#they all struggle with sleep but being near eachother soothed them

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Sometimes you just have to draw an OC cuddle pile

Balee - Sven - Keanan

[howlsofbloodhounds]

Aw man I can’t help but imagine Killer struggling so hard to take care of himself, to work up the energy and the care. Perhaps he uses his cats as motivation, no one will take care of them if he’s gone, so he has to force himself to try and eat without being told or reminded to. He has to develop self soothing and grounding techniques, teach himself how to care for himself like he’s also one of his cats. Like, re parent himself.

I can see a lot of breakdowns that end with killer in a hospital, or perhaps a facility, for a little bit. Until the staff realizes it’s not doing him very good to be trapped in one place and constantly told what to do and when to do it, so they carefully let him go with sources on how to find help or people to call when he needs help.

Imagine if he meets friends while in the homeless shelter. Like, kind strangers who have no idea who he is or why he’s there, but they help him through panic attacks and try to talk him down from harming himself (without getting police involved.) maybe there’s even a particular person he manages to trust a smidge to sleep near, likely because he manages to form a mutual transaction with them—the two freely share resources. And he knows he can trust them with his cats because the homeless people need some hope and happiness too, and the cats do that for all of them.

What if he finds an actual family in regular homeless, broken and hurt people just like him. only they don’t treat him differently from how they treat eachother. of course it won’t actually be that easy and stage 2 would likely try to leave or sabotage it, but it was a brief good moment of what it should’ve been like with the gang.

Erm so I. Accidentally started ranting. Oopsies

I think it's silly to draw Killers soul in a constant target shape in erm found family kinda trope. Yk. When everyone gets along and is happy and they also jokingly bully Killer and excessive amount. And Killers in stage 2 through all of it. How honest is Killer truly being?

And also (going off track) why does he get bullied an excessive amount, because I see no love coming from that,, to like jokingly shit on someone, yeah, sure I understand, people do that, it can be funny, but it's just.... so much..... like. Killer can't even breathe without being shit on. Maybe saying he's getting shit on is not the best way to word it but,,,,,,, anyways Killer gets bullied so much I don't even. I can't even see it as funny anymore. He gets bullied, and no affection given, and it's even more deprivating seeing how the others who surround him, the group he's supposedly a part of, is all love and affection and they obviously share affection and all 'at

And then there's Killer. Only there to mess things up and harass everyone. He talks too much, and when getting ignored he starts talking about sensitive topics for something to come out of the other. Just something to say he's real, something to show he's somehow still a part of whatever this is. He's not treated as an outside, but he sure as hell ain't being treated as someone that matters. It shouldn't bother him though. The treatment isn't new, he's used to this, he's fine. He shouldn't be petty about not getting a lil affection

Killers literally so hated that the version of horror that's so desperate to keep everyone healthy and to not let anyone starve, literally leaves Killer to starve for a day. Sighs idk I'm just not dealing with Killer constantly getting bullied all the time,,,, it's funny every now and then but Jesus it's so excessive I can't even— anyways I have no solution for this because the best situation is to leave the ones hurting you but. Sighsssssssss

I'm just. Stopping myself here, imma go eat

No, i completely understand you, anon. I used to also be a target of excessive bullying (both in school and in my family unit), so that shit doesn’t appeal to me. It’s not funny or cute, especially when it’s done to a character whose use that type of treatment and far worse, and keeps seeing examples of what the dynamic should and could be, but for some reason he’s not allowed to experience that??

I also hate it when in Bad Sans Family dynamics they treat Killer like he’s an idiot or an annoying child, always messing things up and everyone just fucking hates him for some reason despite claiming not to??

In my mind, if Killer is excessively in Stage 2 during these types of dynamics, then his ass is just playing along. They treat him like shit despite claiming to care or be family or be friends, no different than what Chara did, there’s no way he’d allow himself to be in Stage 1 around them. He can’t trust them not to fuck him up anymore than he already is.

