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The last thing on Steve's mind was Eddie Munson. Even when he was all Dustin could talk about. He barely spared the guy a thought when they were in school together to begin with. Eddie occupied precisely zero percent of his brain space.
So it was kind of jarring to have him suddenly take up all the space he had. Steve had come to the school to pick up Dustin, Mike, and Lucas only to see them crowding around Eddie, who was holding one of the nurse's trusty ice packs to his face.
Steve usually just honked his horn to get them to run up and get in, but there was no separating them right now. And the moment Steve walked over, there was a cacophony of voices, shouting over each other. He had to shout even louder to get them to stop and Eddie's wince didn't go unnoticed.
Once it was quiet, Steve only asked. "Who?"
"Jason and his cronies", Mike spat out.
"All of you, car. Now."
"But-!"
"Now!", Steve ordered. The three of them shifted and Steve realized he needed to be specific because obviously they weren't going to leave Eddie behind. And leaving him wasn't a part of Steve's plan either.
"All of you. Munson, you get to ride shotgun."
He didn't wait long enough to see Eddie's expression before turning to get in his car. There was a mad scramble and once again they continued to shout at each other, trying to tell the story. Steve didn't even bother trying to quiet them then, settling for having to piece together the story.
He knew Lucas had tried out for basketball. Between Steve and Mr. Sinclair, he'd gone from hopeless to hopeful. Steve even warned Lucas that sometimes the team did a little hazing for the new recruits. Apparently the hazing went too far in Lucas' case and Eddie stepped in.
Steve never would have expected Eddie to care. To actually step between Lucas and danger when he'd gone out for sports instead of his weird nerd club. Steve found it easy to relate. When they got to his house, he didn't mean to, but basically manhandled Eddie to the bathroom where the first aid kit was.
"Umm-"
"Don't talk", Steve said. Both because he needed to work on his face and also because he wasn't sure what Eddie would say. This was weird, of course it was. But it was the right thing to do. Steve wondered when the right thing would start to feel less weird. After patching Eddie up, he sent him to the living room. Dustin had already turned the tv to something, taking advantage of the Harrington's sound system. And Mike and Lucas were already raiding the fridge.
"Don't get too comfortable", Steve said, hands on his hips. He sighed before heading up to his room. The nail bat was still in his trunk, but he wouldn't need a weapon that rough. When he came back downstairs, bat hanging over his shoulder, Eddie's non-swollen eye got wide.
"Where are you going with that?"
"Taking care of some business", Steve said. "If I'm not back in an hour, order some pizza. Eddie and only Eddie is allowed to drink the beers in the fridge."
There was a trio of groans, but Eddie was still to gobsmacked to speak.
"What the hell is he about to do?", he finally found the words once Steve was out the door.
"Probably gonna bust some kneecaps on Lucas' behalf", Mike said before crunching on a handful of potato chips.
Eddie looked to Dustin for confirmation. There was no way, right? But Dustin only grinned.
"I told you. Bad. Ass."
Eddie still didn't believe it even when Steve returned, a bit sweaty and hair slightly mussed, the beginning of a bruise on his cheek but otherwise unscathed.
He had to believe it when he found out Jason and a few other players suddenly had broken hands or legs.
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(NOTE: this particular ask is for when Leon and Diane are grown up, not teenagers or anything. Although some of the lighter asks of this post may apply across all ages, some more adult topics do not.) Is your OC romantic in the traditional sense? Do they enjoy giving or receiving gifts of flowers or confectionary? Or are there other courtship traditions from their culture of origin that are important to them? Leon is not romantic in the traditional sense. If he is/ever was, it's because he tailored his romance to what Diane most positively responded to. He has no framework of what true romantic actions are beside maybe innocent physical contact.
How important is sex to them in a relationship? Do they see it as something essential to their happiness? Would they be able to remain in a monogamous relationship with someone they loved without sex? I don't think Leon would be that down bad. What he's looking for the most is an emotional connection. That's what he's been after his whole life. He would be perfectly happy in a monogamous relationship with Diane with or without that level of physical intimacy.
How do they feel about public displays of romantic affection? Does it make them uncomfortable? How do they feel if a romantic partner kisses them in public? Leon hates PDA. Even with Diane, the most he'll do is hold her hand.
Do they believe in love at first sight? Have they ever developed a crush or romantic (or erotic) fixation upon a stranger based on their appearance alone? Unless it's toward Diane, then no.
How closely is their opinion of their own beauty (or lack thereof) linked to their confidence? Do they see themselves as more or less worthy of love or sex based on how attractive they feel? I think that since Leon already doesn't think too highly of himself, that it would bleed into this area of his life too. I think it's less about attractiveness and more of how he is as a person. He may not feel worthy of intimacy with Diane because of
Philia â Affectionate, Platonic Love.
Does your OC have a Best Friend? If they do then how long have they known each other and how did they meet? If they don't then do they have a close group of friends they love equally? Or are they more of a loner? Leon has never really had a 'best friend' outside of Diane. He's known her since they were both tweens, and they met at school for special children with superpowers (or the elite)
Does your OC find it easy to make friends? Or are there barriers to them doing so? If so then are these due to issues of inclination, communication, or something else entirely? Leon finds it hard to make friends with other people because not only is he quiet and 'weird' to other people, but also he doesn't really like other people.
What qualities does your OC most value in a friend? Loyalty? Shared sense of humour? Or something else? He absolutely values loyalty above all things.
Is your OC able to build close friendships with people very different from themselves? Perhaps in terms of culture, age or personality? No. Leon is an outcast in general.
What is their most fervent wish for their best friend(s)? How far would they go to make it happen? He wants Diane to love him. He would go so far to make it happen, even if he sacrificed what little personality he thinks he has.
Storge â Unconditional, Familial Love.
Did your OC's parents love them unconditionally? If so then has this helped them feel confident as an adult? If not then how has this affected them? What were the conditions their family attached to their relationship? Leon's foster parents don't even have a conditional love for him. What he is to them is something to show off; something to say 'look at how we took this poor child in, and turned him into a success'. As an adult, he carries part of this relationship over to his relationship with Diane. He wants to impress her, to make her proud of him. Even if they're already married and he does have her in a sense, he's afraid of losing that love.
Does your OC have children? If so then how fiercely do they love them? If they have more than one then do they love them all equally? If they do not have children then is this part of their future plans? Leon as an adult would have children with Diane. He loves them, yes, but not as much as his wife.
How far does parental approval (imagined or expressed) impact upon their current sense of self-worth? What might they sacrifice or attempt to achieve in order to ensure the approval of their parents?
Does your OC have any siblings? If so then did their parents have a favourite growing up? Has their relationship with their sibling changed in adulthood? If they don't have any siblings then do they perhaps feel they have missed out on an important relationship? Do they have any especially close friends who go some way towards filling that role? He does not have siblings, and he doesn't particularly care.
Ludus â Playful, Flirtatious Love.
Does your OC have any particular favourite chat up lines? If not for themselves then perhaps ones they have suggested to a friend? How effective do these tend to be? N/A, he doesn't know how to flirt.
Is your OC particularly skilled at flirting? Have they had to practice this or does it just happen naturally? Nope â ď¸
How does your OC feel about one night stands? Have they ever enjoyed a night of passionate romance with a stranger? Is this something they are quite keen on recreationally? Or only something they might engage in under specific circumstances (such as the eve of a battle or after a difficult breakup)? Leon hates the idea of a one night stand. He wouldn't do it with anybody, but if he were to do that with Diane I think he would just feel empty. Maybe even kind of cheap for doing that. He would feel he had ruined everything and felt shame for going with base instincts.
Who was your OC's first crush? How do they feel about it now? Diane. And he's still obsessed with her.
What seduction techniques are most likely to be effective when it comes to your OC? Are there some things guaranteed to get them going? Or are they immune to such things? I can't think of anything because Diane isn't exactly a master at that stuff either. They would both just have to be frank with each other. Maybe Diane might be better at it (which isn't saying much. Leon is super awkward.)
Pragma â Committed, Long-Lasting Love.
Is your OC in a committed long-term relationship (or relationships)? If so then what has contributed to this relationship lasting so well? If they are not in such a relationship, then is this something that saddens them or which they regret? Depends on the Au. Sometimes he is, sometimes he isn't. When he gets lucky and he is, it's the highlight of his life and the reason why he does anything. When he gets *really* unlucky, he either takes out his anger on other people or takes his grief out on himself.
What is the biggest challenge that your OC has had to overcome in a long-term relationship or friendship? What helped them get through this? N/A
Are your OC's parents still together? To what degree do they look to their own parents as a model for their own ideal relationship? N/A ... (bio parents) his father is dead and he got taken away from his mother.
After the initial fires of passion cool to some degree, what would keep your OC engaged in a relationship? Shared goals? Similar values? Or contented companionship? N/A, he's always on fire.
What importance or value does your OC attach to marriage? Do they believe that it is important to make a public statement of commitment to another person (or persons)? Or are they more concerned about inheritance rights and security for their family? Or do they not see marriage as a necessary signifier of commitment and loyalty? Leon highly values marriage. The idea of becoming physically and spiritually bonded with Diane is something that holds him together as an adult. He would do mostly all he does now even if they weren't married, but then being married gives him an excuse. (I.e. "She's my wife, I have to.")
OC Questions on the Seven Forms of Love.
A little list of OC questions based on the seven types of love identified in Ancient Greek thought. Obviously this is a highly simplified presentation of some quite complex philosophical concepts from Classical History, intended more for the purposes of entertainment than education. I also left out Mania, which is arguably an eighth type of love (Obsessive), because I'm keeping it mostly positive in these tricky times!
Eros â Romantic, Passionate Love.
Is your OC romantic in the traditional sense? Do they enjoy giving or receiving gifts of flowers or confectionary? Or are there other courtship traditions from their culture of origin that are important to them?
How important is sex to them in a relationship? Do they see it as something essential to their happiness? Would they be able to remain in a monogamous relationship with someone they loved without sex?
How do they feel about public displays of romantic affection? Does it make them uncomfortable? How do they feel if a romantic partner kisses them in public?
Do they believe in love at first sight? Have they ever developed a crush or romantic (or erotic) fixation upon a stranger based on their appearance alone?
How closely is their opinion of their own beauty (or lack thereof) linked to their confidence? Do they see themselves as more or less worthy of love or sex based on how attractive they feel?
Philia â Affectionate, Platonic Love.
Does your OC have a Best Friend? If they do then how long have they known each other and how did they meet? If they don't then do they have a close group of friends they love equally? Or are they more of a loner?
Does your OC find it easy to make friends? Or are there barriers to them doing so? If so then are these due to issues of inclination, communication, or something else entirely?
What qualities does your OC most value in a friend? Loyalty? Shared sense of humour? Or something else?
Is your OC able to build close friendships with people very different from themselves? Perhaps in terms of culture, age or personality?
What is their most fervent wish for their best friend(s)? How far would they go to make it happen?
Storge â Unconditional, Familial Love.
Did your OC's parents love them unconditionally? If so then has this helped them feel confident as an adult? If not then how has this affected them? What were the conditions their family attached to their relationship?
Does your OC have children? If so then how fiercely do they love them? If they have more than one then do they love them all equally? If they do not have children then is this part of their future plans?
How far does parental approval (imagined or expressed) impact upon their current sense of self-worth? What might they sacrifice or attempt to achieve in order to ensure the approval of their parents?
Does your OC have any siblings? If so then did their parents have a favourite growing up? Has their relationship with their sibling changed in adulthood? If they don't have any siblings then do they perhaps feel they have missed out on an important relationship? Do they have any especially close friends who go some way towards filling that role?
Is your OC able to love without necessarily needing or expecting reciprocation or reward? Or are all their relationships to some extent transactional? Have they ever loved another person unconditionally, whether a child or another adult?
Agape â Selfless, Universal Love.
Does your OC wish to make the world a better place? How far do they see that as being their responsibility? What lengths would they go to in order to help achieve this?
Does your OC feel a spiritual connection to the world around them? Do they have a particular love for nature or living things?
To what extent does your OC believe in the value (or even existence) of true altruism? Do they see an unselfish concern for the welfare of others as being naĂŻve or foolish? Or as a moral quality to which people should aspire?
Does your OC have a religious faith which emphasises the importance of a love for all people? If so then do they try to follow these teachings authentically? Or do they just pay lip-service to them? If not then do they follow a more martial or mercantile faith? Or none at all?
Does your OC find it easy to empathise with their enemies? Or do they see it as important to dehumanise them in order to combat them with sufficient determination?
Ludus â Playful, Flirtatious Love.
Does your OC have any particular favourite chat up lines? If not for themselves then perhaps ones they have suggested to a friend? How effective do these tend to be?
Is your OC particularly skilled at flirting? Have they had to practice this or does it just happen naturally?
How does your OC feel about one night stands? Have they ever enjoyed a night of passionate romance with a stranger? Is this something they are quite keen on recreationally? Or only something they might engage in under specific circumstances (such as the eve of a battle or after a difficult breakup)?
Who was your OC's first crush? How do they feel about it now?
What seduction techniques are most likely to be effective when it comes to your OC? Are there some things guaranteed to get them going? Or are they immune to such things?
Pragma â Committed, Long-Lasting Love.
Is your OC in a committed long-term relationship (or relationships)? If so then what has contributed to this relationship lasting so well? If they are not in such a relationship, then is this something that saddens them or which they regret?
What is the biggest challenge that your OC has had to overcome in a long-term relationship or friendship? What helped them get through this?
Are your OC's parents still together? To what degree do they look to their own parents as a model for their own ideal relationship?
After the initial fires of passion cool to some degree, what would keep your OC engaged in a relationship? Shared goals? Similar values? Or contented companionship?
What importance or value does your OC attach to marriage? Do they believe that it is important to make a public statement of commitment to another person (or persons)? Or are they more concerned about inheritance rights and security for their family? Or do they not see marriage as a necessary signifier of commitment and loyalty?
Philautia â Self Love.
Does your OC have a healthy sense of their own worth and value? Or do they see themselves as failing to live up to their original potential? Perhaps they are convinced of their own sinful or inadequate nature?
Does your OC believe that it is important to love themselves in the first instance? Perhaps in order to be able to give and receive love authentically? Or because they believe first and foremost in "looking after number one"?
Does your OC judge themselves by the same standards as they apply to others? Or are they sometimes hypocritical in condemning others for faults they also possess? Or perhaps they find it easier to forgive others for things that they cannot abide in themselves?
Which of your OC's qualities makes them the most proud? Do they think more people should be like them in this regard? Or do they quite like being rare in possessing it?
Has your OC always had the same opinion of themselves or has this changed over time? Have they learned to love themselves - perhaps with the help of others - as their journey progressed? Or have the consequences of their actions only served to erode their sense of self-worth?
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Hey I saw your post and honestly this is my first time making a request. How about arcane characters with a cat like reader? Idk it's just a thought that came (sorry if that's a bit weird)
Dunno whether this answers your request like you imagined. Also probs shit fire time writing for some of these characters.
Viktor found your cat like personality quite interesting and humorous if he wasnât within the lab, working with things that normally didnât capture your interest, unless they glowed of course.
Other than that it felt as though you were intentionally acting up in his lab for a reaction, like a cat would gauge the reactions of their owners before pushing a glass off the table. Thatâs how Viktor often felt with you
Then he has to keep an eye on you to make sure you didnât touch anything dangerous because you were captivated by its light.
