#there’s this guy at my college that i’ve had a subconscious crush on since september

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3 Fearsinsignificance, being a burden, violence

3 things I lovepokemon, friends, nice shades of blue

2 turns ongood hugger, beard

2 turns offsmoking/drugs, aggression

My best frienddon’t really have One but the ol grunge contrast boys and the dcc + jared and me squad are all v important to me

Sexual orientationjust like… so fucking gay dude

How tall am I6′3″ / 190cm

What do I miss right nowa lot of my friends have moved out for the summer

Favourite colorturquoise / teal

Do I have a crushnot like… super consciously……. but i think i’m still working through some subconscious stuff……………..

Favourite placetough one. idk i’m good pretty much anywhere my friends are. if food’s there it’s also a plus

What am I listening to right nowmake it happen - john splithoff

Shoe sizesame as the number of this question

Eye colorblue

Hair colorbrownish blond naturally, front top is currently a faded green / bleach blond (i need to redye…. i’m not too huge a fan of the bleach blond look but others seem to like it on me)

Meaning behind my URLbig ol’ pokeboy

Favourite songall time is a tough one, my usual answer is bandages by hey rosetta! but i’m also super partial to lorde’s hard feelings / loveless and paramore’s last hope among others

Favourite bandtop 3: paramore, chvrches, hey rosetta!

How I feel right nowkinda wistful. just got back from 16 days of travel with some of my closest friends and it’s been a noticeable change in tone coming back to this coast and reacclimating to not being surrounded by friends for literally every waking moment.

Someone I lovemy mom? is that a cop out answer

My current relationship statussingle as ever

My relationship with my parentsmom and stepdad a+, dad irrelevant

Favourite seasoni usually answer summer bc it has my birthday and i was always off of school but i think i have a new fondness for spring

Tattoos and piercing i havenone

Tattoos and piercing i wantnot sure yet. probably no piercings but maybe some song lyric or video game related tattoos

The reasons I joined Tumblra friend was like “you seem like a tumblr person” so i got one but then i asked to follow her and she said she actually didn’t have one so i got stuck in this eternal sinkhole

Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?i did like once when i was talking to a guy from tinder like a year and a half ago but then he ghosted me lmao

Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?it’s my sibling so like yes in a “love you, take care” goodbye way but not in the manner this question was supposed to be answered

How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?if i’m showering like 45 minutes, otherwise as little as 10

Have you shaved your legs in the past three days?nope

Where am I right now?back in my apartment after two weeks on the west coast and two days at my parents’ home

Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?reasonable i guess? gotta protect those ears man, hearing loss is no joke

Do I live with my Mom and Dad?nope. haven’t since summer before junior year

Am I excited for anything?just visited a whole bunch of apartments today and i filled out an intent to lease form for one of them so that’s exciting

Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?idk? at some points in my life i have but at this point i don’t really tell everything everything to like… anyone lol

How often do I wear a fake smile?[paramore’s fake happy playing in the distance]

If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?sara bareilles? the mcelboys? idk

What do I think about most?usually i don’t have one specific thing i think about a lot. as of late one of them has been….. trying to sort through some Gay Emotions re: stopping myself from falling for a straight friend again and trying to break that cycle and i think i’ve finally done it [lmao expect a /tagged/personal post sometime soon]

Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?depends. i get that Sweet Validation from being in front of it but i also really value behind the scenes work

What was the last lie I told?i couldn’t tell ya. haven’t had to tell one recently

Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?if it’s with friends i’m fine with either? theres always something nice about seeing someone’s face but it’s not necessarily an all-the-time thing

Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?ghosts: not reallyaliens: hell yeah

Do I believe in magic?in a young girl’s heart?(nah but showmanship is a hell of a skill)

Do I believe in luck?nah

What’s the weather like right now?it’s dark and i’m not opening my windowit’ll probably be 94 degrees by the time i post this after i sleep and wake up to finish more questions

What was the last book I’ve read?my brother’s husband by gengoroh tagame! just some good gay content that i found in portland at a giant bookstore that i recognized from tumblr. can’t wait for volume 2 to come out in september

Do I have any nicknames?friends sometimes call me 7, and i get called steve occasionally and really dislike it

Do I spend money or save it?mostly save. though i kinda splurged on this travel trip because it’s the last time i’m gonna be able to do something like this for quite a while.

