#these still aren't even close to the weirdest ones though lol

[animeomegas]

Thinking about that extremely harrowing dream I had about Neji again today.

In the dream, we were dropping our daughter off at school. I had just lost my job and we were in financial trouble. Neji said that we would make it work, that he would look for work too, to double our chances.

But I felt so unbelievably guilty, because I had promised when we got married that I would support him staying at home. He kept telling me that we were a team, that we would figure it out together, but I felt sick. How could I have done this to my family? Failed in such a way? How was I going to provide for my daughter? Would Neji resent me if he had to find work if I couldn't?

And like... I'm not married? I don't have kids? I don't even have a job, I live with my mum still. Why is my brain torturing me with anxieties that I don't even have?

At least I got to see pretty Neji in my dreams, as disconcerting as it was 😭

[like-sands-of-time]

this is making me cry omg.. ive known im weird for a long time *cue emotional back story* but I came across the word 'asexual' a few months ago and.. honestly it was the weirdest and most like sigh-of-relief worthy experience ever reading through various blog or posts about different people's realisations and coming outs and stuff.

even though I related to p much all of the various things people said were how they themselves realized they were ace, and even though I talked with my own mum about what it's like to be a normal sexual being I'm still filled with so much like insecurity and "well maybe I'm not? maybe I just haven't found someone? maybe I'd feel attracted to the right person?" all the time but it's just never happened.. and I'm sorta well past the age where I should begin to feel that feeling when I see someone attractive.

I've had crushes, which was why I didn't think I could be ace just like you mentioned the other kids saying. its so easy for me to sit back and talk about sexuality being this fluid sort of concept and that's why gay/bi/pan isn't really weird historically or anything but I'm so confused about what the lines are with ace/aro. it feels like it's this strict box and like something's wrong with you.

I've wanted a relationship for a long time but not like everyone else it seems which is why I like stopped trying to crush on ppl a couple years ago.. i was tired of miscommunication and hormones and drama lol.

I don't mind the gender of my partner but I like the non-physical aspects of relationship more. the domestic day to day stuff, cuddling, sharing clothes, being able to truly enjoy each others company you know? I just worry that I'd just be leading someone on.. or like what if after being with someone awhile, having that close emotional connection like I've always craved I still don't feel the want or desire to have more? I never have before. I've never even had the overwhelming urge to kiss someone for crying out loud. what if they say they're ok with it and actually aren't? Idk that an open relationship is necessarily what I'm comfortable with but how often does one find a partner like yours?

basically thank you for your post it was really positive and gives me hope that my romantic heart might have luck in this world 🙈

Ace Week: Relationships

I’m just going to jump right in today.

Back in my high school’s GSA, lots of younger kids always asked me lots of questions about being ace. I always did my best to answer them. Our leader always told me how important it was that I was there and willing to help them.

One day, I offhandedly mentioned my boyfriend, and somebody raised their hand.

“If you’re asexual, how can you have a boyfriend?”

I’ve been with the same boy for 4 ½ years. I knew I was ace going into the relationship, but I realized I had neglected to come out to him. I figured I’d better get that out of the way as soon as possible. After all, I didn’t want him to expect anything of me, if you get my drift. I’ll admit, I was nervous. He and I had been friends already, and I knew he was pretty sexual. I didn’t want to ruin anything with a breakup, especially that early in a relationship.

Needless to say, he was happy I told him, and everything worked out. I guess I’m lucky.

Navigating a long-term relationship while asexual has been interesting. For us, communication is key. If we want something, we say it. If we want to stop, we say it. We’ve got code words for all sorts of stuff. It’s like we’re secret agents. Lots of fun!

I was always told that he’s going to lose interest in me if I don’t “put out” enough. I had that internalized for a while, and was super insecure. Sexuality is a part of him, much how asexuality is a part of me. I didn’t want him to have to hold that back for my sake. I won’t go into details, but everything’s fine.

The big thing I told the others, though, is that there’s more to a romantic relationship than attraction. There’s trust. Listening. Sharing. Communication.

My boyfriend and I may not be in a sexual relationship, but we’re in a loving one. We tell each other about our days. We share our dreams. We tell bad jokes and play video games. We take naps together. We make pizza. And we never pressure each other into something uncomfortable. Are we the perfect model of a relationship? Of course not. But we try our hardest, and it all works out.

And that’s the story of how I made a room of junior high kids cry.