#there was some other… not so safe sketches in this file lmao

[fiishes]

Siblings, eh?

[ikkosu]

Finding Prowls prementioned sketchbook (sketch datapad?) where he draws his human all tied up and sitting on his spike or drawings of his human getting tossed between the constructicons while handcuffed and gagged or drawings of him with his human tied around his spike with transfluid dripping on their face

You were only supposed to grab some files from his room and here you are finding out just how much of a dirty pervert Prowl is for you

I think prowl would really like inking. The sharp lineart and occasional loose sketchy drawings for fluidity and form. The answer you've been waiting for as finally accumulated into a horny sketchbook your partner and the SIC had supposedly drawn. Small wonder, you've been wondering why prowl's so attentive to you, especially with how he's veiwing your body at certain angles. (real time reference, lmao)

Maybe he'd concoct simulations with his battle computer. Interesting, totally innocuous simulations. Just to see how stretchy you are.

Fortunately, you didn't have much time to formulate a decision on how to respond to this as Prowl walks back into the office and, yeah, you can imagine where that went.

consider another scenario : prowl would definitely stash that sketchbook in the same places he’d keep his classified documents. probably in those safe with a heavily encrypted padlock, so I’m guessing it’s either the constructions or Jazz would be able to snoop in. the constructions being the usual pest to prowl’s aft, thumbing through his stuff to piss him off and Jazz — he’s a nosy thing.

Ever since he found out what prowl did in his past time, he’d been curious about the contents in the sketchbook. Everytime he’d ask about it, prowl would simply tuck it away into his subspace or not so discreetly jenga-slide in amongst a pile of other datapads.

Jazz wouldn’t be surprise when he found out. He’ll definitely be a little stunned at how lewd the drawings are, though. He knew prowl was a little skilled in hiding his fantasies but he wasn’t expecting prowl to be that freaky. He’d simply tuck the sketchbooks where Prowl's human would definitely find it.

as for the constructions, I imagined they would be very vocal about it. Andz extremely flattered? That prowl thought about them, while jacking it off to his human he had to visualize their interference? They'd definitely chain him and make him watch as they frag his human and i imagine he would, despite his expression would say so, like it very much.

[lunchtimebedamned1997]

Hazbin Hotel Mini-comic :3

ft. Jasper (my Hazbin OC) | Non-sepia version, Original sketches, and the speedpaint under the cut :3

This comic takes place when Jazz still works at Val's club and before Val and Angel's relationship 'got bad' AKA this one is in the weird space right before shit hits the fan and Angel is made aware of what kind of man Val really is. That Angel isn't even an 'exception' :(

(Which is why Angel can still talk to Val like Vox could. They're still 'normally dating' besides the contract and the boss/employee thing - "but hey! it's hell!" (<-Angie's inner thoughts lmao I genuinely wanna CRY over that little spider boy))

Tumblr made me resize this twice before it was a small enough png file to post oops XD

ANYWAYS I love my OC. I originally made them just bc I had a lot of cool ideas and I'd seen some other really fab Hazbin OCs, and oops now I'm obsessed with them and they have an entire milanote folder with their backstory in it lmao

Jasper (they/she for this OC btw :3) doesn't really let ppl in hell see what they're feeling bc it doesn't feel safe, and over the years has always gotten around using/drinking despite working for Val (exceptions for Val's pheromones which you really just can't avoid) and this is the part of their story when they finally get publicly drunk and just fucking cry bro. For hours. SOBBING.

Pookie is DEPRESSED y'all they do not wanna be in hell anymore XD

On that chipper fuckin' note (XD) here's the de-saturated version of the final comic, the original sketches, and the speedpaint :D

I think I've had these sketches since May? Early June? A fucking while and I even tried making this comic a while back but it looked CURSED and idk why so that's staying in the cobwebbed corners of my CSP files lmao

Okie! That's all for rn, I've got a shit ton of art WIPs atm as well as fanfics and personal writing stuff I've been chipping away at so it's been taking a bit to actually finish anything haha

Hope you're all well! <3

[signaturedish]