And Stage 1 is excessively a lot more emotionally fragile and sensitive than he is in Stage 2. Killer doesn’t need bullying and degrading comments when he’s in such a vulnerable, fragile state. That’s not a sign of love or affection for Stage 1.

A lot of people don’t seem to understand that Killer is a victim of awful, prolonged abuse and torture—he’s not just a violent stupid serial killer, he is a victim of forced perpetration. He is not going to react to these things like Horror or Murder would.

In fact, even with a Bad Sans Family, his circumstances still mirror the one he had with Chara—killing people, hurting people, doing it with people who claim to be friends or family, even all those violent bloody fights people portray Killer and Murder having is no different than what likely happened with Chara.

Stage 1 is not going to be stabbing people to show affection or licking blood off knives or doing anything that he does in Stage 2. Because that is a version of Killer that is more Sans-like, you know, a Sans that never wanted any of this. A version of Sans who is constantly filled with overwhelming fear, guilt, shame, pain, longing for his home and his brother. Who is still out there, looking for him.

It reminds me of a quote a came across, but can’t quite remember. Something about how a girl wakes up in her bed in a house, screaming and crying about how she wants to go home—but the speaker and the family is confused, because she already is home.

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Travis-centered plots because I Like fix it’s… (I just finished typing them all, I’m ashamed for my sinful brain oml)

- Larry and Travis having once been friends but being torn apart by Travis’ father. Larry keeping an eye on Travis for years but then turning his attention to Sal, whom in turn receives the sudden disdain of Travis.

Sal confronts Travis in the bathrooms one day and Larry listens from the door. Eventually Sal talks Travis into tears. He confesses to being jealous of Sal and not wanting Larry to stop focusing on him, even if Larry ends up hating him. How his dad would beat him if Travis and Larry ever got close again. Larry barges in and holds Travis close. They reconcile (Sal opting to let the boys talk, clearly not in the mood to see Enemies to Lovers tonguing den in the school bathroom.

They uproot and destroy the cult, blah blah blah, Happily ever after and Travis gets help for his trauma induced depression and anxiety.

- Travis has been off for a few days. He doesn’t antagonize anyone. Philip does more talking and ginger touching that Travis violently jerks away from. During class he barely responds and teachers don’t try to force him. Sal didn’t expect to find Travis sleeping on a bench one day. His worn shoes now tattered with holes at the bottom. His black eye prominent but accompanied by a busted lip and what looked to be severe damage to his legs.

Not sure how he did it, but Sal managed to convince Travis to come home with him. Introduces Travis to Henry and leads him to the bathroom where he washed off and got treated. His damage was severe and Sal really wanted to call the police but just seeing a fearful Travis weened him off the idea.

Larry was not too pleased to find Travis at Sals. He almost yelled until he noted Travis look at his raised hand and cower from him. Larry pausing and pulls Sal to the side to understand. Of course they don’t know the full story but it’s enough to have Larry texting the group for help. Most were curious about what could lead them to wanting to help Travis. Ash, however, seemed to know a lot.

They find out about Travis’ abuse, the cult. Travis helps a little. He is still terrified of them but they start to grow on him with time. He even allows contact with Sal rarely, who shows him his face during a bonding moment at the dead of night. Larry makes playlists and CDs to help Travis get accustomed to loud noises (many of which are songs Larry personally thinks Travis would enjoy.

After the gang destroys and puts the cult behind bars. No demons, no murders, and no dead friends. Sal manages to convince Travis to report his father, thankfully they kept his clothes to give to the state police, Todd refused to trust the local police after further investigating the cult and their connections.

Healing and coping, cuddling and coddling. Travis getting the love and attention he deserves! Could end with him dating someone or him just being under their care for a while.

—Salvis but Sal is a bit more aggressive with Travis. Fuck it ABO, Travis is a very spicy omega that pretends to be a Beta. Sal is a strong scented alpha, like it’s a musky and domineering scent compared to his appearance. Larry is an alpha, though his scent is murky and smoky, and he doesn’t act like the stereotypical alpha. Travis nitpicks them like usual, though sometimes they are too distracted by the nice smell seeping off of him. Larry sneers and asks if Travis mom scented him before school. Travis is upset at this. Much more emotional than usual. Sal notes the spike in scent and jabs Larry.

Uh oh, Travis is presenting in the bathroom, and beta Philip isn’t able to fight off the alphas coming to investigate the scent, thankfully Sal is here to soothe and calm the terrified Travis while his friends help fend off the other students.

Mr. Phelps is pissed about an omega son. Travis is constantly scented with distress. He isn’t allowed to talk about it but everyone can smell it. They are well aware of Travis’ fluctuating weight, fatigue and his tan skin turning pale and bruised worse than before. Larry is annoyed by this but can’t tell whether it’s the scent affecting him or his stern belief in protecting omegas from abusive alphas.

Sal hates it, he knows he felt the mate bond but Travis doesn’t seem to notice. Travis’ suffering eats away at Sal until he all but corners Travis and propositions him to save him from his father and give him sanctuary. It takes a lot to convince Travis. Heck, he has to promise Larry wouldnt hurt him (Larry later seeks Travis to reconcile their bad blood).

They get to know eachother. Sal is head over heels and watching Travis grow and blossom into his omega blood. Travis starts falling for someone else and Sal tries to be supportive (until he can’t even look at Travis without feeling heartache). But Travis notes he doesn’t love ____ And follows his heart to Sal. They bond, they love and boom, happy little family. (With three cute babies because Travis and Sal deserve happy families)

Larvis: roughly the same as the salvos ABO but Larry straight up picks up Travis and carries him home. Travis tries to fight but is swaddled and pampered until he’s fast asleep and purring in Larry’s arms.

Mr. Phelps doesn’t have much ground to stand on when he tries to take Travis back. Larry confirming that Travis is his mate and based off of Phelps’ beliefs he should reside with his mate.

Travis is surprised his father backs off so easily (because how could the pastor refute what he preaches?? Such blasphemy would be heard by the church blah blah blah). Larry and Travis talk and Larry admits that they are indeed mates, he never brought it up for Travis’ health. He was already struggling to care for himself, a mating bond would send his already feeble body and fragile mind spiraling. Larry also admits he knew they were mates ever since he presented, which wasn’t that long after entering highschool. But, Travis was so proud to be ‘normal’ and not some horny mess like the others. He also didn’t like seeing Travis harass and bully others, which probably aided in his aggressive rejection of the omega and prolonged Travis’ presentation.

Life goes on and Larry and Travis are happily married with four kids (two more in the oven, because Larry is a very affectionate husband). Cult was handled and Sal is NOT dead and very much the worlds best uncle.

-Travis having a hot girl summer.

That’s it. That’s the plot.

Thotty church twink marching about in short shorts and tank tops (sinful!) showing off his goodies to the masses. Larry shamelessly offers to partake, and gets thrown for a whirlwind when Travis’ phat ass is delightfully uncontrollable. Sal jokingly shoots his shot and winds up slumped in the back of the church from immaculate head.

Mr. Phelps is away so the thot is out to play. (Courtesy of Mama Phelps aiding and abetting her sons growth as a person. He may be throwing it back to the boys he once sneered at but at least he’s nicer to people)

-Travis being rescued from the Phelps home after a concerned report to the state police. The church closed and his father put behind bars for many accounts of child abuse and neglect and the disappearance of Travis’ mother.

Sal and gang are curious about what the new home will do to Travis after months of rehabilitation, and all damn near faint when they see Travis with long pink hair and a cute sun dress marching into the school. Directly towards them and apologizing for his horrible treatment of them, specifically Sal. They can’t believe his change at first but after weeks of watching him, he seems genuinely happier.