âNo, itâs dangerous and could hurt you my dear.â He so often warms you as he guides your hand away when he felt it was dangerously close to what he was working with. Your mind didnât head his warning, only the fact that there was a shinny object in the laboratory and it was the only thing you could focus on.
âIf so dangerous, why is it shining as though it wants me to touch it then?â You responded, daring to touch the object once more and Viktor swore you either knew what you were doing and playing him for a fool, or you had no self preservation skills within your entire body to fight back against your urge to touch a dangerous foreign object.
Itâs literally a stand still between the two of you and one that happens far too often that Viktor knows that this was all part of your plan, and unfortunately for him he falls for it almost always. He watches you while you watch him before doing something rash, making think youâve actually touched the dangerous object, only to look at you unamused when you smiled at him mischievously as you wiggled your unharmed fingers at him.
This often leads you to being banned from the lab for pulling a stunt like that, however this was more for your safety and for him to calm his racing heart. Youâll kill this poor man with your antics but he wouldnât want you any other way, especially when you cuddled up to him for warmth and sleep there.
It soothes him just as much as it soothes you.
Ekko found himself often wondering where it was you went sometimes.
He sees you in once place and then you disappear the next, returning to base only when you felt it necessary of you to do so, illusive and vague of where youâve been it was often a bit frustrating. You couldâve been in serious danger for all he was aware and when he confronts you about this behaviour of yours, youâd only shrug and say:
âWhere it is a go on my own time isnât something you should waste time worrying over.â Before leaving to go elsewhere within the base and lounge against one of the trees thick and sturdy branches, eyes closed in content as you softly drift off into a light nap.
How the fuck you got up there, heâll never know other than the fact that you managed to get up there in the first place with effortless ease.
Ekkoâs nickname for you was either kitty or something along the lines of a cat based pun. You hated all of them equally but Ekko only feels more vindicated when you only proven his perception of you right whenever you displayed a trait that was common amongst cats. Whether thatâd be silently judging everyone from your perch way up high, or lounging in his bed, more specifically where he had laid moments prior, feeding off of the warmth that lingered there or otherwise Ekko would find humour in you cat like traits because they were the things he loved the most.
(In a timeline where they actually have phones I can imagine him sending you cat memes and saying âthis you?â Or âI found your relativeâ he thinks heâs funny, and he is but you wonât admit it out of petty pride)
However the one thing that you could always hold over Ekkoâs head was the fact that you could silently manoeuvre your way into a room without him knowing and managing to catch him off guard. Ekko didnât find it particularly funny but he lets up eventually and admits that it was kinda funny that you managed to take him by surprise. This was why you were more suited to missions heavily requiring a person with an abundance of stealth and agility.
âAlways landing on your feet arenât you?â Heâd tease but you would let it slid as you shrugged your shoulders and reply. âWhat can I say? It kinda comes with the territory donât you think?â
âYou sure you werenât a cat in your past life or something?â She would ask as she raised a brow at you as you cuddled into her side, much like a cat would when in they wanted to leech off is the warmth of a human.
âNo, why you ask?â You say as you began to close your eyes, her warmth blanketing you almost immediately, and becoming increasingly sleepy.
âYou act like one for starters with how lazy you are.â She pointed out and youâd only scoff at her, resting your head on her shoulder, having become too comfortable with your current position to even be bothered to move.
âIâm not lazy, Iâm merely taking advantage of the beauty that is power naps.â You defend yourself and it was Sevikaâs turn to scoff, having heard this excuse countless times before, and it never stopped her from continuing to compare your personality to that of a common house cat.
She disliked it at first, finding it weird and annoying at the fact that you didnât seem all that bothered with the ongoings of Zaun, instead favouring to rest in high places that provided warmth or close to it and watching everyone with clear judgement within your eyes. However that judgment did end up saving her from time to time, not that sheâd ever admit to this, as she was confident in her own abilities to smell a bitch from a mile away.
Though the more as time passed she grew to find it somewhat easier to deal with, though you cuddling up to her for warmth did put her off now and then, affection wasnât commonplace in Zaun; so forgive her for not exactly taking to it immediately. Though each time you did cuddle into her side, her urge to create distance between you dwindled, from Perivale shoving you away from her, to slowly accepting that this was her life now.
âSure, thatâs a hell of a way to avoid saying that youâre lazy.â Sevika smirks when you glared at her, clearly insulted by this, before moving off of her to go rest elsewhere on the bed you shared and making sure your back was towards her in an effort to show your disagreement with her statement. âNot. Lazy. I just like napping.â You retorted.
âYeah, sure keep telling yourself that, Iâm sure itâll be true one day.â Sevika jokes and your shoulders only deflate more, knowing youâll never win this war with Sevika when her mind is made up. Sheâs always in the right in most cases.
Mel is all too familiar with your cat like traits that nothing you do is out of the ordinary to her.
She finds humour and amusement in you participating in things commonly associated with felines. A human cat is what you were in her eyes as you slept the easiest youâve ever slept when besides her, her presence was calming and was more then enough to have you reduced to a relaxed state before succumbing to sleep.
She just had that effect on you and you loved it as much as she does as she got to run her hand down your back.
âYouâre practically purring.â She teases.
âItâs not my fault you know exactly what makes me melt.â You replied as you smiled up at her, never having gotten use to having this absolute goddess of a woman bless you with her smile, her heart, her everything.
Mel smiles softly. âYou donât exactly made it much of a challenge.â She says as she watched the way you practically leaned in towards her touch, eyes closed in content with a smile spread across your face that she swore your nonexistent tail would be swishing from side to side. She has been in this position countless times before and yet it never gets old with how content she felt when moments like these between you and her freely exist within her mind.
You donât exactly make it hard for her not to love you like she did, it came to you as easy a breathing as thatâs how quick you were to fall for her, almost as if it was as though you were breathing; Easy, effortlessly and natural.
âHow can I when you read me so effortlessly and without fail?â You replied back in almost a purr, a mischievous smile spread wide across your lips, âI shouldnât need to hide myself from my lovers eyes, for she knows me all too well.â You add. Another thing Mel adored was your cunning but cautious mind and the way you seemed oddly too relaxed for some, watching those very same individuals like they were merely mouses that squeaked about their freedom; like you were being amused by rather was being said in meetings as though you knew something they didnât.
You were like the Cheshire Cat, often times speaking in riddles that only she herself understands.
Mel kisses the tip of your nose. âYou smile like the cat that caught the canary,â she says as she pulls away. âLearning more about you is more interesting and intriguing than the last.â
âThen I hope I stay that way for a long while.â You said, smirking when you felt her kiss your lips.
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frankie "catfish" morales x f!reader
You accidently send Frankie a text that he wasn't supposed to see.
~1.5k words
tags: EXPLICIT, accidently sending a screenshot meant for someone else, reader is feral (she just like me), sexting, mention of light choking, virtual mutual masturbation (m & f!), flirting, Frankie is a consent king!, dirtyyyy talk, voice notes, nudes, nut vid with the sound on, they're so horny for each other
this is my first Frankie fic and I've been thoroughly enjoying myself in the Catfish Pond ;) I hope y'all like the text format, I had fun writing it like this. special shoutout to my babe @almostempty !!! she matches my freak, feeds my delusions & sparks my horny thots. thank you for cheering me on and helping with the dialogue I love you LOTS <3333
consulted this page for spanish used :)
translations:
princesa - princess
tĂłcame - touch me
que cosa/cosita mas linda - what a pretty/pretty little thing
mierda - shit
ay dios - oh god
hazme el amor - make love to me
banners by: @cafekitsune <3
smut below the cut, y'all know the drill!
Frankie: You coming tomorrow?Â
You: Yes, of course :)Â
Frankie: Good.Â
Bestie: bitch if you donât make a move on fish
Bestie: Itâs been months!!! Find out why they call him Catfish ;)Â
You: STOPPPPÂ
You: youâre right tho I am dying to know
You: Wanna suck his dick til the skin falls OFFÂ
You caption the screenshot of Frankieâs latest Instagram post and text it to your bestie who will appreciate your level of freakiness.Â
You continue your scrolling.Â
*ding*Â
Frankie: I don't think this message was meant for me, princesa. Â
Opening his text, you realize to your horror that you sent your thirsty thoughts TO Frankie. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuuuuuck!
You: shit, Iâm SO so so incredibly sorry! Totally inappropriate and not cool. I definitely meant to send that to someone else. Totally exiling myself from the group.Â
Frankie: You meant to tell someone else that you wanna suck my dick til the skin falls off?Â
You: It wasnât for you. Please forget you saw it. Please Frankie :(Â
Frankie: hell of a thing to send to someone. how am I supposed to forget the idea now?
You: Pretend. It was a mistake.Â
Frankie: a mistake? as in, you didnât mean it?Â
You: Can we drop it?Â
Frankie: seemed pretty specific for a mistake. you got freaky with it
You: It doesnât matter. It was stupid. Please let it goÂ
Frankie: I donât think I can, princesa
Frankie: not after imagining itÂ
Frankie: You sent a whole screenshot, with a colorful caption attached. That's intentional.
If you werenât so humiliated, youâd be giggling and kicking your feet in the air that he is calling you princess, but you can only assume he is being patronizing.Â
You: This is so fucking embarrassing.Â
Frankie: Not too embarrassed to keep texting thoughâŚ
You: Frankie donâtÂ
Frankie: You really think about me like that?Â
You: I think you already know the answer to that
Frankie: I do, but I wanted to hear it from you. This time directly to me
Frankie: I think about youÂ
Frankie: All the time
You: Frankie, please.Â
You: I already feel terribleÂ
Frankie: Never thought youâd see me like that. Now youâre telling me youâve been thinking about my cock? and you want me to drop it?Â
You: Please donât fuck with me. Iâm already mortified beyond belief like I canât show my face around here anymore!! Iâm sorry I sent it okay?Â
You: Iâll skip the kickback if it's going to be too weird now.Â
Frankie: Wouldnât be the same without you there. Iâd never tell you not to come.Â
Frankie: If you really want me to drop it, I will. just say the wordÂ
Frankie: but you should know
Frankie: I think youâre gorgeous, hilarious, too fucking smart to be hanging out with us Â
Frankie: I lose my mind goddamn mind when Iâm near youÂ
Frankie: and knowing youâve been thinking about me too has me hard as a fucking rockÂ
You: Do you really mean that?Â
Frankie: Yes I do, baby. You have no idea what you do to meÂ
You: Yeah? I might need some enlightenment.Â
Thereâs a pause. You brace for impact; that he is really pulling your leg and he and the guys are doubled over laughing at your expense.Â
Frankie: Might be better if you hear it straight from the Fishâs mouth
Frankie: Get it? Like horseâs mouth but itâs a fish insteadÂ
You: I hate to admit I did one of those huff exhales that you do when something is amusing but not quite funny enough to warrant a full laugh
Frankie: At least you smiled. Thatâs good enough for me
Frankie: Sending a voice note, is that okay?Â
You: Of course
Then the notification for a voice memo appears. Your fingers hover over the screen before you press play and Frankieâs low, gravelly voice spills into your ears.Â
âBebita, you have no fucking idea how long Iâve wanted this. Iâve been yours since I first laid eyes on youâŚYouâve got me sitting here in my truck, trying to keep my shit together, but all I can think about is you on your knees for me. Told the guys I had to take a call⌠theyâd give me shit right now if they knew⌠theyâve been ribbing me for months to ask you out but I was too chicken shit⌠way too pretty for me⌠definitely funnier and smarter than me, but you should know Iâm not intimidated by that it's fucking hot⌠Fuck youâd look so good for me. Iâd slide my cock into your mouth so slow, watch your lips stretch around me. You have the prettiest eyes and lips, youâd be heaven down on your knees for meâŚShit, Iâd lose my mind watching you take it. Youâd look so pretty with your mouth full of me, baby. So fucking pretty.âÂ
Frankie: Are you touching yourself? Tell me, pretty girlÂ
You: And if I was?
Frankie: Good girlÂ
Frankie: What are you thinking? How do you feel?
You: So so good, Frankie
You: Thinking about your big strong hands all over me has me drooling baby
Another voice memo appears. When you press play, thereâs a groanâa low, throaty sound that makes your entire body shiver.Â
âYou been thinking about my hands, princesa? Want me to hold those pretty tits with my hands, hmmm? Play with your nipples, massage themâŚmaybe youâd like one of my hands gently pressing into the sides of your throat⌠if youâre into it of course!âÂ
Frankieâs urgency to make sure youâre into that sort of thing makes you smile. The caring, thoughtful Frankie that you know.Â
âI am so hard for youâ ay dios!âŚThinking about you sitting on my face, trapped underneath your gorgeous thighs⌠make you come all over my face. Need you to make a mess on me⌠rub your pretty little clit on my nose, thatâs why I have this big nose⌠so you can use it fuuuuuuuckâŚâ
His voice grows rougher, more ragged. You can hear the slick, clapping sounds and his breathing. Heavy and uneven.Â
âMierda, Iâm so fucking close, wish you were here babyâunghhhhh⌠wanna feel you around me, your pussy squeezinâ my cock⌠make you come âtil youâre begging me to stop⌠do whatever you ask me toâŚâ
You: Show me. I want to see Frankie, pleaseÂ
Frankie: Wanna hear you say it in your pretty voiceÂ
Frankie: Let me hear you beg all sweet like for me and Iâll show you what you do to meÂ
You: âFrankie ohhhhh baby I need you so bad⌠tĂłcame, Frankie, por favorâŚAlways think about climbing in your lap, running my hands through thoseâ ahhhhhh!â curls, wanna feel how deep you get when I ride you⌠wanna feel you in my goddamn throat â fuck, can you hear how wet I am? Iâm making such a mess oh my godddddd⌠never been this fucking wet babyâŚâ
Frankie: babygirl youâre gonna be the death of me
Frankie: love your voice and the pretty sounds your pussy is making for meÂ
You: can I send a video?Â
Frankie: no pressure. only if youâre comfortable with it đ
You: thatâs not what I asked, Francisco
Frankie: I know you mean business when you use my government nameÂ
Frankie: yeah baby i wanna see whatever you wanna show meÂ
You:Â Attachment: 1 VideoÂ
âHazme el amor, FrankieâŚâÂ
Your legs are spread open, your core on display for the camera. He smiles thinking you probably had to find something to prop your phone on. Youâve got two fingers teasing in and out of your glistening pussy.
Frankie: que cosa cosita mĂĄs lindaÂ
Frankie: You have the prettiest, messiest little pussy baby. Thank you for showing me. I canât wait to taste her
Frankie: As promised, you want something in return for being such a good girl for me?Â
You: yes please đ
Frankie: sound up đ
Attachment: 1 VideoÂ
âFuuuuuuck babygirl⌠see what you do to me⌠need to be close to you, need to feel you⌠make you feel good like you deserve⌠this is all for you, I am all for you babyâŚâ
Frankie has his cock pulled out of his unzipped jeans, still in his truck, pumping himself. You admire the size and girth of him, so thick and gorgeous. You know the sting and stretch of him entering you for the first time will be delicious. Itâs so hot knowing he had to slip away from the guy's night to relieve himselfâcouldnât even wait til he got home.Â
âBeen dreaming of you for months, always imagine you when Iâm touching myself, youâre in all my thoughts baby⌠mierda Iâm gonna come, fuck babyâunghhhhhhâ gonna come so hard for you â ohhhhhhhh fuckâŚâÂ
Thick ropes of cum drip down his hand, where heâs slowly riding out his high, breath heaving in exhaustion.Â
You: I think I just blacked outÂ
You: I came so hard watching you fuck
Frankie: Such a good girl, baby. You did so good making yourself comeÂ
Frankie: Drink some water đ
You: Thank you Frankie :) đŠˇ
You: chugging some water as we speakđŤĄÂ
Frankie: thatâs my girlÂ
Frankie: get some sleep, Iâll be seeing you tomorrow đđ
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I'm sorry. I'm so not sorry but also so so so sorry. But I can't stop thinking about it.
from @keferon tf mecha universe
(Also if you don't want me tagging you please do tell. I didn't want to bother, just want to credit cuz it's glorious)
it's because of this post.
