable thing you had ever seen. You’ve used it ever since. In small showers, it worked fine, but in heavy rain, it didn’t keep you dry.

You threw away your trash before heading for the door, opening up the umbrella. As you walked down the street, people sent you strange looks, wondering why you were using a child’s umbrella. It made you feel nervous as you didn’t like the attention, but you did your best to ignore it and continued towards your apartment.

“Ah…” You suddenly remembered the emptiness of your fridge. “I should stop by the grocery store.” You glanced up at the darkening sky. “If I hurry, I can beat the rain!”

You started out walking fast but soon found yourself running as the rain picked up. You were so focused on getting to the store that you weren’t paying attention to the ground and tripped over a piece of concrete sticking out of the ground. You yelped in surprise before hitting the ground with a groan. The umbrella slipped out of your hand, sliding a few feet away.

The streets had emptied out when the rain grew harder, so no one witnessed your fall. You were thankful for that, feeling your cheeks burn in embarrassment. Your hand stung, having scraped across the ground when you fell. You examined it, but the wound wasn’t anything serious.

“Y/N!” Sehun ran up to you, soaking wet and breathing heavy. His eyes shined with worry as he kneeled next to you, searching your body for wounds. “Aish, you’re so clumsy!”

You stared at the ground, refusing to meet his eyes. You felt so small at that moment.

His arms wrapped around you, holding you tight against his chest. You could hear his heart racing. “I’ve missed you, Y/N.”

Despite yourself, you curled into him, comforted by the smell of his cologne. You wanted to say something, anything, but your brain just wouldn’t form words.

Sehun rested his head on yours. “Please forgive me for being an insensitive jerk. I know you’re still mad, but I’ll make it up to you.”

“I was never mad,” you mumbled softly. “Do you hate me?”

“Hate you?” He pulled back so he could look you in the eye, holding your face between his hands. “I could never hate you. I love you, idiot.”

Hearing that made you smile, your heart fluttering ever so softly. “I love you, too.”

Smiling, he squished your cheeks, laughing at how funny you looked. You smacked his hands away with a pout, but it didn’t last when he claimed your lips.

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[thetealeafmuses]

Puffy Eyes All Around

11:24 am

My eyes are hard to open because they’re puffy. I’ve been waking up here and there but all I want to do is sleep. I’m not hungry nor do I have the motivation to do anything. The only reason why I’m writing is because I hope that in doing so my mind will stfu and let me continue sleeping.

I had a dream filled with the cast of David Dobrik vlogs, unsurprisingly enough since I’ve been binging them like there’s no tomorrow. We were all kidnapped by Pablo Escobar. I never felt scared. I was stuck with Alex for the most part. There were two times where I had the chance to escape and almost did until I got caught. I don’t remember the first, but the second time around, Pablo punished me in front of everyone. Telling them that they’ll have the same fate if they try to escape. I had no emotion when he tortured me and all I repeated when he kept beating me was “Just kill me, I’m tired.”

I woke up when the final blow was given and I started crying. I didn’t want to wake up.

He hasn’t replied back to me. I don’t blame him. I wonder if he’s wondering whether I’m good enough for his family or if he should break it off since family is his biggest value.

Part of me feels like I’m not the only one who has made those similar mistakes. But I feel so scolded and so wrong.

Everything is always my fault. That’s something I learned since the beginning that I often think isn’t true but something like this happens and negates any positive affirmations I’ve had.

10:42 pm

I don’t think it’s a good idea to see him for a while, maybe a week or so. How could anyone want to spend time with someone who’s disrespectful, right? There haven’t been sparks anyway. He’s happier spending time with friends.

I just came home from work. It’s the first time Mom has seen me in over a week and all she wants to do is scold me about leaving a container full of food in the fridge because it spoiled.

My entire life is full of unfortunate coincidences like this. Somehow, the universe loves to play this trick on me where my relationship with my boyfriend falters and my Mom decides to spew all of her bullshit at me. Now, it’s in just in time for the beginning of a new semester! Wow. (:

She’s sitting on the recliner crying over some Filipino drama. It makes me recall whenever she’d catch me crying and scold me instead of ask what’s wrong. I’ve always felt bad when someone catches me cry now, even until today because crying in front of my boyfriend gets me scolded as well. God, in this moment in time, I hate her so much. I hate the irony of the universe plotting against me by using two key figures in my life. I hate Mom for treating me so poorly. But most of all, I hate her for bringing me into this world because I’m so fed up with being alive.