#these tags awakened something in me ok i am unleashing some shit i was not aware of from deep in my mind

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gu.ys

HAUFUHFHFHH I HAVENT SEEN HIS DEPARTURE TO MAKAI IN AGES AND I REWATCHED IT BC OF THIS AND IVE JUST BEEN GOING THRU IT SCREAMING AND CLUTCHING MY PILLOW IM LOSING IT IM LOSING IT IM LOSING IT IM LOSING IT IM LOSING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

QHAT DO YOU MEAN HE TRAILS OFF AGAIN THIS IS THE THIRD TIME THE DUB'S DONE THAT WHAT THE FUCKKK WHY DPESNT HE EVER SAY IT IM FUCKING BEATING HIM TP DEATH AND KISSING HIM BACK TO LIFE IM SO SICK OF HIS BULLSHIT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ ERAGAGGAGAREAAAAAAAAHHHHHJ

hnnghnggghh ok doing analysis for a moment YEAH kuwabara's love (in any sense) for yusuke is the one thing that seems to win out over his stubborn honor. like the fact that yusuke's kind of a bad influence on him and that it's one-sided is crazy to me like that's the shit that makes me wanna rip my skin off wdym he's a corrupting force to kuwa but kuwa's a good influence on yusuke wdym wdym AND YET i need them to be together. god im so obsessed rn but they NEED to get together im losing my shit. the way yusuke (dub) says his name when kuwa trails off in his "you and i'll always be..." IT'S NOT EVEN SAD IT'S ANTICIPATORY.? AND KIND OF ANXIOUS. WHAT DID YOU WANT HIM TO SAY YUSUKE. WHAT DID YOU THINK HE MIGHT SAY GGNFNSHSHSHGGTJJHJJGNNGH GAAHHHHHHHHH houghhh he just wants confirmation that he's loved that he matters and kuwabara needs it too that's why he brightens up as soon as yusuke shows interest in his academics when he says he's coming back. he's not being abandoned and that reassurance helps bring him out of the furious spiral he was in and can we talk about that?? he called genkai old lady. he insulted demonkind and said hiei kurama and yusuke weren't his friends after all. he was tearing them apart and lashing out at Everyone im losing my shit he was dying. he was dying out there. and yusuke saying hey im coming back keep doing your thing and i'll find you again, something THAT simple, a promise he doesn't even know he can keep (that kuwabara knows he doesn't know he can keep) is enough to turn all that around oauugjhhh what else was i gonna say

HGUH OH YEAH the fact that he trailed off again when trying to tell yusuke what he means to him. GUH. GHGGHJHJNNGHH. i think you've seen that post i made about him trailing off during the dr ichigaki fight and ep89 ("for me, you're... well, you're my...") but i didn't remember that it happened here too im so fucking SICK. houghhh just tell him he's your best friend tell him you're in love with him whatever idc just say it gayboy im fucking on my way to your location kuwabara im on my way

OH and the way (dub) yusuke says 1) the first thing he's gonna do when he comes back is check if kuwa got into college and 2) he's gonna miss kuwa's weakass punches the most. the most and the first huh. what if i fucking turned into a whale jesus fucking christ did he say that bc he knew prioritizing kuwa would comfort him or bc he's genuinely putting him first im killing them both im ripping them apart im bringing them drinks and pastries with a smile at a little cafe im killing them again I HATE THEM. GODDDD

EDIT IM NOT DONE I HAD MORE UMM KUWA ONLY EVER DOES THE TRAILING OFF THING WHEN HE THINKS HE'S ABOUT TO DIE OR YUSUKE'S ABOUT TO DIE IT'S ABOUT TELLING YUSUKE HOW HE FEELS BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE BC HE KNOWS HOW THAT FEELS (wake scene wake scene wake s) SO HERE IT'S A just in case you don't come back + to make sure you know i still care about you so so much after that big fight THING AND I JUDT..GRRHRHRAAUGHHH is it bc he doesn't think he'll Really come back is it bc he's scared he'll die (<- my theory) is it bc UGH WHATEVER BUT HE STILL CAN'T GET THE DAMN WORDS OUT. AFTER ALL THIS TIME. DDDHDHDHEGERRRGGRGRGGG IM SO FUCKGJN

this could be kuwameshi if you guys would like. take my hand and trust me