This new happiness starts to get unsettling to Larry, who watches Travis and Philip be closer than before. He shouldn’t care he hates Travis! But god he wished the boy would wrap his arms around his and march down the halls. He would kill to get surprise back hugs or do the hugging. He wanted to share lunch with Travis. Be hand fed meals and have his mouth cleaned whilst being scolded.

Fuck, he’s in love! He thought he nipped that in the bud when Sal started getting bullied by Travis. But no, Travis being rescued from his awful father and being a genuinely good person from then on was astounding. Hell, he even brought Sal treats as an apology for walking in on him with his mask off once. Sal said it was fine but Travis babbled ok about feeling bad because Sal looked terrified even though Travis didn’t think Sal was any less cool. (Yes, Sal cried in his room about how much it meant for someone to say that).

For fucks sake, Travis had pictures upon pictures of his new family and their pets. PETS. He had dooogs, god Larry lost his mind seeing Travis jogging around town with dogs in shorts and a sweaty, almost see through tank top!! He’s too gay for this.

He finally confesses, maybe tries to play it off as a joke, but Travis just smiles sweetly and pecks his cheek. He’s sorry but he’s already dating someone. Larry tries not to let his disappointment show, but he just can’t feel the need to go to school for a couple of days. Hides out in his tree house and just smokes. Cause, cmon.. who’d wanna date him?? All he does is smoke and play around! He hasn’t had a stable relationship in years and most he’s known for is sleeping with whoever he deems the hottest.

Sal notices his behavior and tries to comfort him, not sure why Larry is like this, by offering to introduce him to his partner. Maybe they have a friend Larry is interested in. Larry wants to be supportive but he really doesn’t care to see Sals new beau(ty). He really just wanted to camp out in the tree house and smoke away the pain. Or, he did until he sees Travis and Sal holding hands and nuzzling on the couch one day. Sals legs on Travis’ and Travis combing Sals hair. Larry felt like his world came crashing down, his best friend?? And his first and worst crush?? The crush that sent him spiraling for what could have been weeks? Sal is innocent, he didn’t know that Larry was madly in love with Travis. Didn’t know that Travis so politely rejected him and offered to cease contact if Larry felt he couldn’t be around him.

Larry wasn’t much of a romantic after that. He played around with whoever he felt needed love. His partying spiraling out of control in adult hood. Travis tried to contact him and help him find a good person, but any attempts to help Larry ended with Larry crying to him drunkenly. Asking why he wasn’t good enough, why he couldn’t have been Sal. Travis wasn’t allowed near Larry after Larry drunkenly made advances at him, he doesn’t blame Larry he’s extremely emotional, but Sal felt Larry would only get worse the more they stayed in contact, so they were kept apart.

Larry never loved anyone as much as he loved Travis Fisher.

-Last one was a sadder Onesided Larvis, this one is Larry teasing and cornering Travis so much that Travis tries to shock him by kissing him. He came home with some hickies and a very prominent limp.

They’re not saying, yet, but Wingman Sal is politely judging Travis into Larry’s arms. They are constantly alone together. Larry blowing Travis’ back out in an abandoned amusement park when the others split up to explore. “He sprained his ankle running from a shadow” Hmph, Travis smelt like axe. He HATES the smell of axe… but okay lovebirds.

Sal has 100% walked in on the secret lovers getting frisky when moms out. Later helps Travis shop for more pretty clothes, because who wouldn’t want a shopping body??? That’s almost illegal to not take the opportunity.

Larry eats ass. A lot. Travis can literally be on FaceTime shopping with Sal and Larry just slips under the covers and enjoys his fill of boyfriend cheekies~ yum!

