#they call me the ichiya thinker.. thinks about him so hard

[bagghhead]

Wanna talk about Beichiya depression? :3

oh boy i wish i wish i could put my thoughts together correctly but they are a huge sloppy mess.. but i love to think about school beichiya i really love to think they were unbelievably close to the point where they were practically a couple.. i don't really think they ever got fully together but they were like soulmates they just loved each other and they both knew they did (to me anyways….) so when things went to shit it HURTS IT HURTS ME SO BAD. i dont really think ichiya has ever or will ever have anybody as close as he was with beika ever again and its even worse for his front roe self after he fucked up sqsq.. its his fault but he is a lonely lonely idiot and it makes me sad i wish he wasnt a DUMBASS. i always really like to think about wtf he would even feel after all of that shit cus ik this boy has got to be horribly depressed and has 5000 tons of guilt on the inside.  beika on the other hand has c side which i think are his support system and he has people to actually trust and rely on and love and ugh ugh ugh but i actually think beika was more attached to ichiya than it being the other way around and he hates it but its like there…when ichiyah left he was literally ruined and a huge mess(to me anyways.) this is random but i have a headcanon that ichiya would hang out and sleepover at beikas place because his parents or whatever would be gone and so he went over alot to the point where he would just leave a lot of his things over there and so when ichiya left for inkopolis ichiyahs shit in beikas room is just there to haunt him #kill me rn (i like to think he never even got rid of the shit and whenever he would get angry thinking about him he couldnt even get himself to break anything because #butt), i cant really describe how much they mean to me theyre actually my number 1 thing to think about they just hurt me so BAD THEY HURT SO BADDDDDD UGHHHHHH one day ill force myself to make my own personal beichiya timeline filled with my own headcanons and stuf because this entire paragraph sucked and im bad at putting my words together but .. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh.