#they lool amazing anyway

[lobot0mmy]

They staring. Frank looks like he had no other shirt to wear and Mikey came from buying groceries at 3 am

[iheartcake123]

yeong-hu x f!reader

⚠️CONTAINS SPOILERS FROM SEASON 3⚠️

warnings:none

a/n: you all knew this was coming😭 yeong-hu is my man fr lool. anyways, what did you all think of season 3?? i enjoyed it but the ending felt so rushed for some reason!! ive got some more fics on the way hehe so if you want anything specific or a specific character let me know <33

Masterlist

“is that the last of them?” you asked jin-ho as a couple more people trickled into the church.

“it seems” he told you before briefly looking around and noticing a women in her early twenties, wearing a mustard yellow jacket while carrying a bag on her back.

“follow us in silence” jin-ho told her and she did as he said.

she wasn’t someone you’d seen around before but with how many people were living at the stadium you knew, you wouldn’t know everyone.

suddenly, her eyes widened as sergeant tak approached you. she hurriedly pushed past jin-ho and looked between you and the seargent.

“it’s you two! you’re a scary looking man and you’re a pretty lady wearing military uniform” she exclaimed excitedly “is your name master sergeant tak? and is yours y/n l/n?”

you raised an eyebrow in confusion. sergeant tak looked towards jin-ho, just as confused.

“you both know park chan-young and kim yeong-hu, don’t you?” she suddenly asked and your heart dropped to your stomach.

why was she mentioning them?

“i need to tell you something important” she then said and she took you and sergeant tak aside and briefed both of you on the details.

when she said yeong-hu was still alive, you were overwhelmed with emotions. you had thought he was gone and you had just accepted it, thinking it would be easier to move on.

as sergeant tak went to go and distract sang-wook, you waited in a room for yeong-hu. your palms were sweaty and you paced back and forth in anticipation to see yeong-hu again.

after several minutes, the door to the room swung open and you saw yeong-hu stood there. he looked rough, he had blood and cuts covering him and you were in complete disbelief when you saw him.

“yeong-hu..” you breathed out, tears now forming in your eyes as a rush of emotions filled you.

“y/n” he said and you rushed to wrap your arms around him.

you couldn’t believe he was in front of you.

as soon as you held onto him, yeong-hu enveloped you and returned the hug. holding you close to him and his grip tight around you.

the hug lasted for a long while, neither one of you wanting to let go.

“it’s all my fault” yeong-hu said lowly into the hug and you slowly pulled away.

however, you took his hands into yours.

“it’s all my fault y/n. yeong-seok, seo-jin, u-seok, jong-hyun and seok-chan. sergeant choi, as well as the other they members of the search party have all died” yeong-hu continued, his breath shaking as he choked back emotions “i have failed everyone”

you looked up at yeong-hu and frowned as your heart broke at the expression on his face. he couldn’t look directly at you and you swallowed hard.

you let go of one of his hands and brought it up to cup the one side of his face. turning his head to look at you.

“you’re not a failure. your men, they followed you because you’re such a good leader and they respect you so much to the point they’d do anything for you. their deaths are not on you. you’re an amazing strong person and you did what you thought was right. you stand by your men everyday regardless and that’s something to be proud of and you should never blame yourself for what has happened” you firmly told him.

yeong-hu was always hard on himself and whenever someone got hurt or died, he held the weight of it on his shoulders. even when he shouldn’t have.

a tear slipped from his eye and you wrapped your arms around him another time, this time consoling him.

yeong-hu then pulled away and you sent him a small smile.

“i can’t believe you’re actually here” you smiled and leaned forward to press your lips onto his.

he returned the kiss and after you pulled away, he rested his forehead onto yours and rested his hands on your waist.

“i love you” yeong-hu exhaled out.

“i love you too” you told him.

both of you stayed as your were, enjoying each others presence.

suddenly, the door opened and in came sergeant tak. he hadn’t expected you to be there and apologised in an instance.

“sorry, i didn’t realise you were here” he looked at you and you shook your head.

“it’s okay sergeant” you smiled “i’ll let the two of you talk”

you began to make your way towards the door but yeong-hu kept his hold on you, his body slightly tensing up.

“stay, please?” he said and you looked between sergeant tak and yeong-hu.

“thats fine with me” sergeant tak let out a genuine smile and you nodded your head.

“of course” you moved to be close to yeong-hu again, he loosened his hold on you, relaxing slightly.

you couldn’t help the grin that escaped from you as he continued to hold onto you even when talking to sergeant tak.

he wasn’t going to let you go any time soon.

[terriblyvexed]

hey hey! its one of your readers on ao3 i realized i can ask questions on tumblr so i am trying it out. this may be a controversial question as opinions vary greatly from person to person lool but i am curious being a fellow fan of aot and a fan of your work, so, what did you think about the ending to aot? 👀

(personally i subscribe to a specific fan theory (NOT ANR GOD FORBID i rebuke it!) to keep hope alive in my heart that theres more aot to come cause i did not like the ending much so basically, theres no judgement from me srsly im delulu myself as it stands 😭💯)

anyway thats all thank you for writing left behind and answering my question (potentially)! hope you have a great rest of your day :D

Yeah I know your nickname haha and you can ask or yap about anything!

