#they cant fix him hes just like this forever now i think ToT

[namelessprince]

i told my brother (who actually plays dnd) about doppelgilly and um. apparently he isnt a husk of a person because his soul is gone. hes like that because of his 3 intelligence

[iliketowrite1996]

Only you part 4

this was difficult for me to write because I wanted to make it as realistic as possible but stay true tot he vision that I had. so without further ado- the final chapter to only you 

WARNINGS- Mentions of Unplanned pregnancies, divorce, post-divorce bullying, self-sabotage and relationship troubles

    To say that finding out you are pregnant again shocked you would be a massive understatement. It threw you for a loop, knocked the wind  out of you all at the same time.

    You initially refused to believe it, There’s no way that you’re pregnant. It couldn't ne. You and T'Challa had only slept together once since the divorce, and it was within the same week.

    Your missed period could be for any number of reasons, right? You’ve been stressed out lately. It’s not weird for you to miss a period every so often. So you made a doctor’s appointment for earlier today, just to confirm that you are in fact not pregnant, because that’s only going to add to the chaos that is your life with T’Challa.

    Of course she delivers those three words to you: You are pregnant.

    Which is how you find yourself sitting at kitchen table with T’Challa, Ado and Adanya tucked away in their beds as you and their dad discuss life-changing topics.

    It’s funny how you were discussing getting back together five days ago,

    Now, because of a few stolen kisses, the heat of the moment and an empty apartment, you’ve got other things on your mind.

    ‘’How far along are you,’’ he questions, looking at the pregnancy test.

    ‘’Two months,’’ you clear your throat, ‘’Give or take a few days.’’

    He leans back in his chair then, rubs a hand down his face and pinches the bridge of his nose.

    He is frustrated.   

    You know him so well.

    ‘’We’re going to have another baby,’’ he says, more to himself than to you. It is like he is trying to make sense of what is happening around him, like his world has begun spinning too fast again when it was just starting to slow down.

    ‘’We are,’’ you swallow thickly, but it feels like there is a lump of sawdust in your throat, ‘’So what are we going to do about it?’’

    He stares at you then, brown eyes shining with uncertainty. He has the weight of the world on his shoulders, and you do as well.

    ‘’We have to consider everything here. Of course I will support you and the baby. You do not need to worry about that.’’

    ‘’I do not,’’ you reassure him, because that’s the one thing that you know about him- T’Challa is dedicated to his children and to Wakanda. Your place with him may still be up in the air, but his homeland and his children will forever have his heart;

    ‘’I assume you are worried about the responses from people?’’

    ‘’That is it.’’

    This is a goldmine for the paparazzi- the king of Wakanda,one of the wealthiest and most technologically advanced countries in the world, gets his ex-wife pregnant? You cant see the headlines now.

    ‘’T’Challa and Ex back together?’’

    ‘’What will the Elders think about this?’’

    ‘’Was the divorce all for show?’’

    As if you and T’Challa would have purposely destroyed all that you had for a few moments in the spotlight that you always tried to avoid on ny occasion.

    T’Challa stares at your stomach then, the same way he had when you announce your pregnancy with Ado and Adanya.

    ‘’I’m worried about what Ramonda will say as well,’’ you admit, because it needs to be addressed.

    ‘’My mother? Why?’’

    ‘’She is very traditional, T’Challa. As are most of the elders. This is very scandalous in the eyes of many. Shoot, when I tell Deena, she’ll probably fly here just to see what is going on,’’ you lay your head on the table, ‘’I’m pregnant.’’

    By your ex-husband, the king of Wakanda.

    You have to keep reminding yourself of that just so you can feel the full gravity of the situation at hand.

    ‘’We’re going to have to tell people,’’ he reminds you, lifting your head so that you are looking at him, ‘’And we are going to have to have some conversations.’’

    ‘’About the baby?’’

    ‘’And about us. It is a given that you and I will both take care of this baby, But what about us?’’

    You stare at him then, blinking once, twice, a third time.

    ‘’How did we get back to a relationship between uys?’’

    ‘’Everything comes back to you. We can still be together, my love. I know that that night meant something to you, as it did to me,’’ he references to the night a few months ago when all of this happened-when rules were broken and kisses where presse to overheated skin and ‘’I love you’’ ‘s where whispered behind closed doors.

    ‘’It’s not the tight time, is it?’’

    ‘’Is it ever? Baby, this was going to happen one way or another. You care about me, and I care about you. We were talking about this before you even became pregnant. So, all I am asking is this: do you really want to give us another try?’’

    Your head is spinning with thoughts that are going a million miles an hour.

    He wants you, and you want him. Neither of you have been trying to hide that lately, except for from the kids.

    SP you tell the childen that mommy and daddy are expecting a baby- first thing's first, one moment and conversation at a time.

    A few weeks later, you tell them that mom and dad are dating again but it does not mean that you'll be getting married anytime soon.

    The elders are shocked and many people of Wakanda are as well. The comments and opinions are mixed- you hear vicious whispers about this baby, about the status of your relationship, about everything that goes on with you and T’Challa.

    And because your relationship is so publicized, you deal with it in private.

    You continue counseling.

    You talk to the children about the changes, about how to ignore what people will say.