Can I touch my nose with a tounge?no i’m apparently medically tongue tied so i can’t stick my tongue out that far

Favourite animal?i really like sea otters! also elephants and chinchillas and dogs

What was I doing last night at 12 AM?being jet lagged

What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?nsp’s cover of everybody wants to rule the world

What is my favorite word?idk i have a list of cool sounding words on my phonedynamo is the first one on that list so i’ll roll with that

My top 5 blogs on tumblrah

If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?just fuckin.... have empathy once in a while

Do I have any relatives in jail?i don’t think so? i think my dad might’ve been in/out of jail at some point bc he never pays child support but i haven’t talked to him in years so idk

What is my current desktop picture?(attached at the bottom of this post)

Had sex?no

Bought condoms?no they just gave them out for free at college and then i don’t have a use for them

Gotten pregnant?that seems.... difficult

Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?not that i can recall

Had job?yeah, a few over my college years and now a more permanent one coming up

Smoked weed?no and i don’t plan on it

Smoked cigarettes?no and i don’t plan on it

Drank alcohol?yep

Am I a vegetarian/vegan?nope

Been overweight?uh i was a super “chunky” baby as i am often told

Been underweight?i think i’ve teetered on that line a few times esp. as i was hitting growth spurts but i’m past that now

Gotten my heart broken?yeah quite a few timesnot in like the “relationship that went south” way but just falling for straight guys over and over and the inevitability of what that comes with

Been to prom?yeah it was fun

Been in airplane?tons. i’ve been on 5 in the past 2 weeks

Learned another language?i learned a fair bit of chinese in middle/high school. still retain more of it than i expected to. tried learning korean on duolingo for a bit but i don’t think that course is quite there yet on the platform

Wore make up?not that i recall? unless like facepaint counts

Dyed my hair?plenty! probably gonna do it again soon

Had a surgery?i had my wisdom teeth taken out, i think that’s about it

Met someone famous?winston and i met mat kearney before a concert in march so that was cool

Stalked someone on a social network?it’s easier than you’d think

Been fishing?yes but not in the past like 10 years

Been rejected by a crush?every time babey

What do I want for birthday?UHHHHHHHH wowzers idk. new apartment furnishings maybe?

Do I like my handwriting?it’s ok! not my fave i’ve seen but still good

Where do I want to live when older?dunno yet! probably a big city of some sort but likely not nyc or la

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?not in recent memory anyway. 

What I’m really bad atwidowmaker

What my greatest achievments arewinning hackmit probably? also i graduated so that’s fun

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to menot today, satan

What I’d do if I won in a lotteryinvest, donate, splurge

What do I like about myselfi like to think that i’m friendly? and pretty good at avoiding conflict

My closest Tumblr friendgrunge contrast bois

Any question you’d like??

Are you outgoing or shy?shy for the most part around people i don’t know. occasional bursts of outgoing if i need to meet people but that’s few and far between

What kind of people are you attracted to?people who make me laugh and look like they give good hugs. bonus for beards and being bigger than me.

Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?probs not but who knows! i’m open to the possibility but not exactly looking right now so odds are low i guess

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?depends on who with? but also i just like... can’t contribute much beyond theorycrafting lmao

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?noa and i had a p deep talk driving from mt. hood to multnomah falls

What does the most recent text that you sent say?“uh slateport city”

What are your 5 favorite songs right now?as of late i’ve listened to a lot of sophie by the altogether, somebody else by the 1975, 200% by akdong musician, happy pills by norah jones, and swag午覺 by outlander

Do you like it when people play with your hair?i guess i don’t really mind it? but it’s not something i think about often

Do you think there is life on other planets?hopefully!! i just think that’s a super cool concept and the statistical likeliness of it is so high

