#these are only part one!! gonna do another part w some time skip lovin

[annhellsing]

--  ignatz victor ft. getting loved with a love that is more than love  ❀

* read this and then send me stuff!!  ↳  gender neutral reader.

♡  he thought, for a while, that he could just change himself if he couldn’t be accepted for who he really was. finding different people to love him wasn’t an option

♡  ignatz had a plan for his life, one that would allow him to see beautiful places, even if he couldn’t paint them and be recognized for it

♡  he was scared to let people know that he cared for art more than battle, he was so ready to lock that part of himself away and to only think of it occassionally

♡  that was satisfaction, he told himself. that was how adults survived and he wasn’t a child any longer

♡  he recognized you without meaning to on the first day of classes. you threw your head back and laughed at something claude said in the golden deer classroom. all at once, ignatz knew your face

♡  he knew the curve of that beautiful smile, the way your eyes sparkled when you glanced at him of all people over claude’s shoulder. he’d seen it before, over and over again in the artist district of his home city

♡  ignatz found out later that your father was an artist, he used you as a model sometimes and made prints of your portrait to sell. he was absolutely amazed by this

♡  and you knew right away that he was an artist, too. you picked up his hand a week into classes and asked what he was painting, he had colourful stains on his fingers that wouldn’t wash out

♡  but when he recoiled and said it was really nothing, you let him be. you didn’t press, didn’t push to see parts of him he wasn’t comfortable with showing. you waited until he was ready

♡  it took some time, but eventually he came to you and asked if you could look at a sketch he’d done. he was proud of it, you could tell but he handed over his sketchbook like it was nothing

♡  he showed you a beautiful sketch of the statue of saint cethleann. his heart melted when you smiled and said it was simply breathtaking. you knew how much time he must’ve put into studying life drawings and anatomy

♡  you asked if you could turn the page, he hesitated but then said yes. and you were allowed to see dozens and dozes of little watercolours and sketches of the monastery grounds and your classmates

♡  you beamed at him and asked why he hadn’t drawn you, not even once. ignatz stuttered and pushed his glasses up his nose, he said he didn’t know why

♡  and you tilted your head, asked if he might draw you some time. it would be nice to sit for a sketch again, and you could send it to your father at his studio, see if he had room for another apprentice--

♡  ignatz couldn’t bring himself to decline right away. he wanted so badly for that to be his life once he was finished at the academy that he nodded, and spent the dwindling evening in your room sketching the lines of your beautiful face

♡  he couldn’t bring himself to destroy that dream until the next day. he spent all night hugging his pillow and thinking about how nice it would be to work side by side with you in your father’s studio

♡  you took the sketch from him when it was done after class. and when he told you not to send it to your father, you nodded and said you understood. that it was sad to see such talent go to waste, but you respected his decision to become a knight

♡  of course, he found out much later that you sent the drawing anyway. and when you showed him the glowing praise your father, a real, paid artist had for it, ignatz turned beet red

♡  you explained that there was no pressure to abandon knighthood, but that you only needed him to know that he had incredible artistic talent. you apologized and begged his forgiveness, which he gave with a slight crack in his voice

♡  you started sitting with him at meals after that, asking for peeks in his sketchbook every so often. and he let you, because the joy on your face made his chest feel tight. you made his cheeks feel warm

♡  he started waiting to walk back to the dorms with you. and when you asked to hold his hand, he bashfully agreed

♡  ignatz was bashful by nature, but you seemed entirely unfazed as you politely asked time and time again to do things that would bring you closer to him. he wondered if that was what love was like, the appreciation for another person’s preferred pace

♡  you took it upon yourself to be the forward one, true, but you were never offended when he wasn’t ready for something. and you agreed to define the relationship for him early on so that he wouldn’t be confused

♡  he wanted to know if he mattered to you. no, he needed to know he meant something. he’d never felt like much to anyone before, and the thought that someone as kind and special as you had chosen him? unfathomable, but he supposed he’d have to learn to fathom it

♡  you passed him little notes in class, often with a mess of heart doodles around whatever you’d written. oftentimes, you asked him to meet you somewhere once class was done. other times, it would be compliments to help boost his confidence

♡  he began showing the professor his drawings, and he showed them to the peers that took interest. lorenz in particular was a source of great inspiration for him, though you disagreed that ignatz simply had to become a knight