Happened after This event
I'm sorry in advance for all the grammatical errors.
I also don't know wo else would be the science guy to take this position of explaining the thing. I feel like there has to be someone else that's not Shockwave too. Sorry to all of Brainstorm's fans out there. I think he's not a bad guy. Just too excited for the possibilities.
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Something lingers inside that mech. Although there is no hard evidence of a human soul or spirit or ghost haunting it, most people who had anything to do with Vortex agreed that it was best to believe its first pilot never leave the cockpit of his mech. After all, nothing else would explain the freak accidents constantly killing all but the latest pilot.
Human are prone to be superstitious. It's normal to believe in something like ghost in the machine, really.
But one would not think a man of sciences such as Shockwave would take the rumors seriously. No one knows if the scientist really believe it or not. He
Regardless of the rumors' validity, it sure did inspired him.
"You're kidding me" Swindle stood, blinked, looked at the incomplete repair of Blurr's mech then back to the technician in front of him. Brainstorm was prattling on at speed faster than Blurr's F1 record.
"Not kidding. Why would I kid? This is a great breakthrough. Lives can be saved and there are much we could do with the tech, I don't know why it never occurs to me or Shockwave that the neural link tech could have been used in this way---"
Swindle turned his brain off during all the scientific mumbo jumbo all and only really heard him again at "It's nothing all that weird really. Some people disagree, but you can't go against Shockwave when he put his mind to it. If you think about it, it's just like Vortex"
"What?" Swindle blinked again.
"Vortex. That mech, I mean the mech's first pilot, crazy psycho, crazy good at slicing up kaijus"
"I know who Vortex was. I worked here when he started piloting. What did that asshole has to do with this?"
"Oh, everything. If, a big if. If that guy's consciousness was still in the mech like people been saying"
"Haunted" Crossing his arms, he narrowed his eyes at Brainstorm. The technician corrected him.
"Lingering consciousness. Either way, Blurr is in much better shape than Vortex. Brain still intact . So is most part of his body. We wired him to the neural link to allow him control of the mech. So when we are ready, he can still go about his task from within that mech"
"What . The . Fuck"
Swindle's eyebrow twitched. No, it's NOTHING like Vortex's case. The asshole died and probably refused to leave this world. Blurr, on the other hand, was still alive. Sure he wouldn't be the same. Maybe he would be scarred for life, paralyzed from the waist down or something. But hardwiring a person to a mech?
"So, you were working with Blurr before now, correct? That's why we would like to bring you in as his handler. Not like you have to do maintenances and stuff, just take care of him and, the publicity and all that. Like being his manager" With that, Brainstorm handed him a folder before excusing himself.
The guy wasn't bad most of the time, Swindle thought. But sometimes, just sometimes, his passion for science overshadowed the moral compass.
Like how he wished that his own greed would take precedented in his state of mind. They must have thought he would jump at the chance to milk more profit from Blurr. Hell, he wouldn't be feeling this bad if that was the case.
He wanted to refuse. Profit be damn, even he didn't feel right. Blurr saved them. He should be allowed to preserved his humanity, his dignity. Not preserving his brain in a jar inside a mech. If the pilot died and the mech is reparable, you find a new pilot. If the pilot lived but can no longer pilot, you also find a new pilot. Not..this.
But refusing means they will bring someone else on board to manage Blurr. He's pretty sure he wouldn't like that.
Fuck
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**note. Blurr is not reduced to brain in a jar. Most of his body is intact, just hard wired to the mech.
I tink they can add robot parts to him later all stuff. But since they probably value Blurr as a money cow pilot first. If they can't use his face, they can still use his mech.
Sorry again ehehehehehehehehehe
#tf mecha universe#tf blurr#tf swindle#should I put some kind of tw?#does it count as body horror?#I'm not sure#by the way this can be blamed on gundum I watched#being iron blooded orphans and thunder bolt#they're brutal af#I'm sorry again#tw body horror
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Just existing amongst other women becomes infinitely more depressing once you free yourself from following the way society tells you that you "have" to look too. It's like you're in parallel dimension seeing all this crushing and brusing weight on the shoulders of your fellow woman and it's endlessly weighing her down to the bone, but you can not help her carry that weight, it's thorns are sunk too deep for anyone else to untangle. Only she can choose to let it go and free herself, yet she pretends she is carrying nothing at all despite the blood dripping down her back. It's such a helpless feeling.
Realizing when look at your female relatives and friends and acquaintancess that you have never seen her face without a mask on (make-up). Knowing that she has more than likely looked at her face and found it so ugly, or even just too embarrassing, to not cover with mask. Know she has looked in the mirror on an already bad day, and just seeing her face without a mask made the day worse when it should have made her feel better. Knowing she had looked in the mirror on a good day and had it ruined by seeing her face instead of a mask or ruined by seeing the mask messed up. Knowing she looked in the mirror and thinks this mask is her, is her "real" face, and "loving" it while hating her face. Realizing that her face is in many ways, your face, and she so disconnected from herself that she hates her own face without realizing she also hates your face by extension, no matter how many times she claims to love your face, really.
Realizing when you see a teenage girl or a woman in some leg-revealing pantswear or a tanktop that she probably felt that she had to shave or else she couldn't wear that. Knowing she looked at her legs, her stomach, her armpits, her arms, her vulva, her lips, her eyebrows, her side burns, and thought she was so gross or just otherly for having a normal post-pubescent body. Realizing she thinks she has to alter herself (shaving, waxing, plucking, trimming) or else she's lesser, bad, disgusting, shameful, cringy, simply just weird, different, or "pick me".
Walking down the street and seeing no teenaged girl or woman beyond yourself left unaltered and maskless, and realizing that everyone has just accepted this as normal, as the unquestionable status quo. It's utterly insane.
once you free yourself from wearing makeup and looking the way society tells you to, walking into a makeup store feels sort of like entering the twilight zone.
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Hey, thanks for calling my blog "otherwise good content" when most of my stuff is focused on Ford Pines. Seems kinda like a backhanded compliment, but maybe you're just rude IRL. I'm an understanding person.
Anyway, who are you to decide what is and isn't cute? I, personally, think Ford Pines is ADORABLE! I mean, look at him!!! Someone sent me this picture of him with his head stuck in a trash can! TELL ME that isn't some America's Funniest Home Videos (pet category) shit.
Also, apparently, the other guy in the picture punched the person who took the photo? IDK who he is, but he looks like Ford, so maybe Cipher made a clone? Clone's less cute, though. Explain that with your fucking rating system
Hi,
Okay, I'm going to clear a few things up for my followers.
First of all: I really don't want to come off as passive aggressive. That's not what I'm about, and as far as I'm concerned, it doesn't help anyone to be anything but completely up front when you're on the internet.
I'm sorry if my comment seemed backhanded. I started following Jellyskink back when she mostly posted OC character designs, when I was in a hardcore comics and graphic design phase. I haven't kept up with the blog regularly since. I am truly sorry for misrepresenting you here. (I really, truly am a fan of your work.)
With that said, I am not going to be passive aggressive about this. I'm being explicit: THE FORD PINES REPOSTS ARE NOT OKAY. How do I even begin to explain that you're reposting videos of a grown human man being treated as a pet, and not even well?
I rate content based on whether the pets in them are actually displaying "cute" behavior (playful, friendly, well-trained, healthy) or if they're showing signs of distress and mistreatment. That's my rating system. The fact that people want me to "rate" an adult human man when it is, again, against interdimensional law to treat sophonts as pets/livestock and humans are a sophont species, is already kind of weird.
But, hey. I'm willing to play along. I'm a good sport. If they're pet videos, I'll check to make sure that the pet isn't showing signs of distress or abuse!
Except he definitely is.
Jellyskink, let's just give you the benefit of the doubt and assume that you're just really bad at reading the room. I'm telling you now: Ford Pines is in obvious distress in practically all of these video clips. I don't think you care. I think you're a Cipher Loyalist and thinks the dorito can just treat Ford however he wants because he's a god. But if you're not, prove it: stop posting exploitative Ford Pines videos. They aren't even your flapping videos, you're reposting them. Go back to making cheesy OC Do Not Steal art. That contributed to the world.
Now, about the picture, since you asked:
RATING: NOT CUTE.
This is a guy who got assaulted with a trash can!! Even if this wasn't a human I'd be rating this not cute! It's horrible! And you know what else makes it not cute? You know how I always give things a bad rating when the handler or the person taking the video isn't being safe with it? Well, the guy taking the picture is 100% about to get assaulted. You know why?
THAT IS STANLEY PINES. Is he Ford's clone? I don't know - how do you count identical twins? Cipher didn't make him, they're brothers. You can literally look it up. How are you a so-called Ford Pines fan and you don't even know who Stanley Pines is? He's the sole proprietor of the anomaly distributor Pines Profundities. It's public record. He's in the New York business registry.
So, yeah. The guy taking the picture of a grown man stuck in a garbage can was being pretty stupid and is about to get punched by the man's brother, because that's what happens when you're a jerk to random strangers in New York.
#Ford Pines is a Human#asks#IU!Jellyskink#cipher loyalists#Trying not to get mad about this#Asker's probably literally an edgy teenager#Just get into MCR like the rest of us and get out of the freaking cipher cult#It's not going to get you a girlfriend#OOC: In-Universe Jellyskink will be tagged separately from OOC!Jellyskink!
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Pick A Card
Your Demons
Pile 1 Spider Nightmare
Song: Venus By Shocking BlueÂ
â Goddess on the mountain top
Burning like a silver flame
The summit of beauty and love
And Venus was her name
She's got it
Yeah, baby, she's got it
I'm your Venus, I'm your fire
At your desire
Well, I'm your Venus, I'm your fire
At your desireâ
This energy is so intense. Youâre definitely an intense person. This pile is very personal, I don't expect it to resonate for a lot of people because itâs so particular. I get the energy of someone who talks a lot, who rambles on and on. Thereâs also this tension⌠You really love attention. I hate to break it to you but someone has cursed you. I donât know everything but itâs happened and I have to tell you. Thatâs why youâre being drawn to this post and to the occult world in general. Deep down inside, you know who it is thatâs done it. That bitch! Itâs because you have characteristics that they envy and they cannot forgive you for this. Itâs so twisted. This may be weird but this pile reminds me of a family member of mine, someone I love dearly and would literally die for. I love this pile. Your life has been hard and itâs not your fault. It always has been since the very start but you never let that stop you cause your loved ones never stopped loving you. You have a strong bond with your loved ones. This is important. Never let them go. This person who has cursed you is unfortunately wedged deep into your family. Maybe they married in, maybe they work for or with your family in some fashion. No matter what, they are lurking.Â
The image for this pile, the âcardâ is freaky. It depicts a little girl freaking out as a giant spider with a creepy cat head runs wild. I actually see this spider cat as a protector but the little girl is too young to realize. She is just scared. The cat is guarding her, and who knows⌠whatever the cat is hissing at could be even scarier than itself!Â
Cats are independent, intuitive spirits.Â
So, you who picked this card is the little girl. The cat is your guardian in some form. It comes across strongly. Whether you have one as a pet/familiar/spirit guide, or someone named Cat/Kat/Catherine or someone in mind with other feline attributesÂ
(wear animal prints, have whiskers/facial hair, wear cat eyeliner, have long nails/claws, are feisty đ & playful)Â
Sounds crazy, but cats are! đąÂ
In this circumstance with my family member in mind, Iâm the cat.Â
The cat feels creepy sometimes but all you see is cute, so itâs hard to spot them. Itâs sad but itâs easier to spot who cursed you rather than who is protecting you. You have just begun to think of life in a spiritual way. You are so excited but this person is ruining it for you, this gives it away. They try to scare you. They live a lie. They arenât like you and you know it. You do not share the same values. You should get away from them. Cut them off.Â
This person has become a detriment to you. They are flesh and blood but spiritually they are demonic. Iâm sorry but they are. Theyâre corrupt. Theyâre into satanic culture and dark society. They want to watch the world burn. Theyâre made of something you are not. This person just hangs on. Theyâve almost been told goodbye many times but itâs never truly manifested. It will but I know it will take a little while but be quicker than you think. Iâm thinking around spring youâll swear you see change even though you feel like youâre imagining it but by the end of summer everything will be taken care of. Youâll see.Â
Energies:Â
Cancer âď¸Â
HallucinationsÂ
Mass HysteriaÂ
Childhood TraumaÂ
NightmaresÂ
Femininity
GirlhoodÂ
Goosebumps BooksÂ
Love â¤ď¸Â
VintageÂ
TraditionÂ
StereotypesÂ
Comic BooksÂ
ActionÂ
ArtÂ
CursesÂ
WomanÂ
WitchÂ
BeefÂ
JealousyÂ
VenusÂ
The PastÂ
Scorpio âď¸Â
Cherished
SpringÂ
Divine InterventionÂ
Pile 2 Swamp QueenÂ
Song: Beautiful By Christina Aguilera
âDon't look at me
Every day is so wonderful
Then suddenly it's hard to breathe
Now and then I get insecure
From all the pain
I'm so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no
So don't you bring me down todayâ
Okay, youâre your own worst enemy.Â
This would be my pile đÂ
Okay. We get it, you also have a lot to say like Pile 1.Â
You have a constant internal monologue going on, youâre the star of your own movie. I sense The Star Card for this pile. You are dreamy, spiritual and weird. Youâre obviously magical. Thereâs something strange about you. You are seriously different. Youâre not whatâs considered normal. You worry so much about whether you come across as normal or not but you donât have to worry any longer cause Iâm going to clarify it for you, you fucking donât. You are weird. You do not conform to societyâs expectations but not because you donât want to, you just werenât born to. Most who pick this pile wear makeup, false eyelashes, wigs, dye their hair, have acrylic nailsâŚThis is not to hide who you are but actually to accentuate it. You use vibrant colors and exaggerate your natural features so gorgeously! You go! You're not afraid to show your true face though. Youâre seriously into skin care/self care/self love and it shows. You glow. Everyone acts weird around you. Youâd be surprised why⌠itâs because youâre beautiful đÂ
I do not sense any denial or skepticism from this pileÂ
đÂ
Everyone already knows âŚÂ
Itâs almost awkward đÂ
You do not value appearances whatsoever and this is your true beauty. I sense a lot of empaths in this pile that are just now discovering that theyâre empaths maybe even because of this reading!Â
Youâre earthy.Â
I sense a lot of dark skinned queens here.Â
Youâre a reader. You read books for sure but you read people too. You mind your own business and thatâs beautiful too. Maybe you mind your business too much, people want more from you. They want to see you more, talk to you more, hear you laugh more and see you smile⌠You have many admirers. I mean tons. You had humble beginnings and thatâs shaped you into who you are today. You are so mature, too mature. Some want you to relax more and have fun. Some are critical of you and want you to âact your ageâ they want to dumb you down to their level. They want to party with you, get you drunk and dance đŞŠÂ
This is not anything like you.Â
Ignore these kinds of individuals because they want to change you. This isnât who you are, if it was then so be it. Youâd rather curl up on your couch with a book and a cup of tea đľ so do that!Â
This all sounds so good, then how are you your own problem?