No, no, please never stop! I loved reading that and it's all true, lmao. I always seem to find the 'con that needs some quiet company or something I can do to help. I'm also 100% Going To Climb On Tallest Thing. Especially if it is a bot. Ratchet is the only Autobot I like. I taunt Ironhide, his frustration is too fun. Optimus is Tall Thing, not Autobot. The other 'cons finally realize I'm not their secret when I scramble out of Starscream who just went on a flight and... 1/2 - Optical Admirer

... climb onto Megatron in the middle of a meeting after avoiding Starscream's attempt to corral me to his berth. All of them try to stop me and freeze when they realize it is Too Late. I'm on Megatron's head. Then Megatron notes that QuickPatch is his squishy. Starscream mutters that HideFlight is my name, not QuickPatch. An argument ensues between a lot of them over which name is mine. 2/2 - Optical Admirer

Ahhh , that’s too cute!

Omg these are all such potential disasters.

Optimus has never been so close to so many frothing Decepticons aiming every single weapon of their arsenal at him without being actively captured or damaged in some way.

He’s just kind of quietly marveling at the moment while his troops are shaking apart with stress in a corner. Maybe also whispering pro-Autobot propaganda to you even tho you haven’t processed a single word he’s said as meaningful speech.

Eventually someone will start a betting pool on whether you understand he’s sentient, but no one’s sure who it was.

The Decepticons are just daring him to move while you’re eyeballing the top of his head speculatively. Megatron has been personally screaming threats and demands across a comm link while completely ignoring all of Optimus’ tired and reasonable reassurances like ‘Megatron, why on earth do you think I’d crush a human? You were there when I cried over that ant hill, right?’.

When the worst kept Decepticon ‘secret’ came out, Starscream had tried trapping you against his berth with an energon cup and a holopad like a goddamn spider. And you saw the set up he intended to leave you in- blankets? Stuffed animals?? No high places at all??? Measures had to be taken.

So you switch bots. Right in the middle of the meeting to make that statement pop. Look guys, you say without speaking, look at how much I don’t want to hang out with Starscream. Better think about that before trying to trap me on a hatefully low surface.

“Hideflight, no!”

Megatron watches with wide optics as you scamper up his arm like a mountain goat. He doesn’t know why you’ve so foolishly revealed yourself to his incompetent minions, but he’s already automatically placing you on the relatively level top of his helm. You do love napping there while he sketches out battle plans.

Just to be safe, he switches off the PowerPoint projection he had blown across every screen in the base and instead selects a digital file with a close up image of your face from his memory banks.

Your fleshy pink face is smudged with grease and you’re mid sentence and smiling cheerfully, jabbering about how pretty his red eyes are while carefully searing frayed wires off for him. It is a most pleasing image, one he believes highlights his pet’s finer qualities.

“This is QuickPatch,” he growls out, danger putting an engine edge in his announcement, “She is mine and unless you’d like your miserable lives to end right now in the middle of a monthly maintenance review you will not-“

“He means to say Hideflight is her designation,” Starscream mutters across the basewide speakers.

Soundwave finally has a proper target for his frustration, he rounds on Starscream, “Incorrect. Gadget has already been successfully programmed to respond to her true designation.” He’d spent so many small sugary human treats in pursuit of that endeavor.

“Her designation was Thunderdash first!” Thundercracker snapped.

The ensuing argument lasted three days, you couldn’t care less but played along anyways because the bribing was truly outrageous.

You secret nest exactly way too high up in the base now has fairy lights, twenty pounds of scrap metal, and three Cybertronian engineering textbooks.

[aphelyons]

My Creative Year in Review 2018

stolen from but also requested by inspired by @drstrangewillseeyounow​

Preface: This will be a bit of a mashup of two things; art and writing. But I’ll be clear. This is also a long post, I’m very sorry. Apparently I don’t shut up.

Total number of creations? (Or a rough guess!)

Art - Finished; 221 (not all published) Art - WIPS; 25 Writing - Published; 4 Writing - WIPS; 9 ?

Was there a project that you didn’t get around to?

In terms of starting or finishing? Lol. I didn’t get around to publishing the first chapter of the MU fic, which I desperately still want to before S2 starts. Because I keep writing all the middle bits instead. Nor did I get around to start writing the “winter fic” beyond plot points and a few little scenes.

There’s a looooooooooooooot of art I didn’t get around to either starting properly or finishing. Lol. I have a L’Rell piece I really want to do, as  well as [another] mirror Stamets piece I want to do.

