#they made me wake up early ive been here forever and i havent had coffee today

[bugieeeee]

Most of the time I have the patience to deal with people but dear lord there's no stupider creature than the customer

[jem1701]

2022 Recap

A little late but here it is

2022 has come and gone, and a relatively simple year it was.

From a work perspective, nothing really new. Getting more supercomputers in that we are working hard to get going and will continue to receive more this coming year, hopefully with much better progress. Work is work, there is nothing else to tell about it that I can talk about or want to talk about. If you want to ask me about it though, go ahead.

Everything else was an interesting journey. Still managed to not get sick, but I have a feeling it is coming soon. Ive avoided it for many years now as well as other illnesses so not sure how much more I can run and hide from it.

One big change I did this year was get back into dance. I had been trying to do it for a long time and was not in the best shape to do it. But getting the feedback from my doctor that I need to lose weight was a big wake up call. I got back into the dance studio, starting eating better and less, going on more walks, and that has helped me overall to get into better shape and health. I still have a ways to go. But I took my first ballet class in 13 years, but first modern class in 15 years, and my first tap classes again in 7 years. All initial classes were extremely hard and painful on my body, but overall rewarding. I have been taking zumba classes again which have been a huge help as well. I missed being in the dance studio..I use to be in the dance studio 6 days a week every day after school and on saturdays and had so many memories. Most of them dancing of course, but the overall experience with being with my friends and the ones I stay close to today. I miss those days every day spending them in tap shoes, ballet and jazz shoes, and getting there early to hang out with my friends. The hard work we put in made us into a family and although we are all not together anymore, it still gives me those memories to go back to and relive.

I feel like I havent moved on from that point in my life...I still feel like I live in those days and havent grown beyond that. Not that I want to be doing it again, but that it was a special time in my life that I feel like I have not had that after that time. I dont want to let those feelings go and being back in the studio now and dancing again is giving me that chance to be close to the arts and express myself the way I use to, because I feel like I cant and dont anymore, as much as I want do. I dont have the words or courage to really express myself the way I want, but when I dance, I feel like that is when I am most connected and able to express myself the way I want..but thats all I think ill be able to do.

I have relied on everyone close to me this year to help me in many different ways, whether its support me, listen to me, or just overall be there for me. I know I have social anxiety, and I have been trying to work on it, but I know I have a ways to go. I still feel like I dont have anything to say, or cant say anything when Im with others. If we talk about something I know about and interested in it I know I can be more responsive, and I have her to help me with it as she helps to break me out of my shell. I have her in my life, and we have grown so much together all these years, and I think about all the good times with her every single day as its calming and helps me with my anxiety. The smell of coffee and rain will always soothe me as she is the life embodiment of that which calms me. We have been through a lot, and I cant imagine life without her... She is my everything and I dont know what I would do without her. I want her to know how much I love her..she deserves so much better than me, but I need her to know that I will always be there for her through thick and thin and do my best to make sure she is safe and happy forever.

The house has been doing good, we finished putting in the fence which came out so good! she did such a good job of designing and planning it out! Naya loves it so much. It was so much work though...but it was worth it in the end.

The rest of the year was spending it with family and friends, officially getting back together in person for events and just hanging out. It was so great to have so many friends come back into town and get to hang out with them without the worry of masks or getting sick with all of our booster shots. I hope that continues for this year.

A life long friend of mine also get married this year! I am so happy for her and her husband now. My social anxiety didnt really let me go up to them to really congratulate them and talk with them more, but I hope they know how happy we are for them and so excited for them to start this journey together! They dont live in NM anymore, but are not too far away and hope to see them as much as we can when they come back home or I go there for trips and conferences.

I also started more official work with my dance company and helping them more from an official capacity, which I thought I would never do! It has been rewarding and definitely a life experience to be able to help in this way and try and bring the same about of joy and support to the children of NM that my dance company did for me!