Ahh yes the ending opinions where swords are drawn two minutes into the debate lol and it’s annoying that people can’t state their thoughts as freely because of the toxicity from every side. This is going to be long I’m sorry😭

I personally didn’t like the ending that much either. I don’t think it’s as bad as people make it out to be, I mean we’ve all seen GoT, but I know a story like AoT could’ve done a little bit better than that, so. It’s not that I wanted Eren to live happily ever after, because his death made the most sense even before I knew about it, but it’s the execution of the episode in general that makes it feel rushed for me.

Mikasa killing him is a beautifully tragic twist, I started bawling my eyes out right there, but I wish the cabin scene was done differently. For me it didn’t feel as raw and honest as the Eren-Armin convo, which I’m not the biggest fan of either, but I’ve always wanted more communication for Eremika so maybe that makes me bitter. Let me see them talk about the table scene and let me see Eren apologise to her. It’s their last moment together, I wanted to see more emotion and honesty rather than an already established relationship that they did off camera. I get what it’s trying to show, and the scene itself is not bad, but I was just a big EM shipper at the time and hoped for more. (I felt the same back when he told her he would wrap that scarf around her forever and always. It hit me just in the right place I remember wanting them to talk about it afterwards but nothing was said.) Same with the memories he gave back to his friends, I’d have liked to see them talk. Him opening his eyes one last time to see her was beautiful no comment there.

Other than that I also LOVED when Levi saluted his friends and comrades! Liked his internal monologue where he said he didn’t regret not bringing Erwin back (Which also made me wish we could’ve seen Armin coming up with impressive strategies and ideas like he used to.)

I liked how Hange was sent off, but I missed them in the final fight.

I really liked the rumbling montage with Guilty Hero playing and Armin’s VA pouring her heart out + that cry at the end when Armin sees Eren. The Levi&Mikasa team-up/final stand was amazing. Those were all done nicely, but that’s pretty much it for me.

For some reason I wasn’t vibing with Annie. I mean she was never my fav but her in season one and in her ova was so much more interesting to me.

I was left underwhelmed by the final fight considering we’ve had great battles like RTS and Liberio previously, it does not compare in my opinion. I understand that Eren won’t kill his friends and I definitely agree with that, but something else could’ve been done with Ymir to make the stakes higher. The ancient titans didn’t feel threatening when you just knew no one was going to die, especially when Falco (first time flying) could dodge all of their arrows.

When everyone there turned into titans, like Jean and Connie, I would’ve preferred if they stayed titans and died when the curse ended. Bringing them back a few minutes later is just meh for me, and makes the emotions I’ve felt a one time thing only because that Jean&Connie dialogue didn’t hit the same afterwards. Not to mention that Connie’s mom was brought back only for us to not see their reunion lol.

Ymir’s storyline was interesting when Eren saw her memories, but after that she lost me a bit. I also don’t like that that *chef’s kiss* scene with Eren telling her she’s just a person didn’t free her at all, that killing Zeke stopped the Rumbling, that Levi was nerfed for the sake of the fight. If all these decisions were done in a slightly expanded time period, I don’t think I would’ve minded much. Especially the final episode itself was, again, rushed in my opinion.

Also, this isn’t just the finale but Historia being sidelined like that is a no-no for me. Not a fan of how the Hizuru-Mikasa plot line didn’t go anywhere either. That may just be nitpicking, but again I do believe season 4 should’ve been longer, maybe with a season 5 as well.

With all that being said, these are just my personal opinions/feelings and despite all, thematically the author did a good job wrapping everything up. Ending a story like AoT couldn’t have been easy at all. Watching it was an experience I don’t think I’ll ever forget or get over and I’m forever going to miss it. (I’m reading the manga now and the uprising arc has me hooked since it’s a bit different from the anime, and dare I say better?)

The ending didn’t ruin it for me or anything, just sad that I won’t get to see the things I wanted to see because naturally everyone has their own expectations, but what are fanfictions for?

What’s the fan theory that you believe? Other than that ANR I’ve heard about the mist and ouroboros but I’ve never read them in detail.

Thank you for reading Left Behind! I’d also like to state that my criticism of the AoT ending does not mean I’ll write one better lol. I like my ending for my story but I’ve already made peace with the fact that some readers might have problems with it. Which is fine as well because I love a good finale debate.

