#they did this with a pair of plushies I had delivered earlier this month too

[girlyliondragon]

Somehow the succulent I bought keeps going back and fourth between the north and main city centers in my state and idfk why.

Just give me my damn Haworthia already idk why USPS delivery is like this what is wrong with them.

[cutiecrates]

Cutie Reviews: Yume Twins Nov 18

Before we begin, I wanted to let anyone curious to know that I put in my order from Blippo.com. I was cheap though- so I’m not actually sure when it’ll be delivered!

This months theme: Twinkling Transformation

“Have you ever wished you could transform into something different? Like maybe a magical girl, or even your pet for a day? We certainly daydream about being whisked of into a new exciting world where we get to shapeshift into a something different ourselves! So this November we’re bringing you the Twinkling Transformation box, with some kawaii items that transform literally, an items that will change your surroundings too! The word transform or change is “henshin” in Japanese, so we hope you love your super kawaii items in this months box and that they will allow you to fulfill your henshin dreams!“

The prizes for this months photo contest feature a variety of cute Korilakkuma themed items.

While the Yume Prize box contained a variety of Kuromi and Keroppi products.

Sumikko Gurashi Peg Set

Our first item are these adorable little pegs/clips. These types specifically are the ones people usually use to hang up with some string decorated with ornaments, pictures, notes, etc, giving the area a cute but mature feel.

There are 4 sets available, each with 3 pegs.

Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

These are really cute little ways to add decoration to something usually so plain and basic. The little pieces are entirely made from wood and the glue is very strong, so I’m pretty sure they’ll hold. These are kind of small but they’ll have no problem doing their duty, I’ve seen tinier ones do it fine.

 Right now I’m not entirely sure what I’ll do with them... but I am very happy happy I got Neko x3 besides Shirokuma, he’s my favorite.

Kawaii Changing Pouch

Our next item is a pouch based on a the popular changing sequins trend that’s been going on lately. I love sequins and the idea appeals to me, but besides this I only have one thing featuring it.

Now, these were mostly Sanrio based, but they also have a Doraemon. There was a total of 6 the subscribers could find. As you can see I got the Kuromi and My Melody version. I’ll probably end up keeping it as is in the picture since I like how it looks.

Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ 

As cute as this is, the awkward way the pouch opens kind of bothers me. It unzips down one corner and side, due to a flap on the inside, which in a way I kind of like, but on the other hand it’s weird. I’m a bit conflicted on whether I like that or not, but I can definitely use this for stuff so I do like it.

My other complaint is that there are so many white accents (you can probably tell in the pic) and it makes the design look a bit messy. But that’s probably just my opinion.

Costume Pet Plushie

Our third item is perfect for the transformation theme :3 every magical girl needs a companion~

This plush set includes a variation of 10 possible dogs or cats you could get, including ones in full costume or just those with a hood, like mine.

Oh, and if you’re wondering why it’s on it’s side... it needs some “cleaning“ done because somehow it got dirty, even though kept it in the box and it was clean. Also, it’s just easier to get a picture this way.

Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ 

As much as I love plushes, I’ve seen cuter. Like it’s cute, but I wish it was more... inline with what you would actually see in Magical Girl series. I was also kind of perturbed over its condition and messed up whiskers (probably can’t tell in the picture, but they are very crazy and bent).

Sheep Microfiber Cleaner

This item, practical item is infused with bamboo charcoal to not only pick up dust, but absorb any nasty smells and deodorized wherever it gets put; for example, on the back of the wrapper it shows 2 of these within a pair of shoes.

Besides this brownish color, it’s also available in white and a pinkish-orange.

Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ 

Not only is it the most kawaii cleaning buddy ever, but it works great!

Today we brought in a carpet to put own on the living room floor and we found so much dust and dirt beneath the couches and corners of the room we haven’t seen in forever- and I’m pretty sure I mentioned this, but I have dust allergies and they were having a field day. So I used this little sweetie to help pick up some of the dust.

I didn’t get a chance to test the scent thing though, I didn’t really get any sleep last night so my mind was elsewhere and it never occurred to me. But I did notice it seems to have it’s own little scent, so I’m pretty sure it could pick.

Sailor Moon Cleaner Cloth

I love when they include Sailor Moon items in the box x3 and this is a very practical item for me which makes it even better. Besides cleaning screens, they can also be used on glasses, or a make-shift hair tie in an emergency if they are the normal square ones (like if you have wind blowing your hair all over the place and you don’t have any actual hair things on hand.... I know from experience.)

This was available in any of the 5 main sailor scouts, and I actually think all 5 variations are pretty, so any of them would have been nice. They all have the same design, the only difference being the name written on it.

Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ 

On a side note... It actually killed me separating these two items. I know it’s silly but I loved how this packaging looked, I didn’t want to destroy it.

But as it turns out it was super easy to un-assemble and put back together. The bow on the back is just held together by flaps and the cloth is folded and partially sticking in a slot. So if I ever miss it I can just reassemble it. Word of warning though, the points of the ribbon are very sharp >3<

Uh, in terms of the cloth itself... I mean you’ve seen one, you’ve seen them all. It’s very silky smooth, a bit thick, and after today my laptop screen really needed a quick wipe.

Kawaii Mini Mini Memo

Available with Mochi Mochi Panda, Yeast Ken, or Animal Life, these mini memo pads are the perfect companion to the sequin pouch we got to look at earlier. Or just for putting in your pocket if you feel like it.

It has a nicely textured spine and a little information on the series/character on the back. The pad also has two styles of sheets, one vertical with a list format and one horizontal with designs like those on the cover. 

Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ 

I know this isn’t the most exciting review, but I had a long day and I really wanted to get this taken care of before bed because after all the work I did today, I won’t be doing anything tomorrow.

But to be fair what can you say about a notepad? I get them all the time from these boxes and you can’t really judge the quality of notepad/memo pad paper because you know it works. It’s paper.

♡ Cutie Ranking ♡

Content - 4 out of 5. I like what we got and I was very happy with the practicality and variety of it.

Price - 3 out of 5. I don’t know what all of these items cost, but most of the items are on the small side, paired with 2 bigger items. So I wouldn’t say it was worth it, but the reason the items usually cost so much is because of the name branding.

Theme: 3 out of 5. This box was pretty much a play on words, like rather than items that would cause personal transformation- these items bring transformation to our things. All items but the memo pad (which is a partner to the pouch pretty much) fit that idea, but... I don’t know, as a magical girl lover I really wish they did something more. 

Total Rank: 7 out of 10. I like the content well-enough and I’m not displeased by the box or anything. But at the same time, something about it just left a little to be desired to me. It’s boxes like this that remind me of how much I liked the Yume Twins I signed up with a few years ago. We got around 10 items, there was a wider variety, (the mascot twins who I still miss), they would include things like blind box re-ments or charms or accessories....

I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with the box, it’s just that sometimes I find it hard to entirely like it as much as I want to. I always want to love my boxes, and I genuinely like them at the end of the day, but not every single one will appeal to every single subscriber.

♡ Cutie Scale ♡

1. Microfiber Sheep - I’m thinking of naming it Puffy, or maybe Wheats, cause that’s what I end up thinking of looking at it. Anyway it’s so cute and fluffy, I love how soft it feels. I’m not sure I could stand to try to use it to see if it actually removes stench though... I’d feel kind of bad.  

2. Memo Memo Pad - I love Mochi Mochi Panda, it always makes me happy to look at. I wanna squeeze it’s stuffed cheeks~

3. Kawaii Changing Pouch - I really wish the booklet showed both forms of the pouch like I did in my pic. A few of them are obvious without seeing the other image, but not all of them. I also wish the sequins were a bit more cleaned up, as I noted during my review of the item.

4. Sailor Moon Cleaner Cloth - It’s pretty and sorta elegant looking to me, I really like how it was packaged too, it’s so creative!

5. Sumikko Gurashi Peg - I’m glad I got Neko but the poses are very basic. I’ve seen them on tons of things I got from these boxes and I kind of wish they were more unique. 

6. Costume Pet Plush - it’s cute and really soft, but I still can’t figure out how it got dirty...

Alright guys, that will be doing it for this review. I’m sorry it’s kind of lame this time, but I just couldn’t think of much to say about the last few items. I feel like they were so obvious that it took away much opinion you know? Like if it works it works, if it’s cute then it’s a great bonus :D I promise to do better with the Kawaii Box review I’ll be tackling next, so until then remember to continue unpacking those cuteness boxes~!

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loving leaving [ p. jimin ]

words // 3.3K

pairings // park jimin x male!reader

warnings // mild self-hatred

summary // Jimin was perfect in every way imaginable and you didn’t want to taint pure white

Jimin was a kind of china, special, a bit fragile sometimes yet it often made him strong, he was beautiful and only meant for special occasions and special things, extraordinary things. China could be easily ruined, porcelain was quite fragile, the simple act of gravity was able to completely destroy it, Jimin was a lot stronger than that though there was something that was pulling him downward, it was you.

