#theres a bunch of other sketches i can upload but keep forgetting to

[caredscared]

have finally doodled a bit for ideas for my animation storyboard to an Agust D song recently and i feel like i’m gaining a bit of my humanity and happiness back. even just a few doodles a day and setting up a creative project for myself again to fantasize about feels like a fresh breath of air.

art college w its bullies and bigoted environment nd discouraging ppl who prefer drawing and whatnot, rly ruined me so much and made my only known talent feel useless. but i have a nicer job nowadays (NOT YET HIRED OR PAID YET THOUGH SO UHMM HOPING FOR THAT) and i get to do both more research type stuff and designing for it so i love that a lot and it’s an OFFICE JOB which is honestly 100x better than the previous job which was physically rough nd paid minimum wage for only half the hours i was actually working. so maybe im getting somewhere better, mentally, finally.

and i mean, im still stressed abt a lot, if only state of the fcking world, the stupidity of Dutch people in this eugenic rightwing anti-scientific shithole where the general public doesnt give a shit abt the govt making as many ppl get infected as possible, ETC ETC, and im feeling weird abt doing smth for myself during all that?? but maybe it’s rly necessary bc im never relaxing and never getting out of burnout otherwise