You have a great day/night as well!💓

[ikimaru]

Hi sunny.. its been a while since i checked my tumblr.. just wanna say i really love your art and it reallyyyyyy inspired me to draw.. back before i only drew on paper but when i saw your art i too wanna try to do digital art! And so i did! I havent been drawing for a while.. but yesterday i picked up a pen and drew something.. it made me feel like i wanna keep drawing again.. uhmm if its not too much to ask.. can u give me some tips on how you do that lineart? I cant quite explain it but its just so amazing how you do that! Ya know when the lineart becomes that color.. lol when i draw my art looks so flat.. even if i added some shadows and stuff.. im just super curious on how you do art! Well anywayyy just wanna say it i love you and your art ☺️�� thanks for being an inspiration!! 😘

heyy thank you so much! happy to hear that ;v;

ohh there's various ways, generally speaking unless your brush is a fully opaque line that entirely blocks out what's below, some of the color is gonna pass through, especially if you put it on multiply or add a filter on top like overlay, it's gonna change colors, I think you've mainly see me do one of these two lool (the first example is literally the SAI default brush and I only started using it again recently)

if you have a fully opaque line and want to change color anyway, you have to do so manually! hope this helps c:

[writtenicarus]

honestly those roleplay acc get so anoying sometimes, anyways your writing is amazing and people in this fandom need to learn fandomcultur and basic respect lool

Aw I love you thank you!! And LITERALLY like if you can spend half your day pretending to be a character online you can scroll down and read a writers policy before you use their content..

[floofsqueak]

secretly reuploads because the previous was the wrong file heehe anyways, wip reference of my BG3 character who obviously picked a very particular path. armor/outfits at some later date (Garaleth, mind flayer Sorcerer/Fighter multiclass also do not question those class picks)

would they even be considered a Tav esp since I gave mine another name entirely lool, anyway- non binary dragonborn encountering mind flayers and absolutely amazed by the powerful NB vibes and thats it, thats the story of how they went like "yeah theyre pretty cool i wouldnt MIND becoming one because then when idiots ask me whats between my legs and i could just eat their brains"

the emperor: the emperor: wow ok is that like the only reason you want to accept ceremorphosis or ...?? tav: :) give me the brain worms right now

[lostfracturess]

WHAAAAAAAAATT YOU DROPPED CHAPTER 13 !!!!!! and i had to read it as soon as i saw it !!

agaaaaain my heart breaks for suguru no one could ever make me hate that man. omg higuruma mention ?! i thought i was going insane, and him lecturing satoru about how you cant be with a student, that was funny i could just imagine how done he looks 😭 i see higuruma and i thought about r&r reader loool.

anyway, my fav line in this chapter !! :

“It was a cruel irony — he'd bleed for you, but couldn't heal for you.”

i think i got goosebumps from this line, i could feel my heart cracking bye. the way reader doesnt want satoru hurting anymore, so she doesnt care whether or not hes sober, and then him trying his best to stay sober even though its tearing him apart, oh you write the best angst. its bittersweet i say.

also, when i read the part about NADH and FADH2 i felt smart for once because coincidentally i just studied about that topic yesterday XD so your posting timing is really great loool.

then the basketball scene, im amazed at how well their stamina is lol because how are you playing backetball, dribbling and running, all while stating all the scientific fact of your project… so yeah i was thinking even though satoru’s kidney is dying, but hey at least his lungs are healthy right? lool i mean look at how good he is at sex byeee

the sex scene !! when reader got angry i thought we’re gonna have angry sex, but aww my heart melted at satoru’s confession 😭 and then him asking reader to call his name again and again, wow i feel like i fell in love all over again. the i love you’s and i hate you’s saga never ending lol

you’re right about it being 50% smut XD surprised i have so much to say for this chapter because its amazing !!!! as always !!! thank you for another chapter hehehehhe i appreciate youuu

i can feel the angst for the next chapter lol especially since they are going to visit satoru’s family… but reader is badass so i have nothing to worry about XD unless… 🥲

ahhhh so so happy to read that you enjoyed the chapter :‘‘)) just randomly finished it on a monday morning and was like, okay let’s get this OUT otherwise i’ll change every sentence yet again.

love how, in your head, suguru is already bind to r&r reader :‘‘)) but i don’t wanna make u hate him hahah he’s just heartbroken and that’s okay, he’ll get his love eventually !!

& yes, i love this line you quoted !! sometimes i have a hard time to explain all these conflicting emotions going on in the story with like their individual trauma and all that but i think that phrase catches it pretty well & u summed it up perfectly <33

and pls don’t mention his failing organs hahahah but at least his lungs are fine. help. yeahh suguru got the damaged lungs for sure for his nicotine addiction lol.

idk why the smut is so long in this chapter but for real it was 50 % pure smut like nothing much happened except that ahahha but the next chapters are gonna be wild and angsty (or i plan to do so at least). thank u so so much for sharing your thoughts on ch 13 !! <33

[shibaraki]

hii monty <3 i have a question in regards to writing if that’s okay with you!

so i’ve been in a writing slump for about almost a year, simply because i’ve had trouble on how to come up with a precise structure to write, which after overthinking about it for ages made me procrastinate to the point of not even continuing. for example with dialogue and description of surroundings, do you tend to write out entirely and in detail what the characters are going to say exactly (as in maybe bulletpoint their lines first?) or how a scene is set up, or do you only have a rough idea and come up with it on the spot and continue on like that?