D&D adventures continue and we have made so much progress. I love playing with my friends and seeing them every week to do this. This is something I look forward to every single week and I hope they feel the same for me. I tried to do my best for them this year when a lot of things started to get difficult for everyone, and I hope they know they helped me as well. That's what friends are for!

Overall, I think thats all for now. 2023 is aiming to be an interesting year and im looking forward to continue the betterment of my health and hopefully reach my goals. I hope to continue dancing and expressing myself as much as I can, and I hope my knees can continue to carry me through that.

That is all for now!

Hello World! Live long and prosper 🖖and keep the rhythm alive!

[yikesforever]

tag games you didn’t ask for

i had three tag games to do thanks to kate, cam and cameron so here they are, ill tag these people, but yall rlly don’t have to do any of them, i was jus bored

@bicevans @capswilson @dobrevninas @daisyridlay @napoleonsolos @soldatsass @beefybucky

fav hoe @daddybucks​ tagged me in this one

1. coke or pepsi: neither?? (coke i guess) 2. disney or dreamworks: disney !!! 3. coffee or tea: my main bitch coffee 4. books or movies: movies binch 5. windows or mac: windows 6. dc or marvel: marvel 7. x-box or playstation: i always liked playstation better but i dont have a reason?? 8. dragon age or mass effect: are these games that i dont get 9. night owl or early riser: night owl 10. cards or chess: cards 11. chocolate or vanilla: vanilla 12. vans or converse: vans (i have neither but i guess yeah) 13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar: ??? 14. fluff or angst: i can write angst but i’d rather read fluff 15. beach or forest: forest 16. dogs or cats: dogs 17. clear skies or rain: clear skies during the day, rain at night 18. cooking or eating out: cooking 19. spicy food or mild food: spicy 20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: …. thanksgiving 21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: too cold 22. if you could have a superpower, what would it be: superserum i think, or speed like barry 23. animation or live action: live action (i dont trust new animated movies) 24. paragon or renegade: ???? 25. baths or showers: showers 26. team cap or team ironman: team cap !!! 27. fantasy or sci-fi: im leaning towards sci fi but i feel like fantasy and sci fi are so fucking similar that sci fi could be a subcategory of fantasy 28. do you have three or four favourite quotes, if so what are they: okay well prolly anything about cevans has ever said is prolly my fav but um:  “When people say life is short its not its not, its not. We make it short because we are very preoccupied, with ya know, we spend a lot of time worrying about the past and we spend a lot of time analyzing the future. Before you know it time goes by.” - cevans  ”Had a fourth iced coffee today, I didn’t want to but I did” - sebstan ”With out art the earth is just eh” & “do not go gentle into that good night”  i also love anything disney tbh  29. youtube or netflix: netflix 30. harry potter or percy jackson: harry potter (cause ive never seen percy jackson besides in 10th grade english) 31. when you feel accomplished: lmao when a gifset gets 1k+ 32. star wars or star trek: star wars !!!!!!! 33. paperback books or hardback books: paperback 34. horror or rom-com: rom-com 35. tv shows or movies: tv shows (even if all my favs are movie actors) 36. favorite animal: dogs or polar bears 37. favorite genre of music: bahaha i guess indie  38. least favorite book: the red badge of courage... i have extreme hate for that fucking book 39. favourite season: spring 40. sparkly or shiny: shiny 41. favorite character in a tv series: MY SAD GAY SON TJ HAMMOND 42. do you have/want any tattoos and if you do, what are they?: i dont have one but i want like 4... i want the tree of life from animal kingdom with the quote we are one underneath it, an aries constellation, a mountain range, and my dads signature from his drawings 43. If you could only eat one type of food for the rest of your life, what would it be?: if id never get sick of it... prolly mexican or thai food.  44. If you had to wake up one day, magically knowing how to do something you didn’t know how to the day before, what would it be? how to adult tbh, its too stressful

both of my loves @daddysteven​ & @daddybucks​ tagged me for this one (i cant believe how many of my friends have daddy urls but okay)

APPEARANCE:

I am 5′7″ or taller (??? i might be 5′6″)

