#theres no names for these girls afaik

[misspickman]

transfem kon proposal could have been good if was good

[inmyarmswrappedin]

i didnt know abt skam at all until druck new gen, but have done a retrospective deep dive and was just wondering if u know how popular the remakes have been in their countries of origin? obvi theres SOME popularity, and from an international audience thanks to og skam, but did people in skam countries connect with it without the context of the og? (ik its kinda a loaded question but all ur answers are somehow entertaining and informative so figured i'd ask)

Hi anon 💐 Flattery will get you everywhere, haha. But seriously though, thanks for the note in parenthesis, I know I’m long winded, so I try to be interesting at least!

Of course I can’t really get a feel for how popular a Skam is in their home country, because I only live in Spain and I’m not part of the target demo anyway.

I will say though, that Norway has the smallest population of all countries with a Skam, and their ig accounts are the most followed across the board. There are some cases like the Eskild, the Elias Bakkoush or the Yousef characters, that didn’t really have active igs, so their remake counterparts have more followers, but that’s about it.

There’s also that NRK advised the remake teams not to promote their shows, and instead let the existing fandom and teens discover it on their own. That was the strategy NRK followed with Skam, but the issue is that Norwegian teens already had knowledge of shows like these. They’d even grown up with the Jenter characters and had aged out of that age bracket, so of course they found Skam easily and were interested in it. Some remake teams chose to follow the instructions and other teams didn’t. In general, the teams that promoted early and heavily had larger viewerships that those that didn’t. (I can discussion promotion strategies but it’s kind of beside the point in this ask lol.)

My impression about the popularity of the remakes in their own countries, and again this is just my impression and I could be wrong, since I don’t live there:

Skam NL is largely unknown in the Netherlands, mostly because it wasn’t promoted at all. I’d even say NL was pretty much viewed only by existing Skams fans.

Skam Austin had something of a following, but it averaged 300K people per episode, in a country of 328 million people. I will say FB did try to promote the show in its own way. The problem is that there’s so much scripted TV in the US market already competing for teens’ attention, and they should’ve promoted the shit out of the show. Austin wasn’t well known at all in the US.

My impression is that Skam Italia was both really well known in Italy and highly profitable. I feel like it was cancelled because timvision didn’t want to pay for a season about a Muslim girl, or didn’t think people would watch it. Once people protested and Netflix Italia reiterated their willingness to produce the season, they were happy to “uncancel” the show and afaik, their Sana season got good views.

Otoh, my impression is that Skam France does have a small local following, but it’s mostly (highly) popular abroad. And I’m really just talking about Lucas L’s season, which was so popular in South Korea that an event organizer actually held a con with the Skam France cast over there. I’m basing this on the fact that Lucas and Eliott have well over 100K followers, but every other character hasn’t reached 50K.

People have written a lot about wtFOCK being very popular with Flemish teens. It seems to be popular enough (wtfock was the most popular google search in Belgium in 2019? I think??), and I think it’s telling that Zoë is still the most followed character on ig. I would say it pretty much means that evak fandom turned its back on wtfock, because generally the Isak becomes the most followed character after his season airs. So based on this, I would say wtfock is more popular in Belgium than outside of Belgium... But not like such a hit that it would make the actors household names or anything (none of the actors are verified on ig).

IN MY OPINION... Skam España did the best out of any Skam remake locally. Their igs have the most followers overall, and not just Cris and Joana. Several characters, including Eva, Lucas R, Nora and Alejandro all broke 100k followers. A furniture store put out an ad with Cris and Joana lookalikes. A good amount of the actors are verified on ig, and many have already gone on to be cast in other projects (unlike the Austin or NL casts). I do have a couple buts. 1) Spanish is one of the most widely spoken languages in the world, and I think eskam benefited from a Latin American audience, which can’t be considered local. 2) Even though it did fairly well on youtube as a free show, I think ultimately eskam was an underperformer for Movistar. The goal was obviously to get people to subscribe to the service and access the extra content, and my guess is that this didn’t happen, because the seasons only got shorter and shorter as time went on. So, it was popular locally and internationally, but it wasn’t profitable like Skam Italia was. 

As for Druck. Imo Druck isn’t all that popular locally (though BRAVO, a teen magazine, has given them some attention here and there, suggesting it’s on teens’ radars kind of? idk). But I also think that, at this point, it’s by design. Funk didn’t really promote Hanna’s season, and as such it didn’t have a lot of views. But then they chose not just to promote Mia’s season on youtube and instagram, but to drop the weekly episode on TV. I think that’s the reason Mia’s season is still the most watched to this day tbh. The thing is, if the Druck team wanted, they could do seasons upon seasons of cis white blonde blue-eyed girls falling in love with the resident cis white bad boy, enemies to lovers, and several scenes of the leads making out, being naked in a bathtub, and so on and so forth. It would clearly do well. However, they chose to focus on underrepresented minorities and narratives, and at this point it seems like they’re okay with not being really well known locally, as long as they get enough viewers to justify making more seasons. Druck is one show where I feel like they could be more popular if they wanted, but they have decided they’re good like this.