i’m so sorry if this is too long or too complicated to answer :/ my procrastination is just kicking my own ass terribly even though i really wanna continue, my own setup (or lack thereof lmao) just really frustrates me

thank you so much anyway!! i genuinely lovee your writing and each new post of yours is so enjoyable 🩷🩷

hello sweetheart!! it’s absolutely okay to ask me stuff like this. I’m sorry it took me a little time to answer. I wanted to get my brain cells together lmao

allow me to be honest: I’ve been there!!! I understand just how disheartening a slump can be. but I reallllly think (from what you’ve said here) you’re expecting yourself to run before you can walk. you’re being too hard on yourself. immediate perfection isn’t required. it doesn’t have to be amazing!! so what helps me is to just let my mind have total creative freedom ^-^; give yourself permission to just get the words down, be it in bullet points or just randomly scribbling your ideas somewhere. be messy!! leave dots like this (…) where you think dialogue should be, or notes to your future self like (add x y here). stop seeking structure as you are right now. get things down. get excited about the stories you envision!!!

I mentioned before that my outlines are a mess too lool. that’s bc when I think up something I’ll tunnel vision and type it up in bullet points before I forget!! expecting yourself to write out everything in total detail or to find one size fits all solution will only hinder you. a lot of my mutuals will write and post random drabbles (usually for a warm up) totally out of context sometimes! you don’t need a starting and a finishing line. I skip scenes alllllll the time;; I know it’s easier said than done but if I’m in a writer slump and I have exhausted other options (like stepping away from current WIPS, focusing on other hobbies, making web weaves, listen to music etc etc) all I can recommend is to just. write. and let yourself be bad* at it

(*bad writing is subjective)

[heeliopheelia]

HELLOOOOOOOOO IM GOT SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW THE WRITTEN CHAPTER !!!im actually gonna scream *biting my fist* chapter 10 was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fucking amazing, im in awe LIKE nah im speechless!!!!!!!!!!!!! my heart melted low key!!!!

yn was so readyyy to jump on seung bones BRO chill dude okay

* saying this to myself while also anticipation the sloppy make out hell yeahhh iykyk* anyway

……"Stop shoving your tongue down my throat, punk." okay why was that kinda hot tho??? but also lool please sir BUT FR THO  the whole kissing scene was so good?? like omggggggg the part where he explained what kissing is about and how it should be🥺🥺🥺🥺  okay shakespeare !!!CAN I SIT IN UR LAP ???????????? :OOO helloooooooooooooo where is my inhaler��dude i gasped AND THEN THEY KISSED i know that heeseung mind was spiraling yns too (but she is a bit slow tho)  !!!!!!!!1 that was amazing and they watched queen charlotte okay kiss already maybe OH WAIT 🤭🤭🤭 do it again then question mark

THE SIMP FIRST (ACTUAL) WIN😎😎😎😎!!!!! eat shit jay !!!🙂

yoo this was soo much fun!!! i loved it sm <3 ur writing is so good ma’am also thank u as always for this very veryyyy lovely chapter sending sweet kisses <3

ps. me when hee mention hoon : 🥴🥴🥴🥴 dude eww why would u even...................??

NONNIE XMMOEKALOMSKKKXJWHANQ I'M SO HAPPY THAT YOU LIKED IT BABE 😭😭💕💕 ngl yn was a little *too* eager to start her lesson she's literally hopeless 🥴 and then the sitting on his lap?? like girl take a chill pill 😩✋ and tbf i already feel sorry for jay cause i think we all get the picture of what's gonna be happening on heeseung's priv tomorrow 😵 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUCH SWEET WORDS AND SENDING YOU KISSES BACK 😘🥰

ps even though i was the one writing the dialogue, i literally wanted to slap heeseung into a different dimension for destroying the mood too 😒💀 i lowkey cringe so hard whenever either of them mentions hoon's name (am i crazy?) ☠️

[brothalynchhung]

2022 overview

(istg ive been doing this for 10 years frnfiesfjeiss)

Hmmm lets see where did i start 2022

oh yeah tbh this year didnt really “start” for me until like april

because everything before april was just me working at that last stupid ass fintech 

what a waste of time honestly

but i did just get paid for doing nothing LOOOL shout out to my sis?

honestly since the beginning i knew it was just a stepping stone to moving out of to into dxb altho the transition and whatever isint easy and i still dont like living here 

but yeah i think i was playing guitar gyming, going through an ed ( i miss my slightly skinnier body but getting back there i think.. fml) and just idk hating work a lot

like the way i hated that job was insane if my sis wasnt there too i woulda bBEEN fired i did nothing but sit on the sofa there an browse pinterest and apply to other jobs and watch movies aoirNhaguiraehgubna

oh well tbh that whole job itself was a waste 

i applied to a crazy amount of jobs and had mad interviews

then got am lol after months 

shoutout to expo? lOOOL all my calls from them happened there im deaefiwfnjf 

i miss expo LOL that was also a big 2022 thing 

common grounds brr reading brrr

orange hair to blond hair to silver hair to platinum blonde brr to pink rip miss it kinda

my hair fried as shit 

oh yeah i also went to mecca this year brrr 

honestly that was an amazing experience mecca and madina was so beautiful i felt so at peace there

except for fighting the guards there cuz of the covid bullshit .. but whatev fuck em 

holy shit actually this year was a lot

i prayed there cleansed myself etc etc 

then i came back and i got a job at am LOOL

then i went to cali LOOOL

which was a ego death existential crisis of its own 

my whole life i dreamed of cali / LA and then hated it?

