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volinare · 1 year

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i dont think i actually want to die. Im scared of death and i dont like causing other people pain. I just feel pinned to this spot, suicide feels like the only way i could get anywhere, everything else is like... I could go, but I would just be shot back here by a rubber band.

I think i should try my options though, before anything graphic.

but id have to leave my siblings behind and my chance at getting a degree.

#theres jobs that have tuition reimbursement though...#and if i was on my own i could apply for fafsa. but... i feel like i dint deserve to have that lol #i just. im scared i guess. and guilty. and i dont want to hurt anybody #but it just feels like this inevitable part of my existence #okay now that ive shed a single man tear i have a plan lol #not suicide!! escape!!#..... ill probably give up before i even start but uhhhhh

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