    You choose him.

    He chooses you.

    You continue with your life, well aware that you may both be getting yourself into something that no one else agrees with.

    Ramonda comes around, and you're not sure why, but you’re grateful for her support.

    Deena, M’Baku and Shuri offer advice, help out where they can, support and listen to your pros and cons when necessary.

    You continue to choose T’Challa.

    T'Challa continues to choose you.

    You announce the pregnancy to the world a few days later. You are greeted with remarks, some hateful and nasty and spewed out like vomit over your relationship. Others are flowy and pretty, but you take no heed to any of them.

    The dirty and rude and mean comments act like fertilizer- they make your relationship stronger and grow vetter, the way that fertilizer does for flowers. The nice messages are just that nice. But they are all inconsequential. You know what you've and you know what T’Challa has/

    And that is the love that you have for eachother.

    It takes months of trust to hold back what you had. It takes hours of therapy, and a lot of hard work. Between shigiting you back into your repsonsibilities, patching up Ramona's issues with you, welcoming your newborn child, and adjusting your children to this new life, it takes two years.

    Two years before T’Challa is down on one knee, proposing to you.

    It is nothing fancy- you’d taken the children of the beach again. Adanya standing there with her hands over her mouth, happy tears streaming down her face. Ado is beaming from ear to ear, chanting ‘’say yes, say yes, say yes!’’ Your youngest child, Abioye, is staring at his dad with wide eyes, unsure as to what is happening.

    All of these moments serve as laying the foundation and beginning to build a new life together. It's not east or seemless- it's hard and it took months of dedication to get here, and T’Challa has been by your side every step of the way.

    So it is without hesitation that you say ‘’Yes’’ a second time.

    Yes to a new marriage.

    To starting over.

    To a new start.

    Later that night, you decide to celebrate by staying in with the children.

You’re children are in yours and T’Challa’s bed as you play a board game with them. It’s Udaku family game night.

The days like this are the days that you adore- when you see how, even though things happened slowly, it was for the best. What was torn apart by you and T’Challa couldn’t be fixed with tape or glue or even stitches- it had to be molded an melted together.

That must be why what you have now is so good- you can see where it was melted together. You can see the weaknesses.

What you can’t see is how anyone could break it ever again.

‘’You look radiant in this light, my love,’’ he tells you, pressing a kiss to your hand.

‘’Ewww,’’ Abioye giggles and squeals.

‘’Get used to it. They are always like this,’’ Adanya nose scrunches up in distaste, ‘’Auntie Shuri says that they are extra.’’

‘’You need to stop spending so much time with Auntie Shuri.’’

‘’Baba, Abioye is cheating.’’

‘’He doesn’t even know this game,’’ you laugh, ‘’He is not even playing! He is staring at the board, Ado. How could he be cheating?’’

‘’He is winning,’’ Ado frowns. ‘’Yet he doesn't know how to play.’’

‘’Win?!,’’ Abioye asks, only catching his name and the word ‘’winning’’

‘’No, Abioye. Ado shush, you need to let it go.’’

‘’Adanya is cheating, too.’’

‘’Ado, how am I cheating?!’’

‘’Booo!’’

‘’Well said, Abioye,’’ Ado rubs his brothers back.

T’Challa turns to you with an amused look, his eyes sleepy but his heart full.

This is it- it's another one of those moments in the story of you two that doesn't make sense, out that he would not rewrite. It’s one of those moments that makes sense to only the author, but is forever photographed in his memory.

And the same is said for you- every moment leads back to him. The good and the bad. He is not perfect, neither is your story or your life. As long as it leads you back to where you are meant to be, you don’t mind a few hiccups and confusions.

You turn to your husband as he gently says your name,one hand on your ever-growing stomach.

‘’I love you,’’ he says.

‘’I love you, too, T’Challa.’’

‘’Only me?’’

‘’Only you.’’

As long as you both shall live.

EXCERPT TO A SEQUAL I MAY WRITE-

T’Challa Udaku is a good man, He has a good heart. He wants to see the best in others and in situations, and he usually succeeds at that.

However, he Is a stubborn man.  T’Challa does not like to admit that he makes mistakes a lot of the time. but he will when he sees no other options. He’s working on that with you in counseling, working on not keeping secrets from you.

There is one, secret, though, that is being kept that he is not aware of. He does not always like to admit mistakes or when he is wrong, but he knows he should not have gotten involved with her, the girl who broke his heart in between you and Nakia, just because he was trying to get over your divorce a few years ago. He knew trying to make her replace you in his heart, in his head, and maybe even in his bed was wrong, which is why he let her go to begin with. But that doesn’t change the past, or the actions that set the events that are about to unfold in motion.

.What neither of you know is that, a few months before you took your pregnancy test and found out that you were pregnant with Abioye, she took a pregnancy test as well. And while things seem good for your family now, that hidden secret is going to come to life.

And what is uncovered may or may not have an impact on the Udaku family forever.

DISCLAIMER- I OWN NO MARVEL CHARACTERS OR THEIR FICITONAL WORLDS AND UNIVERSES, THEY BELONG TO THEIR RIGHTFUL AND RESPECTFUL OWNERS!

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