#theres like a list of things that would fix me. ive been thinking of tf today a bit. its Your fault (you know who you are) btw
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desperately asking my body why i jsut got the most insane surge of being horny at 2 am. this cant be right man
#not like im Trying to go to sleep. but like. uagggggggggggghhhhhhhh now im THINKING aboutthings#theres like a list of things that would fix me. ive been thinking of tf today a bit. its Your fault (you know who you are) btw#something soemthing telegram stickers#anwyays#also thinking about fat as usual. being totally stuffed#i spent a significant amount of my day today being a little fuller than usual and my god. Ueagh (affectionate)#need to do it more i just feel weird walking around like that so i usually only do it when im home alone (is never home alone)#imgetting off topic though#need someone to fuck me or to let me fuck them because like#god#i just. hmgnnhjhtnbggnnghgghghrrgnghghrnnghhhmhmmgghgrgh#and yes: it can be kinky i literally dont give a fuck. hotter#send me asks or dms or something idfk just say things to me#lycan rambles
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im still rewatching gotham bc its a great distraction from studying and if 17 year-old me was right about anything its that its Fun
but also. what the Fuck were the writers thinking sometimes lmaooo im not even going to list it all because thats too much work, these r just some Thoughts
please dont ask why im watching it if this bothers me this much, i dont have a good explanation. its just Fun to watch fucked up people do fucked up shit i guess. nothing makes sense ever and theres soo much shit to dissect & so many characters to follow. yea that probably explains it
also this embarassing. i do not want to have these many thoughts about this show again.
1. police brutality as a ~quirky feature of this whacky city~. im Pretty sure that never really stops but im only halfway through s1 rn and its a Very big thing there. im not even going to talk about this much more because im not nearly close to being an expert on it & i dont have as much of a clear analysis of it, its just fucked up tbh how they treat such a major issue in real life like a fictional thing that makes their fake city more ~spicy~
2. the way they talk about/use mental health & neurodivergency
Fuck lmao this bothers me so much more now than 4 years ago. in general its a whole mess & a lot of it is probably based on comic stuff eg arkham, but they really portray anyone in there as a child huh. its So disrespectful and gross
at some point they basically only have villains from arkham, which i know is also at least somewhat comic-based but that doesnt rly make it better? great villainization of neurodivergent people guys (& why tf did they send oswald to arkham??? theres literally no reason for that one)
dont even let me get started on ed. LITERALLY Thee worst portrayal of neurodivergency/mental illness ive EVER seen lmaoo. in s1 hes soo autistic coded its almost funny if it wasnt 90% based on bad stereotypes, he literally checks All the boxes. and then he randomly gets the fake fictional shock value version of DID?? i feel like that was the only thing the writers could think of that made sense why he'd ever kill people lol and its a) So lazy and b) Extremely bad for how DID is seen by people. i dont know how DID works exactly so i cant say anything abt if the way it started/his switching was at least somewhat accurate, but its just this typical "evil dangerous neurodivergent dude cant control himself/is just evil to his core because his ~mind is fucked up~" and its so frustrating. Yes hes one of my favourite characters still. Yes i still relate to him way too much. Yes the way hes written is Extremely harmful. those things can all be true
3. queerbaiting. only developed a ship because it was popular with the fans, then make them fight each other for the rest of the show, then have them be ~brothers~ at the end when ratings drop. typical And annoying.