 Youâre stumped.Â
Youâre stagnant.Â
A running theme in your life is waiting cause God is teaching you the virtue of patience my friend.Â
Ground yourself.Â
Notice everything.Â
Get comfortable but remember to work hard now so you can relax later.Â
Stop procrastinating.Â
Do your best.Â
Youâre idolized behind closed doors. You light up this world.Â
No one would know an angel like you could have been through hell but thatâs the truth. The dark side of this reading is everything youâve overcome.Â
The color of this reading is bright green. Slime green like the swamp monster in the image. I see severe chronic incurable illness, sicknesses, nausea, actual vomit. Thereâs this disgusting and grossed out feeling I get. I get that you feel like a monster maybe cause you donât âfit inâ like I said. You cry about being a misfit.Â
You put on a happy face. You hate showing people your vulnerabilities but you do so gracefully. You feel nervous a lot, like all the time pretty much. You stay on an even keel of worry. You feel like itâs hard being human, and it is so you try to overcompensate. Just chill out. Your overthinking is a gift and a curse youâll learn. The present moment is a gift đ so enjoy it.Â
Energies:Â
Gemini âď¸Â
ConfidenceÂ
InsecurityÂ
AcneÂ
GreaseÂ
IconicÂ
Makeup đÂ
The PresentÂ
Reality CheckÂ
Money đ°Â
Plastic SurgeryÂ
ShotsÂ
Needles đÂ
Alcohol đˇÂ
Mirror đŞÂ
Lips đÂ
MouthÂ
VoiceÂ
Throat ChakraÂ
SexualityÂ
SeductionÂ
SubmissionÂ
Scorpio âď¸Â
Scorpion đŚÂ
Snake đÂ
MistakeÂ
Self HarmÂ
Self Destructive TendenciesÂ
JunkieÂ
AddictionÂ
FlawsÂ
WeaknessÂ
PastelÂ
AccurateÂ
MonsterÂ
Shadow SelfÂ
EgoÂ
Virgo âď¸Â
Aquarius âď¸Â
Pile 3 WishboneÂ
Song: If I Die Young By The Band PerryÂ
âIf I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Oh-oh, oh-ohâ
I see red.Â
I sense male/masculine energy.Â
This pile likes my energy so thatâs why youâre here. You like how I talk. We could be friends. Oh.Â
Youâre angry. đĄÂ
Youâre into conspiracy theories and the apocalypse. You may be religious. You are dying to state your individuality against the other piles.Â
Youâre vulgar. You swear a lot.Â
Youâre like, âFuck you, get to my pile!âÂ
You are into horror and gothic things.Â
I see myself as a teenager so you must be pretty darn damaged.Â
You speak negatively to yourself. You abuse yourself.Â
You hate yourself. You feel like no one understands yet the ones who do are as bad as you and canât help you but at least they make you feel less crazy, right?
This is a rough pile guys.Â
Iâm so sorry for who this is for. Itâs definitely for my younger self. Iâm having flashbacks. Iâm uncomfortable.Â
I have to be honest, this is the work of the devil.Â
I bet if you are another pile scrolling down out of curiosity you probably could see it clearly but when youâre knee deep in it, you cannot see it and even act like itâs âcoolâÂ
It isnât.Â
I donât even know what to say.Â
Someday youâll realize why the devil was after your soul so bad, youâll realize the richness of who you are and maybe youâll turn around or maybe you wonât.Â
I sense deep regret. Someone whoâs eating their words and really anxious đĽ You absolutely beat yourself up. You cry a lot.Â
You're young arenât you?Â
Just because I said male/masculine energy doesnât mean some women cannot be involved⌠You on your period? Iâm teasing but really, are you?Â
I sense mars energy.Â
Dark humor, sharp features and tall frames. Warrior souls, brown eyes and hardy laughs. A taste for spicy food, picky when it comes to partners and the moral compass of a saint.Â
You may be scary on the outside but you're a little ray of sunshine on the inside, arenât you?Â
Seriously. You got a good soul.Â
I sense Leo âď¸Â energy.Â
People want to be like you.Â
You choose what you say very carefully. You tend to obsess about what you say.Â
I sense a blocked throat chakra.Â
You may have nightmares youâre choking, this is a result of it.Â
Pray on it.Â
Manifest it.Â
Open it.Â
Youâre actually really loud.Â
In energy and volume.Â
You have massive energy.Â
You may be big physically, if not then you wear wild outfits that get everyone looking & complimenting.
No matter what you look hot 𼾠and sexy.Â
You get rid of people in your life if they cross you and now youâve come to a point where thereâs no one left. Youâre devastated and lost all hope.Â
You feel like an alien đ˝Â
This is how the devil wants you to feel
Hang on.Â
Survive. Then thrive.Â
God will give you opportunities to move on. I know youâre ashamed of yourself right now so move slow.Â
Be a sloth đŚĽÂ
You feel like a joke.
You also feel numb.Â
I pray for you, I know youâll be given a fair chance as I was. You just have to wait.Â
All of our stories are different yet still similar.Â
I felt like nothing could get through to me, but that was my story until God moved mountains.Â
I was in a pathetic place so you should listen to my testimony. I was mad at the world until I realized Iâm a part of it, that I matter. I realized not everything is as simple as it seems. We as beings are not as simple as we think we are.Â
You are not âbadâ like you say and think you are. You are the author of your own life. You're the writer but God is the editor. If you wanna be bad then be bad if you want to be good be good but the beautiful thing is that we all have different definitions of good and bad.Â
So define yourself. Then youâll be happy.Â
Your demons are real and the literal devil is after your soul. Donât panic. đŤ¨Â
I sense that itâs just spiritual at this point.Â
Youâre not possessed (yet)Â
Nothing is attached to you but the devil is attacking your subconscious. Either God is making you walk through hell (and it gets deeper my friend) or youâre trying to swim in the deep end, I trust you know which is which. (I know you do)
So if it is out of your control try to view it as a learning experience no matter how unbearable it may be (I have done this and it sorta helps)Â
If itâs in your control, be vigilant. Stay aware. Remain observant. Question everything. Ponder existence. You will be rewarded. Expect change and youâll be good. đÂ
Make decisions that make you happy.
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TransformationÂ
Roses đšÂ
EncouragementÂ
HormonesÂ
TeenagerÂ
AdolescenceÂ
Leo âď¸Â
Lion đŚÂ
Copy CatsÂ
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MistakeÂ
RedoÂ
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#occult#psychic#spiritual#pick a card#witchblr#pick a pile#pick a card reading#Demons#spirituality#spiritual awakening#clairvoyance#claircognizance#intuition#intuitive readings#intuitive messages#intuitive guidance#intuitive tarot reader#divination
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part 2 siffrin edition lets go! this is just random thoughts about how normal theyd be about this :)
listen. in a situation where post-timeloops loopie comes along w the party. can you IMAGINE the sheer Siffrin Pear Wriggler it'd be for him (assuming they know loop is an ex-sif). the guilt of learning they caused the loops (and you know his ass would find a way to make it his fault that loop was stuck as well) that made one of their family members to suffer to the point of having a mental breakdown. probably Ruminate (extreme) about the fact that he was made by the universe to fulfill loop's wish. a placeholder for the real thing. are they even a real person? or even a human being, really? YKNOW. i just think it would prolly Actively Feed their tendency to dehumanize themselves.
and on top of that there's no way they wouldn't feel redundant bc well there's another siffrin right here who was there for their family member during the timeloop and helped them escape! who is stronger mentally and physically/craftwise! who doesn't forget everything all the time! who is helpful and funny and charming and actually really considerate and sweet under their Teehee I'm The Sassy Giggleerrrrrrr behavior!
wow! there's no point to the Clearly Worse Siffrin that is them staying around anymore! or existing for that matter! because surely it's only a matter of time before his family realize he's worthless! and start wishing he'd realize he's imposing, that he's unwanted, and just leave already!
tbh idk what they'd actually DO with those emotions (besides bottling them up and berating himself for feeling that way, because that's selfish and they have no right to Feel Some Kind Of Way when their family member is suffering). I DO think it'd make it extra funny when they end up getting super attached to and developing feelings for loop. add to the fact that loop and sif are both very clingy + loop's weird possessiveness towards sif + sif prolly feeling like his existence alone is something horrible that was inflicted upon loop + the envy/bitterness they both feel towards each other due to feeling like their family is being stolen from them by the other...
by the king's frozen asscheeks... imagine the sheer Destruction the inevitable explosion of that particular cocktail of emotions will cause. nuclear bomb levels of devastation 34 dead 788 wounded. FUN FOR THE WHOLE FAMILY! <3
ok wait you know what'd be interesting and more importantly hilarious. sifloop, but in an au where someone else from the party is looping. can you fucking imagine
#I Love Mess!#god this shit would be so funny. hydrogen baby/coughing bomb ass ship#another great post from me!#sifloop#one and a half hats au
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Sorry so random and hate to asking this like youâre google search engine but what is the deal with Vale and his parents lol
big question! im not sure how much you know so i'll generally cover as many bases as i can and sort of. gather some resources that might help you form a picture.
his dad: graziano rossi. former racer (his peak was finishing third in the 250cc class the year vale was born) who had to retire after some scary injuries (crucial for maximum vale neuroses). in terms of their relationship, first go peruse this webweave from @kwisatzworld. actually i frankly think theyre a better person to answer this question wholesale but i digress. important to note that vale straight up is like yeah he was not a good father lol. ALSO notable that graziano is asked what kind of son vale is and says 'one i can brag about to friends' which. okay. graziano also will not shut the fuck UP about vale in print (he was kind of the one to break rosquez not really being close friends anymore post-assen? for some reason??) which idk if my dad was constantly talking about me to reporters i would feel weird about that. like that is not something that i would enjoy. seems a bit like they have the sort of relationship dozens of us divorced children have with our parents where we can kind of only talk to our dad about sports.
additionally, his parents had him quite young (25 for graziano and in the thick of his racing career, unsure for his mom) and you get a sense that vale thinks they should not have done that.... he doesnt super call them 'mom' or 'dad', instead using their first names, he says they have a more 'friendly' relationship than parental, and apparently his dad and him just started saying i love you to each regularly uh. recently. heres a video of him talking about it (i get the sense the divorce exacerbated these issues as well). that being said i DO also think that vale is closer with his mom in general (she lived in his house for a long time! they lived together during covid as well!) (his mom is named stefania palma and shes a civil engineer, which i think kind ties into how journalists often mention that luca and vale talk about the bike like theyre engineers. i literally dont think that is coincidence, i think they got it from their super hot and smart mom...) heres a bit about her and graziano (x):
theres also LUCA. who is obviously his half brother (he has a few other half siblings on graziano's side, but they arent famous so we dont know as much. i get the sense they arent as close just by virtue of their difference in involvement w racing but its hard to say! its clear hes close with luca, ESPECIALLY after the academy really got going and luca got a bit older.) luca is born in 1997 when vale is 18 years old and just kicking off his career, so hes kind of never known a world where vale wasnt insanely famous. luckily and ironically his father is a sports psychologist. luca's story kind of ties in with stefania's (obviously), and here's a post about how some of the stuff going on in their lives mightve effected them and of course vale. idk why this became a luca treatise but hes important okay!!!! just a family with a lot going on that informs vale's whole deal (having much younger siblings and liking to teach perhaps as a result, his marriage feelings, his REPRESSION issues, how he shows love, how he self-protects, and a lot more. idk this is hardly comprehensive but hopefully it gives a little food for thought !
#also can i just say vale's relationship with his parents underrated in the vale repression agenda. they dont say i love you!! they dont hug.#also like. looking at how young marc is and being like hm. thinking about his parents who got married too young#motogp#callie speaks#asks#valentino rossi#the divorce apparently maybe being BECAUSE of the injuries that lead to graziano's retirement....
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Adressing some things
1: Idk why some of yall are freaking out abt Taro saying an album is coming soon....they have a cb due around March-July, which we already know.....in music terms that is indeed soon. What is the issue? I am confused. This is why yall need to stop analyzing i fear
2: MULTIPLE people asked smthing along the lines if SM is "getting" to some members bc they've been quiet abt things (particularly Shotaro and Sungchan)....they have been quiet since day 1....nothing has changed. Those two have the best poker faces known to man, and we have already discussed that none of the members aside from Wonbin and Anton really have any animosity towards OT6. idk what yall are on abt đ
3. I need thinking caps on...pronto. stop being weird bc every member is not blatantly showing they are OT7 at every public appearance, bc that was never gonna happen. It is not only unplanned opportunity that members sometimes slip it through on purpose, but it's literally something they get scolded for doing. The ones who choose to do so very often like Anton and Wonbin are regarded as less tolerable to management who is making these decisions. Let Sungchan and Shotaro do what they need to do away from cameras. There is no change in their mindset just bc they are not in your face or on weverse doing what you want them to do.
I want to believe this is pure anxiety. But for SOME of you, this is abt finding a way out and finding a reason to stop. If you are thinking abt stopping, and you really want to stop, accept the fact that you are not doing right by them and that you are allowing bullies and nasty people to win instead of coming in my asks so you can seek validation and comfort for your shitty choices.
This is not For EVERYONE who sent asks asking abt the member's intentions, there are a LOT of you who send the same general question and some of you just wanna ask ur question and go- and are NOT seeking validation but clarity.
And OTHERS of yall add-on that you want to be done and want to quit, or very obviously word your question that way. so if it does not apply, let it fly. This is for the quitters who don't wanna feel guilty for quitting.
This is why I had closed my asks for a time bc a lot of quitters were in there.
And Ik these quitters are people who do not be reading my daily reads at all bc they are repeatedly asking me things I have already stated in like...the most recent reading so I'm just confused on how you are going to come into the blog- not read ANY posts, and then ask your question to seek validation..... If I continue to get those asks seeking validation to quit, I will turn off Anon....
I love and appreciate you all SO SO SO MUCH đŠˇđŠˇđŠˇđŠˇđŠˇđŠˇđŠˇ
I just need SOME of yall to lock in fr bc it is stressing me out and YOU out for absolutely no mf reason.
I may have to take a longer break and focus just on efforts. I will update on that decision within an hour or so.
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đ¸ out of my mind ! đż track three: something about a beat
guitarist!ino x drummer!reader
summary: it's the annual battle of the bands at the fix, your college campus's iconic live music bar, and this year you're taking the stage as the drummer for indie rock group cursed technique. you know the competition is strong, but no part of you is ready for lead singer and guitarist takuma ino. you lock eyes at the edge of the stage, and something startsâsomething that might make you feel alive even more than the beat of the drums.
warnings: language, hopeless stupid pining, alcohol, mentions of deceased parent, maki is Fed Up, anxiety, unbearably cute dogs. || sfw. 9k words.
âOKAY, ITâS UP,â Nobara says, grinning at you over her laptop. Youâre sprawled across the living room at Takumaâs place, surrounded by a random combination of your band and his while others are in classes. After spending last night mixing the single, Takuma helped Nobara set up an artist profile for the band, and now your music is available on streaming services. Just like that.
âThatâs so weird,â you say, grinning as you pull up Spotify on your phone. Next Fix by Cursed Technique. Strange to see your face on there, a photo taken of all of you by some freshman when you last performed at The Fix. Nobara sends the link in your group chat, and Toge responds within seconds.
freak no. 1:Â FAME freak no. 1:Â FORTUNE freak no. 1:Â wait itâs not opening freak no. 1:Â nvm iâm just stupid
âDoes he ever pay attention in class?â Nobara mutters. Maki snorts.
