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thethingything · 1 year ago

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a fun fact about us is that sometimes we will be having a bad time and our brain, in all its wisdom, will go "I know just what you need to help you cope with this: a guy who is having a worse time" and then it'll just make one and we have to figure out how to help the new guy with his wild source trauma which is probably meant to happen instead of dealing with the real life stuff that's going on but instead just kind of piles on top of it

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #I think it probably does help with processing stuff #but it's always like ''why is the source memory worse than the thing it's trying to mask though?''#also the new guy who's having a worse time is co-fronting so we're just having a weird time together #it's nice co-fronting with him though. we're dealing with pretty much the same emotions #but for him it's over source memories and for me it's over real life stuff #and he keeps saying things that make me feel very understood #anyway for a coping mechanism DID sure does give you a lot of extra stuff to cope with #we have several things going on and it means we're dissociating a lot and our amnesia has been ridiculously bad #so I can tell I got really upset and I technically know what I was upset over because it's the same few things that are going on #but if I try to actually think ''oh it must have been [thing]'' and acknowledge what the thing is that's upsetting me #there's a good chance I'll suddenly find myself very confused and disoriented 30 seconds later with no idea what just happened

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