Something about the purity of Jimin made you very aware of how easy it was to taint, he was a strong person and you knew that very well but anyone could be influenced, anyone could be manipulated and innocence could be stripped from anyone, all that was needed was a hard push, something stronger than usual. Something so dark it could cover the sun and remove all brightness, it seemed like you were that person. Jimin hadn’t changed the slightest since you two had started dating, but he had become a lot closer and far more touchy, still you couldn’t help like feel you were doing something to him, a slow poison corrupting him.

“Can you come to practice tomorrow?” The question was asked out of nowhere and you stopped stroking Jimin’s hair for a second as you pondered your answer. His hair was extremely soft, another beautiful thing about Jimin.

“I’m sorry Jiminie, I’ve got work.” It was a lie and the truth at once, you did genuinely have to work but it wasn’t all day, you could come to their practice a few hours late but you didn’t really want to. You knew the rest of his members and they were very welcoming, a little protective but it had faded as you and Jimin had been dating for over half a year now, things were going stable and there was no real reason for them to be suspicious, still you felt uncomfortable with them. It was the feeling like they knew what was happening, they knew what kind of poison rested in your fingertips and they knew that Jimin would change as white went to a slight grey to a pitch black.

“You always have to work when I practice.” Jimin said with a pout and you felt a tinge of guilt though it was quickly replaced with a kind of right feeling, it wasn’t solid, it was shaky and wavy but you felt a little better, you were doing this for him. He would be better off but you were just too weak to pull through with a breakup, everyone indulged in their selfish desire sometimes, it was human nature and human weakness.

You shook your head with a small smile. “It’s because it’s the middle of the day, it’s normal work hours really.” Because it was true, sure you started earlier so you finished earlier which meant you could see them but most of the time their practice and your work overlapped perfectly so you couldn’t be there, it wasn’t something you wanted yet at the same time did, everything about it was conflicting but you decided not to think about it too much.

“Can’t you come after work?” You pondered your answer for a second, technically yes. Did you want that? You didn’t know. It was this constant fight between what was the right thing to do for yourself and what the right thing was to do for Jimin, both of them polar opposites whilst you were walking on a tightrope, balancing the two out no matter how impossible it was. Yet now you were close to falling as the rope thinned even further and your balance took more than a few harsh blows.

“Maybe, I’ll see okay?” You said with a small smile.

“Please do Y/N.”

“Anything for you, Jiminie.”

-8-

In the end you decided to come, you couldn't help yourself as you said a nice goodbye to your co-workers and were headed to your own apartment. Really it was more or less your and Jimin’s apartment, considering he slept there around every night and whenever he had some free time he either spent it with you or at your apartment so it was more a shared place than really your own. At first you didn’t mind, the literal opposite, you welcomed and loved it but with time your vision had changed, at first you hadn’t realised your tainting of Jimin, something you didn’t know about yet but now you did and weren’t as happy about the sharing. Jimin was better off if he stayed with his members, they would always be able to take care better wouldn’t darken him.

“Y/N!” Jimin’s enthusiasm made you realise he really hadn’t expected you, it was both a good thing and a bad thing. The distance was a little better, you wanted to keep a bit of distance from now on, make him realise and recognise your own darkness and remove himself from it instead of getting involved deeper. Yet at the same time you felt bad for being a bad boyfriend, he shouldn’t be so surprised that you decided to come watch him practice because it was basic things you were supposed to be, being together. Because of this you had gotten him a small bouquet along with a plushie you had spotted on your way, something to make it up even though you knew you couldn’t really.

“Jiminie, I finished early so I could both come and I got you something.” You said with a smile. In response the smile that was already on his face only grew as he took both gifts and gave you a kiss.

“You didn’t have to.” He said after the kiss.

You merely shrugged. “Probably should’ve, I mean the last time was more than a month ago.” It was longer, seven weeks and three days if you remembered correctly, seven weeks until you gave into the temptation and human desire. It made you feel weak yet at the same time it was something so human to do.

“You’re busy though.” Jimin responded and you shook your head, he was busy too but somehow still was always able to make time, sometimes it wasn’t much or it was rushed and hurried but he always managed to make some time for you or left sweet notes, small gifts, anything to make you feel loved. You forgot about it sometimes, you always tried and ended up arguing about it with yourself because you should do it and wanted to do it but didn’t want to draw Jimin any closer than he already was, yet it seemed that didn’t matter much because he would do it himself.

“You’re busier, I mean you’ve got a comeback coming and you work a lot harder for everything than I do.” Your job was just an office thing, sitting behind a computer, doing mindless tasks for most of the time whilst you just waited for the day to end. Whenever you and Jimin met up he always came from practice or was heading to practice, sometimes with teachers and sometimes it was just him who wanted to get better at something and would pour endless hours into it so he could get to the level where he wanted to be, you admired him deeply for that.