Yuta is also in class, but that means heâs locked in, all his devices on Do Not Disturb. You donât think Togeâs turned DND on a single time in his life.
âIâm going to Kinjiâs!â Kirara shouts from the front entryway, and Yuji leaps to his feet and disappears down the hall, barreling back out of his room seconds later.
âWait! Can you give this to Panda while youâre there?â He hands her a drive, and Kirara rolls her eyes and takes it.
âYou need to slow down every once in a while,â she says, ruffling Yujiâs hair. âOkay, bye. Iâll be back in a few hours.â The dogs follow her to the door and return the living room when sheâs gone, curling up on either side of Megumi, whoâs busy writing some paper in the corner.
âWhat was that?â Nobara asks.
âDemo drive for the radio station,â Takuma says. âPanda plays our stuff sometimes. I bet heâd play yours, too.â
âThatâd be sick,â Nobara says approvingly. She turns to bother Megumi, poking at him until he takes his headphones off and talks to her, and Yuji strolls into the room and flops down directly on the floor.
âComfy?â you ask, poking him with a socked foot.
âMm. Yeah.â
âAh, look what you did, Kugisaki,â Megumi says, and you look up to see Shiro trotting toward you with her tail wagging, having abandoned her post at her ownerâs side.
âThat was not my fault! Youâre the one who moved.â
âBecause you kept poking me!â
You immediately slide off the couch onto the floor, letting Shiro sit in your lap. âUm, excuse me,â Takuma says, offended. You crane your neck to look up at him behind you on the couch. His face is lit up by his computer as he works on a string of code he tried (and failed) to explain to you, and thereâs laughter in his eyes despite the affronted tone of his voice.
âFavorite,â you inform him with a wide, cheeky smile. He very maturely sticks his tongue out at you.
âToge message,â Nobara informs you all, reading off her phone. âHe says omg we have four listeners do you think theyâre writing slutty fanfiction about us already.â She glances at you. âPetition to remove him from the chatâoh, look, he started sending the wolf memes again.â
Hanging out like this has become natural so quickly you almost forget you havenât been friends with Shibuya Incident for ages. You feel almost as much at home in the tapestry-covered living room here as you do in the plant-filled kitchen of your own house down the street.
Maki checks her watch, sighing. âWe should get going soon. The guys will be back in half an hour.â Then you have rehearsal, even though youâre not one of the three bands performing tomorrow night. When you do take the stage next week, you want to be ready.
Nobara is trying to read Megumiâs texts over his shoulder, which isnât working out well for her, and he tells Maki, âYes, please, take your invasive little gremlin home.â He puts his hand right on Nobaraâs face and pushes her away, and she screeches and tries to tackle him, but heâs already sitting in a beanbag chair in the corner, so it doesnât really do much except make Kuro jump on top of them both.
You glance up at Takuma again, still stroking Shiroâs fur while the others start to stand, ready to head home. âYou rehearsing today too?â
âIâd hope so,â he shrugs.
âYes, dipshit, in two hours. If you ever read the group chat,â Megumi says.
Takuma doesnât seem fazed by Megumiâs irritation and just shrugs. âWe have a new song for tomorrow.â
âYou didnât tell me!â You poke at his knee in retribution for his secrecy. âI wanna hear it!â
âYou will,â he says. âTomorrow.â
âSkipper, help, I donât wanna walk our gremlin home by myself,â Maki calls from the door, and you reluctantly pat Shiro on the head and stand. She follows you to the entryway and sniffs at you while you cram your feet into your sneakers.
âMaki Zenin.â Nobara turns up her nose and crosses her arms over her chest. âIf you hated me so much, why didnât you just say so?â
âBye!â Yuji shouts from the living room, and you all call out varying goodbyes and noncommittal sounds before making your way out the door and down the block, the afternoon air chilly against your cheeks.
Nobara waits all of ten seconds before spinning around and walking backward, grinning at you mischievously. âI bet Ino wrote a song about you.â
âOh my god. Shut up,â you laugh. âHe didnât.â You canât imagine youâve given him all that much to work with. What would he write, that you like coffee and drums and Megumiâs dogs?
âWhy else wouldnât he show you? Donât you guys text each other song lyrics like the little romantic fucks you are?â Your face is flaming, and youâre suddenly very grateful for the cool of the wind against your skin. The idea of him writing a song about you plants something weird in your gutânot something bad, just something unexpected and warm and blooming.
You try not to show it and your friends see right through you, Nobara turning back to skip up the drive with a satisfied grin and Maki rolling her eyes at the both of you.
âIâm gonna write a song, too,â Nobara declares, unlocking the door and pushing her way inside. âSkipper and Ino, sitting in a tree. K-I-S-Sââ
This time, you and Maki speak in tandem. âShut up!â
â
âThereâs a joke here,â Gojo says, tapping both of his index fingers together while he thinks. âAbout being a drummer and a journalist. Something about a beat.â
You laugh, jotting another note on the lined paper of your small spiral notebook. âI hate to tell you, but Iâve heard that one before.â
Youâre not sure features qualifies as a specific beat, more of a broad category, but your staff isnât nearly large enough to assign people to smaller specialties. Plus, itâs a college publication, designed for experimentation and growth. Nobody wants to be boxed in yet. Thatâll come later, out in the monotony of the real world, and youâll be confined to some hyperspecific beat like neighborhood crime or high school basketball.
âNo!â Gojo cries, dragging his hands down his face like itâs the end of the world. âI canât believe somebody plagiarized me before I even said it.â
âThatâs not how that works,â Utahime cuts in dryly, sliding three shots across the counter to the waiting group of sophomores and then effortlessly throwing together another cocktail.
Gojo leans toward you, shadowing out your notes, and stage-whispers, âYou see what I have to put up with?â
You do, actually, see what Utahime has to put up with. She long ago put down a line of blue painterâs tape to divide her side of the bar from Gojoâs, and she preaches frequently that there will be dire consequences if he crosses it.
Of course, he crosses it at every opportunity, and here he is, still.
Itâs also just how the two bartenders split up the work, the customers, and you write that down too, that itâs an effective division of labor. âDonât read my notes,â you tell Gojo as he squints at your writing upside down. âItâll wreck the journalistic integrity.â He sticks out his bottom lip in a pout that reminds you violently of Toge, whoâs taking photos of Utahime as she works.
You glance over to the stage, where Angel is performing the last number of her set, a bouncy, belty song that you recognize from a video she posted earlier this week. The crowd loves it, dancing around and singing along, but still, you think sheâll have a tougher time making it through as the only solo artist remaining in the competition.
You whoop and cheer as she hits her last note, holding it for an ungodly amount of time, and Gojo eventually has to abandon his teasing to do his job. When Toge thinks heâs got enough photos, the two of you slip back into the crowd, Panda commentating on the change of artist as you catch up to your friends.
âAnd now, hereâs your alt rock duo, your boys, the Kamos,â he says as you come to a stop beside Yuta. âGive it up!â
Nobara very loudly gives it up.
âHi.â Yuta nudges you. âHowâs the reporting going?â
âGood.â Noritoshi and Choso settle in on stage, tuning their guitar and bass and making girls swoon in the front row but somehow remaining entirely oblivious to it. âYouâre not going home tomorrow, right?â
Yuta shakes his head. This weekend is fall break, which just means that there were no classes today. You spent the first day of your three-day weekend cramming for midterms.
Togeâs heading out after this and Nobara will leave early in the morning, but Maki and Yuta will be here for the weekend. You wonder about Takuma and his band, but you canât ask right nowâtheyâre all backstage, waiting to go on after the Kamos.
The boys in question, when theyâre not doing covers, have incredibly nonsensical song names that have little to nothing to do with their lyrics. The first track of theirs you ever heard was called Song About the Time My Dog Got Lost for Three Hours.
âOkay,â Choso says after their cover of a song by The Smiths. âThis oneâs called Please Donât Tell Your Mom I Was At Your House Past Curfew.â
He and Noritoshi then proceed to play the most upbeat, energizing alt rock shit youâve ever heard. You love these guys, and the crowd does too, the way they donât take themselves too seriously but theyâre genuinely talented. But itâs making you nervous for Takuma and his band, because only one group goes on tonight. Only one.
No, you think, shrugging it off. They got this.
When Shibuya Incident finally walks on stage, the ensuing roar of applause before they even do anything eases whatever worries you might have had. They were slotted at the end of tonightâs set for a reason. Everyone loves them.
Without prelude, they launch into a song you recognize from their EP, a fast-paced track with a pretty simple chord progression that gets entirely flipped on its head in the bridge. You let Yuta spin you around as you dance with the rest of the crowd, the lights and sound washing over you. Yujiâs in his element, Kirara is fucking killing it, and Megumiâas alwaysâis the rock the band stands on, unerring tempo and steady presence keeping everyone on track.
After the song finishes with a crazy riff from Kirara, and the crowd takes a minute to freak out and then slowly wind down, Takuma grabs the mic to address the audience.
âHi again,â he says, scanning the clusters of people from his place on the low stage. His gaze lands on you and your friends, and he smiles a little wider. âThat was Godspeed. Weâre gonna slow it down a bit for our next song. Itâs a new one. Weâre calling it Curious.â
Nobara practically launches herself over Toge to get to you and shake you by the shoulders. âWhat did I say?â she hisses.
âOh my god,â you say, shoving her off. âThey havenât even started yet.â But you look back at Takuma to find he hasnât stopped looking at you.
To your surprise, the instrumentals donât start first. Most of Shibuya Incidentâs music opens with a riff or a fill or at least four bars of introduction. But this time, Takuma leans into the mic and starts singing, just a low âooooh,â and the rest of the band comes in one by oneâMegumi, then Kirara, then Yuji. Kiraraâs harmonizing on a higher note, and the effect is a slow, dissonant build that makes you lock in, all anticipation.
Then Takuma tugs the mic from the stand and sings,âI see your eyes, curious, curious, you wanna know why the skyâs so goddamn blue. I hear your voice, curious, curious, youâre asking me if Iâd ever fall for you.â
And as you listen, Nobaraâs smile just gets wider and wider, and Takuma keeps making fleeting eye contact with you, and you realize abruptly that she was right.
This song is about you.
Takumaâs said it to you before, in passing, how he likes the way you look at the worldâthrough a journalistâs lens, curious about how everything works, always searching for unseen answers.
âWish I could see my life like you do,â he and Kirara sing in unison. âWish I could walk the streets each night⌠wonderinâ if the full moon sees you, but I just keep lookinâ, lookinâ down at the time.â
Youâre transfixed, just like the first night you saw Takuma perform live, and you couldnât tear your eyes away from the stage if you tried. Someone should write a story about him, you think. This man could be on the cover of Rolling Stone and you wouldnât question it.
God, youâre so far gone, arenât you?
When the set is over, the last song finishing with a long, drawn-out chord, Takuma thanks the crowd and hands the mic off to Panda to take over. As the band disappears one by one into the backstage area, he lays out the voting process.
âThe voting period will last ten minutes, assuming no technical difficulties,â he says. âQR codes, as usual, are posted around the bar. If youâre a competitor, you canât vote. Make sure youâre logged into your .edu accounts or you wonât be able to access the formâŚâ
Your fingers are tapping nervously at your thighs, the crowd around you already glued to their phone screens. The band isnât back out on the floor yetâPanda will call all three artists up at the end of the voting period and announce the finalist live.
Sweat is starting to pool in the palms of your clammy hands, and you wipe it on your jeans, anxious. To you, thereâs no question. But itâs not up to you.
âRelax,â Yuta says, putting a reassuring hand on your shoulder. âIt wonât even be close, Skip.â
After the longest ten minutes of your life, Hana Kurusu, the Kamos, and Shibuya Incident join Panda back on stage, a dramatic spotlight bouncing between each artist as Panda draws out the announcement. âAnd the artist from tonight moving on to the finals in two weeks isâŚâ
âJust say it,â Maki huffs beside you, and Yuta chuckles and nudges her with a shoulder. She tries to hide the slight upturn of her lips, but thatâs not going to slide past you.
Youâll tease her later. For nowâ
âShibuya Incident!â
The reaction is explosive, both on the floor and the stage. Yuji practically leaps onto Kiraraâs back, and Takumaâs face goes slack in surprise before a shy smile works its way across his spotlit features, Megumi being his nonchalant, unaffected self in the midst of it all. Nobara is screaming, and youâre yelling at the top of your lungs, Toge whooping and snapping photos as the Kamos and Hana crowd the band, congratulating them on the victory.
Takuma looks out into the crowd again and you wave, smiling unabashedly, so fucking proud and excited and thinking maybe, maybe, if you make it too, youâll be facing off against each other, and wouldnât that be something?
Maybe you shouldnât be so thrilled. Heâs the competition, after all.
But if he wins for going up there and singing curious, curious with his eyes locked on yours, you suppose it wouldnât be all that bad.
â
Most of Saturday passes in a barrage of classwork and inconsistent, snacky meals in between, the diet of a harried college student, ramen and chips and whatever actual food Yuta leaves for you in the fridge. Heâs back from work by three, and Maki wraps up her own work around the same time you do, late afternoon creeping into evening. The three of you are curled up in the living room, the TV on while Yuta and Maki try to pretend theyâre not looking at each other.
You need to get them alone.
you:Â are you busy takuma:Â not at all takuma:Â whatâs up? you:Â mind if i crash your house?
You glance up and swear Yuta has somehow, in the last two seconds, moved closer to Maki on the couch.
you:Â i think yuta and maki need some ~ALONE TIME~ takuma:Â TEA takuma:Â sorry kirara told me to stop saying that in response to everything that happens ever takuma:Â itâs fun tho
âIâm going to Takumaâs,â you announce, and Maki raises a brow at you.
âAgain?â
âSue me for having friends.â
Yutaâs brows crease a bit at the word friends, but he doesnât comment. With a furtive glance back, you grab your shoes and slip out the door, successfully leaving Maki and Yuta alone in the house for an indeterminate amount of time.
Please, you think. One of them has to make a fucking move soon.
Takuma answers the door before you can knock. âHey.â
âNo pups today?â you ask as you step past him into the entryway, kicking off your shoes.
âSadly,â Takuma says. âFushiguro took âem with him, wherever he went. Ah, man. Did you only come over for them?â His tone is teasing as he closes the front door behind you, trading the October cold for the warmth of the house. âAfraid Iâm a letdown.â
âTakuma,â you scold at his self-deprecation. âYouâre basically an excited puppy yourself, soââ
âHey!â he squawks, and then thinks about it and tilts his head, conceding. âFine. Maybe. Yeah, okay.â
âWhat have you been up to?â you ask as the two of you make your way to the living room.
âProcrastination. Guitar instead of homework, mostly. You?â
âSame,â you sigh. âWell, not the guitar part. But I should have been way further ahead on my homework by now.â You shrug. Youâll get it done; you always do.
You settle in easily on the couch, and the two of you boot up the Wii and play a few rounds of Mario Kart because someone left the disc in. And when youâve both beaten each other enough times to lose count, Takuma mentions something about your single and you realize you havenât checked the stats.
âYou can see more on a computer,â he says, and you follow him up to his room, where he cedes control of the device to you. You pull up the artist profile and grin at the steady upward climb of listeners. Itâs not a ton, but this only went up on Thursday.