Do you like bubble baths?have not had one in like 13 years but i imagine they’d still be just as nice

Do you like your neighbors?yeah they’re like my best friends

Where would you like to travel?japan (likely tokyo) and dubai (once they make being gay not prison-worthy and uhhhhh stop exploiting basically slave labor thanks)

Favorite part of your daily routine?i like just aimlessly browsing the web and pursuing what interests me

What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?my frame i guess. i just don’t like being so thin but thems the bones i’ve got

What do you do when you wake up?wait until the last possible second before getting out of bed and dressed

Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?idk??? i think i’m fine rn but i guess i wouldn’t mind a bit darker or like... at least the ability to tan instead of burn lmao

Do you ever want to get married?i think so!

If your hair long enough for a pony tail?some parts of it are surprisingly long but since my sides/back are short it’s not conducive to a ponytail. not that i’d really want that anyway

Would you rather live without TV or music?tv easily

Have you ever liked someone and never told them?it’s usually like... fall for someone who’s straight or otherwise unavailable, try to avoid feeling that way, fail, watch as feelings gradually become so overwhelming i get anxiety, tell said person, get rejectedexcept replace usually with alwaysso yeah i typically end up telling people i like them but it’s usually prefaced with “i know you can’t do anything about this but” and then ensuring we can still “just be friends”the cycle sucks but i figure it’s better to let someone know why i’ve been acting weird instead of just having them think i’m strange

What are your favorite stores to shop in?uniqlo for fashion, target for feeling a strange sense of comfort

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?i want to say yes but i also know i have very limited patience for people who show no remorse or do something extremely heinous

Do you smile at strangers?sometimes i do a small grin just so i don’t look like i’m glaring (thanks resting bitch face)

Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?i don’t think so???

Ever wished you were someone else?transiently i guess? 

Favourite makeup brand?don’t use it

Last thing you ate?cheeky nando’s with the fam for dinner last night

Ever won a competition? For what?i won hackmit with a few friends for doing a cool coding thing! and a battle of the bands with the hip hop orchestra to open for lil dicky and t-pain. also i won a beauty pageant freshman year lmao

Ever been in love? i don’t think so. my usual interpretation of this is “reciprocated and romantic” which hasn’t happened yet

Facebook or Twitter?fb for messenger, twitter for content at this point

Twitter or Tumblr?tumblr i think, i just know the ins and outs here better than most other platforms

Are you watching tv right now?nope

What colour are your towels?gray or teal

Favourite ice cream flavour?vanilla is a good ol’ reliable. also a fan of moose tracks, cookie dough, mint chocolate chip, watermelon... the list is endless

First person you talked to today?line

Last person you talked to today?line (it’s like the only text i’ve sent since i woke up two hours ago)

Name a person you hate?tr*mp

Name a person you love?deja vu?

Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?see 127

Do you tan a lot?NO I BURN

Have any pets?parents have a dog named zoe and i love her. i don’t own any myself

Do you type fast?i can? but i’m often laying on my side only using one hand to type so oops

Do you regret anything from your past?i dunno... a lot of the mistakes i’ve made help me get here today. so i’m not too worried.

Ever broken someone’s heart?not that i’m aware of. i’ve rejected a couple people before but that’s about it

Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?yes.

Is cheating ever okay?no. though i used to think it was like 8000% unforgiveable like you cheat once, i cut you out of my life, but i saw an interesting video exploring why people cheat and possible ways to fix a relationship after an affair which helped change my thinking. it’s still a WILDLY super shitty thing to do and i would never, but it’s not a final nail in the coffin to me any more. but still an EXTREMELY quick way to shatter trust

Do you believe in true love?not like a fairy tale, but i do believe that you can reach a point of pure trust and love and support with a partner

What your zodiac sign?leo

Do you believe in ghosts?deja vu pt. two electric boogalooi don’t think so

Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?“Dad! Dad, are you listening?!”(followed by “They put tempura in sushi in Canada!”) from my brother’s husbandand here’s the image of my desktop bg, sorry for the black borders idk what’s up with that