“Stil, you’ve got a life too.” You laughed and shook your head.

“It’s fine. I’m here to watch you dance though so it’s about time you started.” He grinned.

-8-

Jimin made you happy, Jimin had made you happy in ways you thought were impossible and so many times it was hard to count, he was your sun in every way, even the negatives. It was blinding and sometimes harmful, though you were quite sure it wasn’t as harmful to you as it was to the sun. Jimin was so bright whereas you felt like some kind of darkness that took over the sun, like an eclipse, all light sucked out from such a bright fiery source, it was something that should never happen but you were human.

It was hard to deny yourself all of these things even if you knew it was bad for Jimin, even if you knew you didn't’ deserve all the love and pleasure he was delivering to you for free, it was still hard. Human temptation and desire were able to easily override whatever logic you tried to add to your irrational yet rational decisions.

It didn’t help that you felt like JImin was starting to notice too, he seemed a bit more distant but the frown on his face made you realise he was thinking it was him, like he was doing something wrong as if he could ever do something wrong like that, it made your heart ache even more and your mind felt even more frustrated because you were just too weak to break up, to remove what you didn’t deserve and to make sure he wouldn’t end up with a dark shroud around him either, it was better, for both of you.

The better decision was clear for you but there was some part of yourself that just didn’t allow you to pull through with it, even if you were able to convince yourself it was better for you and Jimin because Jimin deserved so much better and you didn’t deserve a shred of it, it was hard to really do it, to break up with someone you’ve grown so close to because being friends would be all too big of a temptation, it was all or nothing and the latter was extremely hard, it would be like diving headfirst into a black hole, you could expect misery but you could never be too sure.

Frustration only grew as you were unable to do anything and kept staring at your phone until you came up with a ludicrous decision, something so stupid you really shouldn’t do it but it made no sense, and that was why it was the logical thing to do. Convincing yourself fully would be impossible, bets wouldn’t happen and there was nothing else really but to leave it up to chance, it was fair, equal and there was no logic about it that could make you convince yourself otherwise, this was it.

It didn’t take too long to find a coin nor to flip it.

Tails.

-8-

Jimin had been trying to reach Y/N for at least ten times, it was probably more but he fell asleep in the middle of it and ever since waking up it had been ten times. There was a part of him that ached, his heart pounding worse than it had ever done before.

Y/N: I can’t do this

Y/N: I love you Jimin

Y/N: That’s why this is the right thing to do

Y/N: I love you and I’m saying goodbye

Y/N: I’m breaking up with you

Y/N: Take care x

That was yesterday near midnight and ever since Jimin had been trying to reach Y/N but nothing had worked, calls were never responded to, the billions of texts he had send were unread and ignored. Jimin went as far as emails, nothing. Absolutely nothing, he knew Y/N couldn’t avoid it, couldn’t have because he worked behind a screen and had to have opened his email just once and seen the billions that had flooded in from Jimin, was Y/N ignoring him?

It made him angry and frustrated at both himself and Y/N, there was this conflict of who was to blame. Jimin had always tried his best to manage dating him and everything surrounding his work, it had worked, it always did. They had lasted through a small tour when they hadn’t seen each other for two months, it could work and it had worked so Jimin couldn’t remotely grasp why Y/N said he was doing the right thing because it certainly wasn’t breaking up and never responding to him again. It made his heart break, it made him broken and angry at himself that he never thought about this but Y/N too because this was just stupid, plain stupid.

Jimin didn’t know if it was his fault, partially perhaps but never fully. He had always asked Y/N if him being away so much was okay with him and without a doubt he’d always accepted it because he loved seeing Jimin happy and doing what he loved. Jimin had always opened conversations for him to admit if there was something wrong, they were never forced, always open and kind but Y/N never complained, it was so unclear to him. Sure, recently he had been busier but that was all ready, the only thing he felt frustrated at was that he hadn’t noticed before, hadn’t noticed that there was something wrong and hadn’t been able to try and fix it. Jimin didn’t even fully see that as his fault, he tried to but couldn’t, because there was nothing to notice about Y/N, his behaviour was the same as always and nothing had changed. Jimin really tried to blame himself because it was easier than be left with unanswered phone calls and texts but there wasn’t much he could blame himself for when Y/N had always been so accepting of everything that was happening.