[kekisu]

Girl i dont think the devilman manga is that much better....in terms of shock nsfw and gore...i know its not the same manga but i tried reading devilman lady and it was like. She literally gets raped in the first chapter. anyway my point is. Devilman has interesting themes (esp abt religion etc) but regardless of what form you consume it in, its still mainly gratuitous violence, especially sexual violence for the shock of it.... if anything crybaby having the one good episode is kind of a miracle

not to be rude but please dont call me girl, you dont know me personally and it makes me uncomfortable

saying the devilman manga has nearly as much shock nsfw as crybaby is just untrue like i disagree completely with that

i dont know anything about devilman lady though since this is the very first time im hearing about it but afaik its not really relevant to the main devilman narrative? thats at least what im getting from a quick google search, im very sorry if im wrong (its horrible regardless of its relevance to the story and should absolutely be criticized, but thats not what im talking about yk?)

i disagree that its always mostly violence and sexual violence like yeah theres absolutely some of that in the manga, the shock value of it was what it was best known for at the peak of its popularity. but its like... not at all comparable to how much of it there is in crybaby. there are random scenes of people fucking just for no reason at all and scenes that were completely changed just to be horny (examples that pop in my head are miki and the water demon i forgot the name of + the entire akira and sirene fight being them having sex in the air???? absolutely no damn reason for this btw) crybaby is quite literally just porn with a vague plot until the very end where the writers remembered theyre supposed to be writing something

what i mostly criticize when i talk about crybaby is the absolute lack of plot. go ahead and have straight up porn in your anime but its supposed to be an adaptation of a manga and like... it just leaves out everything from the manga and completely butchers the story and meaning MGFKDNJFGNFBDH its very sloppy and also it takes such a weird racist turn with ryos backstory...?

[blueskittlesart]

bna? now that it's out

favorite female character: michiru

favorite male character: shirou and if megan yikeszone comes for me in the comments shes justified

favorite book/season/etc: theres only one afaik

favorite episode (if its a tv show): baseball ep 👀👀 girls playing sports... hot

favorite cast member: nazunas va!! her singing voice is just. so good 

favorite ship: nazumichi (michinazu?? idk you get the idea)

character I’d die defending: NAZUNA OWNED UP TO HER MISTAKES. SHE WAS A CHILD AND SHE WAS GROOMED AND PUT ON A PEDESTAL WHERE A WHOLE SOCIETY WAS ESSENTIALLY WORSHIPING HER AT AGE 17 OF COURSE SHE IS GOING TO MAKE SOME BAD CHOICES SHE IS NOT A BAD PERSON!!! 

character I just can’t sympathize with: alan and that cult leader motherfucker whos name i cant remember but he turned out to be like a bunch of snakes in a trench coat

character I grew to love: nazuna!! i was annoyed with her for the first few eps after her introduction which i think is a universal experience but i love her now

anti otp: im sure yall know my answer to this one but i am NOT in the mood to incite ship discourse again

[thetrashywritingwitch]

Of course the boys face this issue too but their fan service-y outfits doesn’t take advantage of overly sexualised parts of the girls and make it really gross. The outfits is the main issue for the boys but the jokes and interaction with not only the outfits but the girls themselves is a much larger issue. Name the amount of times kiris outfit is played for Pervy jokes vs Momos.

The boys actually deal with a different issue that the girls dont face: sexualization by adults in canon

The girls are oogled by their classmates, mostly mineta and Kaminari, and put in sketchy positions and gags. But no male adults make comments towards that afaik

But the boys on multiple occasions get gross comments by adult women.

Midnight makes a few comments during the sports festival and you could argue that her being an x rated hero working at a high school is predatory by itself

And then theres that lady from the wild wild pussycats who literally says she wants to see how the boys turn out when they turn 18 aka waiting for them to become "legal adults". We see these types of gross comments from men waiting on teenage girls to turn 18, but here is an instance where a grown woman is doing it towards teenage boys

So they are sexualized in a different way than the girls are but imo it's not less severe or gross

[foulserpent]

How did xikeel transition? I'm guessing through normal hist shenanigans but she had a pretty abnormal life growing up. Like is there a story there :o

yeah it was a standard hist based transition and afaik theres no particular story to it. she’d already been openly a girl for a while, but once she was deemed a fledged shadowscale (around age 16) she felt like it was time and started the ritual via the hist. being shadowscales trainees (even if being trained by some human for some reason), xikeel and her siblings lived in the black marsh pretty permanently so it wasnt much of an issue getting to a hist. so it was kind of just a matter of doing it

also changed her given name. her birthname wasnt really gendered, but its kind of a way to mark the significance of the change socially.

she celebrates the anniversary of it every year. no particular tradition she just treats herself to something nice. invokes sithis (as the agent of change) to say “isnt it great that nothing is stagnant? ive been a girl all my life and yet i still get to change and grow and have new experiences every day. aweosme”

[theythemsam]

spn 1x05, liveblog, collected posts (all 12 of them) or as i like to call it: the first episode that actually scared me, we get some insight into sam’s mind and i always cry during the last minute:

The funny thing about supernatural is that i still remember all the monsters, but after wendigo it’s honestly such an interesting first five seconds for me because that is when I’m trying to figure out which episode from the first season this is.

