#theres also a bm blog i like

[wakeupandsmellthecarcass]

I was going to rant about some of my favourite death metal blogs that don't post anymore, but one of them started posting again after almost 3 years♡ now I just have to wait for a new oldschool-deathmetal post.

[chronic-gastro-illness-culture]

sorry same person but this is why i get really kind of defensive and pissed off when people are all whatever about gastro issues especially ibs because it fucking kills like it hurts unlike any pain i’ve had before and people will still be like ‘yeah but it’s gross and stupid’ no it fucking sucks and i can’t get rid of it

also somebody literally said to my FACE the other day ‘oh my god you have IBS that’s literally so embarrassing’ and this is one of my close friends. i was also very clearly not in a jokey mood about it and was upset because my stomach hurt so your account is a godsend and i hope people can get over themselves and end the whole ‘ew why would you talk about that’ thing

chronic gastro illness rlly gets the ableism twofold one for the usual ableism of ppl not understanding the chronic in chronic illness or the pain n fatigue that comes w a chronic illness n second anything having to do w digestion is seen as a taboo subject bc “its gross” even tho its v natural

n like u said there r symptoms that r v debilitating ppl who dont have a chronic gastro illness dont stop to think abt how much having a digestive system that fundamentally doesnt work can be disruptive its not like we just shit more or less then the rest of the population theres the cramps n nausea that come before bms n that by diagnostic criteria dont immediately get better after having a bm theres the danger of dehydration when u have chronic diarrhea n everyone ik who has had a bout of constipation either bc of a chronic gastro illness or some other reason say its miserable ur nauseous n bloated n gassy n just feel over all bad

n the biggest one i think is how most ppl just eat n dont think much abt it but when u have a chronic gastro illness eating can feel like a battle field how is this gonna settle will eating make me feel better or worse ? n sometimes during bad episodes u know eating is gonna make u feel like shit but not eating is gonna make u feel worse so u just gotta power thru every meal u have on top of wtvr ibs symptoms ur having

able bodied ppl dont realize it is a privilege to be able to eat n shit wo having to think abt it at all able bodied ppl dont realize its a privilege not to have to know where a bathroom is at any given moment its a privilege for ppl to be able to look at ppl who suffer w ibs n say thats gross n embarrassing dont talk abt that bc they dont know the pain that comes w having ibs or any other chronic gastro illness

that rlly sux that u had to hear that at all but esp from a close friend of urs n im glad the blog could be a good space for u n good luck w ur flare up 🙏🏻

[enby-freeman]

Okay important question! I know very little about HLVRAI except what I've seen on your blog. But if you were gonna make an MLP au what species would you make all the characters?

You just so happened to ask the proud once owner of a HL MLP Ask blog from years ago the perfect question.

I've always seen Gordon as an earth pony. Hes seen as something special in BM and I like to think being seen as something special and being an earth pony has a strange kind of irony to it? Because earth ponies themselves are special in their own way, but to black mesa it just means hes gotta work twice as hard.

For HLVRAI I would keep him a earth pony qvq makes sence why he'd struggle with things more than the rest of the group.

With Coomer, the standard unicorn! I don't know I feel like it fits him most. Makes him doing ridiculous things sorta funny but also explainable with his magic. If not a unicorn then maybe a donkey thanks to his strength.

Bubby is absolutely without a doubt a kirin. With the entire fiery temper thing doubling with that fire magic I think it fits him super well. Very suiting to the whole 'has fire abilities' thing in the fandom, and also fitting for his personality.

Tommy and Gman are both Hippogriffs. The ability to move on land, sea, and sky seems fitting to the whole 'mysterious entity' thing for Gman and since Tommy is...canonly related to him? Hes also got those abilities. Plus the entire uh...thing with ponies not know much about the hippogriff. I just think it works super, super well for both of them. Plus it makes sense why Tommy wouldn't understand things as well as the others, hes not familiar with em.

And then Benrey is surprise surprise a Changeling. But...a Changeling before they're reformed. If not a Changeling then a Peryton. Peryton dont exist in the MLP universe but its fitting for both Benrey and Gman?? Buy yee uh,,changeling. Thrives off eating love and causing problems for everyone else because he thinks its funny.

Forzen's a standard pegasus for no real reason other than it just seems fitting for him with the whole 'feral salty attitude' he has.

And then theres Darnold who...quite honestly? I could see being an alcorn. Very versed in testing new things and trying different kinds of magic. Accidentally made himself an alicorn in the process of making new kinds of potions, but hey he doesn't mind that at all.