Travis, as revenge, will give the gawk gawk 9000. Larry is NOT safe if he thinks Travis has forgotten the embarrassment of Sal chuckling and telling him he has to go walk his homework. He could be on the phone with his boss or Lisa and Travis will give the sloppiest top he’s ever had. (Praise the son for horni bratty bottoms)

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This is Riley’s gf Jules (technically Julia, but they hate whenever anyone calls em that) Look at the readmore if ya want more info on em

First off here’s her lineart (unfortunately I painted over it before I had the scanner, so I only have this lower quality pic of em, but oh WELL) So YA this is Jules and she’s fuckin great. Her and Riley originally met during their freshman year of high school, it was a performin and visual arts school that was p hard to get into. Riley got in for visual arts, and Jules was in for music (she plays the bass.) But do to a combination of slipping grades and getting into a very serious fight on school grounds near the end of the second semester she got kicked out right after her freshman year. After this point Riley and her sort of lost contact, they were only somewhat friends to begin with, due to being in different clusters and only having one or two classes together, so there wasn’t a strong connection to warrant it. At her new school, shit got p tough, it wasn’t in the best neighborhood and was definitely overcrowded and underfunded. Not the best circles of people attended the place, lots of unsavory types. And this required Jules to have to adapt fast, she soon became known as a bully type, people won’t fuck with you if they’re scared of you. This also sort of made her a recluse and close themselves off from others, throughout her time there she didn’t really make any sort of friends. Riley had their own sorts of problems throughout this time, struggling hard with depression, but they had some great friends to help them get through it! They even got together with their best friend (who shall remain unnamed) the summer after junior year. Unfortunately due to a series of problems they ended up getting kicked out of their school after junior year as well. And as terrible as this was, there was some good in it, as luck would have it Riley ended up going to the same home school as Jules. Which flew in the face of their expectations (they went into it with the mindset of not really getting to know anyone or making any friends since they would only be there for a year.) For Jules, this was something they never expected, someone they knew that they didn’t expect to see again and was also not a complete asshole! And given that they now had most of their classes together it only prompted more of a chance to bond in a place that would be miserable if it weren’t for one another. They helped eachother get through the year, and with eachothers help were able to make it out the other side in one piece. Though through all of this they were strictly friends. At least until a year after graduation when Riley and their datefriend broke up (It’s complicated.) Jules soothed and helped take of Riley all throughout this fallout that was particularly hard on em given the circumstances. But overtime they healed, maybe not completely, but they got through it. Jules had already been crushing pretty hard on Riley during their second semester of senior year but didn’t say anything due to them already being in a relationship (unbeknownst to them Riley and their ex were poly, so it wouldn’t have actually been a problem..) But even now the timing wasn’t right and she didn’t feel comfortable with asking them out with how much they had been hurting from their previous relationship. About a year and a half later it dawned upon Riley during a seemingly random time that they might harbor some feelings for Jules. They wrestled with it for a few months, and even though they still harbored strong feelings for their ex they ultimately resolved to confess to Jules, who for her part was so shocked and flabbergasted she became a embarrassed blushing mess, she did manage to admit her feelings in the end though. And they’ve been together ever since (Which I think would be around 4 years now?? something like that.) WOW that was way longer than I meant it to be, I’m really good at rambling. But to make it even longer I’ll go into some of her basic personality traits. She is generally very aggressive and standoffish to most people, though with Riley’s help it’s become more closed off/defensive and snarky instead. She plays the bass guitar and is p damn good at it! She even started a band! For music she mostly listens to punk, metal, and garage rock; but generally will listen to anything that goes hard as fuck. Though she will also listen to things that are somber or depressive. She isn’t a fan of country, folk, blues, r&b, ska, or generally any genre that doesn’t have a strong edge to it (She doesn’t understand how Riley doesn’t go crazy when they listen to those sort of things.) She’s p fuckin tall at 6′2″ tho that does make her slightly shorter than Riley who’s 6′4″ (except in certain kinky situations where certain changes are made >////>)  She’s also strong as SHIT, don’t get in her way cause she will fuck you up. She’s pretty into UFC and practices mixed martial arts herself. Despite her outward appearance and general roughness deep down she’s actually very sweet and p motherly (though this is usually a side that only Riley gets to see) She’s very avid about the things she deems important and cares about, and will get HIGHLY aggressive with anyone that comes into conflict with those things. Plays vidya and gets highly competitive with them as well (much to the bafflement of Riley) For movies she is usually into anything with a lot of action, also has a thing for horror movies and grindhouse stuff, finds gonzo stuff fun. Will sleep through documentaries. But Riley has slowly been warming them up to more thoughtful, slow, and philosophical films. Will eat literally anything and everything, and will eat a LOT of it. Just a garbage disposal given bipedal form. Loves being gross and rowdy just to see the reactions it gets out of people Highly values genuineness and authenticity and is instantly turned off by anyone she views as being fake or hiding something. Stupidly madly in love with Riley and she can’t get over it. For orientation they’re p much the same as Riley, basically just gender abolitionist, but if you had to assign labels to em they’re agender and bi/pan. Also poly. For pronouns they usually go by she/her but are also cool with they/them.