#like i remembered that there was an episode where the actress of root was in so i was like excited for that one #and i knew theres the airplane demon episode #and so on #but its always like Oh Yes. Its this episode! #but then the moment the episodes first seconds load im like OHHHHHHH #like i didnt know what was coming and then... #'okay truth or dare' and my brain went: BLOODY MARY! #asdfgh good to know that the obsession synapses still work after that many years

i do have to say i really like how they used the bloody mary lore though also as a way to explore the fact that sam had psychic powers, it’s so cool

#also imo thats afaik remember the first episode that really scared me? #i dont really know why but it felt... closer to home i guess? #maybe cause the people that caused it where children #so my brain was like: wow that could have been me!!! #instead of: driver hiking in the forest swimming in a lake or flying in an airplane #i didnt drive back then and had never flown in an airplane and swimming and hiking was just too far removed from my #couch potato ass at those moments (even though i did like doing it) but playing stupid games with friends on a dare? that was very close #idk also the nightmares are good that sam has

asdfg I love that they call bloody mary “you know who”

#my brain: Ah Voldemort!

why does that (jill?) (gill?) girl find it so funny to scare her friends? i dont know, but if i notice my friends are scared, i don’t give them a reason to be more anxious and then just say “youre such a freak” and hang up

#why does she have friends? #also that really short scene where /fall out boy/ is playing when she sits down to get bed ready #its just... its a lot. i love it

hey, the second non-white person with lines on the show! nice.

#my lists for pocpe is just error 404 not found for all the other episodes #cause theres not a single non white person #and like i guess? sometimes that makes sense? but its still sad #and this detective doesnt even have a name so aight #tbh the only other none white people i remember was a couple in phantom passenger but they were on screen for #literally like 2 seconds thats not enough time

Donna seeing Bloody Mary and freaking out in the classroom. Is that a Nightmare on Elm Street reference I Spy With My Little Eye?

#like obviously bloody mary is a the ring reference look wise #but idk it kinda gives me that vibe? #anygays idk

why does dean always have the nice colorschemes?

#listen theres always scenes with him where im like: ahh i wanna gif that #but then i remember... i dont wanna gif dean #at least not when i still have more important gifs to make #ugh but the colors are so pretty #i also dont want dean fans to follow me bc i will call that boy tf out #and i dont want to accidentally expose fans to that who didnt know that cause its a dick thing to do #so i dont want dean edits her #but the nice colors #i feel like a magpie just going: shiny!!!!!

I love how Dean tries to get his brother to stop blaming himself for Jessica’s Death

#especially the part where he says 'blame me' and sams like 'i dont blame you #and deans like 'well then you shouldnt blame yourself either' #cause idk thats what my friends always did for me when i was having a ptsd related self blame moment for my trauma #and they were like 'well if that happened to me would you blame me?' me *sniff sniff* 'no of course not that wouldnt be your fault' #them: giving me the most deadpan stare until it sinks in #idk it reminded me off that

heeell yeah, first bloody sam scene

#asdfghjk its such a nice scene to make edits with

at some point ill have to make an edit with sam and mirrors

#its a big thing as far as i remember

getting an insight into sam’s state of mind through ghosts/other supernatural creatures is also kinda a big thing

#like i think that also happens when meg possesses him #or generally like possession and ghosts #huh.... #intresting

honestly im so glad they changed how they have ghosts disappear, cause the way they did it so far is so incredibly gross i don’t have the words to describe it

#like not scary #just disgusting to look at with the melty face and all that  #ewww

[1007xf]

i would Absolutely tell you! i am about to study for my final exam tho so ill just copy and paste the infodump from discord. also i Am two of the characters (kinsidering another but not sure)

ok so this is a power puff girls x mother series crossover called Psionic Pro Boys and . and holy fuck its edgy. its so much edgier than both the sources anyway. But i like it so that excuses it

its the mother characters placed in a powerpuff girls environment yknow? the main 3 characters are ness, lucas and ninten (the 3 protagonists of their respective games) and theyre a part of the psionic pro boys, or PPB. theyre superpowered individuals who are there to save their town, before AND after bedtime! and. oh my godd they are DIFFERENT. definitely a lot more explosive. theyre aged up a bit (around 16) but oh my godddd holy shit. the creator of the au (im going to call her sherbet shes rlly chill actually i miss her) recently posted new designs for them (she changed up their races to make them more inclusive i think) which i think works, i still kind of prefer the old designs??? that or i just like her old artstyle better. she drew lucas with two left hands in the old design tho shdndhdnnsbdb

there's the psychicexpert girls, the PEG, which consist of paula, ana, and nana! theyre a rebel group afaik and are also superpowered! i am nana so i should know, but i dont. classic me.

see, the girls are fucking EXPLOSIVE and very, VERY destructive. mean characters too. i'm like. slightly dumb but very kind and considerate. (bro even NEIL tolerates me but ill get into that in a but) and also i can play piano. woohoo! she just like me fr.