What was the creation you had the most fun making?

Art: Oh that’s hard. A lot of things for a lot of different reasons. I enjoyed the Holiday artworks because they were….really out of my depth and fun. Mostly I loved sending them out on cards to friends.

More recently I had a lot of fun doing the Patroclus and Achilles piece. Loved using golden hues.

Also have a lot of fun with Not Safe for Work-Viewing pieces, but those will never be published here. :D Sorry.

Writing: I had a surprising amount of fun writing the Vampire AU fic [Just a Taste] for Halloween. Which I never expected to write anything vampiric, ever, and also it came together really quickly. Building the world in that short fic was a lot of fun.

Any surprises? (E.g. a character or ship you never thought you’d create for or a project that came out of nowhere?)

Well honestly this whole revival to art and writing came as a surprise, I hadn’t done either in many years. I was also never a Star Trek fan prior to Disco, nor have I ever been a part of a fandom before. This is my first! So that was surprising, also surprising was how massively obsessed I became and how important it became to me. But the best surprise out of all of that is the connections to people I’ve made and the friendships that have come from that. ily. <3 Also not going to lie, pretty surprised that suddenly my art has become mega-fuckin-colourful. Where did this love of neon come from??? Wtf

What was the hardest creation to make?

Writing; MU fic - hands down. I have pages and pages and pages of resources. Not only is it going to be a long story (I endeavour and hope) but also from the amount of which I am pulling from and want to align to canon as as best I can as well. Being a new fan to Trek also... it’s been pretty overwhelming to get these details right. But at the same time, really trying to flesh out a character we never met or saw in the show, and have them interact with the established canon and have that all make sense… That and have the science in it make as much sense as possible, I’ve based a few new things on scientific principles and things that exist and just trying to elevate them to a cosmic scale… and hope I can pull that off too. It’s pretty intimidating. Not going into it, but the way the story weaves and intersects with a few different genres.. I just want to have it make sense in it’s self contained body of work.

Yeah it’s hard. Lol. Biggest thing I’ve ever tried to do. But, I love it, truly. I think about this whole project an inhumane amount of times every day, and I love that. 

It’s also hard because I’d love to be a linear writer, but I am not. At all. I’m constantly writing ahead, well and truly ahead, but then coming back, adding to and editing earlier bits and rewriting and rewriting….rewriting… ugh

The subjects and themes are also a little heavy, and it’s cathartic to write about, sure, but also wanting to do those moments justice and with respect and integrity - because that’s important to me too.

The whole thing is just a lot of fuckin work, lol. But I really love it. Already - and it’s nowhere near done.

Art; Probably the one where Paul is laying down [crying] in the spore chamber. It was my first return to trying to paint semi-realism, and... it didn’t work out. I’m not happy with it anymore, but also proud that I pulled it off. That pose? Hair? HAND? UGH those took me too long to get right. But, overall it certainly taught me a lot to use on future more realism-ish pieces such as the Cosmic/Celestial pics of Hugh and Paul [which I love.]

What inspired you the most this year?

Oh, easy. Discovery. Hugh and Paul, hands down both of those things. But also to the endlessly talented people who I’ve come to know and also enjoy the works of - be it written, art, or otherwise. Creativity inspires creativity. 

What are you most proud of? (A creation, something you learned, etc)

Art: The Cosmic/Celestial pieces. Very proud of those. (So much so I made metal prints of them and they sit on my bookshelf between a salt lamp.) I really love how they came out, and really the original (Cosmic Paul) was kind of an accident, a happy accident if you will.  

Also the piece of Anthony I did for Anthony’s birthday. That was a lot of fun constructing something visually representative of a person.

Any goals/plans/ideas for next year?

Fucking get some headway on my MU fic so I can stop being so annoying by just talking about it, and fucking start publishing it already -  for then it then it would EXIST in the word. LOL. Ugh. That’s the only big plan, that’s all I want to do. Whatever art I will do - I will just find inspiration in the moment to do. No plans, other than the L’Rell piece and a couple other WIPs - maybe.  

Honestly just that and trying to keep improving, both in writing and in drawing. I feel like I’ve improved over this past year, so would love to just continue on that trajectory.