but also i realized yeah i really need to drive to survive in america

which kinda made me hate it lol 

venice beach was rlly nice like cali beaches r beautiful 

but like i envisioned it i went there alone and then felt hella unsafe the whole night there 

im sorry but it is not the 80s anymore 😭? lMFAOO OBV mfs were on DRUGS 

smh 

i saw jana there! that was cool also finally went to astro burger and fairfax 

thrifting there was ass

overall LA dissapointed me but i got high and ate good mochi which was cool 

OHH also i went to smokers club fest which was like the best music festival i ever been to

THE WAY I MANIFESTED THAT LMFAOOO I USED MY fintech MONEY TO GO THERE LOOOOOL 

also i guess shoutout to nadim for coming and basically driving me / us there cuz honestly if he didnt idk how the hell i woulda got there / back

but LMFAO BRR SUCCESSFUL TRIP

oh wait i forgot so yeah after my 16 hour flight and hours of walking around dt LA then to venice and walking all of venice someone tried to rob me at like 11 pm on the LA metro nice! nice! i was also high as shit! nice ! nice! lMAOFEFKEROPIGJERIS

good thing im a very good high functioning stoner? also my phone was plugged into my powerbank so my phone just went flying out both our hands and i just picked it up IGOT SO LUCKYY LMGOOOO WITHOUT IT IWOULDA BEEN FUCKEDDD imagine all the pics i woulda lost omfg naiufhrguiherguerh anywho thank god i didnt lose it kgriojgsrigjsr 

i didnt even see the guy at all omg egroghtiughrtjg

anyways after that i finally saw zaina after like 4 years in sf 

i guess sf was cool like it was normal majority of it i was just w zaina then could only go to the city w nada 

i mean honestly travelling and doing things is alone is always kinda like.. whats the point? but i dont think sf or LA are good for solo travel?LOOL 

but i guess that confirms i dont want to live in cali? i liked the nature and ppl there but uhhh idk maybe if i drived? idk fuck us lol 

im just happy i got to go to smokers fest lol

anywho i came back and then moved into my new place in ad and started working at am 

actually technically my first am meeting was in sf at like 4 am and i slept through it lMFAEOFJREIFJ  

but yeah then i started working at am 

i met that dumbass who i worked w for like 6 FUCKING MONTHS dealing w her ass and babysitting her dumb ass

i didnt even kno she would be there but whatever 

i tried to b cool w her but on god ive never met a more stupid human ever 

thank god i have a brain and im cultured and have critical thinking skills like THANK GOD IM ME 

then the whole j shit happened honestly dont want to talk or think about it anymore

tldr is i was mad lonely and its been so long since i talked to a guy that was a dumbass misogynist arab that the second i did i wasl like oooo 

and the fact that ivana also described him didnt help fueled my delusions 

even tho she said it wasnt him i didnt care cuz im a dumbass

then that actual dumbass fueled me more 

but honestly shout out to me telling her about ivana cuz if i didnt she wouldnt have led herself to her downfall which meant i woulda had to keep working w her lMFAOOO she stressed me the hell out on god 

but yeah anyways honestly all that was just bullshit im just sick an tired over the gl shit

unfortunately all that delusion and bs made 2022 a horrible fucking year cuz i was mentally stressed and depressed and having breakdowns left and right

but at the same time made me rlly passionate for work which helped me pass my probation w flying colours

now the mf think we cool when i highkey HATE his ass now 

seriously drained the fuck out me after all that bullshit im like a somber dead zombie now 

never NEVER i deadass 10000000 mean it this time am i ever going crazy over someone ever again

gl better love me and reciprocate or NOTHING im not sacrificing myself ever again FUCK no 

also worst bday of my life seriously unless i DIE theres no way my future bdays can be as bad as i spent the one this year 

it literally makes my blood boil because i did not deserve that 

basically after may my whole life became work and it was horrible i had ppl messaging me and irl asking me if i was okay like it was a complete 180 from yp i did nothing in that job to fucking EVERYTHING LIFE CONSUMING BULLSHIT in this one

hence why im now over all this bs and over working and over extending myself for this job , once 5 pm hits BYE also not working extra or more than i have to fuck yall this is just one job im still young i got my whole future ahead of me

work smarter not harder is my moto end of the day i get my money i get my exp and we go up this isint my end all and i can ALWAYS do better

not saying im not grateful for this job i rlly am but the way i approach it now is gunna be mad different in 2023 cuz i cant do that shit to myself again

but since im 10000000% over that bitch it should be easier

now my focus is just to do the shit i need to do work on mysself and personal goals, manage the mf i need to manage and travel 

which is another thing shout out to them for all the travel i did this year lMFAOO

