#theriantrophe

[radiotrophicfungi]

BLINKIE REQUEST #7 . . . OTHERKIN!

Requested by this lovely anon!

[lady-lycany]

Aight, this post is gonna be longer again, so grab your popcorn🍿 lol. Maybe you can relate or had similar experiences. I would love to know, dear fellow therians and otherkin... Did you ever open up about your animal side(s) and if so, to whom? And what is the most "animal" thing you ever did with someone?

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Sometimes, I still think about the time, where my animalside and my human side finally found together. I mean, I always pretended to be an animal, no matter what age, but the werewolf thing completley broke out around the time we moved, so back in 2012. And it's so sad to me, how I spend the last years of my life, trying to get rid of it (well, I obviously failed), cuz my last friends I opened up about it, told me that it's childish behavior and weird. And since I didn't know anything about the Otherkin/Theriantroph community, I believed their words and stopped mentioning or showing it to them. But the last years really showed me, that it has nothing to do with "being childish" or just "pretending".

Sure, the more you focus on it, the more symptoms you'll notice. But it never really left me, ever. Back then, in our old apartment, we had heaters that had the hight of my knees and I remember, how often I placed my hands on it just to feel both of my "paws" touching the "ground". Walking back and fourth, keepin one front paw up in the air, staring at the moon, smelling the breeze of the night.... Playing with Mia in canine body language, having the urge to go to the forest in the middle of the night, ect. I could list up so many more things. It wasn't a priority in my life anymore, but something was clearly missing.

My ex bestie didn't noticed much about that side of me, simply cuz I knew that she wouldn't understand it. I tried it once in the beginning of our friendship, where I took her to the forest and was like "cmon let's pretend we're were-animals in an enchanted forest" but I noticed quick that she didn't really get along with that stuff so I gave up, also, my first best friend (my ex bestie is the second one), I had after we moved here, was the one who told me that it's childish and that was the reason of why I ended the friendship with her. After all the trust, where I opened up about it, I felt so misunderstood. And don't get me wrong, I'm hurt, that she called it just childish behavior, but then again, I can thank no one more on this planet for special memories, than her.

In my worst lifetime, she gave me memories, that I'll never ever will forget. And that became more important to me than her misunderstanding. (we didn't really see each other for 6 years, but now she's a friend of mine again) She might didn't understand me, but she always did therian things with me, cuz she knew how important it was to me. I was able to be open about my invisible ears and tail, we howled our souls out on the top of a mountain, had funfights in the snow, ran through the forest at night with celtic music blasting through a tiny music box, scaring away the crows, running on the top of the hill on all fours through the grass without shoes in a blood moon night..... I think y'all can imagine, what a big treasure these memories are to me. I'll probably never have these type of moments in my life ever again...

My current bestie is a sweetheart. She knows about my werewolf being and also plays along with her being the "bunny" cuz it's really fitting to us, the wolf and the rabbit (she even had a dream about being one, not too long ago) But I also know, that she has a hard time taking it really serious. She always really tries not to judge anyone for anything, but I know that there are things, that even she's not too cool with. Furries for example. I can talk with her about everything. But living it out in front of her? Can't imagine this to be possible. Cuz I know, she would be weirded out by it, even if she wouldn't say anything about it. And that's cool. I'm fine with that. I got used to it that "normal" people can't really understand.

I mean, at least I have finally found my people on the internet, who know exactly what I'm talking about and that it's way more than just childish behavior. I still can't thank you guys enough for just being here and being yourself and open about the animal inside of you. and that we can talk about similar experiences. Thank You ❤

[aj-lethal]

I thought it would be fun to show with my characters how my drawing style has improved over the course of 6 years