ok so these mfs' backstories are definitely darker than the original show/games (keep in mind i did not watch powerpuff girls i would not know) since they were either abused or abandoned by their parents and were found by HIM and adopted by him. HIM is a fucking demon (possibly the devil) btw. he's definitely a villain ill get to him one day

ok so yknow how i said this series was definitely very fucjing edgy? there was supposed to be a fourth psionic pro boy. travis, to be specific. he was constructed using his brother's dna(?) and he was like. really fucking clumsy. after a fuck up with the other boys, people started making fun of him and he started getting bullied in school more until he fucking MELTED and became the original substance of the chemical x (or whatever the fuck) inside of him. i think this was corruption or something i dont remember much. but holy FUCK

i should mention that i (claus) am also a character in this!!! claus was separated from lucas idk when and found a different chemical crystal(?). he became superpowered but didnt tell anyone about it and became anxious about it so he ran away. he was found by another villain named zento, who soon adopted him and trained him. bitch has never felt emotions besides hatred and jealousy so yknow he has not had a good life!!! also my cybernetic canon is here too. in an accident claus lost his arm, and was replaced with robotic parts. he has a skin glove thingy to cover it up tho

ok do you want even more edge??? do you???? now you do! theres canonically a reverse world. different characters based on their og world counterparts. i mentioned neil; he's ness's counterpart. he's a part of the psionic punk boys, or PPNKB to shorten it. the other members are luis and nixon, and by god theyre fucking EDGYYYYYYY. neil is my favourite for reasons (the reason being that i am nana /j) and to be completely honest im not sure if i just Really Like him or Am him. so anyway holy fuck these kids were Abused and Neglected (neil and nixon were) and some even became Not So Human! luis and nixon did thats for sure. i am very Fond of them.

yknow how i mentioned that i was claude? thats luis's brother! after an incident where a cult society killed our father and found my brother, i watched them torture him until they had a buckets worth of blood and ran the fuck away to the police. they ended up reuniting me with my mom but we were both traumatized lmao. also i (claude) am probably autistic or something since i have a special interest in bugs (CANONICALLY) which i did not fucking notice until now holy shit

and then theres the psychic fancy girls! or the pfg. paulita is the leader! shes very girly and enjoys makeup, but she isnt afraid to get her hands dirty! arianna is like paulita but more cutesy :) *and then theres nara.* shes very pretty but shes a cold person with little remorse for what she does. she barely shows emotion and holy FUCK is she strong. like my gee. she is NOT TO BE MESSED WITH.

hmmmmm is there anything else i feel like talking about rn.... OH WAIT THE YOKAI CARRIERS

so theres this bitch named tony.... he was just an exchange student. and like. ||he became friends with jeff. like really close friends. and since he gay he had a bit of a crush on jeff! but since he started spending more and more time with ness and less and less time with tony he got really fucking jealous. like. REALLY jealous. so much so that he ended up developing psychic powers on his own and became a cherub. he did swear revenge on ness so thats his main target.|| i dont know where the bio for tony is but i did find one in my dms with sherbet so ! yeah.

and then we have lloyd! lloyd is definitely one of my favourites bc hes a floral beast :) so anyway he was like. bullied by ninten in school. so like he does NOT like ninten. same with varik, an exchange student, who acts just like him. his abilities are powered by his emotions, so theyre very hard to control. the yokai taking hold of him is a furutsubaki. feel free to look into it :)

theres some other yokais but like. i do not have the bios on them and do not remember them

that should fortunately be it

Wow that's a lot of text! And golly gee did I read it all and would do it again/pos

This does indeed fall into very edgy territory but honestly? I love edgy shit. Like stupidly edgy. Edgy for the sake of edgy I love it!!! And edge aside there's some genuinely cool stuff here. Travis just fucking MELTING into chem x is way to goddamn metal sorry. I'll be real I don't know jack shit about the mother series I never got into it even tho I know it's an important part of gaming history oopsie. So I really don't know how this compares to the real thing. And there's definitely a lot of info here and I feel like this makes way more sense and flows way more nicely when put into context lmao. But honestly still thanks for sharing this was a cool read!

[fuck-customers]

Do you not know how cards work?

This is a long one, and was originally sent through a messenging app to a friend so apologies for any weird formatting/tense inconsistencies in the first place. This happened Jan 2 at Coals.

Line is slow, there's me and another girl on register. Other girl gets a customer so when the next one comes I tell her I'm open; she said that other girl has the rest of her stuff but then she gets it and comes over to me. Her entire purchase is: chocolate covered nuts (3$), Barbie gift wrap (4$), and some boys' levis (47$ or whatever). The levis and candy are excluded from %age off coupons but rewards and other store cash coupons will work. She didn't have any when I asked, so I told her the total would be 58.49, since we also have literally 1 coupon that works in stores rn, and everything else is online only--i knew this bc I checked retailmenot and the app today before work, and have been telling people all day.

So the lady asks if we have any coupons, I tell her: Yes, we have one for x of y amount of intimate wear and the other ones are online only. She tells me she's going to check RMN "not that she doesn't believe me--oh wait I guess i don't" or something similar but kinda joking in that specific assholy way.

I tell her no problem there's no line take your time the reception is kinda bad so it'll give me time to bag you up. She loads RMN, sees that there's online only offers, then looks at the 2 in store ones which are 1) a weird 10% off for egift cards or something or 2) a promotional %age discount for opening a store credit card...which would not work on the anything except the $4 giftwrap, and the lady already has a store credit card so shes ineligible.

So then she looks at her total and asks me if there's really nothing out there and I'm like "unfortunately not", but then she remembers she just did a return and got a credit of about 33$ back to her card, and asks if she can use that.