[xxkirbyloverxx]

Anyone any tips on helping someone with paranoia and psychosis?

so my housemate has full blown psychosis, it has been building up for months if not years, he’s not getting any help. today i (i feel really bad abt this) made him go to the crisis centre (he’s been there a few times before though) bc it was the last resort after sitting in the hallway all afternoon and evening bc that was the only safe spot and we would get shot if we stayed near any windows. Atm I’m locked in the house, he took all the important keys we only have 1 of (not my keys, i wouldn’t be ok with that in any way and i’m actually not ok with this too bc of my own mental health but he only told my boyfriend, probably bc i was being such a stubborn little shit). We got some anti psychotics (he said he took them but he lied to the psych abt it so i don’t know for sure if he also lied to me abt taking them) He’s been trying to get help for over 2 years now and lately i’ve been trying to help him get help but it’s literally going nowhere, today at the crisis centre they told him they are gonna refer him to the exact same place where they send him away a few weeks ago without any help. After we got home I stood in front of the door for abt an hour, not letting him go outside which i also feel pretty bad abt, he said he needed to go outside bc he needed to give someone a lot of money, i at first was like, okay, i’m gonna go with u but his girlfriend was totally not ok with him going outside and my boyfriend wasn’t either so i thought their judgement in this instance was probs better than mine, he got aggressive but didn’t really hurt me, he doesn’t have a bad bone in him but at one point i was afraid he was gonna stab me with his keys and i called the crisis centre again and they told me they couldn’t do anything till he got arrested and i should let him make mistakes and it wasn’t my responsibility which is true but like, he’s my friend and i love him and i don’t want any of this to happen to him. I cried a lot and eventually told him i was gonna go to bed and i was here if he needed my help and we told each other we’re sorry and hugged. He’s now in bed with his girlfriend and i really hope he will get some sleep, he said this was the last time they would be able to cuddle...

I’m looking for ways to soothe his paranoia, i’m being supportive and mainly listening, telling him i defs believe him but my reality is different and trying to make him remember the times he realised the things he hears aren’t a threat to him or us. like, when he thinks his girlfriend got killed i say, hey, maybe call her and check in with her? and offer him my phone to call her. I make him tea a lot, chamomile, mint, a whole lot of herbs i know soothe my anxiety and we smoke cigs and talk abt stuff, i’m really open abt how i feel and the things i struggle with mentally (i have borderline with mild paranoid episodes when i’m stressed, agoraphobia, social anxiety and panic attacks so we can kinda relate to eachother on some points, also we both have a dead parent so we talk abt that). i’m defs not restricting his freedom in any way anymore, i’m just gonna say i’m here if he needs help. Like, i think i know how to help when he’s not feeling too bad but when he can’t really tell himself the voices aren’t really a threat i don’t know what to do...

Does anyone have any other tips? like from personal experience? things that help you? I read everything i could find abt this but if u have any good articles or whatever, please send them to me :)