like yeah my bday sucked ass but right after i got sent to helsinki which i loved moomin world brrr

then i went to copenhagen to see amin e and i love denmark too

except for throwing up before my flight to london hmmm

also ididnt know they smoked there that might be my future city fr LMAO 

then i went to london which was fire i missed that city its like a european ? british ? toronto LMFAO but cooler imo less shittier weather

chilled w p and k 

got high 2 brr 

european loud is weird lol 

i saw j there and  was ocnfused as to why i felt nothing yeah no SHIT bitch the mf ugly and boring as hell 

really need to constantly remind myself who the FUCK i am and what im capable of omfg 

the way my confidence and self-esteemed dropped this year

now i have no energy for none of that i just dont give a fuck about nothing anymore 

being in london was coo w money tho ugh shout out to having funds

also i got a ps5 this year best purchase ever

i think at this point i just wanna save now like meh i guess there is things i want but idk 

i dontt knowwww

after london was more bs ass work

went to seattle which i actually liked lol more than cali 

i was just happy to exp fall weather 

RECORD SHOPPING SEATTLE WAS INSANE

oh i ddidnt rlly mention how much records i bought this year LFMSIOERGJEFE 

london and copenhagen thrifting was IT and so was record shopping

but seattle was x10 better jfc 

i think i have almost all records i want? except for a few but ill get the rest this year i guess 

after seattle or i guess during idk that dumbass got fired brr karma 

went rogue on events still sends me 😭😭😭😭 mf if only u KNEW 

i think at that point i was just exhausted like from travel and what not i just wanted to stay at home and gym

too much travel = i was eating weird and not gyming so idk 

im getting back on track now but smh

 i read a lot this year which was good

movies was okay 

finished the most paintings this year

got into oil pastels and 3d sculpting 

my gym is fuckkk amazing except i miss my old pilates teacher and boxing teacher fml 

consume by chase atlantic took over this year for me LMFAOO smfh 

went to SA again hated it annoying 

yeah by december i was drained as hell from work like i still am 

shout out to sam still for being my only friend this year STYLL 

oh yeah nadine came love her 

z came too but honestly meh .. lol ? the d apple picking thing cheeses me out but whatever 

like how u actively friends w someone who shits on me and then go on smthing that was our thing w them?

so done w bum ass canada honestly no intention of going back there at all

another thing to like im kinda over all my canada friends like yeah yall are still my friends but i dont care anymore im not letting the past drag me back 

im just not allowing myself to suffer anymore 

hmm wat. else

yeah idk this year was just swallowed by work

sole was ass met amine felt ass about it 

 i need to do something w myself that i genuinely gaf i need to put myself out there more

i need saturn to move the FUCK out of aquarius that what the fuck ineed

now that that bitch is starting to move im already starting to feel better

but now i gotta wait styll until fucking march for that sooo 

overall like hard ass year high high and low lows 

im still grateful for myself + life and happy i get to save money and make money and gain experience and travel 

im just hoping next year i can do a good job at work normally and be happier / more balanced and make stuff that i genuinely like 

i just want to be happier this year

also i bought tickets to japan SO IGEIRUGHESRUGYBHESUYRN LMFAOOOO YEAH A BITCH GON BE HAPPY SHE BETTER FUCKNG BE HAPPY 

2023 will be better 

[tiamathh]

it's miel hello how are you doing ? <33 congrats on finishing your internship! 🥳

what are your plans for the weekend ?

btw remember when we were talking about dreams and dream books ? well I had the weirdest dream I can remember 🤣

I dreamed that I was in a house that wasn't mine ( the current house I live in I mean ) and found a tarot deck amd tge first card I saw was 1 of cups. I tried to shuffle the cards and the cards that jumped were the magician, the chariot and I think king of pentacles (??) I tried to find what the mean and the biggest mistake I did was using a phone in my dream 😭😭😭😭 it got ugly not a nightmare but it was unpleasant 😭😭

anyway i tried to Google what meant dreaming of tarot cards and I got a Reddit post saying it might be my subconscious trying to communicate with me (?)

anyway anyway that's all lool I had more dreams but the message is long af 😭😭😭

have a great day and weekend Uki take careee:D 💗💗

HI SWEETU I'm gooddd I have some video editing work which I Don't wanna do but I might as well do it lol and readings and a PAC is planned I just wanna like get the game over bc I've dragged it too long for which I'm sorry fr 😭

And oml?? That's straight up a message aop, magician, chariot and kop are AMAZING cards the message could be that you're like entering a time of financial abundance because you will start either a new job or a new journey where you'll feel more secure, and this will reflect in everything you do with the magician having everything you want like all the resources you could need to make the life you want for yourself, and you will succeed with the chariot! It's literally a symbol of success and victory! And kop usually represents stability and financial abundance and if that's what you're looking for you're golden +++ i also think it's maybe talking about an older man entering your life who could give you a hand with work/business. But this is an AMAZING message your subconscious wants you to be more firm and in control of your conscious thoughts and know how powerful you are that's so cool oml dkkfkrkf