âWe havenât even done anything to promote this,â you admit, spinning in Takumaâs desk chair to face him. âI donât even know how people are finding it.â
He immediately looks down, which means he knows something. You nudge him with your foot. âWhat? What does that face mean? Takuma.â
âI maybe gave Panda a drive of the mix,â he shrugs, talking fast like the meaning of the words might elude you if he mumbles enough. âAnd he maybe played it at the radio station earlier today. Several times.â
A wave of affection crashes into you so fast that you jump up and throw your arms around him without thinking, laughing into his shoulder. âYou didnât have to do that!â You pull back, grinning. âThat was really sweet. Thank you. Seriously.â
âAh, it was nothinâ.â He reaches up to scratch at the back of his neck, a gesture youâve come to recognize as self-conscious.
âNot nothing,â you say softly. He smiles.
After a moment, he glances at the window and seems to come to a decision. âHey,â he says.
âHey yourself.â
âWanna go out on the roof?â
You blink, processing the words, instinctively looking to his window. Youâve never really realized it before, but it opens out onto a flat expanse of shingles, a perfect lookout right outside Takumaâs bedroom.
Your grin is answer enough, and he unlatches the window and pulls it open. He glances back at you, up and down, and you feel yourself blush before you realize heâs taking in what youâre wearing. He grabs a thick jacket from the closet and tosses it to you, then shrugs one on himself and leads the way, gripping the window frame with one hand and pulling himself outside. After a moment of consideration, he reaches back in and grabs his acoustic guitar by the neck from its place against the wall, pulling it out with him.
When the window shuts behind you, youâre immediately grateful for the protection of the extra layer. Even with your hands balled in the sleeves of your hoodie, itâs chilly out here.
Youâre surprised by how much of the campus you can see spread out in the distance. Itâs early evening, but the days are getting shorter, the sun a misleading blaze of heat in the otherwise cold hour.
âThis,â you say, âis fucking awesome.â
âRight? I called dibs on the room as soon as we toured. For this.â He grins, leaning back on his palms, legs spread out in front of him. You lie back on the roof, letting the cool surface seep through your hood, staring up at the sky.
âSo Maki and Yuta,â he says, shaking his head fondly. âAre they finally a thing?â
âI donât know, but if theyâre gonna do anything about it, itâs not gonna be while anyone else is home.â You shrug, or at least do whatever approximation of shrugging you can when youâre bundled in a bulky hoodie and jacket and lying on a roof.
Honestly, Yuta and Maki are some of your favorite people on this planet, and you canât imagine anyone else who really deserves them. Theyâre the de facto mom and dad of your groupâas in, Yuta is the band mom and Makiâs the gruff father who wonât admit his affection for the pet he didnât want to get but ended up loving anyway.
âMan, Iâm glad I wasnât around when Kirara and Hakari were in their pining phase,â Takuma chuckles. He pulls his legs in, sitting cross-legged, and picks up the guitar, idly tuning it as he speaks. âThen thereâs Itadori, probably picks up girls everywhere he goes and has never once realized it.â
âWhat about Megumi?â You let your head loll to the side, looking at Takuma with the guitar settled in his lap.
âFushiguro? I donât know, man, he doesnât tell us anything. He has like, resting yearning face. Iâve got no idea. I donât even know where he is right now, just that heâs supposed to be back really late.â
âThat means the dogs will be back?â you say hopefully.
Takuma shakes his head, strumming another chord, and another, fingers moving deftly across the frets. âIâm not enough for you, huh?â
âI said no such thing.â
He plucks out a happy little melody on the guitar, looking at you. âWanna learn?â
You sit up, your hood falling back off your head in the process. âReally?â
In answer, he hands you the guitar, scooting closer to you to show you where to place your fingers. Youâve been around your bandmates enough to know the basics, but you let him teach you anyway, giggling a little when he guides you through a three-chord progression and says, âDamn, youâre a natural.â
He leans back and stares at the sky, listening to you play. Eventually you add a few other basic chords into the mix, varying your strumming patterns, already feeling the strain in your fingertips from the unfamiliar press of the strings.
âSo,â you say, still idly messing around on a G chord. Takuma props himself up on his elbows, looking over at you. âWhat was the incident in Shibuya? Have you been to Shibuya?â
He snorts. âNope. Honestly, it was more to make people ask the question. You know in the Marvel movies, how Hawkeye and Black Widow are always talking about Budapest?â
âAnd nobody knows what the hell happened there,â you say, laughing. âAh. I see.â
âIâve never even been to Japan,â Takuma admits. âFushiguro has, though. Maybe he had an incident in Shibuya. Who knows?â
G, C, D. D, C, G. You play the chords over and over, strumming softly, slowly, letting your finger catch on each of the strings, then five of them, then four.
âThis is a really nice guitar.â
âYeah.â Thereâs a beat of silence that makes you glance up, weighted differently than the usual pauses in conversation. Takuma is sitting up now, knees pulled loosely to his chest. âWas my dadâs.â
âHe taught you to play,â you remember aloud, recalling your conversation in the coffee shop. But now youâre hung up on that word: was. Part of you doesnât want to ask, but part of you feels like his words are a sort of quiet invitation, like he wants to tell you, but doesnât want to force it. âI⌠is heâŚ?â
âHe died when I was twelve,â Takuma admits, eyes fixed on the sky. âUh, car accident. It was stupid, some issue with the other guyâs car. Couldnât stop it.â Youâve never heard his voice like this before, taut, oddly thin. Carefully, gently, you set the guitar on the roof beside you, watching him.
âWere youâŚâ
âIn the car?â Takuma sniffs. âAh. Yeah.â
âOh,â you breathe, and thatâs what it is, more of a breath than a word. âIâTakumaâŚâ
When he laughs, thereâs no humor in it. Itâs a hollow kind of chuckle, one that says everything he canât. âItâs why I learned to skate, actually,â he says quietly, not meeting your eyes. âIâd get everywhere that way. I didnâtâwant to drive, I guess. Got my license late and everything. I think people thought I was just a slacker.â
Whatever words you might scrounge up feel inadequate for a grief this large. You donât want to pity him, and you donât want to dismiss him, and thatâs always the problem with hard conversations, isnât it? What a line to walk.
âYouâre not a slacker,â you say eventually, and he raises a brow at you. âI mean, maybe you procrastinate coding projects to a worrying extent, but you always get it done.â You smile thinly. âYou donât give up in any way that matters, Takuma. I like that about you.â
He chuckles. âNanami said something like that, once.â His eyes go far-away again, just for a second. âHeâs kind of the closest thing⌠like⌠I donât know. Iâve known Nanami for a really long time. He was my dadâs friend. And I guess he sort of became a father figure, afterâŚâ
He shrugs. âItâs probably a big part of why I decided to go here. That, and itâs not too far from my momâs. I donât know that sheâd have been thrilled if I went somewhere farther.â
âYouâre not home,â you say carefully, a question but not question. âFor break?â
âSheâs on a business trip,â he says. âSo not much point. But Iâll see her at Christmas, at least.â
For a while the silence stretches out comfortably between you, like a weighted blanket. You canât ignore it, but it isnât unwelcome. At some point you scooted closer to him, and now you sit side by side, only the layers of your jackets separating you.
âThank you for telling me,â you say eventually, soft, unwilling to break the quiet. He nods.
âYou didnât go home either,â he points out, an unspoken question in the spaces between words. âIs it just âcause youâre from so far away, orâŚâ
âYeah. A Friday off didnât feel like enough of a break to warrant a flight back.â But thatâs not all of it. His silence tells you he knows it, too. Heâs been so candid with you all night. You can share this part of yourself, you decide.
Thereâs something about Takuma, anyway, that makes you want to tell him things. You want to know him, and you want him to know youâyou now, here, at school, but also you there, home, in the past.
âI havenât been home since July,â you admit, hugging your knees to your chest, mirroring him. âMy town is⌠small. I liked it when I was little. But the older I got the more I started to feel, justâI donât know, stifled?â
Your hometown used to feel huge, like you could explore it forever on your Razor scooter and never find all its secrets. But you grew, and the town didnât grow with you, and suddenly you were standing outside your high school realizing you knew every corner of the self-proclaimed suburban city, every street and coffee shop and alley. Youâve always been curious. And at some point, there wasnât anything left in that place for you to be curious about.
âI love my home. I love my parents. Itâs just⌠I needed to get out. I donât think they ever really understood that.â
Itâs easier to admit things when youâre looking straight ahead like this, out over the lines and curves of buildings, picking out street lamps, watching a few stray cars make their way around slow corners.
âIs it what you wanted it to be?â he asks quietly. âHere, I mean.â He nods out to the vast stretch of campus, spread across the city. So many corners youâve been here years and havenât found them all.
Campus is weird on break, you muse, looking out over the darkness. A whole parallel world for you to explore, the shadowed version of the place. A video game map on single-player, a dead server. Hardly any lights on in the windows, no kids out on the street. Like a ghost town. But it still doesnât feel empty to you. Thereâs so much promise in it.
âYeah,â you answer after a moment, soft. âYeah, I think it is.â
A ghost town that isnât lonely, somehow. You could write a song about it, you think. Friends with all the dead in my ghost town. The phrase plays itself out in your head, and it sounds like something moodier than your band usually goes for. It sounds like Shibuya Incident.
You wonder if this is what it means to be in a relationshipânot a romantic one, necessarily, but a friendship, or any kind of bond between two creative people. If itâs this, the sharing of intellectual property with another person to the extent that their voice and yours start to blend.
Itâs in the way Nobara can finish your sentences when youâre throwing out potential verses, scrambling for rhymes. How Toge and Yuta can anticipate each otherâs movements, match chord progressions without talking about them. How Maki slips into your tempo seamlessly, every single time.
And now your lyrics sound like something his band would play. Maybe Takumaâs songwriting will start sounding like yours, too.
You donât think youâd mind.
âCan I tell you something?â Takuma murmurs after a moment, sounding hesitant.
You rest a cheek on your knees, hands clasped together in front of your shins, facing him. âMhm.â
âThat song last night,â he whispers, and heâs not looking at you, just staring out at the rapidly darkening campus. âIt was about you. And how youâI donât know, the way you look at things. Like theyâre always so full of potential. I wish I could do that. You just see things and want to know more. I like⌠watching you, being curious.â He pauses for a beat and then quickly adds, âNot in like, a creepy way! JustâI donât know.â
A chuckle slips through your lips against your will, the darkness hopefully hiding the color in your cheeks. Maybe you can blame it on the cold. âWatching?â you ask, teasing. âI canât imagine Iâm all that intriguing. Thereâs a lot of cool people around here, yâknow.â
âSkip,â he murmurs, and now his eyes are locked on yours. âI donât think Iâve ever met anyone like you.â
Every nerve in your body is hyperaware of his proximity, and his hand reaches up to cup your jaw, the touch ghosting over you, barely there, hesitant. A nonverbal question. Is this okay?
You lean into the warmth, letting his breath wash over you, mingling with your own in the space between your lips, smaller and smaller and smaller.
Heâs watching you, closely, giving you a chance to pull away. So many words exchanged tonight, but you donât need any for this.
You donât pull away.
Itâs slow at first, and soft, and hesitant. The shingles dig into the heel of your hand as you lean forward on one arm, a grainy feeling on your fingertips, in the grooved imprints left by the guitar strings. You find your free hand moving up to his shoulder, pushing, guiding him down until his back is pressed against the roof and youâre over him, lips locked with his. You look at him, and heâs so full of potential. You want to know everything about him, you want to know how he works, you want to ask questions. And you do, with your tongue along the seam of his lips, and your hand tangled in his hair, and his breath mixing with yours in the air. Itâs near full dark now, feeling later than it really is, evening in autumn.
Youâre not cold anymore.
He deepens the kiss, body coming up to meet yours, and you feel like maybe this roof is the top of the whole world, because how could you ever feel higher than this?
âTakuma,â you murmur, and you kiss him again, and you donât think youâve ever felt this way before, but youâll do maybe anything in the world to feel this way again.
And then a sharp, deep sound makes you jump, scrambling to sit up on the shingles, breathing heavy from the kiss and the noise. Did that come from inside or out?
âWhatââ
âOh, crap,â Takuma groans, pulling open the window. âSomeoneâs home.â He looks back at you, cheeks flushed from the cold or the kiss or both, looking a little helpless, a little apologetic, and you canât help the small laugh that bursts from you at the absurdity of the situation. You feel like a teenager getting caught by your parents.
âWe shouldâŚâ He nods toward the window. You hand him the guitar, then crawl back over to the window and slip inside after him, the warmth a stark relief from the temperature youâve gotten so used to. Your heart is a jackhammer, rapidly pecking away at the once-stable structure of yourself.
You kissed him.
You kissed Takuma.
Your phone buzzes in your pocket, and you pull it out with still-cold hands.
utah:Â [1 Image Attachment] utah:Â dinner?
Admittedly, the pasta does look amazing, and your stomach grumbles as if on cue.
âI should go,â you say awkwardly, holding up the phone for Takuma to see.
âUh, yeah, uhâfor sure, no problem, I should go see whatâs up down there anyway,â he says after a beat of hesitation. âIâll see you, uhâŚ?â
âAround?â you finish, laughing slightly.
âYeah,â he echoes with an amused half-smile as you make your way down the stairs. âAround.â
â
Youâre freaking out.
Itâs 4:31 on Monday afternoon, youâve been listening to the same song on repeat for an hour, and youâre freaking the fuck out.
After Saturday night, you didnât talk about it. You kissed him on the roof and your heart turned into a hummingbird and you were warm all over, and then the front door slammed and you nearly jumped out of your skin, and Megumi was back early and Takuma had no idea why, and you pet the dogs and then slipped out, wanting to give them their space.
And you havenât talked about it. You havenât had time. Sunday was a mess of cramming for midterms and your housemates returning from break and you threw yourself into your studies and tried not to remember, but nowâŚ
The stupid fucking switch in the back of your brain has flipped itself on and you canât turn it off, all worry and criticism and hypothetical worst-case scenarios and youâre giving too much too fast, Skipper, you know better than this!
How many people in your tiny town fell in love young and grew to resent each other? How many of your high school friends grew up with divorced parents? How many breakups have you seen in your two and a half years at this university, how many tears and shouting matches in public halls, how many friend groups falling apart because two people fell in and out of love?
The thing is, you know youâre panicking about nothing. Takuma hasnât asked anything of you. It was just a kiss. He is not your boyfriend. This is not a contract.
But if you talk about it, it could be, and you donât understand why that scares you so much. Do you have commitment issues? What the fuck is your problem?
You probably wouldnât have a problem at all, if youâd just had the time Saturday night to figure out what the kiss meant. But now that a whole day has passed and you havenât seen him and you donât know for sure, your mind keeps wandering down paths it should have stayed away from.
What if itâs a friends with benefits situation and youâve just read too much into it? Maybe this is all he wants, making out, spending late nights together getting physical. Maybe thatâs all. A heated makeout session on a roof doesnât mean he feels the way you do. And do you even know how you feel? Fucking hell.
Itâs the anxiety talking, the more logical part of you says, the part that sounds an awful lot like Maki. Your friends arenât around to tell you how stupid youâre being, so the only texts you and Takuma have sent since Saturday night are playlists and song lyrics skirting around whatever truths youâre trying and failing to articulate.
Do I Wanna Know floats from the speaker on your desk, your phone next to your head on the bed, facedown and dormant. Do I wanna know if this feeling goes both ways?
