#they had enough bettayals and pain

[i-miss-lotor]

You know what I think would be fun? If both Crowley and Gabriel woke up in the Empty. Have a chat. Annoy the living shit out of the entity until they get kicked out back to Earth. Possibly hook up, their choice. Have a talk, a heart to heart, give each other the things that they've been both yearning for. Whether their relationship is platonic or romantic, do you know how cool it would be for them to have each other? To love each other and give a safe place to the other?

[biifurcatedcoder]

You know ii could ju2t. Tell you, riight ? II know what happened. He2 probably 2huttiing down becau2e he ju2t found out thii2 aweful canyon between you two. 2omeone he ha2 loved over and over agaiin de2piite beggiing for that feeliing two 2top comiing back. Wa2 over nothiing. You two were never twogether. You both wanted two be, but not at the 2ame tiime.

You liiked hiim, took hiim on a date two the rydell carniival/faiire. He wa2nt iintete2ted iin a relatiion2hiip, you felt u2ed and betrayed. You got delre22ed, he felt liike a tool and offered two make the broken heart feeliing go away. You begged hiim two take iit all away, tye feeliing2, the memoriie2 two, and never giive them back. 2o he diid. And felt iincrediibly guiilty over iit. And ended up fiiguriing out hii2 cru2h and comiing two term2 wiith wantiing two be wiith you, after the fact, and iin guiilty 2tre22ed depre22iion, had greyface2 remove hii2 feeliing2 for you and memoriie2 of what he wa2 2o guiilty and confliicted over. He forgot. You forgot. He2 prediictable and 2tarted cru2hiing agaiin, diied, came back, and couldnt remember jack 2hiit be2iide2 the guiilt a22ociiated wiith liikiing you.

You two were ju2t emotiional kiid2 and he couldnt 2ay ii love you or even agree two try datiing cuz he diidnt know what he wanted. IIt wa2 2omethiing 2o 2tupiid and 2o 2iimple. Teenage heartbreak, that became 2omethiing wor2e. He kept tryiing two get riid of the feeliing2 and kept gettiing them agaiin, triied two cut you out, ended up mii22iing you, all the whiile wonderiing what he diid wrong that made hii2 iin2iide2 hurt 2o bad at the thought of liikiing you.

All that2 iin that locket ii2 the feeliing of bettayal and beiing u2ed, and that chiildhood cru2h you had on hiim, and mo2t of the memoriie2 of any iinteractiion you two had after the faiire but before hii2 death. II diidnt explaiin all of thii2 two hiim, but enough of iit that he got really fru2trated wiith the fact that he lo2t that bond over 2omethiing a2 2tupiid a2 not haviing been ready two 2ay he loved you or ready two try datiing yet by that poiint. That2 why he doe2nt want the memoriie2 back. He2 angry by how poiintle22 all the 2elf iimposed pain over the pa2t 2weep2 ha2 been. And now, the full detaiil2 are here, riight here, and he can 2ee the full 2tory two.

You two were nervou2 young 2weetiie2 who werent quiite ready two date, had an emotiional exchange that left you feeliing hurt, then iin true heartbroken teen drama fa2hiion, both made iit iintwo the biigge2t wor2t thiing iin tbe world iin2tead of ju2t. Moviing pa2t iit, and tryiing when you were both ready. And now iit2 been 2o long and cau2ed 2o much hurt between you both that iit2 eftectiively de2troyed that bond for year2, over nothiing.

There ii2 no mii2take two repeat. You were both ju2t young and foolii2h and encouraged eachother'2 bad iidea2 on how two handle thii2 untiil iit wa2 broken far beyond recogniitiion.

Faiir enough. IIf you need 2omeone two lii2ten, II’m alway2 all ear2, Crow : )