Also I had such a weird dream last night I don't remember much of it but I have sleeping w someone and it kept switching bw my bfs face and like a guys face from long ago like I knew him long ago and . Idk he keeps popping up in my dreams and I HATE IT IDEK WHY PLS HELP SOMEONE 😭😭🙏🏾🙏🏾 I DONT ACTIVELY THINK ABT HIM I PROMISE HE JUST POPS UP RANDOMLY especially when I'm back home

Anyways I hope you're taking care love muah 🩷🩷🩷 have the BEST weekenddd

[nar-nia]

hello!

it seems that everytime i want to get back on Tumblr my life goes "nuh uh" so im gone forever lool

life is just busy - but not in the way that i hate, the nice kinda busy, maybe except of uni but im just trying to get through it, my personal life is still lol, every year (since like 2 years or so) i hook up with the same guy during a party and we both know it will never be more that but damn the yearner in me always have these bitter thoughts about this situation after it's done but hey that's life right sometimes ig

but other than that thriving and loving life or at least trying to be more positive about it! 🥰

gosh, i hope u had lovely Easter!!! and that ure doing good and the new job is going great!!! i saw that u saw itzy?? that sounds absolutely amazing!! are you doing good? I hope ure eating delicious food and drinking enough water 🥰🥰 and ofc i hope writing is still fun for u babe!!

ily!! only like 2 months left before exams 🤣🤣🤣 the worst part of the student life fr

-beloved anonie, i missed uuuuu

ps IM SO HYPED FOR THE DARK MOON SONGS LET'S GOO HEESEUNG BRAINROT FOREVER

omg hellooo 🩷 i missed you so much 🥺

how are you <33 i'm glad that life is busy in a positive way, but i will manifest your best for uni! time is passing so fast, how far into uni are you now? good luck for your exams but i am sure you will slay them as always, just try your best and be proud of it because you deserve it!!

and what am i hearing about a guy 👀 honestly props to you for even coming that far to hook up with someone, i recently downloaded hinge and it's not not hitting 💀 tbh i think i want to just be in a relationship with all the cute fanfic moments, but i really don't want everything you have to go through in the beginning to get into a relationship 💀 life's tough and unfair with that. but anyways, would you want it to be more with this guy? or should i just send heeseung your way, i'm sure that can be arranged too 🤭

i actually had to work during easter if i remember correctly butttt my new job is really good 🥹 last week was the first time when i actually disliked it (my coworkers had a bad day and that just brought up very unhappy memories from my old job) but it's all good again and i'm having so much fun, i finally get to bake cakes!! and if they're not having a weird day my coworkers are really nice too (and give me lots of praise which is 👀. i am beaming after every compliment). apart from my job i'm doing good too, my mental health, mood and health overall has gotten so much better ever since i switched jobs and finally work normal hours again. and yesterday was the first time since idk when when i could sit down and really enjoy and get invested in a show again, i missed that so much.

i will ignore the drinking enough water part because when have i ever... although i do drink more now since i get it for free and fresh and cold at my job. so yay me i guess 😍 i am eating well though, and yesterday i tried making a cocktail (without alcohol) and it was really good. how about you though?? i talked way too much about me.

buttt writing is more fun than ever again which i am so so happy about, i have so many wips waiting to be finished right now 😶 but it's really fun. AND YES THE COMEBACK!!! they look so good in the promo pics, i can't wait for the release. just one more week!

thank you so much for checking in and saying hi, i missed you 🥺🩷 and i love youuuu

[lostinraainfall]

Okay time to tell you what happened yesterday! So you know there’s this colleague that i see here and there. She’s very knowledgeable and spiritual the other day she was talking about an experience she had with her shaykh and i asked how i can get one and she told me to read nafl and ask Allah swt to grant me one. The way she talks about Islam is just filled with so much conviction and love. Anyway she’s very helpful, bless her. So on Friday when i was sitting with my work bestie and the woman mentioned the Prophet’s ascent to the heavens I forgot the context cause she talks like 100 miles an hour. I told her I didn’t know much about it. So yesterday in the morning I get a call and I hadn’t saved her number so it was even more of a surprise.

She was like “i got you a book about the prophet saws i thought would be really useful to you, can you come downstairs to get it?” I was like wow. “awww i love book recommendations, you’re amazing!” i went to her office, and before engaging in any conversation🤣 i straight up asked her “are you a salafi”. Probably not the best way to ask but you gotta be careful where you get your guidance from and you made me become very cautious of them haha. She said no and she went into telling me how her daughter married a Salafi, whose dad is a scholar of a Salafi and she said it’s her test from God to her and she’s been trying her hardest to bring her daughter back but she hasn’t been able to and now her daughter tells her that she’s doing everything wrong. she was like to me “i always thought you were a salafi, idk why! The other day when you asked me about a shaykh I didn’t wanna give you mine bc i thought you wouldn’t agree with him.” She seemed way too happy to find out I wasn’t one, she even hugged me haha. the cynical in me was a bit suspicious but i don’t wanna give into my negative thoughts, isn’t it Sunnah or like obligatory to assume the best of people? She told me she was praying fajr today and I kept on coming in her mind and she started going through her books and picked that one for me. 😭 I was amused at the fact that she thought I was a Salafi. Bruh I didn’t even know what they were like a month ago.