Pick your favourite creations! (Post links and tell us why you love them!)

The Cosmic and Celestial Series I just love how these turned out, especially because it was such a surprise how it turned out originally. But being able portray this cosmic divinity of which I uphold them both to be in my mind was really awesome to pull off. The colours, and dramatic light, this whole thing was so fucking fun. The whole painting with colours as highlights / shadows / dual light source was a huge experiment for me and it taught me a huge amount, so I really love it for many reasons.

The Song of Achilles  I started sketching this while I was listening to the audio book and while I fell in love with these two. Please, again, do go read this book. But the detailing on the spear, the auras and Achilles hair were my favourite bits. Oh and the gold blood. Of course, lol. Loved doing the symbolic imagery 

Anthony Rapp’s Birthday Portrait  Because this man means a whole lot to me, and it was nice really nice for a change of pace to try and depict him and things that are important to him. Also really proud of that shoe, ngl. & And MU Stamets and his Mycelium Sun

Huge experiment in terms of colour and lighting for me, and I love love love how it turned out. Even if it’s a little rough. This one was so much fun, and I also printed this out on metal actually lol. Looks pretty cool.  & First MU Culmets Work Still in my heart, even though it’s a earlier work, because it was the first exploitation of this duo for me, and how they might be together. Also where I came up with the HC for his facial scar, which I always will include in any MU Hugh depiction of mine. But I still really like how their characterisation translates in this one.

Writing

Nomenclature.  

The archaeology AU story I wrote for 30MinuteLoop. Also well, this is the only one that’s safe for viewing that’s published, lol, but I am genuinely really proud of this and seeing it through to completion. 

But also the MU story is a fave, but this is the only published section so far:

MU Snippet (These next couple of questions are directly from @drstrangewillseeyounow​ sorry I’ll be so literal in their structure, lmao)

How you decide on which style to use for individual pieces?

Unless it’s something very specific in mind (like the holiday pieces) I just kind of let it take a life of its own. See what it evolves into. I might have one idea to where I want it to go before I export it to PS, but once in PS it might take a whole new life (prime example if the original Cosmic/Celestial Paul. The original was very flat, and pretty boring lol but really became something else in PS. Actually it was supposed to be originally a visual piece to accompany my Vampire fic - and Vampire Hugh picture. But that changed entirely once I got it into PS.)

(It’s hard to see but there’s a bite mark on the original side.)

I'd also know more about your literal process, as in: what's your hardware set-up, what software do you use?

I have a weird all over the place set up. Lol.

So I do the majority of the work on my iPad, up until a stage where I don’t think I can go any further with it (or need more than 6 layers at my disposal) and then export it to my PC (either work or home) and then work on it further in Photoshop. Of which it then gains infinite amount of layers, lmao. Oh god.

As for the file on the iPad, when I’m working on that I can only have 6 layers. So usually will do sketch/line-work on one (or two, if I have to work a problematic bit but then merge it with the rest) and same with the colour/painting. That’s always on one layer, which I’ve grown to really like working like that. I might do skin on one, then clothes on another, but eventually will merge them.  If it’s a full paint (or even half paint maybe), the colour and line layer will eventually be merged as I erase the lines I no longer need as I go and blend that layer more seamlessly into the painted layer. It just ending up a purely painted file without the original lines. Another layer may be added for more delicate details such as eyelashes and eyebrows, things like that.

Everything I do once exported to Photoshop is just with a mouse, I have a Wacom tablet… But I don’t use it, because I haven’t been bothered calibrating it with my dual monitor setup, and am happy doing most of the work on the iPad anyway as it kinda acts like a Cintiq in that regard. But localised. (Plus I can take it anywhere with me, interstate, overseas, to work, to the park, etc. I love that mobility.) Depending if I need a certain element that’s vector based, I’ll make it in Corel Draw or Illustrator, too. I also have Corel painter....buuuuuuuuut still haven’t used it. That’s a goal for 2019 for sure, lmao. Very occasionally I will physically sketch out the idea (like the holiday pieces) scan, and rework, redraw, line it, or whatever in the iPad then go forth with all of the above processes. 

How long does it usually take you from start to finish?