4. this is less of a Real World Issue and more bad storytelling but plot & character consistency are practically nonexistant in this show lmao. this has been run to the ground years ago but its still so weird. the main thing is again ed for me since he was my favourite, but they really changed his entire personality whenever it was practical for the "plot". i could barely recognise him in s3 until i got used to it lmao he was sooo different. u Could make an argument for the riddler vs the ed personality but again thats bad rehashing of harmful stereotypes & Also doesnt fix anything tbh. the only thing that was actually consistent (if im not forgetting sth) was oswald's character i think? he became less gross over time but that was all as far as i can remember. sneaky, manipulative, too emotional, loses everything because of either his mom or ed aka what he loves. he became less smart somehow after s1 which is weird but i guess s1 him would have taken over the country if they hadnt nerfed him. i honestly cant remember anyone else because last time after ca the middle of s2 i stopped paying attention to anything that wasnt ed or oswald but yea it was a whole mess
#gotham#whyyyyyy#i dont want to be thinking abt this#why does it take me so long to find sth to talk about for good shows but im endlessly entertained by bad ones.#i hate it.#god this show is a mess but its truly so easy to hyperfixate on#its perfect for distracting me from study anxiety
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in honor of villain releasing and me starting it later today, here is a special insight into my brain in the form of the notes i made on my phone as i was reading monster last year, completely unedited (so with all my spelling mistakes and freakouts)
there are spoilers for monster, obviously
(keep in mind that i was very emotional about being back in the gone-universe, so don’t judge me lmao)
i ship malik and shade already. can’t habdle them they’re too cute
oh my god shade is basically a true crime fan, thanks i hate it
“WHATEVER MALIK DID IT GENERALLT SOMEHOW WORK” MY LOVE
...it will be interesting to see what people have to say about mg writing his first trans character
transphobic violence already, i think someone will have a problem with this chapter being called “the meet cute”
where
is
dekka
WHAT THE FUCK SHADE WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOURE INSANE
I WAS RIGHT BY THE WAY THE MOVIE SUCKED AND WAS A BAD IDEA AND I HOPE ASTRID AND SAM ARE SUFFERING AND HAVE NO FRIENDS
nooo dekka sweetie :(((
oh my god a dekka chapter what if we get updates on everyone i’m not ready
dekka is broke no :(((
but she drives a motorcycle i’m so in love
dekka has a cat. marry me
“Of those three hundred thirty-two kids, fifty-one developed one supernatural power or another. Only nineteen of you developed major powers and survived. And of these nineteen, seven have since developed serious psychological disorders” NO MY KIDS IM CRYING
“Lana Lazar spent time in a mental health facility” eeelp
“I know, she’s a friend of mine. She’s fine now.” THEY ARE FRIEND.jzoddbfb
“Others’ like Sam Temple, the supposed hero of the fayz, have had-”
HAVE HAD WHA TOM??!!!?!
“’Supposed hero?’ Screw you. You don’t disrespect Sam Temple where I can here it.” I’m 😭😭😭😭😭😭
sam was in rehab has an alcoholic kill me
and he’s on the wagon sober for sixteen months ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
DEKKA REMEMBERINH BRIANNA KILL ME
Hey, Sam’s sober and Astird got her head screwed on straight so leave them out of this - dekka out there defending her people
MG in the online: edilio is the true hero of the fayz MG in the books: sam is the true hero of the fayz me: so what is the truth?
oh my god that just means edilio is still underappreciated
DEKKA WANTS SAM AND ASTRID TO GO TO COLLEGE WORK AND ONE DAY HAVE A BABY GIRL NAMED DEKKA WHAT THE FUCK SHOOT ME
Me @ me: mg loves edilio. he will be in here. mg loves edilio. he will be in here. mg loves edilio. he will be in here. mg loves edilio. he will be-
Four year old Sean is here to cause trouble
Cruz singing my love ❤️❤️
We’ve literally just met him and Justin DeVeere already sounds like a potential school shooter
also how dare mg give him the same name as justin roger’s little brother
He’s so disgusting yikes
I don’t understand what just happened and what erin and justin are up to but WHY do i feel like they just had sex so they could have a gaia-like baby
is justin turning into the hulk or orc
Justins arm is turning into a sword
Is justin turning into drake...
Or orc/britney? Orc/britney/justin?
If Aristotle Arno Adamo is anything like Ari from Aaddtsotu i already love him
oh he’s not
Armo is the Quinn of Monster pass it on
Will Quinn be mentioned in this book?
