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[targaryenrealnessdarling]

Final Review for Consequences

Me after reading Chapters 5 and 6 + epilouge :

Chapter 5 : " She prayed to the Gods, namely the Mother and the Crone. For equally important things. To keep her loved ones safe, even if it meant that she was put into danger. To the Crone, for guidance. Although she did not know yet what exactly for."

After reading the ending of the series, I can't help but look back on this and kinda ponder to myself - what if her prayers were answered? Only that it came with a price and that price was her own sacrifice, since it is implied (at least from my read) in the end of the chapter on how she heard a voice and that it could very well be The Mother welcoming her in after she succumbed to her injuries. Fair to point out that we don't actually know what happens to her siblings after her passing, so it can only really be assumed on what comes of this "prayer".

The final smut scene is just as hard to get through as the other ones (granted in different context the roughness might have been appreciated differently) however -

“You won’t leave me now, will you? Sweet girl…”

- I don't know how to properly express my thoughts so bare with me here - this scene alone is a very tell tale sign of when an abuser feels they are losing control of their victim so they do all they can to put that person down to prevent them from leaving them since they start to believe that this is all they deserve after such a long time of abuse.

It can be seen with how he seems most talkative than usual, saying degrading or objectifying things to her. His actions are careless, rough, and over powering with how he smacks her, to how he moves her to whatever postion he wants her to be in with ease, from how he moves from using different parts of her body for his own pleasure. Considering how aemond is in a moment of stress in his life (stress that will only grow from here on out) he feels scared, weak and with war looming over him, he could easily lose it all if not careful. But he can't control what he loses, but he can control her. So he can't lose her and so he breaks her further through their interactions to ensure she can't go away. Hence why his words could very well be a desperate power attempt from his part to ensure she goes nowhere. It's desperate but it's also a command.

 "Just the other night, Alanna had furrowed her brows and mentioned that she had not borrowed her red petticoat for a while and asked if she was feeling okay."

Okay, honestly, everyone needs an Alanna in their life. She is a girl's girl, same with Hedi. These two are the only ones willing to do what it takes to ensure the Mc's best interest (and had they been let into what was going on, I'm sure they would have found ways to help her too). We stan Alanna and Hedi in this household.

 " She felt the pain in her womb, the little dragon inside aching to grow, she had felt their flames lick at her spine."

I wish to overanalyze the use of "little dragon" when talking about the growing life in her belly. I want to say it is very fitting and the fact that she hardly ever calls it a child or let alone her child. The monsterfication of the babe only adds to the horror of her situation, adds to the fact that the life inside of her wasn't created out of love but out of a dragon's wrath. A monster. In a sense, it allows for the Mc and perhaps even the reader to be unable to sympathize for ultimately having to get rid of it. It isn't something joyful, it isn't a tender motherly moment. She more or less sees it as a parasite that came from him now attached into her very person. So calling it an endearing name isn't required. It's not a part of her, it's a part of HIM. Hence , "little dragon" always being the descriptor when talking about the babe.

Okay the part where aemond more or less has to clarify to himself that he is no longer a boy but a man and therefore must do as men do and take what he wants in a way that is only natural for a MAN to do, further proves my belief that this man genuinely wants comfort in his life. He wants it so bad he has to try and convince himself that he actually doesn't because only a little boy would want that and being a little boy means he is weak and the last thing he wants is to feel like that again. So he does what he thinks is the next best thing and instead of being tender in a way he seems to almost crave, he only takes and takes and takes because that is what he has grown to believe is the way of "men".

He's obviously the epitome of the anti christ in this story but I just love how it isn't just "Oh he just wants to do." Or " he treats her like this cause he's just a bad person". He could very easily be written one dimensional when it comes to his needs and actions but the extra context, the peak behind the curtain, only further enriches a character that otherwise could so easily just be made into a cartoonish creation of what "evil" is.

Chapter 6: No words. This is me rn

 "If he had to be the villain, then fine, he would have to act like it."

I feel like this line just pushes forward just how DELUSIONAL and DUMB this man is. Aemond is the type to pride himself into being the smartest man in the room and then be the most oblivious man to walk the gods green earth.

No, no, let's talk about it! In the first chapter, he straight up tells her that he is going to climax inside of her and then mf ends up getting mad THAT SHE IS PREGNANT. Mf didn't even bother trying to offer or demand she take Moon tea, as far as he knew, she probably didn't even know what it was since she doesn't revolve her life in a way that would mean she would even need to associate with it until he started his messed up dynamic with her. She even mentions how he hasn't offered having some for her. And even now he's like "mhph, if no one likes me than I'll give them a reason not to *emo hair whip*" like BRO-

I can't with this man - lethal injection!

" But the thought of her bleeding now, as a result of whatever horrors had occurred. It was wrong. It felt wrong. "

Once more, a peak behind the curtain of what HE ACTUALLY feels. It might not be love, but his feelings for her are definitely a lot more tender than he allows himself to feel. Which just makes this more frustrating.

To cut it short- her death scene, the discovery of her body- I am at your door, please open up I just want to talk -

Overall, the ending hurt. Him hearing her voice as the ghost of the past now forever will haunt him. (I still prefer the lethal injection option)

This was an amazing read, thank you sm for writing it, I loved every angsty second of it. You have such an amazing talent with descriptive imagery, your words are poetic in nature and every chapter was sweet agonizing bliss. I can't wait to read more of your works and please never stop sharing your amazing writing. I apologize for how long these asks have been and I hope to return in the future for another review of another story I come across. I hope you are having a lovely day/night and take care, love 🫶🏻

sorry it's taken me SO long to get to this, life you know 😭

this scene alone is a very tell tale sign of when an abuser feels they are losing control of their victim so they do all they can to put that person down to prevent them from leaving them since they start to believe that this is all they deserve after such a long time of abuse.

YES 👏👏👏 man is losing it well and truly, he was bound to snap at any point

She more or less sees it as a parasite that came from him now attached into her very person. So calling it an endearing name isn't required.

Yeah...I totally meant to do that 👀 lol I didn't even think of that??? i adore the way your brain works bby 😘

To cut it short- her death scene, the discovery of her body- I am at your door, please open up I just want to talk -

BABE

PLEASE THIS HAS ME BLUSHING KICKING MY FEET AND EVERYTHING 😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰 THANK YOU FOR YOUR INDEPTH ANALYSIS AND FOR SENDING THIS IN I GIVE YOU LOTS OF SMOOCHES

thank you sooooo much for reading lovely 🤭 ilysmmmmmmm <3 xxx hope you're having a wonderful day 😘