Art: How long a piece takes really varies lol. Sketches can be between 1 - 4 hours on average, sometimes more. Flat colours will be a couple hours more. Half paints usually 4-8 more hours. Full paints and more realism stuff like the Cosmic/Celestial is total of 18hours+ but those times are just a rough idea, sometimes something just works out a lot quicker. Sometimes longer. 

Writing: FOR FUYCKING EVER. I’m the slowest writer ever.

Do you have art WIPs and what do you think keeps you from finishing them?

I have a lot of art WIPs lol I think just losing drive or inspiration to finish them is what mainly kills them, or me getting frustrated that it isn’t working out like I wanted. Sometimes I just forget they exist.

Probably same goes for writing, too. Lol. Also it could be that I’ll dream up the entire (or mostly) of the story, but then getting it onto the page is hard. I want to work at getting better at that.

Do you do any non-fanart, too?

Sure. Although not often anymore, I’m honestly just inhumanly obsessed with Hugh and Paul.. Even when I start a project that isn’t centric to either or both of them… Often it will kind of morph into them. oops. 

I want to say yes to fic too...but That’s a project I haven’t worked on in fucking years and years, so I doubt that really counts anymore.

//end

Wow I am so sorry that was me just rambling on. Anyway, cool. Hi to anyone who made it this far.   I’ll also parrot the line of: Everyone who created/posted art, fic, gif-sets, vids, cosplay, etc., consider yourself tagged if you’d like to be. I’m curious! (I’m fucking serious, P L E A S E   D O.) 

[riisinaakka-draws]

No one asked, but I made a little recap of the “Safe again” gif & drawing, if you are interested. I hope it adds some light to the process without destroying the magic, lol.

Before going futher, I must admit that I cannot remember all the details and there were a lot of trials and errors. I made the first sketch at the end of April, continued it a bit in May and left it alone for weeks until finally finishing it in June. Also, the psd file with all the layers is such a mess that it would not help you, so no screen caps about that.

So, this is not a tutorial but more like a recap or the backstory of the thought process and the finished drawing.

Preparations: - watch the best show in the world (Black Sails) - reach episodes 4.01 & 4.02 and weep at the beauty - let the season finale destroy you (and lift you up)

Ingredients:

- an idea, textures, references, time, drawing software, pen tablet

Steps:

Initial idea. Silver surrounded by the light and warmth of his two important people, him radiating golden light and illuminating the others’ features (the other two are relieved after getting him back safe and sound)

- or all three of them as gods, stories, legends, constellations etc.?

- or just Silver's sad dream years later when he is gazing at the stars, figures on the night sky etc...?

- sketch a doodle in a hurry, think about the stars and how to add them quickly to try the initial idea

-> remember the picture serie of noodle soup you took a while ago. Remember how cool "the whirling galaxy" aka “oily broth before adding noodles” looked like in the kettle (I have used or considered using other food textures before, e.g. blueberry-pie, the remains of burned macaroni casserole, foam, tea). Keep your eyes open and collect your own cool textures :D Or use free textures etc.

- edit in photoshop to bring out dots, shapes, whatever (or just skip this part and paint the splatter on the get-go with brushes...lmao). I just like to find surprises with textures, like the randomness or what sort of new things and ideas they may add or provoke. You can do this with any abstract splatter or shape and so on...

- This was the noodle broth and there’s the used area. (The circles and green clumps didn’t look as good as I first thought, so I used the area without them).

Some other examples, not used in this one:

- let it marinate and haunt you for weeks, do other stuff, learn new things, read fanfiction, rewatch earlier episodes, hone your skills, cry

- start working with the idea, look at references (important!), figure out how six hands work?? what's visible, what's in the shadows etc... what doesn’t need to be shown and still have the composition work...

- continue the doodle, add layers, shapes, slowly build the composition, let it alone for a day, a week, a month...