Your door slams open and you jump up, whirling around to find Maki with her arms crossed, leaning on the frame. âAlright,â she says. âThatâs the tenth time Iâve heard that godforsaken song. What the fuck is up with you?â
When you donât respond, she steps inside and closes the door behind her, pauses the music, and then makes herself comfortable on the edge of your bed. âTalk to me,â she says. âYouâre driving yourself crazy.â The words stall in your throat, useless, stagnant things as you avoid her knowing stare, instead staring at the popcorn ceiling until it blurs.
Maki sighs and shifts entirely onto the bed, turning herself to face you.
âI didnât know you were home,â you say lamely.
âYouâre driving me crazy, Skip,â she tries, and she knows you so fucking well, because the guilt trip is exactly what dislodges all those words built up in the back of your mouthâshe breaks the dam and you spill your soul onto the quilted comforter, rambling, a rush of truths and things you thought youâd hidden from yourself but you canât anymore. And she just listens, not looking away once.
You tell her everything: that you know you catch feelings fast, too fast. That despite your bleeding heart, you havenât really been in a long-term relationship since high school. That you think of the future, of all the places you want to go, all the things you want to do, and thereâs no guy in those dreams, and the thought of restructuring the life youâve planned out for yourself around a boy who might be temporary is too much to even fathom. Thatâ
âI kissed him,â you say breathlessly, bordering on hysterical, and you feel so stupid, this worked up over something so small, something that should be good. âI kissed him and now it feels real and now Iâm freaking out.â
âI can see that,â Maki says calmly. âLet me ask you something. What is the worst thing that could happen, if you date him and it doesnât last?â
âIâŚâ You chew on your bottom lip, mind spinning through every bad outcome. âHe could end up hating me, Maki. I could get some crazy job and have to leave, or he would come with me and leave his whole life behind and then heâd grow to resent me and weâd just be in some kind of hellish limbo until one of us snapped. Or he couldâhe could leave me, or we could try long distance and he could fall in love with somebody else, or I could, orâorââ
You flounder for a second, realizing your biggest worry is the one most immediate, the one most central to your life as it exists right now.
Youâve been sitting here thinking about big-picture things that are so far out, trying to make the feeling curdling in your gut feel like a valid reaction to a major life event. But thatâs not what this is.
Youâre just really, stupidly, pathetically scared that Takuma kissed you and didnât mean it.
âOrâI guess thatâs not the issue. Not really,â you admit quietly, not looking at Maki. She probably already knows. She has a way of knowing exactly whatâs bothering you and just asking the right questions, getting you to talk yourself out of whatever hole your anxious mind has dug.
âIâit was just a kiss. What if he doesnât want something serious right now, and I like him this way and he just wants something casual? I canât do casual, Maki,â you say, raking a hand through your hair. âAnd it could fuck up this thing we have going. Yuji and Toge get along so well, and Nobara and the boys and Kirara, and Megumiâs your cousin, and I donât wanna cause some weird, awkward rift, you know what I mean?â
Because itâs been so good, getting to know them. You donât want to fuck up the dynamic just because you caught feelings too fast.
Maki leans back against your wall, humming as she thinks this over. âOkay. First of all, take a step back. Do you actually think you and Ino dating or not dating or whatever would mean I stop talking to my cousin? Or Nobara to the guys?â She raises a brow at you, unimpressed. âSeriously. I love you, Skipper, but you do not have that much power. These relationships existed before you knew Ino. Yuji is incapable of having conflict with anybody. And Toge doesnât give a fuck about awkward relationship drama, he just wants to play Smash.â
As she speaks, you can feel your heart settling back into its home in your chest. Maki always knows what to say. Always.
âSecond: Let me put it this way.â She levels you with a serious look. âYou are so worked up about all these incredibly hypothetical situations. If you shut this down now, if you donât act on what happened on Saturday, youâre still going to be worked up about hypotheticals. Theyâll just be different ones. I know you, Skipper, youâre gonna drown yourself in what ifs. So you have to pick the lesser evil. Thereâs an unknown factor either way. Which one is gonna be worse?â
You groan, faceplanting into your bedspread. In the process, your forehead must hit play on your phone, because all of a sudden Arctic Monkeys blasts through the JBL again and Maki is grabbing your phone and saying, âAbsolutely not. Nope. We are done with that.â
You look up at her helplessly. âDo I wanna know?â you choke out, half-laughing. âBecause if Iâm taking this out of proportion, if he doesnât feel this way and Iâm just another girl he kissedââ
âYouâre not,â she says firmly. âAre you kidding me? Skip. That boy kisses the ground you walk on.â She shakes her head, some mix of fondness of exasperation flashing across her face. âYou already know. The question isnât if he likes you, or if you like him. Itâs whether youâre gonna let it play out or shut it down before it has a chance to.â
Your door slams open, and Nobara strolls in and puts her hands on her hips. She glares at Maki and then at you.
âPlease tell me Iâm wrong,â she says, and you know youâre in for it, âbut I believe you both had significant relationship developments this weekend and didnât immediately call me? What the fuck? Spill.â
Abruptly, you feel like the worst friend in the world. Not necessarily because you havenât filled Nobara inâshe hasnât been homeâbut because Maki is flushing pink, and you left her alone with Yuta on purpose, and itâs Monday, and you havenât even asked what happened.
You look at Nobara. âClose the door.â
She does, but she doesnât sit down, choosing instead to pace the room as she speaks. âExhibit A: the plants have name tags and the handwriting is not Yutaâs. Exhibit B: I just came from down the street and Ino is acting weird as fuck.â
You sit straight up, suddenly on high alert. âWeird how? Did he say anything?â
âNo. Like, the entire time. Thatâs the weird as fuck part.â
You turn to Maki, trying to read her. âOkay, what happened with Yuta? Was it when I left? Because if I wasnât obvious enoughââ
âYou were very obvious, thank you,â Maki says, her blush deepening. âUh, we made dinner. As you know.â
âIt was good.â
Maki is pointedly looking everywhere but at you and Nobara, gaze darting from the ceiling to the bedspread to the door, as if she might escape the conversation. You hadnât even noticed the plant name tags. Thatâs maybe the most sappy gesture thatâs ever come from Maki Zenin.
âMm. Yeah. Uh,â she says, eloquently. âWe might have kissed. We might be⌠together.â
âMaki!â you and Nobara both scream, which results in Toge nearly breaking down your bedroom door five seconds later.
âWhat?â he demands. He clocks Makiâs bright red face and grins widely. âAha! Yes. Good.â
âWhââ
âYuta wonât look me in the eyes, so I figured. You wanted to tell us all at once?â
Maki nods sheepishly.
âToo late!â Toge says cheerfully. âAnd heâs not home. So we can take this quality girlsâ time toââ
âYou are a man.â
âThatâs the first time youâve ever said that to me,â Toge tells Nobara, hand over his heart.
She swats at him in response and flops onto your floor, and Toge drops down beside her, you and Maki leaning over the edge of your bed to see them both.
"I ate your love pasta," you tell Maki, and she groans.
"This is why I don't tell you people things."
After the appropriate appoint of freaking out about Maki and Yuta (of course I knew, I always know, Nobara says), they make you go through the whole of Saturday night in detail.
You leave out the part about Takumaâs dad. That doesnât feel like your story to tell.
When you get to I donât think Iâve ever met anyone like you, Nobara blinks at you, and the innocent expression on her face means whatever sheâs about to say is anything but. âSo he told you youâre not like other girls?â
âOh my god,â you groan, dragging your hands down your face.
âOh, shit, Skipper!â Toge nearly shouts from the floor. âWe have to go, like, two minutes ago.â
âShit!â You scramble off the bed, shoving your laptop into your bag and weaving around Nobara, who has made no move to get off the floor. You and Toge have your usual Monday night class time to do field reporting, and youâre meeting up with Geto and Utahime.
The front door clicks open and closed, and you grin at Maki, who goes red. Yutaâs home. God, you wish you could stay for this.
âHi, Yuta! Bye, Yuta!â you call on the way out the door, patting him on the head, and Toge follows suit with a much more aggressive motion that messes up Yutaâs hair.
âOh, hi! Um. Bye?â Yutaâs startled laugh follows you out the door, and then youâre on your way.
Youâre always on your way back to The Fix, eventually.
â
Utahime, notably a happier person in general when Gojoâs not around, lets Toge into the back to get some photos of the storeroom. That leaves you alone with Geto, back on the same stool as last time, phone on the counter as you watch him work, talking as he goes.
âFinished inventory,â he says, typing something rapidly on his laptop, âand now itâs budgeting. And yeah, thatâs about what it looks like on the day to day. What else did you want to know?â
Geto is remarkably easy to talk to. Heâs soft-spoken and articulate, a good listener, and you find yourself forgetting itâs an interview after a while, lost in conversation. You learn that he studied business in school, so opening an establishment like this wasnât much of a stretch. He handles the finances and hiring, and heâs the one working with Panda on the Battle of the Bands. Gojo and Utahime bartend, Nanami is security, and Shoko handles everything else. Itâs a small team, he says, but they work.
âI wanted to be able to be home for the girls when they were growing up, and this wound up being a great way to do that, schedule-wise,â he tells you. âAnd now theyâre here, which is great. I wouldnât say I ever saw myself opening a bar, back in college, but now that Iâm here and Shoko and I have been running the place for a while, Iâm not sure where else I ever couldâve ended up, yâknow?â
You nod, head propped in your hand with your elbow on the counter. âSo is this the dream? The endgame?â you ask. âThink youâll stay a while?â
âWell,â he says, closing the laptop, âI think it comes down to doing something because you love it, not because other people love that you do it. Though right now, both of those things are true, which is fortunate for me." He leans on the bar counter, head tilted as he considers his words.
"If the work makes you happy, if the people there make you feel the same way, I think thatâs worth hanging on to," he says. "If I ever stop loving the work, I suppose Iâll move on. I donât see that happening, really, but if it does, Iâll roll with it. Whatever comes after.â
âThat makes sense.â You sigh, leaning back in your chair. âMan, I wish the career thing was that clear-cut now. I know I have time, but itâs weird to think about.â
âWould you ever go further than this with the band, you think?â he asks, seeming genuinely curious. âOr is the journalism thing pretty much what your heartâs set on?â
Youâve thought about it. Drumming makes you feel alive like very few other things do, but you love writing, reporting, meeting people and telling their stories. You want to go for editor-in-chief next year when Tsumiki graduates, but the reality is that you wonât have so much time for the band if you get the job. And you love your band.
Not that itâll be the same, anyway, without Maki and Yuta. Thatâs something you donât love to think about.
âI donât know,â you confess, sheepishly realizing youâre still recording, that youâre supposed to be the one asking the questions. âI donât think⌠that the band is ever necessarily going to be a professional thing. Maki and Yuta have all these big career plans. And itâs like, how much do I invest in that now, knowing itâs not⌠forever? When the journalism thing, the career, might be? I donât know.â
âYou know, I donât think it matters all that much whether itâs forever,â Geto shrugs. âIf it gave you what you needed at the time, wouldnât it be worth it?â
He glances up at you, taking in the lines of your face, the tapping of your fingers against your other arm. You kind of feel like he sees something you donât.
âHereâs some unsolicited advice, kid. On the record. Maybe life is short, maybe not. But regardless, your heart is not a finite thing.â His eyes are soft but not sad, serious but with a sort of levity thatâs wise and not regretful. You think, idly, that you would find it very hard not to trust him. âIf youâve got something, love it while you have it.â
Something tells you heâs not talking about the band anymore. Or maybe thatâs just you, looking for answers where there arenât any.
âThanks, Geto,â you say, turning off the recording. âThis has been really helpful.â
Your heart is not a finite thing. And you think youâve made up your mind.
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Time to go through the entire episode 4 trailer!
I've been busy most of today, so I've only now gotten the chance to sit down and go through everything frame by frame. Like last time, I'm going to have to split this post up into parts. I'll leave everything under a read more to prevent spamming people's dashes though lol. Just know that everything will be in the reblogs!
Iâve resorted the screenshots to be in order that I think theyâll happen in the episode btw, or at least my best guesses.
Gangle and Ragatha hanging out in the tent, would not surprise me if Jax shows up and throws that baseball right in Gangleâs face to break the mask (hard to tell if sheâs wearing comedy or tragedy). Maybe instead of Jax breaking her mask, Ragatha accidentally breaks it? That would explain why Gangle seems to get into an argument with her later in the trailer.
Also, baseball. Ragatha. Ragatha with a baseball. Wasnât one of the teased adventures a baseball one? And itâs probably going to be episode 5? The Ragatha episode? Nice foreshadowing, Glitch.
Okay so very obviously her mask is broken now, thanks Jax (or Ragatha, you never know). You can see Zoobleâs hand on the left, theyâre probably about to offer some help. Is Zooble the one who gave Gangle her new mask? I guess they do get along pretty well.
I do wonder where Zooble got the mask from. Did they make it? How? The star and swirl do look like random parts theyâd have in their Zooble box. Two other details Iâd like to point out is how Zoobleâs door icon is flipped. Gangleâs looking into a mirror, the icon shouldnât be facing the right way. Cute duck toy though, Zooble. I like it.
Also is that an abstraction figure on the desk in the background? Is this related to the figurine thing from Episode 2?
Oh and I guess everyone gets those stacking ring and building block toys, since Pomni has the exact same toys in her room.
Okay first of all why are Pomni and Ragatha walking in from the right? Their rooms are on the left, along with Jaxâs. Were they looking for Gangle to start the adventure, and checked her room first? That IS on the right side, so it makes sense if they were walking back from there. They look confused, maybe theyâre wondering why Gangle is looking in the mirror. Maybe theyâre wondering what sheâs doing in Zoobleâs room.
Regular Caine and Bubble activities! Maybe today Caine gets interrupted by someone while explaining the adventure? Because that would explain a few things.
Like, actually checking the suggestions box. Is it attached to the pole? How the hell are the others supposed to reach it if itâs all the way up there? I guess theyâve managed a way to do so because the box is overflowing with suggestions. I guess Caine almost never checks it, whichâŚ. oof. Maybe Pomni asked if they get any input on the adventures, reminded Caine the box exists, and now heâs going âOh shit I canât let them know I havenât been reading these!â
Yayyyy Kinger <3 Probably watching Caine go over to the suggestions box lmao. I wonder what heâs going to be doing while everyone else is on the adventure?
Okay yeah it mustâve been attached to that pole, itâs now broken. Weird that weâve never seen it in previous episodes, that wouldâve been a nice reference. Caineâs probably going to grab the first suggestion he sees (That being a fast food adventure? Who wouldâve suggested that? Gangle? Would explain why sheâs the manager, sheâs the one who suggested the idea) and go with that for the dayâs new adventure. Bubble I donât think you should lick that by the way.
Maybe the managerâs office? Or maybe this is one of Caineâs secret rooms where he brainstorms adventure ideas? Idk. I do like the motivational posters in the background though.
You can kinda see Gangle in the reflection of his eyes, so heâs maybe talking to her. Thanking her for the idea? Telling her how to be the manager?
Probably some fake ad sequence to put between them moving from the Tent to Spudsyâs? Gangle girl calm down pls youâre scaring me-
Yayyyy itâs the scene from the Feb trailer!!! But now it looks even better!! It looks like itâs still early in the day based on the outside weather. Jax has to work the drive thru it seems, that doesnât seem too difficult. I guess. Iâve never worked at a place like this. I wonder what that room on the right is. Maybe they all spawn in with their usual outfits, but that room acts as a changing room? Is that Caineâs hand? Maybe Jax refused to be a part of this but Caine dragged him in there anyway to get into uniform lol. Does not look like heâs having a good time.