I tell her sure, it'll just go on your card and show up as different items/transactions but itll just be the difference (like $26) that goes on her statement. I then ask if her rewards account is attached to the store card, she wasn't sure so I told her to go ahead and swipe bc of how the computer works, it wasnt, I asked for her phone number and found the rewards account. I then told her "okay, total is 58.49,"  which she approved so I hit total, then OKed the amount--which is the last part where I'm able to cancel anything, but we've passed that and the computer is now telling me to ask her to sign the pin pad and I cannot cancel.

Lady then asks: did you apply my credit, and I'm thinking you know how a card works you're like 50.

I tell her "it'll show up as a return of 33$ and then this transaction of 58.49$, so it'll be about 26$ leftover that actually goes into your owed balance." She again asks why her credit didn't show her and i explain again. And again. And another time. I'm halfway tempted to advance some receipt tape to actually write out an example of what it'll look like but again, she's like 50 she should know what it looks like and how it works.

Luckily there's still not really a line so the one or two groups that come up, the other girl handles, but I'm anticipating a small rush, so I tell the Lady "hey, at this point there's nothing I can do because the computer will not allow me to cancel anything. If you don't want to put the 58.49 on your store card, please sign the pad and I can call a manager over to do a void after since it's a store card and you can pay another way. While she's here, she can probably explain the statement thing better than I can." The explanation part is a complete and total lie because she's just going to say the same exact thing I did but it's a manager so.

(I explained how the system works to my friend later: anything with a symbol cannot take % off coupons, and if theres a wrong price, a manager has to do an override. The levis were the correct price so there was literally nothing I could do even if I wanted to help her.)

The manager comes over & asks whats up, and I explain the "credit" situation, and have the receipt ready in case Lady wants to do a void after. Immediately after, the lady tells her, with a Pleasantly Grouchy expression, "She's (me) being a grouch." Keep in mind I've actually been nothing but pleasant and have never gotten a Bad customer comment since I started working in september--occasionally I'm tired but I'm still nice.

Manager then tells her "Since you used your store card, the return went back to that and put 33$ back to your availavle balance, so the 58.49 will even out and the rest will come off." As in, what I told Lady at least 5 times. Manager had to explain it again, and she literally said "it's like a debit card where it'll show deposits and withdrawals with a little minus sign"

Lady asks, "weren't they supposed to give me some thing?"

Manager: "returns are issued back to the original form of payment, so if you had used some thing else, they wouldve given you a merchandise credit", at this point Manager picks up a previously used one as an example and shows it to her. Afaik, MCs are if someone paid cash or with gift card, and store cash coupons get merchandise credit cash coupons. Everything else goes back to the card or credit card.

Manager then walks away to organize some stuffed animals up front, but is still nearby, because customer has been mollified, and I hand her her bag and I'm doing the end of transaction process: circle savings, survey, name.

Anyways the last bit is:

Right as I'm about to do the receipt stuff, Lady tells me, with that same pleasantly grouchy look, "So i guess the moral of the story is to always ask for merchandise credit."

I kinda just smiled because she honestly did not listen to the manager because RETURNS DON'T WORK THAT WAY.

(I forgot to mention that the manager looked at the printer like she wanted to draw out how the statement would look as well)

But the funny paet was after she left my manager came back (she was like 3 feet away) and I told her "I told her the exact same thing you said."

The manager had a weird look on her face then just said "...it's math. She probably doesn't pay the bill anyway."

Then i told her that Lady said I was being a grouch (honestly just wanted to clear it up and make sure it wasn't going to affect me bc i had just asked to stay on after the season) and Manager said that she just blocked it out bc she thought Lady was talking about her so that was good lol

Semirelated: the district manager knows me by name. I didn't recognize her when she came in earlier  and was paying at anothet register, but she was using the app and couldn't apply a coupon so I told her, the same manager from above, and the cashier "unfortunately that one is online only," and the manager came around and told me I did a good job.

tldr: Customer, a lady who is at least 50 years old, does not understand how cards work. She did a return on her store card, tries to get credit for a purchase, gives me a hard time about us not having any coupons. I call a manager over and between the two of us, we've explained how a card works at least 10 times. Lady lies and accuses me of being a grouch to my manager in an attempt to get a discount, over what would be $26 to her. 30 minutes earlier, the district manager and the same manager noted that I was helpful and nice.

[autisticpika]