- Look at it with fresh eyes and remember to mirror image once in a while to see any mistakes. Grunt with frustration, re-do things, look more references

I couldn’t quite decide where to put James’ hand, so I kept testing. Madi’s hand was always supposed to be over John’s heart (yeah I know the heart is more in the center, but you get the gist ;) I also wanted James and Madi to have some sort of connection -> in the final piece their pinkies are touching :) 

- add another texture layer (I had colour dodge on), move it around to find the best place and see the sparks flying accidentally (this was actually done quite early on but anyway)

-> go WOAH! (ʘ‿ʘ)

- continue drawing, occasionally play with the texture layers, try giffing, listen to Finnish (symphonic / power) metal music, have an epiphany, cry about feelings

- Stop at some point. Let it brew more, do not look at it. Next time you look at it, is it ok? No? Yes? Ok, good. Spent a while concising all the thoughts to a few obligatory sentences to have an explanation, fill the tags with ramblings, post it, go for a run walk, preferably to see the sea. Look at the sunset, listen to seagulls and sigh. Return to read other people crying about their feelings that the drawing evoke. Grin and eat more cheap noodles.

Some random notes:

Flint’s blinking moon was a last minute addition (the tattoo was there, but I thought it would be cool to emphasize it more and it fit the overall theme)

To mirror that, Madi’s shining earring represents the sun (or a bright star)

All three of them have their rings, although it may not be clear

that splotch that flies past them has no special meaning, I just liked it. Not sure if it’s a piece of leek or something in the soup. At some point I considered making it look like a crown or a shooting star or a lantern or something.

Working music ended up being Nightwish’s “Nemo”:

Oh how I wish For soothing rain All I wish is to dream again My loving heart Lost in the dark For hope I'd give my everything 

My flower, withered between The pages 2 and 3 The once and forever bloom gone with my sins     (ಥ‿ಥ) Walk the dark path ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) Sleep with angels   (˵ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°˵) Call the past for help   (*whispers* get Thomas to end Flint’s war...) Touch me with your love And reveal to me my true name

(and so on..)

“Nemo” is Latin for “nobody, no one”. Silver is “a nobody from nowhere”.

favouritealias also pointed out the BS quote:“There is freedom in the darkness, once someone has illuminated it." and I can’t believe I didn’t realize that 8D

Lastly. Silver can’t quite believe the luck he has (to have these two in his arms again and in overall), Flint’s finally able to sleep peacefully now that he is back and Madi and John cannot stop smiling at each other. Madi inspects John’s little scratches and wounds and he’s happy to have had a bath before they laid down for the night. Flint keeps sniffing his hair. He also made secret unspoken promises with Madi to keep Silver (and each other) safe in the future (pinky promise).

tl;dr: read later then, lol ;) (if interested in the first place)

I’m not very good at putting my thoughts into words, but there you have it. Thank you for reading! ( ˘ ³˘)♥

[farhcn-blog]

(honestly look at him i hate him already)

aye lookie here, it is still i, holly the trashcannot. lmao. same old account tbh but i’ve dropped freddie and have decided to pick up a new muse who i am so excited for??? and i really hope you’ll love him?? anyway just a warning, he’s a real mess and i’m apologizing before hand for the trash he is. under the cut are just some few information about him. i apologize for the length but it’s been cut into different sections so feel free to sort of browse through and be picky on what you want to read and what you don’t??

but anyway i would really love to plot with all of you?? so if you’d like to plot, feel free to either hmu or like this and i’ll come to you tbh!! i’ll most likely go around asking for plots lmao. but anyway lets goOOO.

ps: please bear with me in terms of choices when it comes to gifs and whatever. rahul kohli doesn’t have many gif icons, so what i’ll be using varies from gif icons, medium sized gifs, weirdly sized gifs and static icons ))):

i’m not the only one who just saw rahul kohli walk by, right ? oh, wait, that was farhan chauhan. i don’t know much about them besides that they’re thirty years old and moved into golden horizons two years ago. everyone calls them the cataclysmic because they’re calamitous and impetuous, but also witty and forthright. i’ve also heard he is currently a comic book artist/frequent underground street fighter and identifies as cis male.