♡  still, you respected that he wanted that in some way. his duty to his family was admirable, but you often reminded him that he had a duty to his own happiness

♡  no one had ever told him that before. you held him in his room when he hugged you tight enough to bruise. you played with his hair while he did his best not to cry

♡  he pushed through life under the assumption that he would never be able to follow his heart. but you more than anyone challenged that idea. you asked him why he needed to give up part of himself to be happy. you made him realize he had no answer

[muwur]

long distance headcanons

✧ hc’s ✧ for daichi, suga, hinata & tsukki

❧ gn reader

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a/n: hello yall this is my first post! nobody asked, but i just started this haikyuu reader insert blog, feel free to check my page n see wazzap. also requests are open pls come fhorfjepfiwf;

daichi

✧ after high school, he stayed in miyagi while you went to tokyo, about 5 hours away, for college

✧ texting or calling whenever u can!

✧ you be like “heyyy”

✧ then he clap back with a “go focus on your lecture”

✧ “im not in lectureee”

✧ “you gave me your schedule so i know you’re in the middle of class”

✧ “...”

✧ makes sure you’re awake on time for your classes and calls you if he thinks you’re oversleeping (and hes usually right, this man just KNOWS)

✧ “morning y/n, i think you need to get to class soon”

✧ “mmrghhhghhh” *checks time* “holy sHI-- i forgot to set my alarm. IMMA BE LATE. THANKS DAICHI I LOVE YOU ILL TALK TO YOU LATER BYE”

✧ definitely skips out on some nights out with his friends to video chat you. you catch up, talk about future plans, reminisce, complain about not being able to hug one another, etc. occasionally one of you falls asleep on call, particularly after a long day or week. if he sleeps, you make sure you screenshot his sleeping face and start a picture collection  

✧ you hit him up when you get drunk lMAO

✧ “daiichiii, i miss youuu, i needdd youuuu AND i needa peeee---” “hey daichi, this is y/n’s friend. y/n’s pretty out of it now but they’ll be okay! we’re heading back to our place right now” “im gonna pEE IN THIS CAR”

✧ daichi coordinates with your friends to make sure you arrive home safely, use the bathroom, and get tucked into bed. he thanks the universe you have good friends. if it weren’t for them he’d probs have a heart attacc. sends you cute, reassuring voice messages for you to wake up to the next morning with hangover tips he learned from suga

✧ always checks in with you throughout the day, every day. able to pick up on the slightest hints if you’re feeling unwell and calls you immediately to try to make you feel better

✧ makes plans to visit you! you get really excited to introduce him to your college friends (who, after meeting him, tell you not only is he a hottie but is such a kind guy, fosho a keeper. they also ask if he has any cute friends)

✧ either holding your hand or has an arm around you most of the time.

✧ you spend all day together outside and wandering the city, then spend the night back at your place (sorry roommate, but we’re gonna have to kick you out for a lil bit--)    

sugawara

✧ you finally secured a job! unfortunately, the company required you to work for a year at their main facility, which was a 4 hour drive away from miyagi

✧ if suga wasn’t needed in miyagi for his teaching job, he would’ve tried to come with you

✧ after unloading your things in your new apartment and before parting ways, suga was like

✧ “everything’s unloaded everything from the car?”

✧ “yes maam”

✧ “do you have enough snacks?”

✧ “we just went to the grocery hun”

✧ “did you bring enough underwear?”

✧ “gDI yEs I dID”

✧ “:c promise to call me often”

✧ “<3333 of course”</p>

✧ good morning texts before y’all leave for work! you send each other cute pictures when you’re getting ready for the day (suga with bedhead, brushing his teeth? suga with his tie half done?? sign me up)

✧ always texts you when something reminds him of you, usually sends a picture along with it

✧ “the store was having a special on oranges today! this one reminds me of you”

✧ “why”

✧ “it just looks so cute~”

✧ will immediately call you if you send him any sort of message that worries him

-“hello? y/n what’s wrong, why is there blood?? speak to me, you haven’t replied in 5 minutes”

✧ “ohhh my bad, i’m just cleaning up don’t worry! i didn’t explain, but the picture i sent you isn’t blood, it’s ketchup i spilled on myself lolol”