I wear glasses

I have at least one tattoo

I have at least one piercing

I have blonde hair

I have brown eyes

I have short hair

My abs are at least somewhat defined

I have or have had braces

There is something I would change about the way I look

PERSONALITY:

My Hogwarts house is: Gryffindor Hufflepuff Ravenclaw Slytherin

I am an introvert

I like meeting new people

People tell me that I’m funny

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me

I enjoy physical challenges

I enjoy mental challenges

I’m playfully rude with people I know well

I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it

There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY:

I can sing well

I can play an instrument

I can do over 30 pushups without stopping

I’m a fast runner

I can draw well

I have a good memory

I’m good at doing math in my head

I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute

I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling

I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy playing sports

I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else

I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else

I have learned a new song in the past week

I work out at least once a week

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months

I have drawn something in the past month

I enjoy writing

Fandoms are my #1 passion

I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol

I have scored the winning goal in a sports game

I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting

I have been at an overnight event

I have been in a taxi

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year

I have beaten a video game in one day

I have visited another country

I have been to one of my favourite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIP:

I’m in a relationship

I have a celebrity crush

I have a crush on someone I know

I have been in at least 3 relationships

I have never been in a relationship

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

I get crushes easily

I have had a crush on someone for over a year

I have been in a relationship for at least a year

I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:

I have at least one person I consider a “best friend”

I live close to my school

My parents are still together

I have at least one sibling

I live in the United States

There is snow right now where I live

I have hung out with a friend outside of school in the past month

I have a smartphone

I have at least 15 CDs

I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT:

I have breakdanced

I know a person named Jamie

I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce

I have dyed my hair

I’m listening to one song on repeat right now

I have punched someone in the past week

I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I have eaten a waffle today (fuck i wish i did)

I know what I want to do with my life

I speak at least 2 languages fluently

I have made a new friend in the past year (ya im talking bout yall)

i was tagged by @officialhermionegranger​

Name — natalie Nicknames — nat  Zodiac Sign — aries Height — 5′6″ or 5′7″ not entirely sure Hogwarts House — slytherin Ethnicity — caucassian Favorite Fruit — blueberries Favorite Season — spring Favorite Book(s) — perks of being a wallflower & yes please Favorite Flower — does lavender count? Favorite Scent — waterfall or forest smells  Favorite Color — green (but like an earthy/army green) Favorite Animal — dogs or polar bears Favorite Bands/Singers — probs hozier, ed sheeran, and ill always love 1d Average Sleep Hours — somewhere between 4 and 8.... so i guess 6 Favorite Fictional Character(s) — steve rogers, barry allen, lorelai gilmore, rey, nala Dream Trip — alaska to see the northern lights and go dog sleeding Blog Created — this one.... fuck march 2016 (guys ive had this blog for almost a year now wtf) Number of Followers — 2366 (i havent been making shit lately) What Made You Decide To Make a Tumblr — like in the beginning??? i have no fucking idea why 2010 nat made her first tumblr, but this one because i was spamming my aesthetic blog with star wars and x files so i made this blog and now a year later im chris evans trash .. 

[ang3lfuck]