Despite this frustration he couldn’t find it in himself to blame Y/N because he had always been hopelessly in love with him, even if he never admitted it himself like that. Since meeting him something was just so appealing, attractive and charming that Jimin wasn’t able to accurately describe it with words so he didn’t and rather showed this through physical love, cuddling, kissing and sex. To Jimin it was the best way to show clear love, it was passionate and transparent compared to words, there was no interpretation especially with the words that accompanied his deeds of love. Jimin had fallen so deep the surface had disappeared, part of him was angry but it wouldn’t have gone any other way even if Jimin knew about what would eventually happen, he was smitten.

It was just disappointing in the end, it saddened him deeply and he was already missing Y/N desperately even though not even twenty-four hours had passed yet, it was strange to fall in love with one human so deeply but Jimin had always liked it, well, up until now.

-8-

Yoongi needed to do something, Jimin had changed after the break-up. He was a lot more timid, sader and often more silent. Whenever they had any kind of appearance it was easy for him to keep up an act that was identical to whom he used to be but Yoongi noticed it was quite draining for the younger to keep going as he napped a lot more than he had ever done really, it made Yoongi angry and sad at once. Sad because Jimin didn’t deserve that misery and angry because he had no idea why Y/N had just left, why he had left because they were so extremely happy together. Jimin cared too much to take any kind of very aggressive action like confrontation but Yoongi was a lot less timid about this issue.

It had genuinely taken him some time to track Y/N down who had seemingly disappeared from the face of the earth, in the end he found a workplace. Y/N had moved across the country to Gwangju for work apparently, that was probably the reason why they hadn’t seen him in the two months it had been since his and Jimin’s breakup, he moved to an entirely different city, it was quite easy to miss and Yoongi still considered it quite a miracle he had been able to find Y/N’s new workplace, even if it was a bit stalker like due to his methods, he needed answers for himself but mostly for Jimin.

Finding Y/N once he had a city turned out to be surprisingly easy as he somehow ended up finding a friend of him and talking to that friend who gave him an adres, Yoongi was happy that the two of them had similar opinions, their breakup had no reason and whilst Y/N friend just wanted an explanation as to why he would stop being with someone he loved, Yoongi needed answers and something better than some weak ass excuse.

And now came the moment everything had been leading up to, Yoongi felt quite confident as he knocked on the apartment door and waited. He heard muffled footsteps and he also knew Y/N lived alone, he would get his answers no matter what.

“Y/N.” Yoongi said, his voice was calm and a little drawn out. He looked surprised, very surprised and it was the response Yoongi was hoping to get.

“Your concept of loving includes leaving someone who needs you? Care to explain that.” Without a doubt he was getting a bit more angry, he wasn’t too emotional but it just made him angry, everything about it. Gritting his teeth as he waited for a response, for a moment he wondered what Jimin would’ve done were their roles in reverse or were Jimin here in general.

Y/N stared at Yoongi for a while as he waited, that was when Yoongi noticed tears were threatening to spill.

“Jimin was the best thing that ever happened to me, literally,” He started to choke up and Yoongi for once decided to remain silent instead of angerly spew, which had been his original idea. “Do you think I like this or something? Do you genuinely believe that?”

“Why did you do it then? If both of you are miserable there’s no reason for you to have broken up with him.” Yoongi said, he had a few ideas as to why but he wasn’t too sure and none of it made too much sense. He knew things weren’t as simple as Yoongi hoped they would be, a happy couple didn’t separate because they were happy.

“Because it’s better, it’s better for Jimin and please, just hear me out. I don’t care if you’re going to shout at me afterwards or really don’t care whatever you do but I just need you to listen now.” Yoongi frowned but nodded.

“I know we were happy, I know he was happy and I was happy but just, do you ever see yourself in a certain way but others don’t? You know like you think you’re annoying but others say you’re not and no matter how many times they say that you can’t process it because how can you not be annoying? With your voice, appearance and whatnot. It’s the same in our relationship, or well, it was the same. I never felt good enough, never felt like I deserved Jimin because he’s perfect, he’s special, he is an utter sweetheart and the best person I have known which is why he needs someone better, someone who is equally as good instead of me.”

Yoongi understood the feeling and whilst the burning fiery rage hadn’t disappeared completely, it had certainly faded from a raging flame to a small ember because it was a feeling he understood too well, something he didn’t like to think about too much, something from his past that he had let go but something that had haunted him for a longer time than he had considered as at the mere mention he felt shivers due to familiarity.

“My idea of loving someone is leaving them, yes. It’s not good, it’s not enjoyable but it’s the best I can do.”

authors’ note // so this was mostly written out of experience with how I have felt, mostly with friends, so it could not make complete sense. also my photoshop is still acting up so maybe sometimes soon i can make good ‘graphic’s to go along with the fics. Also, really this is just all going to be male!readers, mlm or wlw fics.