✧ poor man nearly fainted from worry

✧ would pay you a surprise visit, making sure to plan it carefully so he knew you weren’t busy with work or plans. brings you gifts of your favorite snacks and a scarf that matches one of his own for the upcoming winter

✧ plans out that weekend for y’all, mans did his research beforehand. together, you toured the city and the surrounding nature, took lots of selfies (and many candids of you), and taste tested lots of foods before returning to your apartment and collapsing into your bed with exhaustion

✧ but y’all not too tired for cuddling n a lil something else >.>

hinata

✧ sure, being a couple hours away was hard for some... but y’all in different countries right now

✧ calls you immediately when there’s any inconvenience that occurs in his life, no matter how minor, thinking you’ll know how to fix it (or at least give him the reassurance he needs)

✧ “hey y/n...”

✧ “what’s wrong? you sound worried”

✧ “i broke my bike, what do i do”

✧ “you what? are you alright?? how? where are you? it’s midnight there, honey”

✧ “i was biking back to my apartment after staying late to practice! i didn’t wanna hit this turtle, so i swerved into a pole and now my bike’s wrecked :**”

✧ “ahh, are you okay?? you’re not hurt are you :(”

✧ “no, im okay... but im tired and i have two miles to go ;(((”

✧ “;( im sorry babe but you gotta walk home. we’ll get you a new bike. ill stay on the phone with you until you get back. tell me about your day <3″</p>

✧ talks about you all the time to his friends! introduces you through video chat to them! “look how pretty and cute y/n is!”

✧ together you work out your time differences and busy schedules so you can chat whenever possible

✧ he lets you know whenever he bought something for you, but never shows it to you because he’s excited to see your reaction in person when you reunite

✧ always asks you to send him pictures of yourself, he wants to see what you look like everyday he’s missing you in real life

✧ you surprise visit HIM. he’s so happy he could cry. shows you around every place he loves, shows you off to everyone he knows, holds your hand the entire time and never wants to let go, is practically glued to you not that you mind  

✧ you spend your last night together lying in the grass, hand in hand, looking at the stars and sharing sweet kisses  

tsukishima

✧ y’all went to separate universities. while he stayed relatively close to miyagi, you went across the country to okinawa, which was about a 3 hour flight away

✧ he sees all the couples around campus n becomes lowkey bitter, texts you immediately about gross pda like hand holding that he secretly wishes he could do with you “these people in relationships are too happy, i didn’t ask to see them gawk at each other all day” “u just miss me lmao”

✧ once overheard a convo on a shuttle at school that went like :

✧ person 1: “ugh, he’s so cute”

✧ person 2: “why dont you go out with him??”

✧ person 1: “i dunno, his dorm’s down the street, i can’t really do long distance”

✧ nANI (by the way, this is a irl conversation my friend overheard, oml)

✧ tsukki nearly choked on his morning coffee

✧ bothers texts you in class bc he’s bored and in need of your attention

✧ “hey tsukki this prof’s lectures are rlly dense, i needa focus, ill text u after”

✧ “but arent i more interesting than rocks”

✧ “trust me, id even rather watch some dino documentaries with you than be here”

✧ *read*

✧ likes to chat with you most nights as he lies in bed before going to sleep, staring up at the dark ceiling and listening to your voice through his headphones. usually just talking about how your days went (as if you weren’t texting all day) or just casual talk and banter

✧ you remind him to make sure he’s taking care of himself and eating well

✧ “who are you? my mother?”

✧ “no but you’re about to be single”

✧ surprise visits you, tells you it was yamaguchi’s idea when it was really his own and yamaguchi was just teasing him about it  

✧ you show him around the city, sharing what you know about its rich history and culture. you visit most areas you both wanted to see before calling it a day

✧ your roommate conveniently spends that night over at their friend’s they just wanna give you alone time, which y’all very much needed. you make it a note to repay your roommate somehow.

✧ sweet lovin that he’s been missing, then some spooning as you sleep    

a/n: just wanna tackle these about 4 characters at a time but if u wanna see this headcanon w/ other characters feel free to hmu w/ an ask <3<b> also sorry if i text type a lot and that im inconsistent with my apostrophes, let me know if that’s something you want me to fix!