It’s not often where I like to take time out of my day to rant about my job because honestly after so long i had to realize at the end of the day to leave everything at the siren when i leave work after putting up with multiple entitled rude customers every day and having to work with /some/ shitty ppl and like i realize that makes the rest of my day a bit more better in the end because fuck it, it’s a job i won’t be at forever but it’s still a job i take seriously because ive done it for so long and enjoy it. I moved stores last year because my old store was an absolute hell hole and even though i miss working with one of my best friends i jumped ship to this store with a manager in training who reminds me exactly like my mom who ended up getting the manager position at this store and like 2 months later i met my new boyfriend at this location and i love everyone i work with mostly and theres no drama so its like, 10 times better than 2017 was but man today i just want to take a minute to just rant because it’s things like this that REALLY dont make me want to work this job anymore Last night around 4 pm I got a message from my manager and one of my coworkers asking me if I can come in at 5 am to open as opposed to 6 (like yeah, i can but i really dont want to wake up at 3:45 as opposed to 4:45, not really the point but i was honestly being a baby because long story short i didnt want to), and like i didnt see the messages until 20 minutes later because android phones are a load of fucking horsetrash so im like ok ill text my boss saying if i have to i will but like 10 minutes after i texted her i realized she already offered MY shift to someone else in the district just assuming i’d open like HELLO CAN YOU ASK THEM TO COVER THE OPEN THAT ORIGINALLY NEEDED TO BE COVERED INSTEAD OF BRINGING ME INTO THIS MESS so i see that someone offered to do it, and I was like okay im going to call my boss and figure shit out so we talked it out and I asked her if she could ask this guy who wants to take my shift to open instead b/c i also want my shift because it was MORE HOURS (?????) and she was like oh yeah sure and so he says “I think i can do that!!!!” and she responds with “if 6 is better for you we can make that work see you tomorrow!!!!” and at this point i hear nothing back from her as im basically just waiting to get my text message of shame saying i open, so like an hour later im just mad so i text her saying “i guess im opening?” and she told me she was going to open instead and she didnt mind because she didnt hear back from this guy since that last message because that last message made it seem like he was unsure of opening. so i was like aiight cool thx girl luv u. cuz my manager still respects that I walk 30 minutes to work every morning and all. so i’m makin my way to work today and I start at 6 like I was supposed to and i walk in and see that guy who was going to take the shift there and he’s all “HEY WHATS UP” and like i know this guy because we trained him at my old store before i left so he’s like a year old barista. and i was like yeah sup i member you. i didnt think you were gonna be here tho. so i go into the back and my manager is like “well, i saw him show up because i came in a little early and i wasnt going to argue. I just wish he left me some more communication.” and i was like yeah no kidding. but I go on the floor and I start doing my tasks and shit and this fucking twerp is like right beside me 90% of the time just telling me stories about people from stores he’s worked at before and how the new store he was at now is the best and its like a reserve clover store and shit i don’t care about. just blah blah blah about other ppl i didnt know or things that were so small that you possibly couldnt care about at all and mind you this is at 6 fucking oclock in the morning and i havent even had my coffee yet so im sitting here trying to put the soy milk away while he’s just standing there in my way while im also trying to make myself a damn coffee while im just smiling and nodding but inside i wanted to die like who the fuck does this so early and like i dont remember when i worked with him before being so fucking chatty and annoying and he was also talking like a complete know it all because he works at a reserve store and referring to new baristas as “green beans” like bitch you havent even been here for like a year lmao (i’m a nice ripened 5 year bean) and so after awhile of me wanting to bang my head against a wall as opposed to work my supervisor sent him on his 15 minute break so he chatted it up the same with my manager all the gossip and he also fucking mumbles so you can barely even hear him so its also awkward as fuck. he spent no word of a lie 28 minutes talking to her because i timed his fucking break. i went back there expecting to take my break next because we have to run 15′s before peak but he took too long on his so i couldnt go on mine. my manager had the biggest scowl on her face when i came back saying “yeah, he isn’t coming back” and like just to top off other things he did he ordered a quad blonde drink with 3/4 of his partner beverages (That’s 14 shots of blonde espresso. WHAT) and he ordered a venti earl grey tea with 7 tea bags for his second break and he refused to let my coworker ring him in for every bag (??????? like thanks for fucking up our inventory fucko) and he wore a fucking white true religion shirt under his apron which probably just made me more angry b/c it isnt dress code and i just wanted him to spill something on it b/c isnt that like an expensive af brand? what the fuck are you doing wearing that to work at starbucks? anyway i just couldn’t help myself from just ranting for a few minutes on here idk me and my coworkers basically talked shit about him until he left and that made the rest of my hour and 15 minutes at work pretty nice ty for listening

[spirittrack]

liv @burekbabe tagged me in a meme and i love talking about myself so lesgo

1) Coke or Pepsi? coke. i dont trust pepsi

2) Disney or Dreamworks? disney

3) Coffee or Tea? coffee but super sweet so like mocha w 10 sugars

4) Books or movies? movies most of the time but books if theyre short n sweet

5) Windows or mac? mac, i have no idea how to use windows

6) D.C. or Marvel? marvel i guess? i havent seen anything other than spiderman

7) Xbox or PlayStation? playstation!! its been in my fam since the first gen

8) Dragon age or mass effect? dragon age!!