FAMILY BACKGROUND

initially from santa fe (new mexico) but moved to san francisco when he was 11.

both his parents came to the united states from goa, india.

farhan is the oldest in the family of four – farrah is his younger sister.

grew up pretty much attached to his father by the hip. he idolizes his father like mad, and they held a very close bond. they would spend a lot of time together and he would always play sports with him and all that boys stuff.

his relationship with his mother was a lot better than it is now tbh. he loves his mother dearly (still do even if he doesn’t say it out loud) but things got in the way during his parents’ divorce.

the divorce was messy to say the least. they didn’t really sat down as a family and discussed what was going to happen.

instead, his mother, without any notice, together with farrah and farhan, moved to san francisco. she gave them no reason other than “it’s not safe here”

farhan was just 11 so he barely knew what was going on. all he knows was that his father’s “a bad and dangerous man” and that his mother “was protecting him.”

that alone wasn’t enough of an excuse for farhan. with the months going by not understanding why his father had left him or why his mother had left his father, he started to throw tantrums here and there; resenting his mother for years and would cause trouble for her.

basically, he made his mother’s life a living hell lmao.

but it wasn’t until he grew a bit older to understand that his father had a gambling problem, and not only did he spend all of their college’s funds, but he had reached out to shark loans; hence why his mother was so desperate in running away.

he does still love his mother to bits tbh. like he probably regretted how childish he was and would beg for forgiveness but his relationship with his mother has become so broken and strained that he can’t find himself to face her tbh.

with that said, he lost all respect for his father and is overall heartbroken about the real person his father had hid from him. he no longer idolizes his father nor does he hate him but he swore to never be like his father. he is however angry. lmao farhan has quite a lot of anger inside of him tbh.

in regards of his sister; after the fall out from both parents, farrah is possibly the only person in this entire world he care about. like he would put her first rather than him tbh.

even though he’s the older brother who was supposed to take charge and look after his family, he pretty much abandoned his responsibilities as such the second his mother decided that it was best to leave their father. he was a child then, so i mean….. what do you expect

but anyway, farrah took up the role of the older sibling, leaving farhan being the irresponsible and immature younger brother lmao.

she took care of him majority of the time seeing as he fails to look after himself and would put himself in danger lmao.

HIS READING DISABILITY AND HIS TALENTS

okay so lets see, farhan struggles through a reading disorder (dyslexia)

it was his sister, farrah, who noticed his disability considering how close they were.

he often cried a lot as a kid to farrah for how “dumb” he is so farrah pretty much figured it out. she was constantly teaching him and all that jazz.

his parents knew of it and tries to somehow have him adjust.

but anyway, he did very badly as a child in terms of his academics?? the fact that he had adhd didn’t help either lmao – he’s not medicated cause his parents thought it was just kids being kids. but despite not being medicated, he grew to adjust himself.

as a result, he did not do very well at school which of course affected his confidence level and earn him names here and there.

he was often called “stupid” and “dumb.” unlike farrah he wasn’t someone who would swallow all that down, which resulted him into fights and becoming quite a problematic child with explosive anger issues.

this continued all the way through high-school; and he battles through his dyslexia on his own through his own ways.

despite how horrible he is at academics, he’s artistic and finds talents in art.

he would scribble and sketche all over his desk and it gets him into trouble

lmao not just desks, he would scribble all over his test papers, text books, tissues.

he gradually found love for art and subconciously drove his attention towards that direction

he would draw mini comic strips and cartoons of people besides sketching.

he’s good in all kinds of arts; like he can paint, he can sketch but he’s extra great at graffiti and cartoons.

with that said, he does graffiti; obviously illegally

and he likes to doodle but not the cute picture kind, more of like this led needs to be thicker and darker. his sketches are…. something…

WORK (COMIC BOOK ARTIST + UNDERGROUND STREET FIGHTER)

moved to new york on his own with his step-father’s sponsorship when he was around 20 years old (farhan never really liked his step-father so like that was his attempt to buy farhan off tbh lmao)

studied graphic design + art history there

graduated and worked in new york as a graphic designer and freelance illustrator for a bit??

as much as he loved art, he didn’t like what he was doing in terms of designing book covers and shit like that lmao

so he quit his job (it’s not like the company he worked for liked him anyway he was mega problematic) and leeched off his step-father’s money

he eventually got really lazy and when his step-father found out he decided to stop the money-tap lmao

farhan was pretty much unemployed for about a year or so

but it’s okay because he got himself involved with underground fighting???

growing up he has quite a lot of anger in him?? he would usually fight people back in san fran during high school, so when he went to new york and did boxing to release his stress, he eventually found the pleasure in street fighting??

during his time in new york, even before he quit his job/or fired lmao, he got involved in the street fighting scene??