Anyway, it gets better. We were talking a lot, she told me a few stories and gave more advice about tests, shaytan and to always read ayatul kursi. Much needed reminders. Her passion gave me the push i needed. (Yours too) And then!! I looked at the book she picked out for me and it was about the Isra Wal Mi’raj, i was so happy cause I remembered you told me to learn about it plusss a fundamental part that is missing from my journey is learning more about the prophet saws and she could sense that bc of what i said the other day. She gave another book she had in her drawer it’s called “Mawlid ad-Dayba’i: celebrating the birth of the prophet Muhammad saws”. It’s a book with Qasidas of the prophet saws. It’s a light read. Then she wanted to give me her copy of “Dala'il Al Khayrat” but I told her that i will print one out so i did. She told me the story behind it. Isn’t this all miraculous??? I gained so much knowledge and it was the timing just when i started to do more dhikr, my adkhars. OH and i asked if she likes imam ghazali hoping to understand her feelings towards him and she was like “Ooomg” and she gently hit my arm out of happiness hahah and i told her im reading his books. She mentioned Rumi, I didn’t know what to say and she was spelling his name out lool as well and told me check him out. And she told me to read another awrad called the naqshbandi awrad and told me more about her shaykh and omg you know what was the most exciting part?? She talked about how it removes the veil between Allah aaaand that’s what im currently reading about in the Ihya Uloom ud-Din. This conversation just felt.. directly God sent. Like it couldn’t have been clearer that it was God-sent.

[houseofmarch]

Hallo,I just read your bio, and you're on a placement with Sandra Backlund? That's incredible... Was that a hard placement to set up? Where are you studying fashion and textiles? I am starting knitwear fashion and knitted textiles at NTU in October, which is going to be fantastic.Anyway, sorry for all the questions. It's just so exciting to hear about someone going on placement with Sandra Backlund!

You will probably not see this, or might 6 years late like myself..

I stop using Tumblr when yahoo bought it, I just start getting loads of porn spam lool and just migrated to IG back in 2017 which was the glory days for IG, 6years late its not so good.

S.Buckland was amazing to work for and a talented work force, I'm not going to lie years have gone past and I have forgotten so much about that placement. After graduated since 2014 I have work in the fashion industry and now half retired from it as I am now an art teacher.

I hope the years have gone well for you too. If you wish to ask me anything further feel free to do so, I won't take 6years to reply, especially now I know my password lool.

[darknins]

DECEMBER 12, 2022

Only opened tumblr to clean up old accounts, but ended up reading this one. Too bad I didn't continue writing because that December our relationship took a sexual turn. We only did hand stuff over the holidays and eventually lost our virginities to each other at around April the next year but our volatile relationship only worsened, but the sex never stopped for two more years. We even stopped talking, well, he stopped talking to me right in the middle of my 2nd review. I was devastated. It broke me to pieces. I could barely think straight let alone focus on studying. Long story short, I failed. Anyway, It's 2022, and I'm married now. To a different man, the most amazing, kind, loving, patient, and goofy man who i met at such an unlikely time, but that's a story for some other time. I'm very happy now. And, that man who caused me so much pain? Haven't talked to him since he cut me off. I don't hate him any more. To be honest, I couldn't care less. I even have something to thank him for. It might surprise you, but I'm thankful he took my innocence away, if not, I might have missed my chance with my now husband if I was still my old stuck-up self. Now, I'm having the time of my life. Funny how it was the main reason i probably cried for him, i wanted it back goddamnnit, now I look back and laugh at myself for being so silly. Nothing was taken from me after all, if anything, him awaking my sexual drive empowered me, I had eventually come to terms that my body was mine and I could give it to anyone, absolutely ANYONE. I hit the jackpot this time. I married this wonderful man. My first ever one-night-stand. 🤍

Too bad, I can only lool back in hindsight and can no longer recount the agony in detail.

[tyonfs]

holy shit that was a whole roller coaster and a half, you had me feeling pity for the mcs, laughing at jaemin’s stupid ass thoughts and actions and also just like 🥺🥺🥺 this is so well written like the plot, the characters, the development of said characters!!! you captured the idiots in denial tension/dilemmas so perfectly and the ending😭😭😭 the bitch hunters/havers are the cutest friend group and im so glad that they’re living together again

anyways, sorry about my rambling but again, this is was so amazing alice and im looking forward to your future works!!😩🫶

AWW THANK YOU FOR READING AND SHARING UR THOUGHTS ITS SO SWEET 🥹❤️ i was sooo satisfied slash exhausted when i finished this fic LOOL i could use that vodka shot we were talking ab before 😩 idiots to lovers is one of my fav tropes so it was rlly fun to write their dynamic & i’m rlly glad you could feel all the emotions i was trying to evoke :’)

you don’t have to apologize at ALLLL thank you so much for being so sweet and for reading !!