im reading a book right now called "a step towards falling" because im focusing my reading a lot on books about disabled people because it helps me learn about myself, other people, and lately a lot on how neurotypical ppl view neurodivergent people (i did read one book about someone physically disabled because as an ablebodied person really interested in disability politics i wanna make sure im not uneducated and make any mistakes) anyways "one step towards falling" (idk why thats the title yet) is interesting because at first i was a little bummed because it seemed like another story about autistic ppl from a nt's perspective but i was surprised!! the book is from 2 points of view each chapter, some chapters from the perspective of emily who is a (probably) neurotypical that volunteers in a class for disabled people focused on building relationships (usually romantic) and the other chapters are from belindas point of view who is a (most likely) autistic girl whose special interests are the book/movie pride and prejudice and theatre. belinda is honestly the most interesting person to read from i think, but im probably biased because i love reading about other ppl on the spectrum and relating to them more than the other characters :P thats usually how it goes lol. i wont spoil any of the story but i like it because it tackles neat subjects like internalized ableism and the de-sexualization of disabled people in a pretty good manner. theres no use of functioning labels but a few phrases that would basically be functioning labels anyways. i have no clue whether or not the author cammie mcgovern is disabled at all herself but i think for the most part this book is written respectfully either way! not all of the disabled people in the class are autistic either, they dont say names of the disabilities often at all in the book but autism is mentioned and so is down syndrome, and there is one character briefly in it that has cerebral palsy but thats it i think? i dont know the race of any of the characters in the book bc thats not specified either afaik so idk the diversity in that way but there is a gay character so thats kinda neat! anyways im only on page 220 out of 364 so idk how it ends but im hooked so far and im glad this is portrayed well i think :3 im gonna keep reading it!

[ts-nightingaleislands]

Episode #4- “if I have to do another tribal I'm gonna tonya Harding these bitches”- Austin

I have not gotten a chance to see tribal's entirety, but something did stand out. Tawni essentially implied that OG Thrush would stick together and do what it takes and it told me that perhaps there are people on that tribe unwilling to work with Petrel. I understand that we have our OG tribe but I will say that people who arent open to working with others may not be good for the long run so I think Im gonna try and evaluate a few things and go from there as far as maximizing my benefits

The Dylan blindside went very well. I would have very much preferred to see Tawni leave, only because she's still the person I've talked to least. Unfortunately, Cheatham and Austin both wanted her to stay, which is why we voted Dylan, who was a much more aggressive player than Amy. I figure that it's early on, a swap could come any day now, so I've been preparing for one. I've already tried to get a Tawni vote prepared in the event we lose, which was actually very easy because she told me she wanted to get rid of Noah and that's all he needed to be good with it. (It also helps that he was independently considering voting Tawni before I told him that). Cheatham and Austin would likely prefer to vote Amy, which I would not prefer. Amy is much less likely to betray me than Tawni as far as I can tell, and the absolute worst case scenario regarding a swap would make Amy an easy scapegoat vote if we lose. Tawni would be much harder to vote out in that scenario. Premerge is all about making strong connections to carry me through the rest of the game, just laying my foundation now. Austin and Noah both trust me so much, and then Cheatham appears to be seen as a fourth wheel to our alliance. Austin and Noah (especially Noah) are huge players, so if you're going to take a shot at my alliance, it would make more sense to get one of them, and Cheatham has already been seen to get votes on him due to certain aspects of how he comes off (blatantly refusing to work with people afaik?). I'm not the big guy in my alliance, but I'm not the expendable guy either. Right where I'd want to be. Assuming I can actually form strong social connections with everyone, and let's be honest, that's 50/50. Oh no do I need to take control of the game strategically to have a shot at winning?? Well if I do, the bigmovez part of my brain will have to wait until we merged, because I have already established that the premerge is a time for fostering strong connections!

Well that went according to plan and Dylan went home! Now it’s once i get tawni out (who was also against me) , i’ll get my idol! That really all i care about tbh so i have some safety come swap. Noah and I are THROWING this comp just to send home tawni and get ourselves an IDOL

So I have to pretty much start a majority alliance later though right now I am more focused on the challenge. As of this moment, I like the idea sharing going around for the challenge. Baby Got Back may be questionable to some but we just want to have fun! Im ready to get this going and just have a fun challenge with hopefully another win!

Im nervous sorta in that last time I had to edit the music video and it was ao stressful knowing if we lost it would be my fault. It does sorta deem AnnMarie is running into trouble so I might have to do it again unfortunately and its like ahhh

Pleaseeeeee have a tribe swap soon . I love my tribe but if I have to do another tribal I'm gonna tonya Harding these bitches .

Last night felt like a mess. Rizo joins a chat with Kyle and Tim supposedly to get info from and the belief is they may want to target one of us, meanwhile Gwen makes a chat with me and Sara calling it Detectives where we end up voicing concerns and sure enough Rizo and Tim's history is brought up. The girls and AnnMarie get sketched out from Tim and by association Kyle, Steven meanwhile is gaining cool points like Santa Claus and yeah. Im pretty certain its only a matter of time before peoppe search stuff about me but man this tribe is becoming a secret ball of chaos

And Liam is an unproblematic cool kid too

Well. I cried myself to sleep. And I woke up crying. I want to give up so bad. Cause it’s like at this point I have zero chance of winning so what’s the point. I don’t know anyone on the other side. My one ally in the game sucks ass. Granted my entire tribe does. And it’s like I’m assuming at this point we aren’t swapping and y’all are gonna keep us here until merge except there will be no one from my tribe left to merge. I’m just so fucking tired of trying