Orbsman!! First thing I noticed is that he seems a bit⌠lower quality than all the other character models weâve seen. Caine mustâve really rushed this adventure, and thatâs going to become a bit more obvious really quickly. But for real dude why are you so tall wtf.
Oh and Ragatha is at the cash register with Pomni! Maybe they both start out there, but Gangle makes Ragatha work with Zooble on the cooking because of all the orders? Sorry Pomni, youâre on your own.
What do you do when you need NPCs, but donât have the time to make new ones? You reuse old ones! Why else would the Gloink Queen be ordering burgers?? I was just as surprised as Jax when I watched the trailer.
Is this the Karen NPC Iâve been theorizing exists? If so, Pomni is not going to have a good time. Maybe this is just after Ragatha left to help Zooble?
This has to be a timeskip cut somewhere, right? Itâs probably boring to show the whole day of nothing but customers ordering food and then leaving. But I canât tell if this is early morning, or late afternoon. How long are these guys even supposed to be working for?
This has to be at least after Ragatha leaves, cause you can only see Pomni at the register. I canât see any NPCs though, did most people leave?
Look at her, she looks so damn tired. Pomni Iâm so sorry you didnât deserve this.
If youâve seen my other post on this topic, youâll know that I 100% believe Gummigoo is ordering something in this moment. The trailer put this scene immediately after showing us the Gloink Queen. If Caine reused one NPC, heâs going to reuse another. I wonder if weâll see Max or Chad? Or one of the ghosts from Episode 3?Â
Either way Pomni is not going to have a good time. I doubt Gummigoo even remembers who she is.
Yeahhhh she doesnât look like sheâs handling this well. Gummi probably just walked off to go sit down somewhere? Or maybe he just got his food (which, damn, that mustâve been quick) and is walking to one of the tables. Pomniâs trying her best to act normal and okay but you can clearly tell she isn't.
This scene is odd because itâs the only one that looks like Glitch intentionally cropped something out. Is that something perhaps a gummy crocodile? Pomni please get off the floor who knows whatâs been there. Thatâs not healthy. Also?? Donât you have a job to do??
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WELCOME to Sea's Catch Up (For) Starlight Challenge! Also know as 'A FFIX Prompt?' (I just woke up), 'Is it Cosy or Cozy in Australia?' (Cosy) and bEANS (bEANS!).
Suffice it to say, there have been a lot of challenges this yearâGpose challenges, FFXIV Write, Down to Dawntrail and Seafloor Saints Wake (just to name ours)! I know from personal experience that I haven't had the time to get to every single prompt... but I've wanted to. I also know it can be really disheartening to miss out on prompts and feel like you're being weird for engaging with it later on in the year.
To that end, I wanted to open a challenge that encourages people to either tackle an existing prompt from any gpose/writing/art challenge that was hosted during the year (under the excuse of it being for this challenge) OR pick from one of the prompts above to make a Starlight-themed creative piece!
All of these words were chosen by various people within the SEAFLOOR Discord, and i have tried not to tie them too closely to Christmas so people who don't celebrate the holiday don't feel left out. If you want to change a word that is more applicable to your culture, but still embodies the same spirit of the holiday through family, humanity, spending time with your loved ones, etc. I highly encourage you to do so!
This challenge will run the entirety of the month of December and can be tackled in any way you see fit. If you want to do a prompt a day and mix in the words in amongst working on your old project(s), go for it! If you want to select some words and not others, cool! If you want to only work on your old stuff and leave this list in the dust, a okay! It's all about giving you a low-stakes way to engage with your creativity and an excuse to go back to stuff you might have missed, or take some time to celebrate the season and people who mean a lot to you (and your ocs)!
Please use the tag #catch up (for) starlight if you participate and consider joining our community! A more comprehensive FAQ is contained in the read more below. âď¸
But also:
Is the use of mods/shades/tools okay? Yes, of course! Whatever works for you to make your creative dreams come true.
What about NSFW (gore, sexual or otherwise)? Use common sense and appropriate tags as necessary, especially for common fears and phobias. I obviously cannot control what Tumblr sees as being too much, but the general rules for SEAFLOOR apply where possible. If your conservative boss wouldn't like to see it, consider tagging and content warning were necessary.
Where do I post works? Hopefully your Tumblr blog, silly, but you can also reblog them to the SEAFLOOR Tumblr Community or join us on Discord! If someone posts their work in either of those spaces, consider reacting with a wintery-themed emoji! It just lets people know you enjoyed it. âď¸ I am going to do my best to reblog prompts when I see them, but I am going away during the Christmas period so I may not be contactable in that time.
Is there a prize? There might be this time around, though I haven't given it much thought. Seafloor members will get a fancy cosmetic title.
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what is it like to be kind of popular/getting people interested in your own ideas and not fan art?
I don't think I'm popular *looks behind my back fearfully* đ¨
Here's the thing. A lot of people post things and just expect people to find them and interact with them. To some people it works. But a lot of the time there's no way for people to even find your stuff or engage with it.
A lot of people go into fandom tags to look for art and writing, but not a lot of people just scroll the "oc" or "art" or "writing" tags aimlessly.
I'm not like. A social media expert đź or whatever. I don't know anything about anything âĽď¸ I literally just do whatever weurd things i want and that's it
Here's some things I can advise:
If you have ocs.... Please feel free to actually talk about them in detail, share your thoughts on them in detail, write actual info and profiles on them. Don't be shy to do this bc there's no way for someone to engage with your ocs if they don't really understand who you're talking about except the names đ... Feel free to like link their info in your pinned or their toyhouse profiles or whatever... !!!! A lot of the times I follow someone and they ask to engage with their ocs, and I want to, but I literally just don't understand who they're taking about... Or I see someone talking about their ocs in very vague terms but I can't actually find who they're talking about.... (Not that you have to do this do whatever you want ... I'm not the boss of you âĽď¸ it's just something id like to see) And also don't be shy to actually remind people who you're talking about bc people who haven't been following you for a long time won't know. I think this is simpler for me because my concepts/characters are very basic/shallow and easy to understand. Taur who is a bee, taur who is a bath, etc... Is Inherently understandable and doesn't have any deep lore
đ this applies to everything in general not just ocs. Talk about art. Talk about your own art. Talk about what you love in the art of others. Talk about your plans and concepts and ideas. Talk about your projects. Share with the world đ đ đ
Don't be shy to talk about your things. I think some people are anxious about seeing people unfollowing them. I personally use xkit to hide my followers on pc and actively avoid looking at my follower count on mobile... Because idgaf âĽď¸. If someone doesn't like what I post they're Nothing to me. I post about taurs and weird things basically every day. What do I have to lose? My dignity as a Tumblr blogger? Genuinely like just share whatever thoughts or concepts or doodles or drawings you want without being like "aww nobody wants to see this". Honestly I also do this because I don't have friends to talk about concepts and stuff with so your mileage may vary. Maybe you don't want to post. Maybe you worldbuild with your friends. Then maybe you can share the results of that worldbuilding and thoughts, that's good too.
Self reblog your stuff đ even old stuff. Self reblog your stuff and then elaborate on it further with your thoughts. Dig up old concepts and do things with them. Its okay to do this. Not everyone sees your stuff when you first post it... !
Actually engage with others. Others are more likely to see you and engage with you when you do the same to them. If you never interact with anyone else's art why would others interact with yours. And unfortunately posting stuff and expecting people to just stumble upon it is not a very good strategy...
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Born Too Late - Chapter 7
pairing/au: neighbor!joel x reader // no outbreak
Warnings: MDNI!! angst, child âabandonmentâ (idk how else to explain forgetting Sarah at school im so sorry), mentions of sex, readers family being assholes, drinking, let me know if i missed something :)
Summary: Sarahâs mom forgets her at school, leading to a girl's afternoon. Joel still refusing to face you, makes for great conversation with Tommy. (1.5k+)
a/n: heyyyyy. *late* Â but as promised. this is more so a filler for next chapter which i will hopefully have within the coming days. also, love finally hanging with tommy and developing his character into more than just the drunk, in trouble younger brother. this is getting more and more traction every post or so, thank u!! its my first fic and im still v nervous but im glad youâre all enjoying it. i <3 feedback so pls feel free to always leave it. xoxoxÂ
Chapter 6 - Chapter 8 - Masterlist
âOkay everyone! Please dont forget about our test next Wednesday, and have a great Thanksgiving!â You yell as the bell rings, dismissing your students. Its the Tuesday before Thanksgiving and your school did early release today. Since its a holiday break, teachers can leave as soon as all students are gone, and next weeks plans are turned in.Â
You open your laptop to finish next weeks math lesson, and notice a new email from your dad.Â
Subject: Happy ThanksgivingÂ
To: You and 15 othersÂ
You open the email and it's an attachment, a picture of your mom, dad, and your brothers and their families, all together in Spain. You scoff and delete it. Thanks for the fucking invite. Clicking back to your tab, you finish next week's lesson, adding slides to a PowerPoint, and worksheets to the file itself. You send it to the office printer, and close your laptop; tucking it away in your file cabinet. One goal you set is that work does not go home with you, especially not on holiday breaks.Â
You grab your bag, turn off the light, and shut the door behind you. You walk into the office and see Sarah sitting there. Weird, Joel is never late you think to yourself. âHey Sarah!â you say, shooting her a wave. She looks up at you but doesn't wave back.Â
You print out your plans. All the slides, and copies of the worksheets, are stacked neatly in a manilla folder and left in your boss's box. Walking back up front, you notice Sarah is still sitting there. You walk behind the front desk and get close to the receptionist, Mrs. Johnson.
âMrs. Johnson, Sarah is one of my students and neighbor. Has no one called about being late?âÂ
âNo maâam.â she responds âShe told me her mom was coming but we can't seem to reach her on the phone.â You look at Sarah, and then back at Mrs. Johnson, and sigh. âYeah, Mom's a piece of work. I'll call her dad.âÂ
You reach around in your purse, nervously pulling out your phone. âExcuse me for just a minute.â and you step into the empty conference room down the hall. You search for Joel's name in your contacts, you haven't spoken to him since you screamed at him on your porch. You click call and put the phone up to your ear. It only rings twice.Â
âHey, can I call you back? I'm at work and weâre trying to wrap up so we don't have to be on-site all day tomorrow.â His voice is as smooth as molasses, but you know it isn't Joels.Â
âTommy? Can you tell Joel that Sarah is still at school? Her mom never showed up.â You say, worriedly.Â
âWhat?! Goddamn it. Joel, Sarah is still at school. You need to go get-â You cut him off.Â
âTommy, I can take her home. I'm still here, she's in the front office.âÂ
âWe wonât be home tilâ late. Iâll come an get her, an sheâll just have to come to the jobsite with us.â The frustration in his voice is peaking out with every word.Â
âTommy, realistically there is no reason for that. I live right beside Joel. I don't mind bringing her to my house, and she can just hang out until you get home. Iâve got some frozen pizza, snacks, and a TV. Sheâll be fine.âÂ
âAre you sure? I really hate to inconvenience you but it would be a tremendous help to Joel.â youâre quiet. Funny that it would help Joel but he cant even come to the goddamn phone.Â
âIm sure Tommy. Just have Joel call the front office and let them know she's alright to go home with me.â
âI owe ya one. Thanks pretty girl!.â and before you can correct him, he hangs up. You laugh. Hes such a flirt.Â
You compose yourself, putting your phone back in your bag and opening the door. By the time youâre back in the front, Mrs. Johnson is on the phone.Â
âUh-huh, no worries Mr. Miller. I understand. Have a Happy Thanksgiving!â and she clicks the office phone down. She looks at you, smiling and nodding. âCome on Sarah! I'm gonna take you home.â She jumps out of her chair. âReally? Yay!!â She throws her backpack on, basically running out the door in front of you.âI've been telling my dad that I wanted to have a girls day with you but he always says you're busy. I told him you told me to come over whenever I want, even without homework but he didn't believe me.â You laugh. âSarah, you can always come over. No matter what! You know that.â Your relationship with Sarah is slowly starting to develop more. You see her as the little sister you never had.Â
You start your car and plug your iPod in. âWhatâre you in the mood for Ms. Miller?â you ask, swirling the dial through your artists. âDo you have any Jesse McCartney?â She asks, her smile as bright as the sun. âDuh!!â You scroll to his name and click Shuffle. Leavinâ starts playing. âDo NOT tell my dad. He would die!â She says. You laugh, âOur little secret,â you say.Â
Once home, Sarah works on a book report for her english class. You give her some water and some chips. She finishes her snack, and puts her books back in her bag. You spend all afternoon doing whatever Sarah wants. Watching Hannah Montana, doing each other's nails, and making cookies. Before you know it, its 5:30. Sarah stirs on the couch, asking what's for dinner. âIâve got pizza! Cheese or pepperoni?â you ask her âmmmmâŚ. Pepperoni!â You preheat the oven, and listen for the beep.Â
Itâs 8:30 and Sarah is asleep beside you on the couch. She was knocked out after 2 slices. Your phone beeps and you check it.Â
Joel: Weâll probably be here another hour or so. Howâs my girl?Â
You missed seeing his name pop up on your phone. The butterflies you feel never go unnoticed.
You: Shes fine. She had dinner about 2 hours ago and fell asleep right after. Sheâs half in my lap so I canât move, but I donât mind.
Joel: Thanks again. Tommy will be over to get her when we finish up.Â
You scoff. Not even man enough to face you.Â
You: Okay.Â
You start to doze around 9. In and out of consciousness, waking every little bit to check on Sarah. You hear a knock at the door that jolts you awake. Checking the clock, its 10:00. You carefully move Sarahâs head from your let to a pillow. You quietly open the door, hoping for Joel. Unfortunately, God isnt on your side tonight, because its Tommy. You invite him in, turning the entryway light on.Â
âThanks again, Joel and I really appreciate it.âÂ
You look at him, rolling your eyes. âYou, I believe. Joel? Not so much.âÂ
âDamn diva, whats with the attitude?â Tommy says, smiling.Â
You weigh the pros and cons of dumping your emotions onto Tommy. And honestly, youâre at the point that you don't care. âYou got a minute?â you say, walking to the fridge and grabbing 2 beers. âI always got time for you girl.â he says, swiftly. You roll your eyes again. You check to see if Sarah has moved and she's still in the same spot youâve left her.Â
You start at Joel but somehow end with your crazy family. Before you know it, its borderline midnight. You and Tommy haven't stopped talking- or drinking. He realizes the time. âShit, I better get home. Joels gonna lose his fuckinâ mind.â You gather Sarah's belongings and hand them to him. He lifts her off the couch and cradles her like a baby. âAnd I meant what I said about Thanksgivinâ. Come join us. Joelâs smokinâ a turkey, and Ill be there, so will Sarah.â he says with a warm smile. âWhat about Joel's girlfriend?â you ask, trying not to hold him up but desperate for the answer. âThat shit was over the minute it started.â He says laughing. You stare him down, not knowing if he is serious or not. âDon't look at me like that, Im serious. Come over, bring some beers and a side. Itâll be great.â He walks out the door, Sarah in his arms and her backpack on his back.Â
You fall asleep, weighing the options of Thanksgiving at the Millers. You wonder if Joel even knows he invited you. You want to call him, you want to hear his voice. The way his pet names for you roll off his tongue with his southern drawl. The way he looks into your eyes when youâre moaning his name over and over. The way he holds you when you cum. You turn your light off and drift into a slumber so deep, you donât even realize it came. Thoughts of Joel bleeding into your dreams, making you smile in your sleep.
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