“Armo was not part of any clique, because there was one, only one Armo at Malibu High School” oh my god he’s awful i love him
“I want to take Danish. My family is danish” bitch mine too
“You understand that everyone in Denmark speaks english right? Usually better than most Americans?” drag america i love t
god i love him
armo just survived a serious accident and he’s crying because he wreacked his car whaya guy
what are they doing to armo :(((
SHADE WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT
noo poor cruz
whyy would mg introduce malik tenerife, the biggest sweetheart and shade’s closest friend and make me fall in love with him, and then in the SAME CHAPTER introduce cruz, a new best friend for shade and then just never mention malik again???? i love cruz but i miss malik
where is knightmare
“I REREAD THE ELLISON BOOK” ASTRID WROTE A BOOK
yikes a milady dude and homophobia all in one page!!
WHY IS EVERYONE IN THIS BOOK JUST TRANSFORMING INTO BOOKS
oh shit i just understood why mg says this is part animorphs
Malik’s back my boy
DEKKAS CAT IS NAMED EDITH WINDSOR I JUST----
DEKKA TOOK THE FRAMED PICTURE OF BRIANNA WITH HER OH MY GODDD
“Only now did Dekka see that those last four years had been a dream, unreal, somehow. The FAYZ was real.” dekka bby no :(((
oh my goooood taylor is back bitches i just got chills
SHE GRABBED THE CELEBRITY GOSSIP MAGAZINES OF COURSE SHE DID I LOVE HER
dekka be nice to taylor she’s had a hard life she deserves to know the goss :))
when they’re only talking baout the kids with power... when will edilio come in
aaaand there is drake ugh. “a violent, sadistic psychopath. A rapist. A torturer. A murderer”
EDILIO WAS THERE TOO THERE TOO THE FUCK
DID MG FORGET EDILIO ECISTS
BRIANNA DEKKA SAM ASTRID TAYLOR DRAKE LANA HUNTER ORC HAVE ALL BEN MENTIONED
WHERE IS EDILIO AND LANA
Drake responsible for 18 instances of rape mutilation and murder in the last year y i k e s
Justin has a lobster claw for one hand and a sword for the other o k a y
oh my god shade could kill tr*mp
“There are three types of superheroes, Shade: Hero, Villain and Monster” *looks into the camera like i’m on the office*
CAINE AND PENNY GOT THEIR MENTIONS
NOW GIVE ME EDILIO
Malik is still in love with shade rip me
oh no cruz bby you’re invisible :((
i feel like this series will be more hard sci-fi with aliens and government and powers than gone was, gone was more of a sci-fi/dystopian/lord of the flies/survival-mix
i’m worried about armo :((
me: had never read an animorphs book in my life also me: wow this reminds me so much of animorphs!
HES A POLAR BEAR NOW
THEY’RE LITERALLY SAYING THE WORD MORPHING
should be interesting to see what kind of shit mg will get for this y i k e s
WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK IS HAPØENING THE SEAN WAS HE TURNING INTO A CATERPILLAR WITH NO MOUTH WHAT THE FUCK HE IS FOUR YEARS OLD
OH THERES HIS MOUTH WHAT THE FUCK
fuuuuck i knew he would be knightmare
at least knightmare really is the name of a shitty pretentious art student dude
a group of girl scouts just fell to their deaths off the golden gate bridge
WHO ARE THE DARK WATCHERS
i actually think they’re aliens
pls get over brianna dekka
at least mg is realizing that brekka was kind of weird
why is dekka watching danish sex. what does that even mean.
this book is unrealistic bc it’s page number 208 and dekka still hasn’t thought about edilio. who goes that long without thinking about edilio.
oh no dekka is morphing with some animal too
DEKKA HAS MEDUSA HAIR WHAT THE FUCK
the cat died WHAT THE FUCK
“Motorcycle gangs and white supremacists and registered sex offenders, that’s who dominated Perdido Beach today” yikes
Dekka mentioned the word gaiaphage and i had a physical disgusted reaction, but not because of the actual gaiaphage, but bc of that fucking website. god i lvoe that gaiaphage.com is dead.