9) Night owl or early riser? night owl usually but lately ive been waking up so early

10) Cards or chess? cards but i only know sevens...

11) Chocolate or vanilla? depends but mostly vanilla!

12) Vans or converse? converse i guess?

13) Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar? lavellan! i love the lore

14) Fluff or angst? fluff because i deal with enough emotional strain as it is

15) Beach or forest? beach, coz i love the water! but otherwise a really picturesque forest with tall trees and a river, that kinda scene

16) Dogs or cats? dogs!!! theyre good friends

17) Clear skies or rain? rain i love it and the clouds are always so gorgeous!

18) Cooking or eating out? cooking because its so much fun especially for other people!! 

19) Spicy or mild food? mild lol i cant handle spice. thnkx dad

20) Halloween/Samhain or solstice/yule/Christmas? christmas because i love my family and halloween isnt celebrated here

21) Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot?  a little too cold because i despise the heat youd think id be used to it

22) If you could have a superpower what would it be? teleportation i guess! or time travel? 

23) Animation or live action? Animation for sure

24) Paragon or renegade? whats that 

25) Bath or shower? showerrrrrrr baths are a hassle 

26) Team Cap or team Ironman? cap i guess? i dont care

27) Fantasy or sci-fi? fantasy!!!

28) Do you have 3 or 4 favorite quotes if so what are they? not really lol i cant remember any...

29) YouTube or Netflix? youtube bc i dont care for half the stuff on netflix

30) Harry Potter or Percy Jackson? percy jackson but i need to finish reading it

31) When do you feel accomplished? when i can mentally check off lists i made i guess? 

32) Star Wars or Star Trek? star wars for sure!!

33) Paperback books or hardcover books? paperback coz im too scared of ruining the nice hardcover

34) Fantastic beasts or Cursed child? i dont care i havent seen either

35) Rock or pop music? pop! 

36) What is the most important thing in your life? my friends and whole family

37) Mountains or sea/ocean? ocean because its so mysterious and im scared of the deep...im also scared of heights too but mountains would be gorgeous too IDK

38) How do you express yourself? my fashion sense i guess but not really? i dunno, mostly just talking nonsense on twitter

39) What’s the first book/film that really counted to you? i think it was ingo! i read it in 5th grade and im such a sucker for mermaids 

40) What’s your element (air, water, etc.)? lf were talking avatar then its water 10000% im such a water bender its not funny. if u mean zodiac, taurus is an earth sign

41) If you could travel anywhere, where would you go? lemme tell you.... right now im dying to go to japan but id love to go all over europe really

42) If you had any job in the world, what would it be? aaaaah an artist would be great! both digitally and traditionally. i also would love to write webcomics and novellas

43) If you were granted three wishes, what would they be? UMMMMM that i could go visit my friends all around the world, that i could make everyone in the world who is in need happy/satisfied/comfortable, and idk im bad at this kinda stuff 

44) If you had to eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? oh no i hate questions like this but um. anything chicken i guess

45) If you could only have one, which social media platform would you use for the rest of your life? twitter definitely. i already live there now

46) Slytherin, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, or Gryffindor? ravenclaw apparently

47) What’s your favorite food discourse guilty pleasure? i honestly dont care but i guess the classic pineapples on pizza...im not a fan but i’ll eat it if i must

48) pokemon or LoZ: zelda!!!! pokemon is what got me into zelda but nah. legend of zelda is my life its my damn url 

tag urself if u wanna do it im too lazy