Wow, I can’t believe we won again. And in a landslide. It was a lot of fun making that video. And yes, that is a real snake. And no, I had never touched a snake before. And yes, it was weird. Okay, so here’s what went down over the past few days. Rizo told the CORGIS that Tim wanted to make an alliance with him and Kyle. I don’t know if that actually came to fruition yet, but after doing some digging, Chris found out that both Kyle and Rizo work for FedEx. Even though they live in different states, they may have bonded over this, or maybe they met at some point? No idea. Anyway, we are keeping our eyes out. This prompted Chris, Sara, and I to make a new sub-alliance called Detectives. We discussed the possibility of Rizo going rogue and we also discussed concerns about Tim. I did some research online and found Rizo’s Survivor audition video on Youtube. I think he may be a little more of a game player than we initially thought, but I mean, a lot of people in these ORGs apply for the actual shows. But it did make me and Sara question our Sunt alliance with him. I also did some digging on Tim and found out that he has played in a lot of ORGs and he has won, or done well, in a significant number of them. Reading reviews from his past competitors makes me even more nervous about him. They said that he was really great at game play and basically slayed the social game. He is way too much of a threat and we need him out of this game before he can manipulate people. And this makes sense with Tim’s Devils…I realized that he could have just told the whole tribe about the concerns with Noah, but he decided to just tell the girls. Now, sure, maybe this was out of the kindness of his heart, but based on the information that I found, I think that it was a strategic move to gain trust with us. Oh, and also, I accidentally almost blew up that alliance…we were talking about alliances and he said he was only in one alliance. However, I know that he has approached at least two other people with the possibilities of alliances, so I highly doubt that is true. Anyway, I mentioned it in the Detectives and Chris was like oh he has an alliance? But Sara and I saved it (I hope) by telling him that he was probably talking about the chat he made with the girls since the hosts technically had to call that an alliance. I think we’re good? I’m debating whether we tell Chris the name. Tim’s Devils is a total joke and none of the girls are actually loyal to it, but I don’t want the name coming back to Chris. He is still my #1 and I want him to be able to trust me. It was funny because when I was talking to Tim, he said we have a good alliance and I was like Tim’s Devils? And he asked how many alliances I was in. I was like ohhh I didn’t realize that was a real alliance because no one has talked in it. Then tried to cover it up with asking whether it is normal for people to make alliances before losing a challenge. Who knows if he bought it. I’m just going to keep playing up the N00B card for now. So everyone that I have talked to has said they are concerned about Tim. He is my target. So this could go two ways – either everyone really wants Tim out, or they really want me out and that’s the name they are giving me. I hope it’s the former, but either way it has been fun! If it is the latter, it was a great learning experience! It’s kind of hard to say what the next move is, since we don’t know if there will be a swap…and if there is a swap, who would be on my tribe. Ideally, we would have the majority in both tribes. I guess the most likely groups are 5v2 and 4v3. My only concern is that the other tribe might have the immunity idol. In that case, we wouldn’t be able to split votes in the 4v3 tribe. We could in the 5v2 tribe…I guess we will have to see when we switch tribes!

I just wanted to touch base cause I think theres a tribe swap. I also formed a pseudo alliance with kyle and rizo just in case we ever lose to make sure i have the numbers with the Tim's Devils alliance.

I'm in a bit of a peculiar position. Two people on my tribe, Noah and Austin, both appear to want to have me as their number one, both positioning themselves in such a way that it would be advantageous for me to side with them. If this is true, then I am probably in the best spot on this tribe, and I control the vote. Do I side with Noah and vote Tawni, who is much more likely to ditch me in a swap than Amy? Do I side with Austin and vote Amy, which would complete Austin's list and give us control of the idols? Do I vote Cheatham, because I've gone mad with power and it's theoretically possible? So many possibilities! However, the best one in my opinion is to vote Tawni out for two reasons: 1. She popped off at the challenge. Not like "oh no what a physical threat vote her out before she goes on an immunity run". But it's obvious that she put so much effort into the challenge, that even Petrel would recognize that. So if she's voted out, it's clear to everyone that the Thrush tribe may be a bit of a mess. And if we're so disjointed, in the event of a swap, we aren't a coalition worth toppling over. We're numbers they can use to fulfill their own objectives. 2. She never talks to me. Amy never talks to me, but she never talks to anyone. Tawni talks all the time to other people (or so I've heard). Voting her out reduces the number of options other people (Austin) have, forcing them to stick with me or jump into the unknown that is Petrel. I really hope this is the best move, and if I get 14th bc I'm swapfucked then >:( (i guess thats not as bad as a blindside tonight)

Wohooo “we won another challenge this is so great!” I must say I am impressed at how well my tribe is doing and it’s great I’m safe and practically made the merge. However how can I go to a merge and not know who to trust. I trust my corgi alliance and Kyle but Honeslty they haven’t been tested yet to see if they are loyal which is scary. Another calm round where I can’t go into the immunity pool or target someone in my tribe. I’m anticipating a tribe swap, I don’t really want one because if I get tribe swapped I’ll be upset but at this point I’m ready to get some gameplay going and hopefully Chris and myself or Gwen can get this game going.