why has mg created a worldwide perdido beach situation but just given is three books to fix it
“I was Sam’s soldier” NO??? You wrre edilio’s soldier the fuck
EVERY TIME I SEE EDITH MY HEART SKIPS BECAUSE IT STARTS WITH EDI AND I THINK ITS FINALLY GOING TO BE EDILIO
Armo and Dekka is my new brotp
WHO THE FUCK IS JEHOVA
LESS VILLAIN POVS MICHAEL PLEASE
“Hey. You. Should. Um.... Stop. Being. An. Asshole.” SHADE
Combining the villains into one villain. Very schmart michael 👌🏻
PAGE 308 EDILIO MENTION OH MY GOD
Edilio on page 309 kill me cant even quote it
GRAVES STILL THERE
IN RESPECTFUL MEMORY TO BOTH THE WISE AND THE FOOLISH WHO STRUGGLED TO SURVIVE UNSPEAKABLE HORRORS IN THIS PLACE im 😭😭
ALBERT GOT HIS DUES YEAH
BUT HOW IS EDILIO TODAY
WHERE IS DINAA LOSER
GRAVE FOR MARY 😭
GRAVE FOR DUCK 😭
GRAVE FOR HUNTER 😭
GRAVE FOR ORC 😭
Grave for Caine 😐 “Caine Soren. “King of the FAYZ. Blaze of Glory”
FIRST DIANA MENTION AND ITS HOW MUU CAINE LOVED HER IM
BRIANNA HAS A LAST NAME SOS. “Brianna Berenson. “The Breeze”. None More Bold.”
DIANA IS HERE I REPEAT DIANA IS HERE IN THE FLESH AND STILL BEAUTIFUL
DIANA PUTS FLOWERS ON THE GRAVES ONCE A WEEK OH MY HOD YOU HAVE NOTHING TO BE SORRY ABOUT I MEAN YOU DID GIVE BIRTH TO GAIA AND EAT PANDA BUT STILL
DIANA HAS A JOB AS A BARISTA HER OWN PLACE IS SEVEN MONTHS SOBER AND HAVENT TRIED TO KILL HERSELF LATELY
WAS HER AND SAM DRINKING BUDDIES
THEY SERVE A SAM TEMPLE CUCKTAIL AND A LANA VODKA
“I GUESS THEIRONY THAT FAYZERS HAVE A TENDENCY TO DRINK TOO MUCH IS LOST ON THEM” TELL THEM DEKKA
“YOU WERE GOOD TO KEEP SAM AND STRID OUT OF IT” NO TELL THEM LOSERS
DOES DIANA LIVE IN PERDIDO BEACH :((((
“THIS IS THE MOST INTIMATE IVE EVER BEEN WITH A DUDE” SAME
When Roger still hasn’t been mentioned and you know he wasn’t really that important so you can’t really complained but you miss him
and how is edilio really dekka hmmm???
Eww this Drake Brittany thing is worse if possible
wait wait wait what hoe did they get there what
if i finish monster and still don’t know how edilio is doing i’ll sue
the villain...breathes fire. he’s a dragon
Shade looks like a the bizzare cross between a flea, a Power Ranger and a teenaged girl w h a t
Vincent Vu: part fish!
noooo not malik :(((
one half of me: where the fck is edilio go talk to him dekka other half of me: edilio deserves a peaceful life thank i for keeping him away from it all
OKAY BUT WOULD EDILIO AND SAM AND EVERYONE SEE DEKKA ON THE FBI MOST WANTED LIST AND HEAR ABOUT EVERYTHING GOING ON AND SAY YIKES NOT OUR PROBLEM??? No tf they would help her!!!!
DEKKA IS WITH SAM DEKKA IS WITH SAM I REPEAT DEKKA IS WITH SAM AND HE IS HER STRONG RIGHT ARM SHOOT ME LET ME DIE
im emo
the end
missing: quinn and roger
#gone series#just a warning this is a really long list of notes siukfdsasdkf#hightlighst include: this book is unrealistic nobody goes this long without thinking about edilio#Shade looks like a bizzare cross between a flea a power ranger and a teenaged girl#and ''why is dekka watching danish sex. what does that even mean''#i recommend this for gone-fans who doesn't want to read monster but wants to know what it's all about#and for people who have read monster and need a dumb refreshed before villain
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