he eventually found the thrill he’s been looking for and the release?? and decided to participate more than he first intended to

he was first dragged by his friend who has a gambling problem (yikes) and they made a bet on fighters and shit like that but it got him thinking like?? why don’t he put his strength to full use and earn money from that??

so he trained himself and eventually got into the ring

after winning many fights he eventually earned himself a name among the underground scene. earning himself a good handful of friends/connections as well as enemies tbh lmao

but anyway because he would appear at work with bruises and shit he was eventually fired but he claimed to have quit lmao

it’s okay tho. after a year or so being broke and relying on fighting he was scouted and worked for marvel entertainment as well as freelanced here and there

he struggled a lot in new york tbh. he didn’t have a good cv so he wasn’t paid much but anyway….. he earn money from street fighting and drawing

rn in san fran he’s working as a graphic designer and illustrator again but is low key working on his own comic book and selling his stuff online and shit like that lmao idk he’s aimless in life

but majority of his money comes from street fighting. he searched high and low for the scene and managed to get in so wow how fun.

PERSONALITY AND FUN FACTS…. I GUESS.

okay so like something to highlight??? farhan is lowkey a criminal. he doesn’t do things according to the law and have been arrested here and there for a lot of stupid shit he does tbh lmao

he’s very impulsive and he doesn’t think twice before he does something. he’s always just on the go go go

he gets into a lot of fights easily cause he’s so tempermental

literally the most laziest person you can ever meet lmao if it wasn’t for needing money to survive he would just spend his day on the couch sleeping tbh

moody asf???

but also straight forward asf

he’s so fucking intrusive he doesn’t even know what privacy is

what you see what you get kind of person

but he hides parts of himself here and there

always seen with a grin on his face tbh

a hard core aries???

a big jonas brother’s fan – so BIG he literally stalked them, and like…… got 2/3 restraining orders filed against him.

literally cried outside the church when kevin got married :///////

also a big fan of other boy bands like BLUE, and NSYNC he literally know all the dance moves im serious………….

still hung over baby spice )))): he loves the spice girls so much

he’s an adrenaline junkie who does not care about his life tbh lmfao

stab him he lit do not care

very ill tempered and can get so annoyed to the littlest things

he graffitis… i think i said that before

he signs it anonymously but with initials of the doritos flavour he’s feeling that night

so some days it’ll be cool ranch (c.r) and some days it’ll be spicy sweet chili (s.s.c) i know, very ~charles bukowski~

skates!!! he skates a lot.

even though he’s old like wtf?? wyd?????

ALSO DOES PARKOUR

has a lot of tattoos on him

smoke a lot

drink a lot

does a lot of drugs and likes to experiment. he doesnt even mind being a lab rat so like drug dealer hit him up pls

fucks around because this boy has needs

a pyromaniac. he loves playing with fire and is often carrying around a customized zippo

such an art hoe tbh??? he likes to wander around museums but i mean, this man doesn’t look like the type so he often gets dirty looks lmaol

allergic to flowers

not a big fan of kids lmao BA HAMBUG!!

very insecure tbh even though he sort of hide behind the easy going personality

especially when it comes to reading??? he enters bookstores and tries to find a book but comes out empty handed

secretly loves reading tho. he acts like he doesnt??? but he would try to read on his own??

he reads out loud tbh cause he needs to hear himself when he reads so he’s always on his own when he does and its usually late at night

scared of horror films. lmao i hate him

pick pockets from time to time just for the fun of it and knowing he can get away with it

also great at being a thief lmao

horrible driver lmao he owns a motorbike tho

very attached to his beard. he name them a new name every time he shaves them off like rip gloria, rip maria, rip karla.

hc that he also does this thing on insta call subway doodle

POSSIBLE CONNECTIONS

be his drug dealer please like make him your lab rat

exes?? im not sure??? he’s not much of a relationship person but lets do it??

someone he trains with in terms of fighting or boxing or just working out in general??

ride or die aye aye aye

roommates - good luck lmao he’s the messiest person on planet earth

neighbors who don’t get along, or do??

step-siblings??

friends with benefits??

enemies with sexual tensions or with benefits

someone who goes to a book store a lot and sees him around alot idk??

this is messy asf but i s2g i’m creative

JUST COME PLOT WIHT ME THANSK