Shit hit the fan I’ve got a great ally in Sara who filled me in on a lot about our tribe and the other tribe. We work really well together. Turns out there’s a 6 person alliance of Gwen Sara rizo Liam Chris and AnnMarie. Sara felt on the bottom, so she talked to me. She is in an alliance chat with me AnnMarie and Kyle. This alliance of six is supposedly falling apart though. This leaves Tim. He talked to me after my reward challenge win, and he seemed somewhat insecure about his place. He’s pretty much on the bottom. Me and Sara agree that he could be an easy target to keep our place in the game if we lose soon, or if there’s an unfavorable swap. Noah seems to be on the bottom of the other tribe, so that could help us in a swap as well. Tribal happens soon and I’m pretty nervous, not necessarily for what happened at tribal, but what might come after

This entire round has been a mood and I'm extra upsetty spaghetti that I wasn't around more to hassle people! Honestly, I'm just counting the days before I get caught for my shenanigans! I literally spilled the entire idea of the 6 person alliance (as well as other groups) to Steven this round because well, it's full of duos and I'm not any of their priority. Plus, I'm generally not an underdog in games, but I love working with the underdogs and I sorta see Steven as that. If he leaks all I told him, I'm probably screwed...but I think he trusts me because he was willing to pass info and strategize with me too. Lastly, Gwen and Chris are totally a duo and Tim is sketchy...that's all! :)

well, i lost my closest ally dylan so now im feeling pretty alone. i think i could be going this round but some people are telling me to vote tawni so im going to do that and hope it works. wish me luck!

Sooooo I just edited the entirety of the lip sync challenge and it was super fun to watch everyone dance and mess around with the lyrics. I wasn't in love with the song, but I gotta admit that the end result was really nice. Gwen helped out a ton by making a Google docs and organizing things. I'm super disappointed with the other tribe though. It had little effort, and Trent really tore into them. Trent also said that the horn girl had him cracking up. I'm the horn girl. I was very happy. I was told some very interesting stuff about Tim. I already had a pretty bad vibe from him, but I guess Gwen confirmed my inkling. I don't think I will be aligning myself with him during the game.

4 votes Tawni, 2 votes Amy.

[re-de-jected]

Why does nobody do these anymore?  They were real fun and kinda nice :)

1. selfie

sorryy, not for tumblr

2. what would you name your future kids?

i haven’t even thought about it before tbh

3. do you miss anyone?

yeahhhh

4. what are you looking forward to?

fresh start next year!!

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

rw :)

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

yeah

7. what was your life like last year?

mostly fucking awful, there were a few really nice parts tho

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

yup

9. who did you last see in person?

my little brother

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?

too good :/

11. are you listening to music right now?

not rn

12. what is something you want right now?

company lol

13. how do you feel right now?

bit lonely

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

early december 2014 (my mum doesnt count)

15. personality description

not a very interesting or exciting person, sorry about that im trying to get better

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn't?

yeahhhh

17. opinion on insecurities.

necessary part of life

18. do you miss how thing were a year ago?

somewhat, mostly no

19. have you ever been to New York?

no, would love to go someday

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

All Over You - LEISURE

21. age and birthday?

18, may 22

22. description of crush.

beyond words i think

23. fear(s)

missing out on life

24. height

probably shorter than you

25. role model

so many, like barack obama tho

26. idol(s)

whats the difference between role model and idol? obama again?

27. things i hate

people who park in the middle of the road to use the atm >:( 

28. i'll love you if...

you love me? idk anything about this stuff tbh

29. favourite film(s)

as a kid, wallace and gromit movies, also original mulan... now, some of the new marvel movies are cool but i havent watched anything for months

30. favourite tv show(s)

futurama was cool, trollied cause its stupid

31. 3 random facts

elephants are mammals, qualia is a cool word, and my phone screen is broken

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

50/50 i guess, thats cool

33. something you want to learn

another language... maybe japanese but dont want to be labeled a weeb lol

34. most embarrassing moment

oh fuck theres too many, looking at any and every fucking video and photo of me is usually enough

35. favourite subject

computers is fun but i enjoyed materials and design far too much

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

a random 3 would be have a family, graduate uni, first kiss lol

37. favourite actor/actress

jennifer lawrence shes crackup

38. favourite comedian(s)

bill bailey, russel peters, michael mcintyre, romesh ranganathan etc etc

39. favourite sport(s)

swimming, laser tag, motorsports, those kinda things

40. favourite memory

so many, i like that one when we were walking under the pink flowering trees on the way back from the park that afternoon early december (2014?) tho

41. relationship status

none, idk

42. favourite book(s)

I would say harry potter but its probably time to move on :/

43. favourite song ever

sorry, i dont do that

44. age you get mistaken for

a fucking child >:( im 18 ok

45. how you found out about your idol

lol idek i think it was rileys mum

46. what my last text message says

my last txt is from vodafone, my last fb message says “jk”

47. turn ons

not sure? if they like me that sounds nice

48. turn offs

they dont exist, or i dont exist

49. where i want to be right now

i dont know tbh

50. favourite picture of your idol

dont have one, barack always looks chill in photos tho

51. starsign

gemini (yeahhh, the two-faced asshole one)

52. something i'm talented at

patience i guess

53. 5 things that make me happy

friends, new messages, food, company and hugs

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

how the fuck im gonna pay my fees

55. tumblr friends

my followers are all fake/porn accounts afaik

56. favourite food(s)

im not fussy, i like lasgne even though its really unhealthy, so many others tho

57. favourite animal(s)

giraffe, cat, guinea pigs

58. description of my best friend

we need to catch up more often

59. why i joined tumblr

seemed like a nice place, freedom of expression

60. ask me anything you want

go ahead, i dont think i have any followers other than fake/porn accounts though so does that even apply